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| Name: | Angela |
| E-mail: | eeyore4fun@aol.com |
| Country: | USA |
| Comments: | greetings i live in nc and i too have BPD.. I am seeking those like me who i can get support from. I feel so empty, alone and my life is in complete chaos, including my relationships. please help me. i hope to one day find a BPD support group in high point nc or even start one of my own and KUDOS great site sincerely angela in trinity nc |
| Name: | nichole |
| E-mail: | redhottrunnerchick@yahoo.com |
| Country: | United States Of America (hell ya, im american) |
| Comments: | this is a nice website and i like the poems.....keep uo the good work.....these poems help say things when your just too dwon to say them your self.. |
| Name: | Ashley Frinkle |
| E-mail: | frinklea@ola2.afsc.k12.ar.us |
| Country: | America |
| Comments: | You are very brave to speak out the way you do. I have BPD and I know how hard it is to speak to anyone or too just tell someone. It feels so much better to write it down and get it out. Your story has touched me in many ways and now I know that im not the only one in the world who feels so empty and abandoned. Ive been off and on on many different meds and im not even taking any right now. I can see the difference when i dont take them but for some reason I just dont want to take any medicine at all. Keep speaking out because it really does help the ones that need to be reached too. Its so strange how people can think just alike. My journals from the past 4 years sound alot like yours. Please dont stop writing- Thanks-Ashley Frinkle |
| Name: | Joy Colclough |
| E-mail: | colcluff@distributel.net |
| Country: | Canada |
| Comments: | Hi After growing up with a mother who most likely has both BPD and narcissitic PD i married a man who has BPD, after 15 years i had enough and left 2+ years ago I have done my very best to protect my son from the influences of his father it is not fun dealing with bpd and all the abuse |
| Name: | moi |
| E-mail: | phoenix@personainternet.com |
| Country: | Canada |
| Comments: | Thank you infinitely for sharing your life- it gives such hope for others- well- at least for me. Thank you. |
| Name: | Lucas Liu |
| E-mail: | majigni@hotmail.com |
| Country: | China |
| Comments: | BPDs are all alike, that's why it is categorised as a disorder, actually a disease. I once had a girlfriend just like you, worse than you. After that I let myself sunk into psychology so much that now I find it might be possible to make a change on all those personality disorders through a change to life style, philosophy and social environment by which I mean one might be able to get better in a different social and cultural environment such as a Buddist and daoist one. Take care of your self and keep up the good work. Please explore a bit more on the life and mind after having kids. How they affect you? |
| Name: | Jaime Hackworth |
| E-mail: | ronniehackworth@bellsouth.net |
| Country: | United States |
| Comments: | I just read a lot of your diary, until June 1 1998. I cry when you cry. There is so much I could say to you, I wouldn't know where to begin or end. I look at you and see so much of myself. My mother died July 2, 1994 of cervical cancer. I too need to stop smoking. I am 28 years old (born Oct. 31, 1976)and have three young daughters. Ages 7,5, and almost 3, (July 19,1997- Oct. 13,1999- May 13,2002.)I hope I am not fucking them up like I am. I am tring so hard to stay afloat, when do you know if it is good enough? I'll go, I wouldn't mind talking with you again. Man can I talk your hear off. Your family is beautiful and so are you. |
| Name: | Gina |
| E-mail: | ilovedabull@yahoo.com |
| Country: | USA |
| Comments: | I have read your journal from begining to your last entry. U R an amazing writer, a very strong women and a loving mommy. I hope all is well w/ you since I have not seen any recent entries. I tend to worry. Good luck to you. |
| Name: | Louise |
| E-mail: | Louisiann64@msn.com |
| Country: | USA |
| Comments: | I am borderline-bipolar. And have been looking for a site that supports such an illness. I have found your website to be very helpful. :) |
| Name: | danny silvers |
| Country: | england |
| Comments: | stumbled on your site by accident but glad i did. nice poetry, excellent art. in times when nothing seems to be from the heart, this is refreshing. |
| Name: | Kasandrae |
| E-mail: | kestarr29@yahoo.com |
| Country: | USA |
| Comments: | I am 29 years old and decided to get into therpay about 1 1/2 years ago for depression. I have been diagnosed with BPD and am looking for support groups where I can meet people with BPD |
| Name: | Mark |
| Country: | USA |
| Comments: | Over the past few days I have read through your entire journal, you are a wonderful writer. I am studying to be a counselor and it really helps to hear about your experiences - I have heard good things about DBT as well, it sounds like it was somewhat helpful back in the US. Thank you for your honesty in making this public, I will continue to check back in every now and then & see how you are doing. Best wishes to you! |
| Name: | Jane |
| E-mail: | siangirl@hotmail.com |
| Country: | Canada |
| Comments: | I came across some of your poetry, I think it is incredible, you describe the way I feel (haha):). Thank you for the nice site. Jane/siangirl |
| Name: | whitney |
| E-mail: | kdesilva9@aol.COM |
| Country: | usa |
| Comments: | hey- i just wanted to tell you this is the by far best poem site i have EVER come across. i was wonerin while reading did you write all these poems or are they a collection of peoples ? either way this site is GREAT. i needed some nice poems like these to complete a project i was doing. p.s. please email if you wood like ... kdesilva9@aol.com |
| Name: | Gin |
| E-mail: | nospamhalev@seattleu.edu |
| Country: | USA |
| Comments: | Thank you. You are an incredible writer. I've been writing a paper for psych grad school (looking at narratives of people on the borderline) and your journal is amazing. Thank you for your truthfulness and your courage. You've helped me to understand BP - something that before remained totally perplexing. I have such hope for you and your family. I want to know, hear, and share more about people with the BP perspective. Your voice speaks - eloquently and honestly - for so many others. |
| URL: | http://www.daveandginny.com |
| Name: | karin |
| E-mail: | thanx4noticinme@yahoo.com |
| Country: | usa |
| Comments: | Man reading that stuff is like reading my poetry..scary I was diagnosed within the last 2 years..so im still crazy as hell |
| Name: | Steve |
| E-mail: | bpd_zhok@yahoo.com |
| Country: | United States and Kazakhstan |
| Comments: | Thank you for your honesty about yourself (I doubt most people are that honest about themselves even to just themselves, let alone to the Internet). Your journal is probably the most insightful writing I have yet encountered on borderline personality disorder. I have been reading it for HOURS now. I am separated from my wife who suffers from the disorder; we share two beautiful children. Its not an easy life for them, for my wife, or for me. Your description of what living in an abusive home does to children made me cry. And this is definitely not from having thrown away my Paxil prescription a week ago. We started out in Kazakhstan (wife's country), moved to the US, moved back to Kazakhstan, and then came back to the US. My wife's family sounds like yours in terms of the physical and emotional abuse. I see so many parallels. I wish I knew what was missing to get her to see that there is a better way to live. That kills me. It seems like that something inside of you kept you moving in that direction. Any thoughts on what that might be? I still sometimes feel guilty for being separated, even though I feel (as you express in your journal) that it is not worth "staying together for the kids" but that in fact the opposite is often true. |
| Name: | unknown |
| E-mail: | desert_angel_91@yahoo.com |
| Country: | U.S |
| Comments: | I really liked your prose, and poetry, long, but intereseting. I have searched your whole site and I can't figure out what your name is. Is it Star or not? I would really like to know, please e-mail me. |
| Name: | Tara |
| E-mail: | nuchie69@hotmail.com |
| Country: | Canada |
| Comments: | Hi there! As you know my name is Tara. I work with 7 mentally challanged children in a group home and I am also going to school for up grades in my acedemic standing. I have always been interested in BPD. I am now working on a presintation for school trying to bring awarness to people about BPD and not having the disorder myself I have nor will i ever have the knowlage and experiences as you did. I really appreciate your web page and am very happy that i stubbled across it. This web page brought some insight into BPD. I hope you dont mind but i would love it if i could use some of your poetry "Stuck" and a drawing you did called "Sometimes I see it" as well as "Seeing". You are very talented and very brave as well. Although I dont know much about you i could tell you are a survivor and will get through anything that life has to throw at you. I couldn't find your name on the site so i will not be using your name in my presintation so i will be giving the name of the web site instead. Oh and by the way your son is so beautiful congradulations. |
| Name: | ~mjtacc~ |
| E-mail: | info@mjtacc.com |
| Country: | Australia |
| Comments: | Absolutely loved your site and admire the effort you put into it. Your writing is magical. As you will see by my link we are finally trying to do something here in Australia for those with BPD, as well as their partners/ family. Again, I love your writings and poetry |
| URL: | http://www.mjtacc.com |
| Name: | backturnedtoyoumakingcoffee |
| E-mail: | beseechme@yahoo.com |
| Comments: | Hey. Hope you & your family are well. I don't have your email address any more for some reason so here's how I'm getting in touch. I met you about 6 years ago and it seems like so long ago. So much has changed in so many ways, but sometimes the memories feel like just yesterday, which is nice. Don't know what else to say. Just touching base with you I guess. I pop in every now and then to see how you're doing. Hope all is well. Danny. |
| Name: | Alli |
| E-mail: | alli@allispage.com |
| Comments: | Greetings from miami USA, i thought your page was neat and thought i should sign your book :-), Alli |
| Name: | Crysal |
| E-mail: | lilywings@hotmail.com |
| Country: | USA |
| Comments: | It feels so familiar. I have been reading more and more about BPD trying to understand and see if it is me. I see a lot of myself. You are so strong and such a survivor. I hope that I can be the same way. I hope that I can survive and be strong and that I wont throw away what I have fought so hard to get. |
| Name: | Chrissy |
| E-mail: | carrch@aol.com |
| Country: | USA |
| Comments: | Hello. I've just spent the past 3 hours reading your journal and watching the war on Iraq commence. I am a 33 year old SWF. I've been in therapy for 11 years and just recently was told by my therapist that I have BPD. It's hard to accept-but as I read more about my illness, I know it's true. I'm so envious that you are able to have a relationship with a man you love. I have such trouble with that. Thanks for posting your journal. I did see a lot of myself in your writing and it brought me a sense of comfort-that I'm not all alone out here. I wish you and your family all the best. Chrissy |
| Name: | Stephanie Ivester |
| E-mail: | Starluv84@aol.com |
| Country: | USA |
| Comments: | I really enjoyed your artwork and your poetry, I can relate to alot of things that you have to talk about. I also am a poet and I do artwork as well. I look forward to reading more things you have done and viewing more artwork. |
| Name: | Carmen |
| E-mail: | cmiguelz@isciii.es |
| Country: | Spain |
| Comments: | I think you write very well. I like reading your comments. I learn and understand things of loved people like you. Why don't you continue your diary? A big kiss to you. |
| Name: | VERONICA |
| E-mail: | PLUMERIASJ@AOL.COM |
| Country: | USA |
| Comments: | JUST WANTED TO SAY THANKS.AND IM SORRY. I FEEL UR PAIN AND I KNOW UR WORDS. THANKS PEACE V |
| Name: | Elijah |
| Country: | am |
| Comments: | Dont stop a project because you think your going to mess it up, and pull out what you see...-Its all in the mind-Keep it up. |
| Name: | debora |
| E-mail: | debora1321@yahoo.com |
| Country: | usa |
| Comments: | I am glad to know that someone besides me feels this bad. |
| Name: | Sarah |
| E-mail: | slcornford@hotmail.com |
| Country: | England |
| Comments: | Wow, what can I say? You truely have a talent, I too write poetry, as I also have been diagnosed with the dreaded BPD. I am only 17, nearly 18 in October. The reason I've been diagnosed so young is because my mother had it, unfortunatly, she took her own life. I write random thoughts and poems which best describes how I feel. Do not give up writing, and also on hope that one day, things will get better. Please email me, it would be so cool to hear from you. When I read your poems, I could see me, like I knew you.... I refer to this as the "Borderline Click". take extreme care of yourself. xx |
| Name: | robyn |
| E-mail: | orangefruitloop2001@yahoo.com |
| Country: | USA |
| Comments: | I found this site tonight while exploring the life as a bpd...I guess it isnt enough that i live with myself having bpd, i have to find other people out there that think the same thought process as me...Reading your journal entries has made me realize, Im not the only one that thinks a zillion things at one time, (a mind that has a broken "off" switch)lol...and while thinking all of these things, I constantly down or coware myself into feeling like an ant in a huge mound...(what i see is a mound of dirt, which is the world, and thousands of ants running and hurrying and going in a million directions at once to get nowhere that is somewhere that feels safe and they are secure, which are the people in the world...only to want to rebuild the mound and start over fresh and make things better than the last mound...and how many times have we bpd people tried this one?? Does this sound familiar to anyone who reads this???BTW, I noticed you have not written an entry since 2001, where are you? Are you okay? Maybe Cayden just has you busy these days...Anyways..I loved your journal... |
| Name: | Suzy |
| Comments: | What enlightment for me... to read through your thoughts and some how try to understand this illness that took my dtr from her family. I loved reading the changes as you began to learn new ways of living with life. I loved the july 4th entry as you stood on the proch with your husband and made a choice to allow yourself the goodness for yourself and you deserved to have hope. You really should think about writing and getting paid money for it! Be well... |
| Name: | David |
| E-mail: | robodog2@attbi.com |
| Country: | USA |
| Comments: | I don't have BPD, but I've been in love with someone with BPD for over 9 years now. It's been the hardest 9 years of my life but I don't regret one minute of it. I think you're very courageous and I applaud your candor. I only wish my friend would realize he has this problem and seek some help. Thank you for letting me read your journal!! PEACE!! |
| Name: | jennifer |
| E-mail: | ayfa@aol.com |
| Country: | usa |
| Comments: | I just wanted to say that I, for one, am very glad you decided to create this site. I have also been diagnosed as BPD and it is very heartening to hear from others who have had the same kinds of problems. Sometimes it's very lonely. Thank you for being so candid. Jennifer |
| Name: | Stephie |
| Comments: | I found your journal today, March 25, 2002. I haven't been diagnosed with BPD yet, but I'm almost certain I have it and it has made my life a living hell. It is comforting to know that someone else is experiencing what I am experiencing, and I feel so badly for you and so sorry that you're so unhappy a lot of the time. I'm the same way. I noticed you stopped writing and I hope everything is OK. I hope the baby is OK and you're doing better than you were. Thanks for writing this. It is really helping me to accept my BPD traits, and comforting me in knowing I'm not alone. |
| Name: | alex |
| E-mail: | alexcastillo_hotmail.com |
| Country: | usa |
| Comments: | your poems are some of the most real expressions of what it is to be human. thank you |
| Name: | Elizabeth |
| E-mail: | elizabeth0701@yahoo.com |
| Country: | USA |
| Comments: | I was diagnosed with BPD, I am married and sometimes it makes things hard, I'm getting ready to go back into therapy if my schedule will permit b/c I live in Richmond but commute to Arlington VA on a daily basis and am not at home very long. I just wanted to say that your site was very informative and reminds me a lot of myself, thank you for sharing your intimate thoughts, I would love to learn more about you and what has happened to you recently since you don't have anything for 2002 on here. You can email me if you would like. Again thank you for your web site. |
| Name: | Bruce |
| E-mail: | bluesman1645@yahoo.com |
| Country: | USA |
| Comments: | Just wanted to thank you for the great lyrics page! I think you have the only accurate lyrics to Hole's "Boys On The Radio" on the entire web... I'll be back to check out some of the original work you have up real soon! |
| Name: | George Atreides |
| E-mail: | nonethaticanthinkof@barrenSoulbarrenLand.org |
| Country: | Romania |
| Comments: | Hey there. Just read the whole damn journal (downloaded here on my Pc) and heck, what can i say? keep up the good work! Btw, isn't it funny how a boy of 19 from Bucharest, Romania can read about the life of some girl of 25 from Aussie, as it happens? kinda scary if you think about it... |
| Name: | Angie |
| E-mail: | Coolbreezes4me@aol.com |
| Country: | USA |
| Comments: | Hi ..thanks for letting us see what your life has been like! I hope you will find some peace in your life..check out this site called biologicalunhappiness.com and lifeattheborder.com I hope these sites help you, hang in there, you can do this!!!! A little about me... I have bpd too..I'm 34/w two daughters 14 and 7. We are all apart right now..it's been aweek or so now, anyway..I have a Dr's appointment Tuesday..and hyopefully I will get better on the meds I'm given. |
| Name: | Ilya |
| E-mail: | koulchin@uclink.berkeley.edu |
| Country: | USA |
| Comments: | I just found your site. The first journal entry I read talked about how happy it makes you when people sign your guestbook, so here I am ;) I talked with my therapist recently about me having BPD, and I must say I am still uncertain about the matter. Some of the symptoms (75-80%, or so) fit perfectly, yet others couldn't be further from the truth. So I'm still trying to decide whether or not BPD fits or not... |
| Name: | Kathi Gilson |
| E-mail: | kglady@olg.com |
| Country: | USA |
| Comments: | I was diagnosed with BPD in 1989. It wasn't until I went off prozac in 1999 that I finally came to grips with it and got back on medication and in therapy. since then i've had a skull fracture as well as a concusion which made everything worse. I am starting over yet again--before i was always running away although I thought I was running to a new job etc. I gave up my dream of horses and moved here to be closer to my cousin. I isolate myself otherwise and you know what that does to a BPD. I have been here less thatn a month and needed someone to talk with.... |
| Name: | Jenny |
| E-mail: | jade0622@aol.com |
| Country: | usa |
| Comments: | Only another borderline could possibly know what it means when I say Breathe!!!!!!! Such the sensitive creatures we are! I know & live it. Everyday is a new fight. I'm 32, everyday I wake up knowing this is my cross. I think we all just need to get in a big room & Scream! No one chooses this for themselves, you would have to be crazy to choose this disorder!! (no pun intended) What I find so sad is that we are such witty, bright people that even those around us refuse to label us as BPD. My own sister can't see it. They all just say, you need to love yourself. Okay, I hadn't thought of that! I hope you always find the will to fight, as well as others that may read this. I encourage others to speak out! We have hope~ alot of it! We are people bonded by BPD. We are not alone! I pray peace, love & hope to all suffering with BPD! Even if you don't love you - God does! & i do too! PEACE! PS: BABY IS BEAUTIFUL!!!!!! |
| Name: | Phyllis Bolton |
| E-mail: | PBolton@cfl.rr.com |
| Country: | USA |
| Comments: | Me too!!! Thank you for the validation and although I hate that there is some else out there that has to feel this hell, it helps me to hear that I am not the only one. I was diagnosed about 8 years ago and I was in denial of the diagnosis until about two months ago. I called it codependent, PTSD and wanted it to be anything but BPD. I went to school to get my B.S. in psychology, B.S. = bull shit. THen I went to school to get my masters in Mental Health counseling, more bull shit. I don't know how I hid out all that time, but I guess the self analysis did help me, but my confidence and self esteeme, etc. is so low that I don't feel like I can be any help to anyone, but then I think of your journal and how it is a help to me, so maybe I can find a way to help others and myself through this hell, we call Borderline personality disorder. I wish there was a magic pill that we could take, something that could take away our pain. Phyllis |
| Name: | Stacey |
| E-mail: | crazyduel@yahoo.com |
| Country: | America |
| Comments: | I really like your site. I was touched by your art work "Mask" this brought tears to my eyes. I also suffer from BPD, PTSD and Clinical Major Depression. I am glad you post your journal. I feel so so less alone. Hope your doing well. I am sure your son is growing fast. Hugs, crazy |
| Name: | Jennifer L. Millat |
| E-mail: | jennymillat@hotmail.com |
| Country: | USA |
| Comments: | I just stumbled upon a book about BPD because it was on the Barnes & Nobele sale rack. Two days ago. I have not stopped reading about it since. I have read no less than 20 articles or books that are describing me. Yours, however, is the best so far. Thank you. I will stay in touch. |
| Name: | Kristin |
| Comments: | I just discovered your site. Thank you for being such an honest, amazing woman. Most importantly, I thank you for going public with your battle against BPD. I am thirty, and have had BPD since I was eighteen. It is a constant struggle, and I do not feel so alone now in my suffering. I am just starting to read your journal, and can relate to so many of your feelings. I hope you continue to get well, and look forward to looking at your site, in the future. |
| Name: | Lethom |
| E-mail: | lethomart@yahoo.com |
| Country: | USA/Germany/France |
| Comments: | Thanks for the site. I am an artist as well and appreciate your energy and truthfullness in your visual art and your written art. I am a male with BPD and am writing a book. Would love to hear from others and gain knowledge of recovery success stories. Thank you! |
| Name: | Becky Hodgson |
| E-mail: | beckyhodgson1971@yahoo.com |
| Country: | England |
| Comments: | Hi, i'm half way through reading your journal, I feel a bit of a fraud to tell you the truth, I have been diagnosed with BPD, but I havn't been through anything like the things that you have. I admire your strength and courage and your words give me comfort. I just wanted to thank you for setting up this site, it's ok reading clinicians sites but i believe it takes another person who suffers with BPD, to really get it !!! anyway I wish you well in your life, be happy and keep smilin'. best wishes Becky :) |
| Name: | Amy |
| E-mail: | stracy@voicenet.com |
| Country: | USA |
| Comments: | Star- Congratulations on your bravery! You are a strong woman, I am so sorry to hear about your mom passing, just days after you left for the USA. I hope you do not harbor guilt over it. Ive been struggling with BPD since I was 21, now I am 29. Its a struggle, but I am learning in life that we all have our own cross to bear and I guess BPD is ours. Thanks for opening yourself up to strangers like me on the net. Your siamese is beautiful, I have one too (well she's 1/2 siamese and 1/2 not sure what) but her name is Zelda. Good luck Star. Seeing your picture and reading your bio made me feel not so alone today with this illness. I will visit your site now and then to see what your up to. |
| Name: | Heidi |
| E-mail: | mrspalsgraff@hotmail.com |
| Comments: | Hi Star!! Congratulations on your wonderful addition -- Cayden. I'm so happy you're doing well. Take care! Love, Heidi |
| Name: | gianna |
| E-mail: | auntchris fun@yahoo.com |
| Comments: | hi i really liken your site i was just diagnosed with bpd last year and i am havinng a hard time beca8use i have no support and any frinds. i love the computer. |
| Name: | Erin Daley |
| E-mail: | Endaleydabomb@hotmail.com |
| Country: | United States |
| Comments: | I have just been diagnosed with BPD. I am a fifteen year old girl learning to deal with it and trying to educate myself about this. I was wondering if you could e-mail me some information on dealing with this. Thank you for your time. |
| Name: | John Parker |
| E-mail: | gibsea_106@excite.com |
| Country: | USA |
| Comments: | Hi Star. I first ran into you in Loo and learned so much from all the insight you shared. Good luck to you and yours. John |
| Name: | Lauren |
| E-mail: | minirammer@hotmail.com |
| Country: | England |
| Comments: | This is such a good website! I'm supposed to be writing an essay for skool, but this is much more interesting! |
| Name: | moriah |
| E-mail: | docgreenm@aol.com |
| Country: | usa |
| Comments: | i wish that i could put my thoughts into words like you do instead i feel like im just stuck with them |
| Name: | Jessie Hayden |
| E-mail: | jessiehayden@hotmail.com |
| Country: | United Arab Emirates |
| Comments: | Thanks so much for the information on your site. Most of what I read was a revelation to me. You obviously put a lot of work into it. I was hoping you could direct to a site for people/spouses/children/significant others living with people with BPD. Any information you could pass on to me would be greatly appreciated. |
| Name: | Jill Stemple |
| E-mail: | blue_jill@hotmail.com |
| Country: | Usa |
| Comments: | This site is great. I have BPD and i know just how important awareness is. Thank-you for sharing your life! |
| Name: | Alex |
| E-mail: | christopheralaska@hotmail.com |
| Country: | USA |
| Comments: | Hi Megan, It's me Alex, from Canada. You probably don't remember me but I just wanted to say how happy I am for you, about the baby and all. I wish you all the luck in the world. May it grow healthy, wealthy and strong and never find out your nickname on IRC used to be "Goddess of Fuck." Toodles, Alex |
| Name: | Deanne |
| E-mail: | sherrydeanne@yahoo.com |
| Country: | USA |
| Comments: | Hi :) Just wanted to say thanks for a wonderful web site and for sharing your journal. I enjoyed it very much. I hope everything is going well for you and the baby. Take care of yourself, Dea |
| Name: | holly |
| E-mail: | <dwestpha@pgtc.net> |
| Country: | usa |
| Comments: | dreambook-i love the sound of that. It's so much harder for some of us (bpd) to imagine a great life, much less live it. I'm working very hard to understand and take care of myself. You take care of yourself too! |
| Name: | holly |
| E-mail: | <dwestpha@pgtc.net> |
| Country: | usa |
| Comments: | I was searching,and found you. I've spent the last couple hours reading your journal and very,very,much understanding you.I too am borderline,I was diagnosed in fall of 99. i've been in therapy since.I am very fortunate to live in a area where there is a very good BPD group.I admire your strength to put this all out for us to share,it's very inspirational. I will definetely be back! we are not alone you and I.stay strong. |
| Name: | Tricia |
| E-mail: | tricia1331@aol.com |
| Country: | USA |
| Comments: | I am a mental helath tech. at an Inpatient mental health ward. I have a patient and now very dear firend that has BPD and I know of no way to help her. I am the only one she trusts to talk to and I don't know what to do for her. What has helped you? Thank you so much for your site. It was very enlightening for me. I want so much to help her. Any sugguestions you have would be greatly appreciated. Good luck and congratulations on all you have done with your life! Sincerely, Tricia |
| Name: | Sarah |
| E-mail: | sarahgri@interlog.com |
| Country: | Canada |
| Comments: | I was just recently diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder. They've put me on an 8-month waiting list for Dialectical Behavioural Therapy - I'm worried what will happen to me in the meantime. I've been on and off a total of seven different medications, and have probably seen at least fifteen doctors in the past 3 years. It's been a mess. Only cutting stops the pain at times. |
| Name: | Jasmeet chhabra` |
| E-mail: | jasmeet@techcapindia.com |
| Country: | India |
| Comments: | I was generally surfing the net on loneliness and emptiness, hoping to find the mystical difference between the dubtle and sublime of the mundane and the virtual....and I get to your page. I read yor diary though I am always scared to show mine for fear of making heard, my true self...but your courage inspires me. Let me tell you, one good reason in being a borderline case is that you have the privilege of peeping into bothe the worlds, a privilege denied to mortal beings. Keep up the good work and do mail at leisure....maybe we have soemthing to share by way of our singular existences. |
| Name: | Allie |
| E-mail: | Alliem316@aol.com |
| Country: | USA |
| Comments: | I just wanted to thank you for putting your journal up here for everyone to read...I could never do that...I give you mad props. So anyway, I've been reading through it for the past few days, and everything you say in it makes me feel better because I totally relate to you. It's like "Holy shit this person feels exactly the same way I do about everything...Somebody understands me!!! somebody understands the feeling of being out of control angry...that feeling where you just want to bang your head up against a wall...and then the feelings of guilt that come after. And that feeling of "I hate you, don't leave me" And the sadness, and the desperation, and the anger, and the fear, and the hatred, and just the moodiness in general. When I was reading, I felt like I knew you...I just really appreciate you going out of your way to air your private business, a lot of it things I would never be able to tell anyone, let alone the world...So keep writing |
| Name: | dahlia |
| E-mail: | ttl@uk.dreamcast.com |
| Country: | england |
| Comments: | i am also a 24 year old woman with bpd.....i'm currently on a quest to discover everything i can about bpd.....so thank-you for putting this site on-line....it must have taken a lot of courage...i just want to let you know that it is appreciated. |