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| Nick/Name: | COPE Study |
| E-mail address: | smodlin@mmgct.com |
| Homepage URL: | http://www.copestudy.com/community |
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| Nick/Name: | ivette |
| E-mail address: | marina_cepeda@hotmail.com |
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| Comments: | i was abused when i was four now they had forced me to have sex alot of times i never say no because i feel guilty i always want to cover my face i really thank you because of what you wrote it is actually describing everything i felt and everything i once felt i still feel that. thats why im here wrtting to you because i need help i dont want to keep on having these flashbacks i wish i could have someone to tell my story. bye and thanks there is my e mail i hope somebody could listen im now 14 years old i hope you take me for reals thanks once more have a great day |
| Nick/Name: | Paul M. McLaughlin |
| E-mail address: | scan@efn.org |
| Homepage URL: | http://www.efn.org/~scan |
| Comments: | Stop Child Abuse NOW! since 1975 to 2000 from Donora (Pittsburgh)Pennsylvania to Portland, and Eugene, Oregon by a Survivor and handicapped from 20 years of severe childhood abuse. Please see this web page that's been on computer for over 15 years and One Man Campaighn on Child Abuse for over 20 years in communities across the U.S. You will never see this in your community: http://www.efn.org/~scan
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| Nick/Name: | Paul M. McLaughlin |
| E-mail address: | scan@efn.org |
| Homepage URL: | http://www.efn.org/~scan |
| Comments: | Stop Child Abuse NOW! since 1975 to 2000 from Donora, Pennsylvania to Portland, Oregon by a Survivor and Handicapped
from severe childhood abuse. This story and works can all be seen at: http://www.efn.org/~scan scan@efn.org Paul M. McLaughlin Liz SEVEN McLaughlin 298 Hunington Ave. Eugene, Oregon 97405-4055 |
| Nick/Name: | jessie |
| E-mail address: | jessicabowman30@yahoo.com |
| Homepage URL: | http:// |
| Comments: | thx so.. much |
| Nick/Name: | Carson |
| E-mail address: | carson@rogers.com |
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| Nick/Name: | Mary |
| E-mail address: | nippetycat20@hotmail.com |
| Homepage URL: | http://nippercat's.blogspot.com |
| Comments: | thanks for sharing your story, we are survivors, I am still dealing with my abuse, and am having a hard time still. It is so hard to come to terms with it. will be back..thanks again take care Mary |
| Nick/Name: | nippercat |
| E-mail address: | nippetycat20@hotmail.com |
| Homepage URL: | http://nippercats.blogspot.com |
| Comments: | Just wanted to say hi, and let you know you are doing a great job with this blog...thanks....nippercat |
| Nick/Name: | becky |
| E-mail address: | beckyt@tusco.net |
| Homepage URL: | http:// |
| Nick/Name: | Betty |
| E-mail address: | elizabeth_mccarty2002@yahoo.com |
| Homepage URL: | http://yahoo.com |
| Comments: | I was abuse by various men growing up, and married when i was 14,had a baby age 15. I continued to be in one abusive realationship after another.My Daughter learned from me,now she lives with an abusive man.she has no self esteem about herself.she thinks she is not pretty,however she is very pretty.I now am married to a man that treats me very good, however i don't know how to except his kindness and i get mad at him often for no reason.Guess i don't know real love when i see it, i just pray my daughter will come to her senses,because she has a daughter that i pray will not follow in mine or her Mothers footsteps.It's a vicious cycle that has to be broken. |
| Nick/Name: | kim |
| E-mail address: | kim-7700@hotmail.com |
| Homepage URL: | http:// |
| Comments: | this has help me alot,i was abuse myself so its nice to know there is other peolpe out there like me.this site has help me. your friend kim |
| Nick/Name: | TIFFANY KISTLER"TAYA" |
| E-mail address: | KISTLER_TIFFANY@YAHOO.COM |
| Homepage URL: | http:// |
| Comments: | thanks |
| Nick/Name: | none |
| Homepage URL: | http:// |
| Comments: | Thank you for sharing your story. I can not bring myselfl to address my past - can't think of it!! But I am confronting my current battle - 26 years of controlling abuse...that is, of course, "my fault" because I shouldn't be crying when my head is punch of my ribs or cracked or I am being threatened, etc. Please just pray for me...I feel so trapped...and hurt...I went from being tortured as a child to being physically abused from 15 years old. I guess I'm lucky because I had 2-3 relatively good years when I was not being hurt. |
| Nick/Name: | Betty |
| E-mail address: | Geneva427@yahoo.com |
| Homepage URL: | http://yahoo.com |
| Nick/Name: | Paul McLaughlin |
| E-mail address: | scan@efn.org |
| Homepage URL: | http://www.efn.org/~scan |
| Comments: | Paul M. McLaughlin
Elizabeth SEVEN McLaughlin Stop Child Abuse NOW! scan@efn.org 298 Hunington Ave. Eugene, Oregon 97405-4055 'I Was Loved In The Midst Of Suffering' True Short Story About Paul. http://www.geocities.com/Heartland/Hills/6100/story5.html -------------------- ABOUT THE FOUNDER Paul Marvin McLaughlin and his twin sister Paula were born on October 13, 1948 in Donora, Pennsylvania, and were systematically abused, neglected and terrorized for more than eighteen years. Paul nearly died twice from the injuries he suffered as a result of this abuse. I know the pain of being forgotten and alone, I will never forget...... http://www.efn.org/~scan |
| Nick/Name: | KatM |
| Homepage URL: | http://dark2light.wordpress.com/ |
| Comments: | What a wonderful and inspiring site. I can't wait to explore it more.
The service you provide to abuse survivors through this site is invaluable. Thank you. |
| Nick/Name: | Keepers and John |
| E-mail address: | kprsjohn@charter.net |
| Homepage URL: | http://www.keeperskorner.com |
| Comments: | just dropped by to view the site again and say hi. hope you are doing well.
peace and blessings keepers nad john |
| Nick/Name: | Battered Mind |
| E-mail address: | healing-minds@hotmail.com |
| Homepage URL: | http://www.freewebs.com/healingminds/ |
| Comments: | I'm a survivor, and I also run a forums and a website.
Thank you for sharing your site with people like myself. |
| Nick/Name: | roy |
| E-mail address: | happy4magic@comcast.net |
| Homepage URL: | http:// |
| Comments: | Thank you...... |
| Nick/Name: | Cheacky Chicken |
| Homepage URL: | http://ticketytock.org |
| Comments: | Abuse is no longer a taboo subject, society acknowledges it happens. But already the guilty are regrouping and putting up a defense. They claim that they are victims of false acquisitions and unscrupulous police tactics, "trawler methods" and that we (the victims) are part of the "compensation culture". They even try to claim that it is OK to abuse vulnerable children and that they are a victim of societies hang ups. And some people still want a legal right to beat children. Similar tactics have been used by Neo Nazis to suggest that the holocaust did not happen. However the clock can not be turned back, the human revolution is happening and society is changing from within, there’s no stopping us now, long live the revolution. |
| Nick/Name: | di |
| E-mail address: | dianec58pprp@yahoo.com |
| Homepage URL: | http:// |
| Comments: | HI,
Its been many years but I am tired of bad relationships and being afraid of letting someone really love me. I've spent a lifetime of choosing men that were distance either physically or emotionally so I didn't have to connect. It now time for me to move on and really let someone in and I appreciate you web site and my ability to say this to cry and to move on ... |
| Nick/Name: | Peter James |
| E-mail address: | peter_james@yahoo.com.br |
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| Nick/Name: | keepers and John |
| E-mail address: | kprsjohn@charter.net |
| Homepage URL: | http://www.keeperskorner.com |
| Comments: | Hi!! We just came back for a visit, hadn't been here for a while. Wanted to thank you for the site, it as well as others are needed to offer support and hope to all in recovery as well as enlightenment to those trying to understand or support those in need.
Peace and blessings to you always |
| Nick/Name: | lissa |
| E-mail address: | davis020304@hotmail.com |
| Homepage URL: | http:// |
| Comments: | hello.i have a confusing story i need to tell. when i was two years old my parents seperated and i went back and forth between them.i mainly stayed with my dad he lived with my grandparents. then my mothers new boyfriend started molesting me when i was there.my mother saw and did nothing.i was only three and somehow i told my dad, anyways he went and got all my things from her house and kicked his a**.nothing was ever done,he never had to pay.from then on my grandparents raised me. i am now 24,my grandma has past away and i am thinking of meeting my real piece of crap mom. the thing is she went on to marry my abuser and have children with him, 4 of them are girls . they are divorced recently but the youngest lives with him.anyways my sisters want to meet me & i want to meet them. i am so confused about what to do.i probably need some kind of counceling i just wouldnt know where to start.i talked to my mother for the first time a couple of weeks ago. she wants me to meet her what should i do? my abuser and my sister live in the same small town.help me!email me |
| Nick/Name: | Battered Mind |
| E-mail address: | healing-minds@hotmail.com |
| Homepage URL: | http://www.freewebs.com/healingminds/ |
| Comments: | I am a survivor as well, I have found your site to be amazing, lots of information, great layout- Keep up the good work!
I'm going to bookmark this site so I can go back to it. Thank you for all your hard work. |
| Nick/Name: | John SO and Keepers |
| E-mail address: | kprsjohn@charter.net |
| Homepage URL: | http://www.keeperskorner.com |
| Comments: | Great site, full of information and care in how it is presented.
Peace and blessings John and Keepers |
| Nick/Name: | Annemarie |
| E-mail address: | blondeharris@aol.com |
| Homepage URL: | http:// |
| Comments: | Hello all, Dream book is great it shows me there are others out there who know what i'm feeling. So many say " we know what you must be going through" HOW could they know what i'm feeling, what my flash backs are like, my night mares. I just want to say hello, and feel free to drop me an email, for a chat or a sounding board. It would be good to have some on line support. |
| Nick/Name: | kevin |
| E-mail address: | mlkevin4@aol.com |
| Homepage URL: | http:// |
| Comments: | hi found you on google i am a survivor of military sexual trauma. |
| Nick/Name: | Marie Waldrep |
| E-mail address: | themightyphoenix1survivors@yahoo.com |
| Homepage URL: | http://www.geocities.com/marie_w89/themightyphoenixindex.html |
| Comments: | I too am a survivor of childhood sexual assault, incest and rape...I am proud of you for the courage to create this website to help other survivors. Take care.
Marie |
| Nick/Name: | posmpy4 |
| Homepage URL: | http:// |
| Comments: | I found this site by accident, looking for answers to questions beginning to surface.i was sexually abused by three men in my childhood. Just left a relationship that i know recognise as abusive, physically( well you cant miss that)emotionally, mentally, socially, financially. Now i am working toward a profession to help others.
a Few weeks ago my daughter tells me her dad has been sexually assaulting her. i have spent every minute since she was born 'on the lookout', but never expected it from here. WHAT DID I DO WRONG NOT TO SEE IT. I SHOULD HAVE PROTECTED HER. I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN. Now i see clearly all the signs.I can't change what i missed but i can do something about the future...... she WILL be believed.......she WILL get help.....She WILL be acknowledged..........i WILL listen to her.....she WILL SURVIVE.....and WILL be there for my girl every step of the way. Thank You for such a Wonderful site.xxxxx posm xxxxx |
| Nick/Name: | posmpy4 |
| Homepage URL: | http:// |
| Comments: | I found this site by accident, looking for answers to questions beginning to surface.i was sexually abused by three men in my childhood. Just left a relationship that i know recognise as abusive, physically( well you cant miss that)emotionally, mentally, socially, financially. Now i am working toward a profession to help others.
a Few weeks ago my daughter tells me her dad has been sexually assaulting her. i have spent every minute since she was born 'on the lookout', but never expected it from here. WHAT DID I DO WRONG NOT TO SEE IT. I SHOULD HAVE PROTECTED HER. I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN. Now i see clearly all the signs.I can't change what i missed but i can do something about the future...... she WILL be believed.......she WILL get help.....She WILL be acknowledged..........i WILL listen to her.....she WILL SURVIVE.....and WILL be there for my girl every step of the way. Thank You for such a Wonderful site.xxxxx posm xxxxx |
| Nick/Name: | Gail |
| E-mail address: | gby18367@bigpond.net.au |
| Homepage URL: | http://www.yahoo.com/groups/christsetsfree |
| Comments: | Thanks! for your story. It has helped me to keep on believeing. That Jesus Heal's |
| Nick/Name: | Gail |
| E-mail address: | gby18367@bigpond.com |
| Homepage URL: | http://www.yahoo.com/groups/christsetsfree |
| Comments: | Thanks! for your story. It has helped me to keep on believeing. That Jesus Heal's |
| Nick/Name: | Lez |
| E-mail address: | miracle2779@aol.com |
| Homepage URL: | http:// |
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| Nick/Name: | lynn |
| E-mail address: | mmabeitp30@yahoo.com |
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| Nick/Name: | Indian Angel |
| E-mail address: | wolfgost2003@yahoo.com |
| Homepage URL: | http:// |
| Comments: | Not knowing why I was living in abusive marriage was baffeling, I was not raised like that. Now I his past my questions are getting answered. As I went through this marraige he wanted sexual things I would not allow to happen. He would tell me I did not love him if I would not allow him to do them and at various intervals would annally rape me. I am presently divorcing him. He was also into trashing our home and physically pushing me around, as I got my restraining order I found out he had a past police record of sexual abuse. I fell that this had to come from something he witnessed early in his life, to know him out in public he is a different guy than to know him in our private life. |
| Nick/Name: | Indian Angel |
| E-mail address: | wolfgost2003@yahoo.com |
| Homepage URL: | http:// |
| Comments: | Not knowing why I was living in abusive marriage for 18 years was baffeling. Now I his past my questions are getting answered. |
| Nick/Name: | Chea-Che |
| E-mail address: | DiSdUlAcChIcK@charter.net |
| Homepage URL: | http:// |
| Comments: | Hi Shelly!My name is Chelsea and I'm 13 years old I was sexual abuse by my grandpa between the ages 7-10 until I decided to tell my mom,who went crazy and called the cops.Now the family is all messed up because they think I was lying.So just from my opinion I think you should confront him and ask him why.If anyone would like to talk to me just IM me /e-mail me. |
| Nick/Name: | dolphin |
| E-mail address: | dolphin@survivorscommunity.com |
| Homepage URL: | http://www.survivorscommunity.com |
| Comments: | This is a great site, keep up the good work! |
| Nick/Name: | Shelly |
| E-mail address: | ShellyandRocky@HighStream.Net |
| Homepage URL: | http:// |
| Comments: | I am 34 years old and just woke up one morning a few days ago and realized that what happened to me, starting at age 9, was wrong. I work in social work and have dealt with abused teenagers for 7 years! I thought because my situation was not as extreme, no violence or rape that it was okay. However, my uncle was always touching me, telling sexual jokes, coaxing me into doing things.. He convinced me that I wanted to do them and that "We" would get in trouble if anyone found out.
I have a daughter 15 months old and I told my husband several times that I don't want her ever left alone with my uncle. He kept asking why and I finally told him. He was shocked. The kicker is that he is still in our family and lives. He takes us out to dinner every other Sunday, he gave us a new refridgerator and he paid for my last year of college! Maybe it is the guilt, I don't know. I really don't know where to go from here. Should I confront him? Tell my family? How to I make sure this does happen to my daughter? Thanks It's good for me to finally let out the dark cloud that has been in shadows. |
| Nick/Name: | Joyce |
| Homepage URL: | http://www.giftfromwithin.org |
| Comments: | Hello, this is a very sensitive and healing website. keep up the good work. regards, joyce, gift from within-ptsd resources for survivors and caregivers |
| Nick/Name: | SE |
| E-mail address: | friends4ever77_7@yahoo.com |
| Homepage URL: | http://groups.msn.com/PoemsByDoriAlfordandFamily |
| Comments: | I am currently doing research for a English paper in my college course I am currently taking. However when doing this research it is helping me to heal from the "events" that has happened to me when I was younger. I happened to come across this website when looking for sites for survivors. I really like how it is put together. Art therapy is one of the best things that helped me to over come those "events". From one survivor to another it is possible to live a "normal" life after the abuse accures. |
| Nick/Name: | Ilene |
| E-mail address: | iajtay@hotmail.com |
| Homepage URL: | http:// |
| Comments: | I am 44,and have a whole whack of abuse experience behind me. I now know that this will always be with me 24/7 every minute of every day. I am able to manage, but sometimes I go crazy because I don't have repressed memories, I remember it seems every little thing since I was 4 years old. Too bad for me. I take life one day at a time. Sometimes one minute. I love life and everything around me and have found it in my heart to forgive. The only thing with forgiving is that it doesn't make anything go away. IT"S always always there, a deep secret that only I am a part of.
Life is easier since I've been with my man, it's a love thing you know. But I don't talk much about the past because it's horrid. Ahh to be like my sweetheart who has never known any kind of abuse in the world. But I'm not and I'm quite sure that if things didn't happen the way they happened I wouldn't understand the things I do. Take care everyone, be strong and know that there is a guardian angel for every survivor. Love is the answer |
| Nick/Name: | jenny52 |
| E-mail address: | jenny1005@chariot.net.au |
| Homepage URL: | http:// |
| Comments: | I was wondering if I could join to get some support for my daughter ,26, who has just in the last month told that she was sexually abused by one of her aboriginal foster brothers from the age of 4 - 10.
Neither her father nor I were aware of this, and now I am feeling guilty , but that is not the problem. She is feeling extremely guilt, and showing the classic signs of childhood sexual abuse, of which I am now aware as a psychiatric nurse, but wasn't then when just a general nurse. We had six children while our four were growing up, at least two foster children in the family at most times. Her sister has confirmed that she was also abused, but is now married with children of her own and says she has dealth with it! Her father was in the Army and away a lot of the time, and I was working to help support the large family, thinking we were doing right by our kids. I need a place that I can talk to get tips on how to help her through this healing she has yet to begin, and maybe a place to ease my guilty feelings as a mother for not protecting her and my other daughter enough! Is this the place, please! |
| Nick/Name: | jenny52 |
| E-mail address: | jenny1005@chariot.net.au |
| Homepage URL: | http:// |
| Comments: | I was wondering if I could join to get some support for my daughter ,26, who has just in the last month told that she was sexually abused by one of her aboriginal foster brothers from the age of 4 - 10.
Neither her father nor I were aware of this, and now I am feeling guilty , but that is not the problem. She is feeling extremely guilt, and showing the classic signs of childhood sexual abuse, of which I am now aware as a psychiatric nurse, but wasn't then when just a general nurse. We had six children while our four were growing up, at least two foster children in the family at most times. Her sister has confirmed that she was also abused, but is now married with children of her own and says she has dealth with it! Her father was in the Army and away a lot of the time, and I was working to help support the large family, thinking we were doing right by our kids. I need a place that I can talk to get tips on how to help her through this healing she has yet to begin, and maybe a place to ease my guilty feelings as a mother for not protecting her and my other daughter enough! Is this the place, please! |
| Nick/Name: | edgr003 |
| E-mail address: | edgr003@netscape.net |
| Homepage URL: | http:// |
| Nick/Name: | Survivor2 |
| E-mail address: | stolen_innocence2004@yahoo.com |
| Homepage URL: | http://www.iuniverse.com |
| Comments: | I am a 19 year old and just published my book of my abuse..I recommened any survivor to read it...it gives you hope, strenght, and brings you through my incredible journey of survival. I'd love to hear what you thought after reading it.
check it out. www.iuniverse.com title: Stolen Innocence Author: Erin Merryn God Bless |
| Nick/Name: | Lynn |
| Homepage URL: | http:// |
| Comments: | Bless your heart! You're site is obviously a labor of love. We need more caring people like you speaking out for us. You're an inspiration.
I used your description of DID to explain what it is to my adult kids and husband who are the joys of my life. I am truly blessed with a wonderful family. DID saved me and I know what would have happened otherwise. I have a sister who wasn't saved. I know so many don't have that now, but it is out there for you. A word of advice, see a therapist who specializes in trauma. I see a wonderful lady who has been there with DID. She is an angel to me. I would have suffered for the rest of my life if I hadn't found her or she found me. It still isn't easy, but there is light at the end of the tunnel if you see a qualified person. The establishment doesn't always know the proper treatment. |
| Nick/Name: | Dan |
| E-mail address: | waltonhop@hotmail.com |
| Homepage URL: | http://www.waltonhop.blogspot.com |
| Comments: | I was abused and raped at the age of fourteen by very clever, educated, clean men not a dirty old man stereotype (although they do exist)
See my blog for my history it can be seen at http://www.waltonhop.blogspot.com |
| Nick/Name: | nae-nay |
| E-mail address: | nadine@yahoo.com |
| Homepage URL: | http:// |
| Comments: | im mad in not feelin ever good in am sleep in i have two son in they make me crazy by fightin each anther |
| Nick/Name: | JANNA |
| E-mail address: | JANICEONE2NV@AOL.COM |
| Homepage URL: | http:// |
| Comments: | I NEED HELP, I NEED SOME ONE TO LESTION,TO CARE ABOUT WHAT I HAVE TO SAY, TO BE ABLE TO UNDERSTAND BUT NOT TO JUDGE ME. I'VE ALWAYS HAD TO BE THE STRONG ONE, UNTIL NOW IM SO WEAK, I CANT TAKE THIS ANY MORE I NEED TO LET OUT EVERY THING, ITS EFFECTING ME, MY SON AND, MY WONDERFUL HUSBAND. I WAS ABUSED BY MY UNCLE UNTIL 13, MY SISTER TOLD MY MOM OUT OF SPITE AND ALL SHE COULD SAY WAS "STUPID YOU SHOULD HAVE TOLD ME" MY MOTHER IS THE MAIN REASON I HAVE SO MUCH HATRED TODAY, ALL SHE COULD DO WAS BEAT ME AND BLAME ME FOR HER MISFORTUNE. i DONT EVEN KNOW WHY SHE HAD ME?? MY WHOLE LIFE ALL SHE NEEDED ME FOR WAS TO BE HER PERSONAL PUNCHING BAG, i RAN AWAY FROM HOME AT 14 BECAUSE I COULDNT TAKE THE PHYSICLE AND EMOTIONAL ABUSE ANY MORE, SO I WAS RAPED BY 4 GUYS. BASTARDS!! I JUST NEED SOME ADVISE! PLEASE ANY ONE FEEL FREE TO CONTACT ME PLEASE. I AM 20 I DONT WANNA LIVE THE REST OF MY LIFE CRYING,
JANNA |
| Nick/Name: | JANNA |
| E-mail address: | JANICEONE2NV@AOL.COM |
| Homepage URL: | http:// |
| Comments: | I NEED HELP, I NEED SOME ONE TO LESTION,TO CARE ABOUT WHAT I HAVE TO SAY, TO BE ABLE TO UNDERSTAND BUT NOT TO JUDGE ME. I'VE ALWAYS HAD TO BE THE STRONG ONE, UNTIL NOW IM SO WEAK, I CANT TAKE THIS ANY MORE I NEED TO LET OUT EVERY THING, ITS EFFECTING ME, MY SON AND, MY WONDERFUL HUSBAND. I WAS ABUSED BY MY UNCLE UNTIL 13, MY SISTER TOLD MY MOM OUT OF SPITE AND ALL SHE COULD SAY WAS "STUPID YOU SHOULD HAVE TOLD ME" MY MOTHER IS THE MAIN REASON I HAVE SO MUCH HATRED TODAY, ALL SHE COULD DO WAS BEAT ME AND BLAME ME FOR HER MISFORTUNE. i DONT EVEN KNOW WHY SHE HAD ME?? MY WHOLE LIFE ALL SHE NEEDED ME FOR WAS TO BE HER PERSONAL PUNCHING BAG, i RAN AWAY FROM HOME AT 14 BECAUSE I COULDNT TAKE THE PHYSICLE AND EMOTIONAL ABUSE ANY MORE, SO I WAS RAPED BY 4 GUYS. BASTARDS!! I JUST NEED SOME ADVISE! PLEASE ANY ONE FEEL FREE TO CONTACT ME PLEASE. I AM 20 I DONT WANNA LIVE THE REST OF MY LIFE CRYING,
JANNA |
| Nick/Name: | JAN |
| E-mail address: | JANICEONE2NV@AOL.COM |
| Homepage URL: | http:// |
| Nick/Name: | Candy |
| E-mail address: | SmallTamaria@aol.com |
| Comments: | I advise anyone who have been abuse to go get medical treamen. I have learned that you can't handle it alone. |
| Nick/Name: | the guide |
| E-mail address: | sweet_tmarie@yahoo.com |
| Homepage URL: | http:// |
| Comments: | My dream is to find a psychologist that will help me heal. |
| Nick/Name: | ERA |
| E-mail address: | e_armagno@yahoo.com.ar |
| Homepage URL: | http:// |
| Comments: | Thank you for this page; it's helped me a lot =) God bless us all in our recovery. Take care everyone and never stop fighting, all of our efforts will eventually pay off. |
| Nick/Name: | allie |
| E-mail address: | alliebraeden@yahoo.com |
| Homepage URL: | http:// |
| Comments: | The computer that I'm on wouldn't let me go anyplace but here. So I hope it's okay that I'm typing this here.
I'm 22 years old and I've been diagnosed with PTSD. I have tried meds and doctors and therapists to no avail. I was physically, sexually, and emotionally abused from the age of 10 to around 20. I find it so much easier to just give up. If anyone has any advice for me or anyone can help me I would appreciate it very much. Thank you, Allie |
| Nick/Name: | Swordfish |
| E-mail address: | What a wonderful comment -Mysty |
| Homepage URL: | http:// |
| Comments: | I have diagnosed PTSS from the years of every type of abuse as a child (that still blows me away I survived it and am even alive). I went to a Pyschologist who helped me and also informed me that this is a life long journey dealing with it as mine was Complex PSTD (continual even into adulthood). Know one tells you it is and was like a death of SELF and the stages are related: Denial, Anger, Depression, Guilt and Acceptance. And not in that order either. This does not even begin to deal with all the other issues like concentration problems due to flash backs while awake and the nightmares at night effecting our sleep. Nor the SHAME - the horror of it all. It is the shame that binds us. When you get to the other side (as I call it) it's like stepping outside of some chamber we were locked in for years, not knowing who we really are. Who would I of been if this had not happened to me? Am I really doing what I want in life? It's a noble quest which involves NOT having any contact with an unsupportive individuals,similiar types (that we do not seek out they seek out us as I was informed) and it has nothing to do with us. NOR any contact with the orginal abusers (or family relatives that think you are nuts or a liar). We were always fed lies.
The best I found (and now I am almost 54 yrs old) is to nourish yourself, hang with positive influences and be the parent you needed to yourself. I have also been married 22 yrs now to a nice man (second marriage) and it took me years to tell him what happened to me ( I think he was madder than me at the time). Shame thing again. I no longer have nightmares but at times I still have anger within. Which I journal, as my abusers are in and will always be in denial. Accept it if this is your case and choose to move on. I journal and it helps. I have a pity parties for a bit, once in awhile and I cry. I once beat up a pillow and told it off. It helped. I made the mistake of talking to my abusers after all this time - they have not changed and never will. In fact they are worse. They are mentally ill which helps me with Forgiveness, although I will NOT have anything more to do with them. I moved away and although I live with the pain and anger and horror of it all which if I continued to talk to these "sickos" I would become their victim again. The also anger arises out of NOT BEING BELIEVED and no one is or was listening. What I can recommend is taking our suffering and assisting humanity with it. Volunteer work is extremely rewarding, taking to a pyschologist who specializes in this helps. NOT a government or social program for this as they BLAME you for it which is NOT true. NO MORE LIES. It has been a long journey and it is a continual journey (which seems unfair at times), only I can tell you it does get better (but you HAVE to rid yourself of your family if they are the victimizers). Know that they will go to their graves in denial and/or insisting there is something wrong with you. Do not go there, please. ACCEPT they are not well and you are. You are not only a Survivor, but a Spiritual Warrior on a journey to find your wonderful self. When you do be sure to HUG yourself (and along the way)! Many blessing brave Warriors as I have complete faith your will get there! I love you all! |
| Nick/Name: | shelly |
| E-mail address: | mrjhm2@aol.com |
| Homepage URL: | http:// |
| Comments: | Mine is a long story.It wasn't until the "seizures" made me a safety liability at my job and none of the meds were working ,that I had to face what was really causing the seizures.For years I lived telling myself it didn't matter what happened to me as a child,I wasnt going to let it affect my life.Frequetly preaching the serenity prayer.I studied hard,had a family of my own (young I should add)worked hard and made a life -because this is something that can't just be fixed with meds I lost my job-but see it wasnt just a job it was everything i had worked for ,to prove it didn't matter-I could move on have a good life -so when that was gone I had no way to cope again I'm rambling but thank you for having this site |
| Nick/Name: | Shelly |
| E-mail address: | mrjhm2@aol.com |
| Homepage URL: | http:// |
| Comments: | Thank You for including pseudoseizures-for 3 yrs was being treated for epilepsy and depression-through trail and error with meds and several eeg's and telemetry stays ,epitimologist(sp?) thinks it's theses pseudoseizures.No one in my area knows anything about them and it's hard for me to explain without sounding like a nutjob looking for attention-anyway now i'm rambling-just wanted to say thanks for the info |
| Nick/Name: | Tricia |
| E-mail address: | Triciabelle1@aol.com |
| Homepage URL: | http:// |
| Comments: | I love the website. It is Christmas eve day and I feel like there is no one in the world who understands the pain I feel. I know there are other people that have terrible pain too and this alone helps me feel stronger. |
| Nick/Name: | grasshopper |
| E-mail address: | kjokrys@yahoo.com |
| Homepage URL: | http:// |
| Comments: | As i read through everyone's comments i almost go back to that part of my life i've tried so hard to forget. I've began to realize that I won't ever truly forget it. It's apart of me & my life now. The hard part seems to be that eventually i will one day have to truly forgive my offender. This will be the only way to be okay with myself & my surroundings. I am not here to judge this man i am here to show him the power of forgiveness. He will one day realize that i don't judge him for what he's done but feel sorry for what he will go through in another life. Maybe just maybe one day I will be able to look my grandfather in the eyes & understand why he chose me. |
| Nick/Name: | Melinda |
| E-mail address: | Ehlersr967@cs.com |
| Homepage URL: | http:// |
| Comments: | Please read the email I just sent. I am hurting. I am strong, but I am hurting badly too.
People who I thought would help or pray for me haven't even returned a call or email. I don't think I can handle another rejection. |
| Nick/Name: | BECCI |
| Homepage URL: | http:// |
| Comments: | I AM JUST STARTING TO GET HELP AFTER YEARS OF SEXUAL ABUSE, IT IS A VERY SCARY SITUATION BUT I WANT TO BE STRONGER THAN HIM,
THIS SITE IS VERY HELP FULL. |
| Nick/Name: | sarah |
| E-mail address: | sazie_morris@hotmail.com |
| Homepage URL: | http:// |
| Comments: | i would just like to say all you people who have signed and addmitted that you have been abused and your a survivour i think you are great! this is one hell of a good site! it makes me feel betta to see there is other people out there other than me who do get sexualy abused! i thank shalom638 for emailing me the email took my breath away and has helped me alot i thank you alot god bless everyone !!xxxxxx love sarah xxxxxx |
| Nick/Name: | Rod |
| E-mail address: | shalom638@aol.com |
| Homepage URL: | http:// |
| Comments: | Except for one forum, I have not discovered a way to connect with any others who suffered or witnessed this kind of abuse--when a child is forced to strip to be spanked (the sexual impact has been discussed in books by therapists).
It happened regularly when I was in school, at home, and I witnessed a lot in the neighborhood, especially the raging drunk next door who beat his daughters. I have a good therapist, but it will help to find someone who deals with the same feelings. |
| Nick/Name: | littleone/Paula |
| E-mail address: | paulalynn@starpoint.net |
| Homepage URL: | http:// |
| Comments: | I am glad to have found this site! I'm healing after 45 years of struggling. I've always known of some of the abuse I've suffered, but recently--the last 9 months--have uncovered new memories of additional abusers/abuses which have really rocked me to my core. I'm back to square one in my healing journey it seems. I have found that it isn't just the depression, it is getting healed from the abuse that needs to happen. I'm committed to my healing journey, and am glad to find new resources. Thanks. |
| Nick/Name: | Gary Peoptemp |
| E-mail address: | mrgooles23@yahoo.com |
| Homepage URL: | http://www.score850.com |
| Comments: | Loved the Britney Spears concert review. Have you considered a career as a music critic? |
| Nick/Name: | Ace Toscano |
| E-mail address: | acetoscanoATearthlinkDAHTnet |
| Homepage URL: | http://home.earthlink.net/~acetoscano/survivorsart.html |
| Comments: | Hi,
Wonderful site! Perhaps your visitors would like to join the Survivors' Art Webring. Our member visual and literary artists, survivors of some of life's most horrific circumstances, have something else in common -- they have learned to redirect their energies into various forms of artistic expression. Please, visit our ring's home page and tour our members' sites. If you are new to webring and need help joining, don't hesitate to ask. Thank you. Ace Toscano http://home.earthlink.net/~acetoscano/survivorsart.html |
| Nick/Name: | vavaran |
| E-mail address: | vavaran@aol.com |
| Homepage URL: | http:// |
| Comments: | thank you for being here....im struggling to find support
as im experiencing post tramatic stress , from childhood abuse., and still trying to function in the world. |