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| In Memory of:: | Taylor Mathew Grosso |
| Your Name: | Anna |
| Relationship: | friend |
| Memoriam: | Taylor was a sweet, thoughtful, and beautiful little boy when I knew him. Unfortunately, his father was often angry and/or depressed. Taylor died six years ago this month. He did not deserve to suffer. I only know of one friend he had during his last years of life (Julia). Where are his other friends? |
| In Memory of:: | Taylor Matthew Grosso |
| Your Name: | Jeff T. |
| Relationship: | Fathers employee |
| Memoriam: | I didn't know Taylor but I worked for his father.I was witness to this disease that he speaks of.Taylors father loved him more than I have ever seen before ,agonizing daily over his death.I sincerly hope Trevor works through his grief..This is in memory of Taylor |
| In Memory of:: | todd jay crowell |
| Your Name: | friends |
| Memoriam: | you were talking of suicide the day we first met you. It took you a couple years to do it. We were all young and nieve enough to think you wouldn't ever go thru with it and you reassured us over and over that you were just kidding ,it was the pot or beer talking,you would say.
You were a sweet kind person who had many wonderful qualities that would have made you a great grownup. I wish that you could have conquered, that which made you do this. I'll never forget your laughter. |
| In Memory of:: | Thomas L Paulin |
| Your Name: | Marlene Ganz Paulin |
| Relationship: | Husband |
| Memoriam: | Just sitting here thinking of going up to the cemetary to take the old flowers and put new ones up
I am the only one that does it I was the only one who did everything for you when you was here The first time I met you my heart melted and the ache for you will never go away I will forever cherish the memories of our time together the good ones and the bad ones and never stop wishing one more day with you I love you so much and miss you every minute I am so glad you asked me to Marry you after living together for 34 years and I remember your face how happy you were,til we are together again my love your wife Marlene |
| In Memory of:: | Thomas L Paulin |
| Your Name: | Marlene Ganz Paulin |
| Relationship: | husband |
| Memoriam: | Just sitting thinking of you like I do always,I still missing you
in 4 months you will be gone 8 years I know you are in a better place and free of pain The pain never goes away for me you were my FOREVER LOVE to live with someone for 35 years and to lose them it must take forever to get over them I will always love you and one day soon we will be together soon til then my love your wife Marlene |
| In Memory of:: | William Charles James |
| Your Name: | Carol |
| Relationship: | Fiance |
| Memoriam: | Will,
Although it's been almost 4 years now I still think of you daily. A song will come on that reminds me of you or I'll see someone who might look like you. I miss you. You were a good person with alot of problems that you couldn't solve. I wish you had the strength too because we could have had a good life. I know you are somewhere out there, maybe near a lake with a gentle breeze catching fish. Just remember, I did love you and if you were here today, I still would! I don't blame myself totally anymore. Although I still feel somewhat responsible. I hope you know that it wasn't easy on me. I felt I had stress everywhere I turned. If you would have just been patient, everything would have worked out. I know you are in a better place, when that day comes for me, I hope you welcome me with open arms. Love you~ |
| In Memory of:: | Stefan Gaydos |
| Your Name: | Megan |
| Relationship: | Girlfriend |
| Memoriam: | It's been two years since you've been gone. I still think about you every day, and I can't help but wonder what happened and why you left me. I wonder if you think about me and if you're here with me. I miss you and those beautiful blue eyes and your blinding smile. |
| In Memory of:: | Stefan Gaydos |
| Your Name: | Megan |
| Relationship: | Girlfriend |
| Memoriam: | It's been two years since you've been gone. I still think about you every day, and I can't help but wonder what happened and why you left me. I wonder if you think about me and if you're here with me. I miss you and those beautiful blue eyes and your blinding smile. |
| In Memory of:: | Garvey Muchael Sutor/Stefan Andrew Gaydos |
| Your Name: | a friend |
| Relationship: | Dating/Friends. |
| Memoriam: | Its been so long since i have seen you both. Each day i wonder why i still wake up and keep going on without the both of you, but i know that im gonna live my life with you both in mind, heart, and spirit. A great impact has been made in my life when i lost not one but both of you to such a cruel thing. You both had so much going for you, and you both took it before it was time. I know you are smiling down on me, and im gonna look back up cause i know you both are there. I love you both so much but its come a time where i need to let go and remember god does work in mysterious ways. This wasnt the way for either of you to go, but i can not change the past. I love you both, with everything i have<3 |
| In Memory of:: | Guillermo Arroyave |
| Your Name: | Mia |
| Relationship: | daughter |
| Memoriam: | Daddy,
I miss you so much: our trips to Rite-Aid, to the doctors, to the ATM, to run errands. I miss the passion in us when we discussed politics or the world situation. I miss you voice, your smell, your touch. I miss reading Pablo Neruda to you. I have to believe that you are happy and well, wherever you are. I wish you would come to visit me. Someday we will meet and things will be o.k. I didn't realize how much "direction" you gave me. Your organization, your sense. your genius, your achievements, your taste were just some of the things I admired so much in you. I try to emulate you, but I will never even come close. I hope that doesn't disappoint you. We are all different. Thank you for spending so much time with me, especially your last days. Thank you for thanking me for all I did for you. Sometimes it was annoying, but never a burden, and all that I did for you I did because I love you so much. I have your asher and I light a veladora often for you. The urn is sitting between two wooden cats that you gave me. I believe one was from Thailand, where you were highly honored by the prince. The world changed and will reamin forever changed because of your work. It is a better place. Less children will be blind and lead happier, more productive lives. You are immortal! L love you so much, Mia |
| In Memory of:: | Kyah |
| Your Name: | kyah@hushmail.com |
| Relationship: | http://lacret.uw.hu/lady-in-the-water/ipod-movie.html |
| Memoriam: | Wonderful and informative web site. I used information from that sites hd dvd ... screenplay ... its great. |
| In Memory of:: | Matthew H. |
| Your Name: | n. |
| Relationship: | friend |
| Memoriam: | i miss you always matt! i know ill see you again&im glad that you no longer suffer here.i am sorry i couldnt help more...my love is with you always,n. |
| In Memory of:: | Christiana Park-Markert |
| Your Name: | Michelle |
| Relationship: | Friend |
| Memoriam: | I'm so sorry, Christiana. I wish I could have done something to help you. I knew you were hurting, but I didn't know what to do. If only you knew how many holes you would leave in so many lives. I will miss you so much. |
| In Memory of:: | Thomas L Paulin |
| Your Name: | Marlene Ganz Paulin |
| Relationship: | Wife |
| Memoriam: | Happy Birthday you would of been 72 today there is not a day goes by I do not think of you
I will always love you |
| In Memory of:: | Thomas L Paulin |
| Your Name: | Marlene Ganz Paulin |
| Relationship: | Wife |
| Memoriam: | HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU WOULD OF BEEN 72 TOMORROW I MISS YOU EVERY DAY
I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU |
| In Memory of:: | Daddy |
| Your Name: | your daughter |
| Memoriam: | Daddy it's been such a long time since I seen your face or heard your voice. I used to count the days since I last hugged you, but its been so long now. I finally do not have to do this... all part of the healing.I remember the good things and good times and it brings such happiness to my heart to have been with you. I wish you were here, I wish I could see your face just once more. Every time I see a fallen star that is what I wish for, just to see your face for a moment. I am thankful for all the memories we shared together, they make me who I am today. You were a great dad and you are always with me.My sons are getting so big, I wish you were here with us.Love you Daddy |
| In Memory of:: | Dad |
| Your Name: | Luke |
| Relationship: | son |
| Memoriam: | thinkin of u |
| In Memory of:: | bahea |
| Your Name: | akal@akak.com |
| Relationship: | http://www.bodrumoteller.org/ |
| Memoriam: | avşa otelleri -
avşa pansiyon - Lida Dai Dai Hua Jiao Nang Seo Yarışması - video - alanya otelleri - kapadokya otelleri - pamukkale pansiyon - alanya pansiyon - antalya otelleri - antalya pansiyon - ayvalık pansiyon - bodrum otelleri - bodrum pansiyon - didim pansiyon - fethiye otel - fethiye pansiyon - istanbul otel - istanbul pansiyon - kapadokya pansiyon - kaplıca otel - kemer pansiyon - kuşadası otel - kuşadası pansiyon - marmaris pansiyon - marmaris otel - side pansiyon - tatil köyleri - termal otel - ucuz pansiyon - ucuz pansiyonlar |
| In Memory of:: | William Matthew Lehman |
| Your Name: | Heather |
| Relationship: | Sister & Best Friend |
| Memoriam: | I'm so sorry that we didn't know about bipolar breaks. We always joked about you being bipolar but we didn't really know what it meant. I'm so sorry for calling the cops and not knocking you or something.I now understand why you ran towards the gun. I'm so sorry I didn't get it. But now that I have been diagnosed with Bipolar disorder I understand you couldn't help it and you were hurting so much and we didn't get it. I'm so sorry. I miss you so much and I'm lost without you. 6 years feels like yesterday. |
| In Memory of:: | Uncle Jeff |
| Your Name: | Jenny |
| Relationship: | Niece |
| Memoriam: | I love you and miss you Uncle Jeff. I could really use your help now. Hopefully, I will see you soon...if I'm as brave as you were... |
| In Memory of:: | Morris Wayne Miles |
| Your Name: | Paula Miles |
| Relationship: | Wife |
| Memoriam: | The day I met you was the luckiest day of my life. You were my pretty man with the pretty blue eyes. You were my buddy, my pal, my lover, my friend, my heart, my soul. I loved you, I adored you, I enjoyed you, I admired you. You were my everything and I miss you terribly. It has been three weeks now and I still think that I will wake up from this nightmare and you will walk through the door and bathe me in the light of your beautiful smile. I cannot say goodbye, but until we meet again, I love you baby. |
| In Memory of:: | James Pirretti |
| Your Name: | Jennifer Golenski |
| Relationship: | cousin |
| Memoriam: | around this time of year, I think of you, James. You were and are so special to us all , I will always miss your crazy humor, quirky affectionism, and your spirit I miss, although I truly believe sometimes once, in a blue moon, it shows itself. Perhaps it is my imagination, perhaps not. God Bless you and your brothers, mom , and family, I miss your brothers, too.They are welcomed to call or e-mail me if they see this, I love you all. |
| In Memory of:: | Thomas L Paulin |
| Your Name: | Marlene Ganz Paulin |
| Relationship: | Wife |
| Memoriam: | The holidays are here once again
Its been 8 years of Thanksgiving and Christmas without you There is not a day that goes by I do not think of you The Holidays has never been the same since you left The Girls are so Big I just wish you could see them you would be proud I am not alone Chris is with me Thank God For our Grandson I know you have no more Pain and that you are at peace its the ones you left behind that grieves for you Til we are once together again Your wife Marlene |
| In Memory of:: | Thomas L Paulin |
| Your Name: | Marlene Ganz Paulin |
| Relationship: | Wife |
| Memoriam: | the holidays will be here again and once again its not same without you
for 7 Thanksgiving no one bother to come around but I still cook I know if you were here you would be here with me and Chris its a shame how Children treats their Parent who gave them life I understand every day how you felt and I wish you were not so weak You let them win when you took your life you see they can not make me do what you did I am in control and I dont do what they want anymore you see they tried to convince me you did not love me but you and I know better no one can ever tell me you did not love me as I know you did and now that you are gone no can ever hurt me again I just wish you would of been a stronger person you see I think you were the best thing that happen to me and I was the best thing happen to you and now no one can ever take you away from me again Because you are with me always and I remember what you said to me July 15 2001 And I remember what you said the night when we got married I will always love you and you will be the last face I see when I die I wish everyday you and I would be together and soon we will be but I will not do what you did as I am a stronger person until we meet again I will always have you on my mind I will always Love you The girls are getting so big you would of been proud of them Chris is here with me and He is such a good Grandson you would of been proud of him too Your wife Marlene |
| In Memory of:: | Conor Keegan |
| Your Name: | Mary Keegan |
| Relationship: | Mother of Conor |
| Memoriam: |
Our world is a different place without you, a better place because you were here..... love you forever. |
| In Memory of:: | Stefan Gaydos |
| Your Name: | Zach |
| Relationship: | One of my best friends |
| Memoriam: | Stefan, Wow, it's been well over a year, and I still miss you a lot. I believe I understand why you had to leave us so suddenly at this point, but I wish I could've helped you more than I had.
I understand I only knew you for a few months, but that doesn't mean anything. I believe we had something that only a few people find in life. A very good friendship that started because of the beauty of music and creation. And I'm going to stick with music, and hopefully it will bring me to you someday, everything I write at this point, it's going out to you as a call to heaven. I love you Stefan. |
| In Memory of:: | Thomas L Paulin |
| Your Name: | Marlene Ganz Paulin |
| Relationship: | Wife |
| Memoriam: | I can not believe its 7 years you have been gone
I know how lonesome you were holiday after holiday goes by and they are not the same when you were here I sit here every holiday and no one come over only when they want something they call buts its too late I am done no one was here for me after you was kill yourself I was with you for 35 years then you ask me to marry you and we got married your sickness just took over as you could not bear with all that was going on you was the only man I truly loved and only death could seperate us but we will be together again I will always love you |
| In Memory of:: | Thomas L Paulin |
| Your Name: | Marlene Ganz Paulin |
| Relationship: | Wife |
| Memoriam: | I can not believe its seven years you have been gone
Things has not been the same no holiday will ever be the same without I sit here holiday afer holiday and no ones comes here only when they want something they do I know now how lonesome you were when they wanted something they called I remember the day they found you our daughter ask me if I would babysit I ask her did you hear from your father she said no I said to her you better check well they found you dead on her birthday I miss you everyday I was with you for 35 years and I remember when you ask me to marry you we had our share of problems But I loved you and you love me I remember our last night together and what you told me its sad I know you are at peace but I still wish you was here you are the only man I truly loved and I love you til this day the pain never goes away I know when I die your face will be the first I will see |
| In Memory of:: | Thomas L Paulin |
| Your Name: | Marlene Ganz Paulin |
| Relationship: | Wife |
| Memoriam: | I can not believe its seven years you have been gone
Things has not been the same no holiday will ever be the same without I sit here holiday afer holiday and no ones comes here only when they want something they do I know now how lonesome you were when they wanted something they called I remember the day they found you our daughter ask me if I would babysit I ask her did you hear from your father she said no I said to her you better check well they found you dead on her birthday I miss you everyday I was with you for 35 years and I remember when you ask me to marry you we had our share of problems But I loved you and you love me I remember our last night together and what you told me its sad I know you are at peace but I still wish you was here you are the only man I truly loved and I love you til this day the pain never goes away I know when I die your face will be the first I will see |
| In Memory of:: | Stephanie Head |
| Your Name: | Deanna |
| Relationship: | Friend |
| Memoriam: | I miss your beautiful smile. You were the sunshine that made everything ok...you are missed by soo many people. I swear you were an angel sent downt to help people. You are remembered and cherished everyday. I just wish you would have seen and felt the love people had for you. You were never alone although I know you felt it. I pray that your looking out for me and this world...we could use more angels like you. I miss you alot and wish I would have spent more time with you. You were amazing and I will never forget you and the fun times we had. I know God's happy he got one of his perfect angels back. Missing you girl! |
| In Memory of:: | Conor Keegan |
| Your Name: | Deanna |
| Relationship: | Friend |
| Memoriam: | As I sit here at 3 am thinking about you I wonder if you would regret the choice you made. I feel so guilty everyday about not being there enough for you. I miss you soo much it hurts my heart. It's been years now and Im almost 20...I wonder what you'd be doing now. I've come to learn that life's just not fair. I'm trying to get my life back on track although we both know I was never good at that...I'm doing this partially for you. I know you would have wanted me to and i hope to just make you proud. You will forever be in my heart! I love you sooo much and I hope you know it. I miss you Conor! |
| In Memory of:: | Christine |
| Your Name: | Beth |
| Relationship: | Mother |
| Memoriam: | Christine, you were a great daughter and Mom also. You left us with a huge hole in our hearts that no one can repair. We miss you terribly. I really wish you would have found it easier to live than to die. I will always love you and miss you Mizou.
June 3, 2008 |
| In Memory of:: | Timothy Phillips |
| Your Name: | Chip |
| Relationship: | brother |
| Memoriam: | I miss you so much timothy! I wish you were here to see what I'm doing with my life! I wish we could have spent more time together, doing the things brothers should do together instead to the bad stuff we used to do! hehe I celebrate your life every year around the time you took it, it's what gets me through. This year the celebration will be the biggest ever! you would be proud! I love you bro! please keep your wings over me! peace be with your soul! |
| In Memory of:: | Timothy Phillips |
| Your Name: | Chip |
| Relationship: | brother |
| Memoriam: | I miss you so much timothy! I wish you were here to see what I'm doing with my life! I wish we could have spent more time together, doing the things brothers should do together instead to the bad stuff we used to do! hehe I celebrate your life every year around the time you took it, it's what gets me through. This year the celebration will be the biggest ever! you would be proud! I love you bro! please keep your wings over me! peace be with your soul! |
| In Memory of:: | NATHAN FERRIAN |
| Your Name: | Jasamine Fronk |
| Relationship: | High School friend (I had the biggest crush on you, Nate) |
| Memoriam: | It will be 8 years since your death in just a couple weeks. You were and still are the most beautiful friend I have ever known. I will never get over you.
Nathan Ferrian, my sweetest friend... lost to suicide. 10-4-81 to 5-4-99 Not a day goes by that you are not in my heart and mind. I will always love you. His smile was brighter than the heavens, the most precious sense of love His hugs so warm and tender, seemingly sent from above The time he spent on earth... who knew it'd end so soon His death has brought us sorrow, has made us drown in gloom We laugh through all the memories, as they flood our very minds He didn't mean to hurt us, as he left us all behind He gave his whole heart to everyone he knew Only Nathan, our beautiful friend, could share a love that true There's no way we could forget him, to even try would be a task No, our loving remembrance of Nathan... will always, always last. I miss you so much. It brings me to tears just remembering the way you knew exactly how to make everything better... the way you could truly listen when I needed an ear... the laughter and smiles we shared so often. It breaks my heart that you are not still here. That I can't call you up to hear your voice or be embraced in one of your bear hugs... It hurts just as freshly today as it did the morning I found out that you were gone. You left so many people that loved you here. The amount of people you touched in your life is just ONE example of how wonderful you really were. I write this so you will know that you have not been forgotten, sweetie. Not by a long shot. I LOVE YOU. -Jasamine MissJassa@yahoo.com |
| In Memory of:: | Robert Foulkes |
| Your Name: | Lisa Collins |
| Relationship: | Friends, young love |
| Memoriam: | Robert, I wanted to wish you a happy 24th birthday. Only today, 3 weeks later, have I been able to face loooking into bipolar disorder which I always suspected you suffered from but only found out you had been diagnosed with after your death. So many things fall into place like a jigsaw puzzle, and I worry about the recent years we spent apart on bad terms. I feel so guilty for not being able to stay in a relationship with you, sometimes I wonder if anything I did was a breaking point in your short life. I can only take some small comfort that we were able to email each other a few months before and that you told me you were happy that I was doing well.
You were a such a spirited young man, its so hard to believe that this was what you felt you needed to do to find peace. Spontaneous trips to america with no suitcase, running on stage to dance with iggy pop, joining the merchant navy and sailing around the world.. I always felt sad that you had put your karate career on hold, you had such talent. I found out at your funeral that you had opened your own karate club, at 23 you had fulfilled your lifes ambition. Robert, your life was short, but it was a full one. I will always hold memories of you close to my heart, I only wish this life could have given you a better run. Lisa |
| In Memory of:: | Anthony David Eynon |
| Your Name: | Kathy |
| Relationship: | mother |
| Memoriam: | Bubba, you know I would have always been there to help you through anything.Why didnt you let me help you this time? I am suffering from a broken heart, and it feels like it will never ever heal.I know you arent in any more pain, and thats the only thing that gets me through the day. Your brother..and your uncle are hurting more than I have ever seen them hurt. You had so many people who loved you. You touched so many lives. I am going to miss you, baby boy..for the rest of my life. I love you, Mom |
| In Memory of:: | Anthony David Eynon |
| Your Name: | Kathy |
| Relationship: | mother |
| Memoriam: | Bubba, you know I would have always been there to help you through anything.Why didnt you let me help you this time? I am suffering from a broken heart, and it feels like it will never ever heal.I know you arent in any more pain, and thats the only thing that gets me through the day. Your brother..and your uncle are hurting more than I have ever seen them hurt. You had so many people who loved you. You touched so many lives. I am going to miss you, baby boy..for the rest of my life. I love you, Mom |
| In Memory of:: | Thomas L Paulin |
| Your Name: | Marlene Ganz Paulin |
| Relationship: | wife |
| Memoriam: | I think I will be with you very soon as I just can not take this life any more .
I know each day my life is slipping away I will not commit suicide,but I am dying slowing from a broken heart I lost you to pills and now I am losing the will to live we fought so hard to survive,but you lost your will to live and the stress is to much to take I just hope we will be together again soon I know now why you did what you did the pain is gone and soon the pain will be gone for me I loved you with all my heart and soul and damn the people who did not try to help you and May God forgive them see you soon Love you always Your wife Marlene |
| In Memory of:: | Richard Allen Fortino |
| Your Name: | Steve |
| Relationship: | brother |
| In Memory of:: | Thomas L Paulin |
| Your Name: | Marlene Ganz Paulin |
| Relationship: | wife |
| Memoriam: | Just sitting here listening to the music and wishing you were here
and wishing all the people who hurt you for God to forgive them I know you are at peace but there isnt a moment of a day I do not think of you I know deep down how you sufferd and I do not wish this on anyone I was with you in life and I am with you in Death My life will go on but my love for you will never go away til the day I am with you again I am sure as the air I breath you are with your dear Mom and your Aunt Dot as she loved you as I did for better or worse I knew her as I knew My family and loved both of them as they were My Mom and Aunt too And Your cousin Frank and His Mom are once again are together with her husband and her son I also wanted you to know you were Loved so much no one or anything could keep us apart but Death til I see you again I will always keep the light on for you in My heart Say Hello to My mom, your Mom, your Dad, My Dad ,Gary,your Aunt Dot ,my Aunt Dot,Aunt Maude, Aunt Jessie,Grandmom Ganz,Grandma Urban,Grandpa Damage Uncle Casey Frank,Grandpa Ganz,Grandpa Urban,Sonny and Harry for me Love you always your wife always Marlene |
| In Memory of:: | Thomas L Paulin |
| Your Name: | Marlene Ganz Paulin |
| Relationship: | Wife |
| Memoriam: | ganz_m1@msn.com |
| In Memory of:: | Thomas L Paulin |
| Your Name: | Marlene Ganz Paulin |
| Relationship: | Wife |
| Memoriam: | I was just sitting here thinking of you like I do very often and was reading the others who took their life
My heart goes out to all of them I came across some wrote about you He or she did not leave their Name I guess they knew us and I am glad someone knew I made you happy as you made me happy I guess they did not want to leave their name,but who ever it was if you want any info about Tom as I called him and the friend called him Tommy I agree he really loved Betty and never got over the hurt she put him thru He moved on but he always had the fear it would happen again they was very young and he got over her and made a new life with me and My children and always stayed in touch with his Mom and children over the years Yes he did want to get away from his sister But he was a good father to all his children and mine even his grand children my email is below I was with him for 35 years and married him the last year and a half of his life I miss him every day and I know I will be with him when its my time and if there another life I know I will be with him again I think I know who you are we had a cook out over His aunt Dot and you were there She just passed away last Month At 92 She was a good Lady like Tom,s mom they were sisters and they married brothers from Canada he was a good man too Well I gues I will go to bed and I am glad I read the nice things that was said I hope to see you soon Tom if ther was a stairway to heaven I would of been ther already to drop in to say hello and tell you how much you was loved by all of us Your wife forever Marlene ganz_m1@msn.com |
| In Memory of:: | Thomas L Paulin |
| Your Name: | Marlene Ganz Paulin |
| Relationship: | Wife |
| Memoriam: | I was just sitting here thinking of you like I do very often and was reading the others who took their life
My heart goes out to all of them I came across some wrote about you He or she did not leave their Name I guess they knew us and I am glad someone knew I made you happy as you made me happy I guess they did not want to leave their name,but who ever it was if you want any info about Tom as I called him and the friend called him Tommy I agree he really loved Betty and never got over the hurt she put him thru He moved on but he always had the fear it would happen again they was very young and he got over her and made a new life with me and My children and always stayed in touch with his Mom and children over the years Yes he did want to get away from his sister But he was a good father to all his children and mine even his grand children my email is below I was with him for 35 years and married him the last year and a half of his life I miss him every day and I know I will be with him when its my time and if there another life I know I will be with him again I think I know who you are we had a cook out over His aunt Dot and you were there She just passed away last Month At 92 She was a good Lady like Tom,s mom they were sisters and they married brothers from Canada he was a good man too Well I gues I will go to bed and I am glad I read the nice things that was said I hope to see you soon Tom if ther was a stairway to heaven I would of been ther already to drop in to say hello and tell you how much you was loved by all of us Your wife forever Marlene |
| In Memory of:: | Garvey Michael Sutor |
| Your Name: | Kaylee |
| Relationship: | ex girlfriend |
| Memoriam: | I miss you so much.
It will be two years in May and its so hard to believe you are still gone. I want to be able walk to your house and you to still be there, but I know it can never happen. I just hope that you are doing great and that you are happy. We all miss you down here! |
| In Memory of:: | Stefan Gaydos |
| Your Name: | Jackie |
| Relationship: | my older brother |
| Memoriam: | I've been feeling three feet tall this month,
hardly indestructable, but the snow melts, and the rhythm still goes on. an angel got his wings, and we'll hold our heads up knowing that he's fine. we'd all be lucky to have a love like that in a lifetime. friends stay side by side, in life and death you've always stole my heart, you'll always mean so much to me, it's hard to believe this. |
| In Memory of:: | Jeremy Dorfman |
| Your Name: | Pippa Dorfman |
| Relationship: | My brother |
| Memoriam: | Dear Mima,
It was five years ago exactly, since you took your life. What demons must have seized you in that moment of chaos...madness? I wish I could have been there to tell you no. It is so hard for us to understand what you went through, it just isn't fair. You brilliant young man, I love you so much, I know you are not living on with me in this life but I feel you. Your memory and your energy lives on with me bro. I always looked up to you as an older brother and role model and I still look up to you as the brightest star in the sky as that you were in your life; the brightest star. To me, you are still alive. I know you are at peace now. I love you mima. Feel free to show me some signs more often that you are watching over me, I will try harder to listen and watch. Love you forever....always, your sis, Pip |
| In Memory of:: | Tommy Paulin |
| Your Name: | Friend |
| Relationship: | Friend |
| Memoriam: | I was on this site and saw your name,can not believe what I read.
I knew you when you were married to Betty,you took it so bad. Then you went with a girl from keport or middletown that did not last long. You was still hung up on Betty. Then you went with a Dot I knew you and her but you was still hung up on Betty. Then I seen Our Friend Eddie and he said you met someone else,and been with here her for a very long time I think I met her when we did that painting job in that shopping center in flemington. She always bought you lunch to the job in fact she knew the lady who gave you the job. You looked happier than I ever seen you in years. I think she had 2 or 3 children ,I think some one told me you moved to fl,then I seen Eddie and he said you was living in lakewood then Toms River as you had to get away from your sister. Then I see you again at great adventure and a red head baby there you ask me if I ever met you wife. I said yes when we painting the shopping center she sure was a very pretty woman,and you said she took very good care of . you also told me it took you and her 10 years to have a baby she has to be at least 28 0r 29 now. I remember when you got drunk you kept saying you wanted to get out of jersey so you could get away from your sister. she was always saying bad things about your family and how bad she was treating your Mom. I knew your sister a little she was always on your children from Betty and she would alway call you a bum I myself thought you was doing pretty good you had a nice wife and the chidren,s adored you. I knew you for so many years never seen you so happy I think Marlene was the best thing happen to you,I read what she wrote on this site,and she really seems she missie you. Well friend mybe we will meet again a differnt life MAY REST IN Peace your friend |
| In Memory of:: | Tommy Paulin |
| Your Name: | Friend |
| Relationship: | Friend |
| Memoriam: | I was on this site and saw your name,can not believe what I read.
I knew you when you were married to Betty,you took it so bad. Then you went with a girl from keport or middletown that did not last long. You was still hung up on Betty. Then you went with a Dot I knew you and her but you was still hung up on Betty. Then I seen Our Friend Eddie and he said you met someone else,and been with here her for a very long time I think I met her when we did that painting job in that shopping center in flemington. She always bought you lunch to the job in fact she knew the lady who gave you the job. You looked happier than I ever seen you in years. I think she had 2 or 3 children ,I think some one told me you moved to fl,then I seen Eddie and he said you was living in lakewood then Toms River as you had to get away from your sister. Then I see you again at great adventure and a red head baby there you ask me if I ever met you wife. I said yes when we painting the shopping center she sure was a very pretty woman,and you said she took very good care of . you also told me it took you and her 10 years to have a baby she has to be at least 28 0r 29 now. I remember when you got drunk you kept saying you wanted to get out of jersey so you could get away from your sister. she was always saying bad things about your family and how bad she was treating your Mom. I knew your sister a little she was always on your children from Betty and she would alway call you a bum I myself thought you was doing pretty good you had a nice wife and the chidren,s adored you. I knew you for so many years never seen you so happy I think Marlene was the best thing happen to you,I read what she wrote on this site,and she really seems she missie you. Well friend mybe we will meet again a differnt life MAY REST IN Peace your friend |
| In Memory of:: | Alcide G. Paquette-pepere` |
| Your Name: | Jon Paquette |
| Relationship: | grandfather |
| Memoriam: | pepere` it's been 20 years,since we had our last christmas together. you got me a scooter that year.it was red and white.i was almost 8years old.then,came srping,and it was a brisk,but clear day. when i heard by my mother that something was wrong,it didn't enter my mind,that i wouldn't be able to see you again.You were supposed to turn 61 that august 13th.but,on Arpil 14th,of '88 you could no longer be here.Little did anyone know,that you knew that before that day had occured. i have missed you,very much,since then.The man you were when you were here,far surpasses the way you left us.as I got older,I took on your traits more and more. i always related to your pain more than others.you were a wonderful grandfather to me and my sister and cousins. I speak of your memory,with great pride and lots of tears,wishing that you knew how much we loved you. I wear your old scarf,during the winter.it makes me feel that you are there with me.There is not a day that goes by, that i don't think about you, or mention an old story about you to my friends.thank you,Pepere`. i never got a chance to say how much i love you and what you have built for you're 5 kids and grandkids.i wish you were here to enjoy it. I will always honor you're memory.I love you,pepere` |
| In Memory of:: | Thomas L Paulin |
| Your Name: | Marlene Ganz Paulin |
| Relationship: | Wife |
| Memoriam: | Today would of been your Birthday you would of been 71
I just came from the Cemetery where I put flowers on your grave. I can not believe you have been gone 6 years and 5 months. I miss you I remember all the good times we had with the kids when they were small. I remember all the trips we took to N.J, disney world,Bush Garden,Sea world,Parrot Jungle,Graceland in Tn.and so many more places. I also remember all the fishing we used to do you was not sick then we had bad times too but we had more good than bad I also remember what you told me that Sunday four days before you took your life. And I was glad you told me what you told me and I told you the same I just wish you were here but I know you are at peace its the People you leave behind that are still hurting because you are gone I will always love you Marlene Ganz Paulin |
| In Memory of:: | Thomas L Paulin |
| Your Name: | Elayne |
| Relationship: | POP~POP |
| Memoriam: | POP-POP i miss you so much. If i even think about u fo a second mi eyes start to get watery. I missed u so much on thanxgiving wen u use to cut the turnapes. Now that u arent things have changed so much we dont do all of our traditions. I wish dat mi new baby sister sophia would have met u. i think she would have rele loved u. she kinda reminds me of fo some reason. n mayb if u was still here mi mommy wouldnt act the way she did she would b so much happier. WELL I GOT TO GO TO BED IM IN HIGH SCHOOL NOW GOT TO WAKE UP AT 5 LOL. I L0VE Y0 S0 MUCH POP~POP |
| In Memory of:: | Alfred Meyers |
| Your Name: | Marilyn |
| Relationship: | Best Friend |
| Memoriam: | I know it has been 22 yrs ago but it feels like you are still here near me, i wish I knew what I know now, maybe we could haved worked together on your problem from all the pressure of life, but honey you are still in my heart and think of you each day knowing that god is with you and at peace , but i miss you so much, to this day I think alot about you and someday we will be together again. For now though you will always be in my heart and I know you see me everyday from that beautiful paradise and sitting there with our heavenly father, I miss you and still love you forever, Marilyn |
| In Memory of:: | teddy |
| Your Name: | s |
| Relationship: | sis |
| Memoriam: | i love you always and forever - i miss you - the holidays are around again and i can't stop thinking of you - i think of you and pray that you are resting in peace - it's been over 2 years now and nothing has been the same since you have left my world. peace out bro......... love, me |
| In Memory of:: | Christopher Gus Sikalis |
| Your Name: | Tiffany |
| Memoriam: | Theres not a day that goes by that your children and I dont think and talk about you...I thought that after time that your loss would become easier and thats just not true. I really never understood what you were going through until I was faced that Sunday 11/20/05 with the cold hard fact that you had taken your own life. I've been struggling to put your my life back together...its only been recent that I'm not feeling that outer body experience anymore where you keep going but everything feels like its pretend. It's been very hard...your pictures and short videos that we took when you were with us kept me going for some time but I go through phases where I just can't bear the loss. I am remarried now to a man that I think that you would choose to take your place...I am tryin so hard not to dishonor you in your death. I stand up for you all the time when my family tells me that you treated me bad...I tell them that you were an awesome husband and a great dad, that you had a disease, when not medicated was hard to cope with and ultimately took your life. I tried to help you and think that you know that now...I know that I was no angel but I never wanted your life to end so soon. My heart breaks when I think back to the day...and I had been living in fear for so long that I just wanted you gone...really I just wanted your disease gone...Your were my soul mate and I would have stood by you til the end, but I also had to seperate us for fear that your rage would overcome you and end up taking me or God forbid, one of your own children....You see one dad you told me about a medication that you had gotten from your dr. that made you feel high and you said that you felt as though you had no conscience(good or bad), and at the same point in time you had been talking about suicide. I went behind your back and called your dr. and told her what you told me and she wouldnt stop the prescription. I even told her that it made you even more aggressive...and she said that she wasnt able to treat your bipolar and that she couldnt force you to get help for it...I wanted her to take you off the kolonopin and put you on what worked, your depicote...No one would listen because you had everyone so turned against me that they thought that I was just tryin to control you...The guilt that I was unable to help you is so great. I will always love you and your children and I will carry your memory in our hearts forever...Chris, I pray that your soul rests with the Lord now. I know that the Bible says that people who commit suicide are suppose to spend their eternity in hell, but I know your heart and I know that God's a Good God...my Faith stays in Him and I do not believe that He gives Salvation to take it back...I know that you love God but that you struggled with a disease that comes from hell...well we will all see who has the last laugh when we are all reunited in Heaven with our Savior...I loved you then, now and will forever and have devoted my life to raising your children to love and serve the Lord, that they will be reuinited with again in Heaven also...We love you...Rest in peace!!! Tiffany |
| In Memory of:: | james Deanda |
| Your Name: | courtney Newell |
| Relationship: | friend |
| Memoriam: | this is to him, Josh, Tiff, Keane,and devin. we were all in the same circle. we always said we couldnt live with out eachother.
i guess its true. soon my name will be up here to |
| In Memory of:: | Dad |
| Your Name: | Nancy |
| Relationship: | Daughter |
| Memoriam: | There is no more noise
There is no more Free from noise |
| In Memory of:: | Dad |
| Your Name: | Nancy |
| Relationship: | Daughter |
| Memoriam: | There is no more noise
There is no more Free from noise |
| In Memory of:: | Christopher |
| Your Name: | Brittany |
| Relationship: | Friend |
| Memoriam: | Christopher, I miss you more than ever as each day passes. You are in my thoughts every second. I miss you my love as I experience new things without your laughter in my ear beside me. I know you are looking down on me and you are with Peaches and Leib all together probably having fun. But down here we miss all of you especially you Christopher- you were the first and the hardest. I see your brothers and sister and your broken family and can't even fathom how you could do this to them. I miss you every waking moment and dream that we are togehter in my dreams. The Corinthians said to give each other a holy kiss when you meet and I can't wait to meet again...I love you babe!!!!! Keep smiling |
| In Memory of:: | Benjamin John Cunico |
| Your Name: | Kristy J Wood |
| Relationship: | Love of Eachothers Lives |
| Memoriam: | We were 2 gether 4 2yrs,U asked me to marry u on our 2yr anv. I regretfuly said no, U Tryed 4 my had 4 10yrs U said from the begining "if i cant have u theres no reson 4 me to live n 10 years of trying 4 my hand u did just that".. U left a son n all who loved u do to heart break n bing convenced ur "better off down there then w/out me". I so have loved u always n always will,I cant help but fill the blame 4 this,but what ever happed,happens 4 a reason,i come 2 understand.. U are ment 4 greater thing that we may not all understand but i know i will see u agin some day n a sweet connection it will b 4 us agin, i know u watch over me,ur son and family n friends n thank you 4 that.. I hope ur heavy heart has been lifted n lighten w/love agin, always urs hun with luvzzz mwahzz ~~I DO MISS N LOVE U BEN~~
June 6 1977 - October 20 2003 2am-3:30am PG Ut.(26yrs) |
| In Memory of:: | Benjamin John Cunico |
| Your Name: | Kristy J Wood |
| Relationship: | Love of Eachothers Lives |
| Memoriam: | We were 2 gether 4 2yrs,U asked me to marry u on our 2yr anv. I regretfuly said no, U Tryed 4 my had 4 10yrs U said from the begining "if i cant have u theres no reson 4 me to live n 10 years of trying 4 my hand u did just that".. U left a son n all who loved u do to heart break n bing convenced ur "better off down there then w/out me". I so have loved u always n always will,I cant help but fill the blame 4 this,but what ever happed,happens 4 a reason,i come 2 understand.. U are ment 4 greater thing that we may not all understand but i know i will see u agin some day n a sweet connection it will b 4 us agin, i know u watch over me,ur son and family n friends n thank you 4 that.. I hope ur heavy heart has been lifted n lighten w/love agin, always urs hun with luvzzz mwahzz ~~I DO MISS N LOVE U BEN~~ |
| In Memory of:: | Benjamin John Cunico |
| Your Name: | Kristy J Wood |
| Relationship: | Love of Eachothers Lives |
| Memoriam: | We were 2 gether 4 2yrs,U asked me to marry u on our 2yr anv. I regretfuly said no, U Tryed 4 my had 4 10yrs U said from the begining "if i cant have u theres no reson 4 me to live n 10 years of trying 4 my hand u did just that".. U left a son n all who loved u do to heart break n bing convenced ur "better off down there then w/out me". I so have loved u always n always will,I cant help but fill the blame 4 this,but what ever happed,happens 4 a reason,i come 2 understand.. U are ment 4 greater thing that we may not all understand but i know i will see u agin some day n a sweet connection it will b 4 us agin, i know u watch over me,ur son and family n friends n thank you 4 that.. I hope ur heavy heart has been lifted n lighten w/love agin, always urs hun with luvzzz mwahzz ~~I DO MISS N LOVE U BEN~~ |
| In Memory of:: | william edward littleton |
| Your Name: | sue littleton |
| Relationship: | mother |
| Memoriam: | Edward I KNOW THE LAST FEW YEARS WERE WAS NO LIFE FOR YOU. THE BIPOLAR HAD TAKEN YOUR LIFE OVER AND THE THINGS YOU LIKE TO DO. LIKE RUNNING YOUR TRUCK THU THE MUD HUNTING GOING IN THE WOODS VISITING YOUR FRIENDS YOU COULD NOT DO ANYMORE BECAUSE YOU WERE AFRAID TO COME OUT THE HOUSE .THOSE WORDS I HEARD THAT MORNING APRIL 23 2006 I WILL NEVER FORGET .I KNOW THE PAIN YOU WERE IN BECAUSE YOU TOLD ME EVERY THING I THOUGHT .THE ONLY PEACE I HAVE NOW IS KNOwing you have your mind and can live again .i miss you and think of you every min the tears flow for you all the time. I TRY TO GO ON KNOWING i WILL SEE YOU AGAIN YOU WOULD NOT WANT ME LIKE THIS BUT I TRY .THE KIDS ARE THE REASON I GO ON .PUNKIE IS A REAL SOILDER BUB JESS SIS STILL HAVE PROBLEMS BUT EVERY ONE OF IS THERE FOR THEM. JOWUANA MIKIE ALL ARE THERE SO WE ALL GO ON IN OUR SAD WAY .THE KIDS MISS THE REDNECK KISSES BUT WE HAVE PEASE KNOWING YOUR NOT IN THE HELL YOU WERE IN HERE. REST IN PEASE BABA UNTILL I see you again love . you miss u mom |
| In Memory of:: | Staci Herd |
| Your Name: | Julie |
| Relationship: | friend |
| Memoriam: | I still remember the day you gave me the book "The Unquiet Mind." You told me it was the closest I could come to understanding the illness that ultimately took you away. I will never forget the summer on the lakes of Iowa, you on the jet ski with Nick (and his little pink lifejacket!). Your smile could light up a room and your laughter would make me smile over the phone. Your tears and your pain were real and I know you tried for so many years. I know you were tired. I understand. I only wish I could have said goodbye and to tell you the incredible impact you had on my life. I will always love you my sweetness. I am thankful you are at peace. Rest now love and be free of the pain..... |
| In Memory of:: | arron benson |
| Your Name: | nikie |
| Relationship: | friend |
| Memoriam: | arron you lost your life before you had stated it you had a great carrer ahead of you nd it was wasted |
| In Memory of:: | Stefan Gaydos |
| Your Name: | Megan |
| Relationship: | Boyfriend |
| Memoriam: | I tried so many times to help you and I wish that I could have saved you this time. I love you from the bottom of my heart.
I just wish you could've told me. |
| In Memory of:: | David LaLonde |
| Your Name: | Brad Weidman |
| Relationship: | Friend and Neighbor |
| Memoriam: | You chose to leave us in May of 1995. Now, 12 years later, I understand. Thank you for treating me like a brother. Thank you for sharing your love of the night sky, for watching out for me during football practice, and for laughing and smiling and being you. I regret that I did not know your pain; that I could not help.
Thank you for the short time you spent with us. Know that you still live in the memories of all who cared for you. You are missed. |
| In Memory of:: | Thomas L Paulin |
| Your Name: | Marlene Ganz Paulin |
| Relationship: | Wife |
| Memoriam: | I can't believe it been 6 years since you have been gone
I think of you everyday The girls are getting so big Elayne is going to high school this year and Jessie in Middle school Cynthia will be going to 2nd grade,she was only 14 months old when you died Elayne and Jessica remembers you and speaks of you often I will always love you ,we were together 35 years and we got married 15 months before you died I know you are at peace finally but I still miss you. Wife Marlene |
| In Memory of:: | Teddy |
| Your Name: | S. |
| Relationship: | little sis |
| Memoriam: | I can't believe it's been almost 2 years since you have gone. I have been thinking about you so much lately. I miss you like crazy and love you with all my heart. My tears are coming now so I wanted to be here with you. I pray that you have your peace. I love you bro..........forever, me. |
| In Memory of:: | Melanie |
| Your Name: | Cindy |
| Relationship: | Best Friend |
| Memoriam: | Melanie,
You were my best friend and only friend. We shared everything together. I miss you so much, I wish I could of done something to make you see that you were a special person amd you didn't deserve to die. I'll remember you in my heart forever and never let your memeory fade. |
| In Memory of:: | sean saccamango |
| Your Name: | dana venturo |
| Relationship: | cousin |
| Memoriam: | sean i wish u were here, i know u are watchin down on us and i know that u see what is goin on! john david is sick and i thought since u were in heaven maybe u have some pull with god and u could help johnny get through this! we all love u and miss u! please help john david, we could always count on u to keep us safe when u were here so now that u are gone i know ur still watchin us. i know u always got our back and i just pray that everything will be ok! we all love u n miss u lots and u are always on my mind and in my heart! i am sure u have seen but i wanted to let u know i got a tatoo in memory of u! u would love it! i know how much ur tats ment to u and i know u always had to hide them because of u i wear mine with pride and i will never hide them or who i am from any1. i thankyou for makin me a better person and for teachin me its ok to just be yourself. i will see u again one day and until then i will never forget all the time and happpiness we shared. i love u always sean and i miss u more and more everyday! i like in irwin again and i cant help but thinkin that if u were still alive i would see u alot more! we were always close and i hate not havin you in my life now! i will never forget u and i always hold u close to my heart! i hope ur living it up in heaven and i hope that u know that u were never alone even if it felt that way sometimes. losin u was the hardest thing i have ever gone throught and there is not one day one minute one second that i dont think about u! my mom and i have photos of u everywhere and i cant believe how long u have been gone already. i still cry for u and i think i always will. when i have kids they will hear all the storys about u and when i have a son he will be named for u! u will never be 4gotten by me by our family or by the many girls who are still in love with u! u were such a stud!! remember our trip to fl! ha ha that was good times and u were always my older cousin who always stuck up for me and always looked out for my best interest i wish i would of takin ur advice about boys but u'd be happy to know that i dont date losers anymore! ha ha and i will always love u! i miss u lots n i look forward to seein u again!! love u miss u kiss u!! ~dana lee! |
| In Memory of:: | dan |
| Your Name: | duff |
| Relationship: | just is |
| Memoriam: | hey you....thank you for sharing this journey, thank you for showing me that age is just a number and wisdom comes in all sizes and from all places (even new jersey), thank you for teaching me a thing or two and thank you for all the 'spirited discussions' ( ok they werent arguements )
Truthfully, at times when i felt unheard, thank you for your words of encouragement and understanding...and lessening my isolation and fears...I am grateful that we shared the path pup, grateful that you were who you were, nothing held back,the strength and the anxieties, glad that I saw your empathy at work and your growth into manhood, and I know now that you found your place of peace~~~~duff |
| In Memory of:: | Thomas L Paulin |
| Your Name: | Marlene Ganz Paulin |
| Relationship: | Wife |
| Memoriam: | Just missing you and wishing you were here
Our new Granddaughter is Beautiful She looks just like Our Daughter when she was a Baby The Girls are getting big and they just love their new sister Love You Always Marlene |
| In Memory of:: | Julianne Lea |
| Your Name: | Tim Fasano |
| Relationship: | Friend |
| Memoriam: | She was a special child of god who will be forever missed. To borrow from Donovin "She was a flowers gift to a garden." We love you Juli and will always hold you dear to our hearts. We regret that your only way out seemed to be this. Love Timmy |
| In Memory of:: | Julianne Lea |
| Your Name: | Tim Fasano |
| Relationship: | Girlfriend |
| Memoriam: | I miss you Julianne. My life is empty without you. I have not stopped crying since you left. When does that stop?
I am devastated that you were taken from me. I am angry that life was so hard to you. I did not know you were so unhappy. Life is very unkind. Not everyone is happy. It was hard to see you while your condition was degrading. You would not know it, however, from the pretty picture of you on this post. It was taken only two weeks before you died. That is how I will remember you. I will remember you full of life and warmth and kindness. I will remember the laughter and the love. I will remember the precious time we shared. I will remember your vitality and your grace, your noble spirit and kind heart and talent and your humorous essence that attracted me to you. Your death left a gaping hole in my life. But hard as it is to be without you, I take comfort in the knowledge that you are at last in peace and free of that terrible disease. I will not let you be forgotten. Many of your friends may be looking for you and I have started a website in your memory..Julianne1.homestead.com I am a photographer, so this blog is a photo essay of your life as much as I can with the images I have on hand. Rest in peace Julianne. I will always love you. God bless you. Amen. |
| In Memory of:: | Julianne Lea |
| Your Name: | Tim Fasano |
| Relationship: | The Love Of My Life |
| Memoriam: | I miss you Julianne. My life is empty without you. I have not stopped crying since you left. When does that stop?
I am devastated that you were taken from me. I am angry that life was so hard to you. I did not know you were so unhappy. Life is very unkind. Not everyone is happy. It was hard to see you while your condition was degrading. You would not know it, however, from the pretty picture of you on this post. It was taken only two weeks before you died. That is how I will remember you. I will remember you full of life and warmth and kindness. I will remember the laughter and the love. I will remember the precious time we shared. I will remember your vitality and your grace, your noble spirit and kind heart and talent and your humorous essence that attracted me to you. Your death left a gaping hole in my life. But hard as it is to be without you, I take comfort in the knowledge that you are at last at peace and free of that terrible disease. I will not let you be forgotten. Many of your friends may be looking for you and I have started a website in your memory: "Julianne1.homestead.com" I am a photographer, so this blog is a photo essay of your life as much as I can with the images I have on hand. Rest in peace Julianne. I will always love you. God bless you. Amen. |
| In Memory of:: | Thomas L Paulin |
| Your Name: | Marlene Ganz Paulin |
| Relationship: | Wife |
| Memoriam: | I was just watching home movie the trip we took and all the kids growing up
Some of them goes back 20 years.it was good then before you got sick I miss you every day and wish you were here,but I know you are in a better place There is no more pain for you I will always love you til the day I die,and hope one day we will be together I know now why you did what you did because sometimes I think I want to do the same thing But then I think how it will effect oher people Love You Always Marlene |
| In Memory of:: | sean saccamango |
| Your Name: | dana venturo |
| Relationship: | cousins n friend |
| Memoriam: | sean, u know i talk to u everyday and everynight b4 i go to bed and even when i need some help. its crazy everytime i ask u for help u come through for me. i love you and miss you! i wish were still here and i know i will see u again. I love you always and miss u dearly!! always in my heart and always on my mind. you know i got a tatoo for you! you'd love it and thats what i got it for! i love u i love u i love u!! |
| In Memory of:: | Sean Saccamango |
| Your Name: | Lynn Zigarovich |
| Relationship: | Aunt |
| Memoriam: | I miss you every day
I wish you were still in my life I wish I knew why you left and someday I'll see you again. Love Aunt Lynn |
| In Memory of:: | Ron Forester |
| Your Name: | Lynda |
| Relationship: | Cousin |
| Memoriam: | We had such a lovely service, so many turned out.I am sorry you had to go. Sometimes our pain is so big, others cant see it but it is there. You always turned out for your family and we will miss you. say hi to Dave for me. Goodby Digger |
| In Memory of:: | Thomas L Paulin |
| Your Name: | Marlene Ganz Paulin |
| Relationship: | Wife |
| Memoriam: | Just missing you and wishing you was here,our daughter will be giving Birth soon
Another Girl,they say The girls are getting so big 6,11 and 13 Love you Marlene |
| In Memory of:: | Joe Guadagno |
| Your Name: | Dad |
| Relationship: | Son |
| Memoriam: | It's been over two years and I miss you so much. Your son is wonderful. Bright and fun-loving just like you were.
I pray that I someday will see you in heaven. Love you always DAD |
| In Memory of:: | Thomas L Paulin |
| Your Name: | Marlene Ganz Paulin |
| Relationship: | Wife |
| Memoriam: | Happy Birthday You would of been 70 years old today
Miss you Marlene |
| In Memory of:: | CHRISTINA "CHRISSY" ROSSI |
| Your Name: | LINDA ROSSI |
| Relationship: | MOTHER |
| Memoriam: | TO OUR BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTER WHO TRIED SO HARD FOR SO MANY YEARS BUT WAS UNABLE TO FIND THE HELP SHE NEEDED. SOAR WITH THE ANGELS CHRISSY, YOU ARE FINALLY FREE. BE HAPPY AND HAVE THE MOST GLORIOUS CHRISTMAS EVER. I LOVE YOU. MOM |
| In Memory of:: | clay white |
| Your Name: | gale norton |
| Relationship: | friend |
| Memoriam: | He was a very nice person. He also suffered from bipolar,as my self. People do not understand the deep ingraved feelings of despare when we get to depressed. People also judge you and said that you will go to hell if you kill yourself. I know that we have a loving God and He understands the mental illness we have. Please don't judge people. For people perish for lack of knowledge. Please read and study about this illness. Maybe someone you love has this illness and you could help save someone's life. |
| In Memory of:: | Thomas L Paulin |
| Your Name: | Marlene Ganz Paulin |
| Relationship: | Wife |
| Memoriam: | Thanksgiving was here and gone It just don;t seem the same anymore withoutyou thank God chris is here with me as we had Diner together
Christmas will be here soon and that means your Birthday is coming you would of been 70 years old now do you remember what you told me just days before you took your life I just wish it was the truth,I know more than ever now what you went thru day after day in this house I just wished it would of been different and I listen to the Tape you left it took me 5 years to listen to it all Its sad how you let them get to you and you had to pay the price your life I know you are no longer in the pain and you are at peace, but I think of you,I went to north Fl last week and i pass places we was together I just miss you and i guess always will I am still in the same house but not for long i wanted to Die there but can not afford the pool and the taxes keeps going up,and the mortagage keeps going up and up you were right about the Pool but at least some one paid it for you,They don;t for me, I guess I am just very sad tonight and i forgive you for doing what you did will always love you Marlene |
| In Memory of:: | John Daley |
| Your Name: | Lauren |
| Relationship: | niece |
| Memoriam: | I miss you so much. I wish you did not have to carry your burden alone with no one there to listen. I know how our side of the family is. "Think pretty thoughts." I love you.
Kristina hasa baby now and another on the way due in March! Forever, and I will try to keep up my fight with bipolar; you are not "weak" to me!! Love Always, Lauren |
| In Memory of:: | Jamie Denise Hutchinson |
| Your Name: | Janet Denise McElroy |
| Relationship: | Mother |
| Memoriam: | Jamie,
It's only been a little over a month since you took your own life, and I miss you so much. I wish I had known more about your illness so that I could have better understood you. I have happy memories of our life together, being your mother, and if I had the chance to be your mother all over again, I would. I never truly understood the pain you suffered from. You will be forever missed by me, your children, and your family and friends. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of you. I know that one day I will see you again. Here's the poem I wrote you when you were an infant in my arms. My darling child I held you near a faded dress that was so dear. I wore it when I said I do, one day I hope it'll be worn by you. The years have gone, my girl is grown she's soon to begin a life of her own. She's wearing the dress, though it looks brand new, as she utters the words she at last says I do. I think back on the years when on my bosom she lay as I watched her grow and go her own way. These memories are mine, something I'll always treasure, and being her mother has sure been my pleasure. Jamie, one thing is true. Being your mother has sure been my pleasure! Love, Mom |
| In Memory of:: | david hedden |
| Your Name: | forresa hedden |
| Relationship: | brother |
| Memoriam: | david, as time goes on, i only miss you more! 4 1/2 years ago and it still seems like yesterday! I know our Father in Heaven gives me peace beyond all understanding. they say that what don't kill you will make you stronger. I really know that old saying is true. I miss you,I love you, You really missed getting to see cole and dusty grow. They are such wonderful young men. You'd be so proud. Kelley has 3 kids. Dad left right after you. He could'nt stand the pain. Your memory lives in me. |
| In Memory of:: | Jim Corner |
| Your Name: | Barry & Corrina Murphy |
| Relationship: | Friends |
| Memoriam: | You are now in the breeze and sunshine that touches our faces. We miss you |
| In Memory of:: | Jim Corner |
| Your Name: | Barry & Corrina Murphy |
| Relationship: | Friends |
| Memoriam: | You are now in the breeze and sunshine that touches our face. Be at peace our friend |
| In Memory of:: | Matthew T. N |
| Your Name: | Myrna |
| Relationship: | Mother |
| Memoriam: | I love you and I miss you my son.
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| In Memory of:: | Mike |
| Your Name: | Kaylee |
| Relationship: | Best friend |
| Memoriam: | Mike we miss you down here. Everything about you. From your sweet smile to the funny things you said. You could lighten any tense moment with just a phrase. I miss that. You saved my life more then once and I just wish i could have done the same for you. You meant the world to me, more then anyone will ever understand.
I hold two grudges. You never said goodbye, and you didnt have the courtisy to do it away from jack and davey [[now scarred from your action]]. you went upstairs, to the bathroom you claimed, and never would return. do you know that jack layed curled up in your blood crying will davey stood in tears trembling with fear. did you know they held your bleeding corpse for hours before calling. we will never forget you. we love you. |
| In Memory of:: | Teddy |
| Your Name: | S. |
| Relationship: | sis |
| Memoriam: | hey bro - missing you - i can feel you around me tonight - i love you so much - i need your guidance - i miss the genuine person that you were - it's hard to find many real people these days - I truly love, miss and adore you always. xxx's |
| In Memory of:: | Thomas L Paulin |
| Your Name: | Marlene Ganz-Paulin |
| Relationship: | Wife |
| Memoriam: | Just thinking about you and looking at the picture of you when we first met and my daughter sitting on your lap.what joy was on your face you was 30 then ,you did not look 30 thats was such a good time in our life then
I know we had more good times than bad and no matter how many years go by I miss you ,the pain don;t ever goes away its a little over 5 years and I miss you now more than ever the bad years was when Doctors was treating you for the wrong thing and giving you all kinds of medicine making you feel high than giving you some medication to bring you down and your mind was playing tricks on you I tried for years to get you off the pills the more i fought the more the Doctors gave you you just wanted them to help you so you could be like you used to be ,but the pills won and you died ,thats was the sadess day of my life ,but you are at peace and nothing can hurt you again I remember 4 days before you took your life we spent the day together and talked most of the night,I think you was telling me the things you did because you thought you could not go on I did not know then you was Bipolar nor did I think you would commit suicide by taking over 200 pills you just wanted the pain to go away and it would not go away I will always love you and miss you every days till we are together once again We were together 35 years and got married the last year and a half before you took your life ,thats say a lot you wanted to marry me,and I wanted to marry you its like thats song you are safe in my heart and you will go on,that is the truth I see you in our granddaugter she has your eyes very blue she was so young 5 then she is now 10 Love You Marlene Ganz-Paulin |
| In Memory of:: | John Palmer Stensrud |
| Your Name: | Jessica Laurens Stensrud |
| Relationship: | brother |
| Memoriam: | Dear baby brother,
Do you see how I miss you? Did you think that I wouldn't hear that you had killed yourself? Did your eyes turn away from all of us? How could we have stopped you? You raged and turned us all away and claimed we had abandoned you or that you had lost us. How can I recover from this pain? Right now I doubt it is possible. You meant so much to me and you could never know. Bearly there Bear, my stinken brother, stink. Why did you take yourself to that dark place where none of us could follow? I would never have done this to you; how did you think you could do this to me and all of us? Don't you remember how we fished, worked out at the gym, went running, talked about Mom and Dad, laughed so hard we cried? Did you think I could ever write you off? I just didn't know how to reach you! I never left you. Now you have made it so final. How could you have done this? How? |
| In Memory of:: | Cheryl Johnson |
| Your Name: | Maggie Miller |
| Relationship: | Daughter |
| Memoriam: | Cheryl was a mother and wife, a nurse and a friend. She is sorely missed by her daughter Maggie Miller and her son David Johnson. She was proceded in death by her husband David Johnson in June of 2005.
Cheryl was born in a small town in Southern Wisconsin to a school bus driver and a receptionist at the South West Tech. She had a brother named Larry Copus, a sister in law named Bev Copus and 2 nephews named Sean and Travis Copus. Cheryl knew early on that she wanted to be a nurse, and was even a candy striper in the local hospital during high school. She went on to school at the University of Wisconsin Eau Claire for her nursing degree. Directly after college, in 1975 she was married to her high school sweetheart David Virgil Johnson and they bought a house in rurual Eau Claire, WI. Cheryl worked at Sacred Heart Hospital in Eau Claire and David was a logger in the surrounding areas. Chery was first a float nurse and then was a nurse in the Rehab department. After attaining her masters degree in Nursing she became the head of Rehab and later was made the head of not only Rehab but Neuro/Peds as well. Cheryl was a mother of two, David Erik Johnson and Margaret (Maggie) Elizabeth Miller. She loved to walk and would take her dog Tucker sometimes 10 miles a day. She also loved to bike ride and would sometimes take the family on 40 some mile bike rides. She was active in everything her children did, she was ther for every baseball game, basketball game, Volleyball Game, Ballet Recital, Football Game, Forensics Meet, Choir Concert, Band Concert, Horse Show, Horse Lesson, and school Play her children every were involved in or did. In 2001 her beloved father passed away and from ther Cheryl started a downhill slope until finally in January 2002, she slipped into a coma from an overdose and never woke up. She had 3 funerals and at each one there were too many people for the places the funerals were at. She had so many people in the community who loved her and who she had touched by her caring and compassionate hand. Cheryl will be forever missed, by her children and grandchildren, mother and brother. There is nothing more one can say about her, she was a good woman, and that is all ther is to it. |
| In Memory of:: | Thomas L Paulin |
| Your Name: | Marlene Ganz-Paulin |
| Relationship: | Wife |
| Memoriam: | It has been 5 years 1 month 2 days since you took your life it does not seem that long, I know you are in heaven,as I saw you on the 14th of July,
I thought I was having a panick attack as it was getting close to the day you died. and I was not feeling good again ,I was thinking about you and wishing you was here and thought I was having one of my panick attack I had a pain in my chest that lasted longer than before then went to sleep then was woke up by the pain again this time it lasted longer ,went to the doctor he then advise me to go to hospital I said I would but not that day the next day I went well when I had the test done they found out one of my arterie was 90 percent closed and the other one was 50 percent closed, they open the 90 percent one ,but left the other one for later,as I was moments away from a massive heart attack still I am healing,and I know now hat I have to do ,thank you The next thing I knew I was with you and you was saying I had to go back ,I just wanted to stay with you,but you said I had things to do ,I ask you what things ,then you told me and also I now understand why you did it as u explain the pain you had and the reason you could not go on I know God have fogiven you and you are in heaven and I saw your Mom too,she was right there too Gary and Mom was there but did not say anything they smiled ,my Dad was sitting by his mother and father and waved I heard a dog barking but could not see him or her,when I was back in my room,or recovery they said I was talking to some one ,name Tom then I knew I was not dreaming I miss you and will always love you,we were together for 35 years and got married a year and half before you died and thats says a lot bye for now and I am doing the things you said |
| In Memory of:: | Stephen Lee Puckett 11-19-81 - 10-28-04 |
| Your Name: | STEPHANIE |
| Relationship: | SISTER |
| Memoriam: | I STILL REMEMBER THAT DAY....THE PHONE RANG AROUND 3:15. IT WAS AMY, THROUGH THE CRY I COULD NOT UNDERSTAND AND HAD TO HAVE HER TO REPEAT HERSELF TWICE. SHE SAID YOU HAD TAKEN YOUR LIFE. THE PAIN THAT I FELT IN MY HEART WAS PAIN THAT I HAD NEVER FELT BEFORE. IT STILL FEELS LIKE YESTERDAY....I MISS OUR LAUGHS AND THAT BIG SMILE THAT WOULD LIGHT UP THE ROOM. YOU WERE ONE IN A MILLION. I JUST WISH I COULD HAVE HELPED YOU, I WISH I HAD KNEW HOW BAD THIS REALLY WAS. HOW CAN SOMEONE HAVE TO HURT SO BAD, IT IS TOTALLY UNFAIR, BUT WHAT IS FAIR? I MISS YOU SO SO MUCH AND OUR FAMILY WILL NEVER BE THE SAME. I LOVE YOU STEPHEN.......WWW.STEPHENLEEPUCKETT.COM |
| In Memory of:: | phillip seth montgomery |
| Your Name: | debbie montgomery |
| Relationship: | step/mom to seth |
| Memoriam: | WE MISS YOU BUBBA, ASHLEY, BAILEY,ALLISON, YOU SHOULD HAVE GRADUATED WITH HER THIS YEAR AND THEN THERE IS YOUR REBEL BUDDIE WHO IS HEARTBROKEN. WE WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND WHY YOU HAD TO TAKE YOU LIFE SETH, YOU WERE LOVED BY SO MANY PLEASE BE AT PEACE SWEETIE . WE WILL ALWAYS KEEP YOUR MEMORY ALIVE SETH, I PROMISE YOUR DAY MISSES HIS BUBBA SO |
| In Memory of:: | Seth montgomery 1986-2006 |
| Your Name: | Debbie Montgomery |
| Relationship: | step/mom to seth |
| Memoriam: | SETH OH MY GAW WE MISS YOU SO, WE WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND WHY YOU DECIDED TO TAKE YOUR OWN SPECIAL LIFE ON THAT HORRIBLE DAY. WE WOULD HAVE BEEN HERE BUDDIE, I KNOW YOUR GIRLFRIEND BROKE YOUR HEART BUT WE DIDN'T IT WAS THAT TRAUMATIC FOR YOU SWEETIE, SETH PLEASE BE HAPPY ASHLEY, ALLISON, BARRY YOUR DAD AND I MISS YOU AND LOVE YOU BUBBA REST IN PEACE OUR DEAR BOY.
GONE BUT NOT FORGOTTEN LOVE YA |
| In Memory of:: | Douglas Dragonetti |
| Your Name: | Denise |
| Relationship: | spouse |
| Memoriam: | He was a wonderful husband, father, grandfather, son, brother and friend. He was loved by everyone that ever knew him. He was the love of my life and the best man in the world. We had 32 wonderful years together. I am so sorry that I didn't realize how much he was hurting and I would give anything in this world to have him back. My life is so empty without him. I hope he is at peace now. |
| In Memory of:: | Teddy |
| Your Name: | S. |
| Relationship: | sis |
| Memoriam: | closing my eyes - thinking of you - wishing you were here - bro, i love you, R.I.P.......... |
| In Memory of:: | n/a |
| Your Name: | Marie |
| Relationship: | n/a |
| Memoriam: | Thank you so much for allowing me the opportunity to visit this site. I actually fit in this category much more than you can know. |
| In Memory of:: | Christopher Bourke Doty |
| Your Name: | Patricia Michelle Morgan |
| Relationship: | Former Partner |
| Memoriam: | Dearest Chris,
I can understand your need to free yourself from the pain - I only wish that I could have been more help. I miss you tremendously and think of you every minute of every day. I will never forget your beautiful smile, your quirky sense of humour, your passion for life. I will share our experience with the world to help diminish the stigma that comes with Manic Depression and Suicide. Our society needs to be aware of these issues - we all need to talk openly about it. That way, help can be given to those who need it the most, and I pray, fewer will be lost. |
| In Memory of:: | John Wayne Ketchum |
| Your Name: | Ann K. |
| Relationship: | sister |
| Memoriam: | We miss you so much, John, and it's still a mystery as to why you chose death over life. Rest in peace. |
| In Memory of:: | Melissa |
| Your Name: | Aunt Pattie |
| Relationship: | Aunt |
| Memoriam: | It is the end of may, you would be getting ready to graduate, turning 18 and free of those teen age traumas
But in stead of that this weekend I will be putting flowers on your graVE, YOU DIED , YOU TOOK YOUR LIFE ! you jumped of the big Z !!!! yu were only 16. Why? oh sweetie I would have been there to catch you if you thought you needed to fly. I miss you so much. My "Missers", I'll Miss you . I can not ever know your last thoughts , I can never , NEVER, show how sorry I am , that I did not help you, did not see. you have always been and always will be loved. |
| In Memory of:: | Earl Paul Roberts III (Scooby) June 30,1973-February 26,2004 |
| Your Name: | Brenda Roberts Pearson |
| Relationship: | Mother |
| Memoriam: | Scooby.
I hope you finally found the happiness you searched for here on earth, i know you tried baby, but since you left us, my life is forever changed, we went through so much together, i would do it all over to have you back again. All the trauma and drama, the tears and worrying and sleepless nights. I had you for 30 years, and there is a cord that connects mother and child forever, not even death can severe it. You live on in my heart and memories for eternity. You were a good person with a good heart but a horrible desease of Bi-polar and addiction. You hurt deep and suffered much baby but i believe in my heart you have been set free. I love you Scoob, yesturday, today, tomarrow and for all eternity i love you. Rest in peace. Love Forever, " Ma" |
| In Memory of:: | Earl Paul Roberts III (Scooby) June 30,1973-February 26,2004 |
| Your Name: | Brenda Roberts Pearson |
| Relationship: | Mother |
| Memoriam: | Scooby.
I hope you finally found the happiness you searched for here on earth, i know you tried baby, but since you left us, my life is forever changed, we went through so much together, i would do it all over to have you back again. All the trauma and drama, the tears and worrying and sleepless nights. I had you for 30 years, and there is a cord that connects mother and child forever, not even death can severe it. You live on in my heart and memories for eternity. You were a good person with a good heart but a horrible desease of Bi-polar and addiction. You hurt deep and suffered much baby but i believe in my heart you have been set free. I love you Scoob, yesturday, today, tomarrow and for all eternity i love you. Rest in peace. Love Forever, " Ma" |
| In Memory of:: | Jacob Lee Blanton |
| Your Name: | Sara Parker |
| Relationship: | mother |
| Memoriam: | We miss and love you dearly- mom |
| In Memory of:: | Earl Paul Roberts III (Scooby) |
| Your Name: | Brenda Roberts Pearson |
| Relationship: | Mother |
| Memoriam: | Scooby.
I hope you finally found the happiness you searched for here on earth, i know you tried baby, but since you left us, my life is forever changed, we went through so much together, i would do it all over to have you back again. All the trauma and drama, the tears and worrying and sleepless nights. I had you for 30 years, and there is a cord that connects mother and child forever, not even death can severe it. You live on in my heart and memories for eternity. You were a good person with a good heart but a horrible desease of Bi-polar and addiction. You hurt deep and suffered much baby but i believe in my heart you have been set free. I love you Scoob, yesturday, today, tomarrow and for all eternity i love you. Rest in peace. Love Forever, " Ma" |
| In Memory of:: | Earl Paul Roberts III (Scooby) |
| Your Name: | Brenda Roberts Pearson |
| Relationship: | Mother |
| Memoriam: | Scooby.
I hope you finally found the happiness you searched for here on earth, i know you tried baby, but since you left us, my life is forever changed, we went through so much together, i would do it all over to have you back again. All the trauma and drama, the tears and worrying and sleepless nights. I had you for 30 years, and there is a cord that connects mother and child forever, not even death can severe it. You live on in my heart and memories for eternity. You were a good person with a good heart but a horrible desease of Bi-polar and addiction. You hurt deep and suffered much baby but i believe in my heart you have been set free. I love you Scoob, yesturday, today, tomarrow and for all eternity i love you. Rest in peace. Love Forever, " Ma" |
| In Memory of:: | Robert Wayne Wright |
| Your Name: | Trevor N. Walker |
| Relationship: | grandson |
| Memoriam: | I will always miss you and think of you.xoxo |
| In Memory of:: | Robert Wayne Wright |
| Your Name: | Paulette Walker |
| Relationship: | Daughter |
| Memoriam: | I will never forget you.I hope peace has found you.Love always,Paulette |
| In Memory of:: | Eloise Etheridge |
| Your Name: | Jennifer Etheridge |
| Relationship: | mother |
| In Memory of:: | Carolyn Anette Fritz |
| Your Name: | Shannon & Ron Miller & Family |
| Relationship: | close family friends |
| Memoriam: | We never realized what an "Indigo Child" was until we met you, thank you for teaching us the unknown.
You are sorely missed by everyone! We'll see you on the other side CarolAnn. |
| In Memory of:: | Richard Willey Jr. |
| Your Name: | Ashley |
| Relationship: | Niece |
| Memoriam: | i miss you every day of my life. . . for the past 6 years you have been gone and not one day has passed that i dont think of you. . .i miss you so much, and i wish that you could have just talked to someone, and gotten some help. . .and made a different choice. every day i think of what life would be like if you were still here with us. sometimes i feel so much anger towards you for what you did, but then i know that it was what you thought was the best way. . .and sometimes i just wish i knew why. . . |
| In Memory of:: | Carla Barton |
| Your Name: | Cathie |
| Relationship: | Friend |
| Memoriam: | Carla,
I miss you everyday. I wish I could of helped ease your pain in some way but you were gone before I knew how bad you were hurting. I am glad you left us a note even though I could tell how hard it was to read what you were going to do I knew that you felt it was the only way out. I just wish you would of stopped by on that cold cold day in Dec. I miss you! |
| In Memory of:: | THE VICTIMS OF AN HORRID ILLNESS |
| Your Name: | KB |
| Memoriam: | Please know to all who lost loved ones, that nothing is your fault, there was nothing you COULD HAVE DONE. I know,
because I have the ugly illness myself. I have thought about suicide also. you see, we dont want to die, its just so draining, that ugly illness, that the older I get the worse its gets and a spinning mind, an unquiet mind added with the emotional pain of depression. how much can one bare under that weigh? If YOU can forgive them, do so. GOD loves us, I know HE does. HE UNDERSTANDS THIS ILLNESS. |
| In Memory of:: | Bruce |
| Your Name: | Danyelle |
| Relationship: | Daddy |
| Memoriam: | Daddy,July 22,2005 is a day i'll never forget. I miss you so much. I never realized how much we went to you for advice. I think about you every day. I try to stay strong because I know that's what you would want me to do. You were the best Grandpa in the world and i'll never let my babies forget you. I know you didn't realize how much we all loved you but just so you know now we all love you so much and we'll see you again someday in heaven. Your loving daughter Del |
| In Memory of:: | Tim |
| Your Name: | Carol |
| Relationship: | mother |
| Memoriam: | I thank God that he gave you to me, if only for 18 short years. i am just so sorry that you were in so much pain and even sorrier that you felt suicide was the only way that you could be free from the pain. I will always love you and miss you. i know that you are safe in the arms of Jesus and thats the only way i can get through this sad time. you were a great person, you were the only one who did not know it. |
| In Memory of:: | Scott Gregory Tachera |
| Your Name: | Joanne |
| Relationship: | Sister |
| Memoriam: | Dear Brother,
You have been my hero from age nine when you defended a little first grade Japanese boy from two bullies. They broke your neck and you spent six months in the hospital and a lifetime of excruciating pain. Yet you never once regretted your decision to stand up to the bullies. You have been so humble and kind to others; I wish you had been kinder to yourself. So many love and miss you now. . . . I forgive you as I know that you desired peace and an end to the pain. I want you to know that I will always love you. Until we meet again on the other side, dear brother know that I love you. We were the only family each other had. You meant so much to me. Love,Joanne |
| In Memory of:: | Timothy |
| Your Name: | Chelle |
| Relationship: | Friend |
| Memoriam: | Why is the world so cruel to us sometimes?
I sit here looking at your photo's thinking all of the what if's ! The Truth is there are no what if's, Whats done is done. But at only 18 !!! Timmy, I never told you this but the last time I saw you, I fell in love, Crazy as it may seam and Now I have lost you, I love you more. I wish we had of talked more about how you were feeling, Maybe I could of helped? I know I would of listened ! Your little sisters miss you alot so does everyone else. Your Girlfriend and I are best mates now, Your little sisters call us their sisters, We stay over at your place a couple of nights a week, Were looking after mum too. Hope you have found some peace now and remember you are in my heart foreva... Miss you lots. xoxox |
| In Memory of:: | Sue Baudier |
| Your Name: | Tina Shott |
| Relationship: | Friend |
| Memoriam: | I will always miss you. I know that your out of the pain. I hold no bad feelings, except deep sadness. I love you. |
| In Memory of:: | Staci Herd |
| Memoriam: | May you rest in peace in the arms of the angels. |
| In Memory of:: | Teddy |
| Your Name: | S. |
| Relationship: | sis |
| Memoriam: | My hopes and prayers are all about peace for you bro -- only peace and a quiet mind. That's what you have always longed for so that is what I hope and pray for. R.I.P bro -- you deserve it. I'll deal with all the madness now - and believe me there is plenty to deal with. Don't worry, I'll try as best I can to make everything right on this side. So, are ya with me? I know you are -- shining down on me like a star. Thanks - love you and miss you every single second of every single day. Night bro......xxx's, me |
| In Memory of:: | Frank |
| Your Name: | Suzanne |
| Relationship: | Husband |
| Memoriam: | Frank was the most wonderful husband and father. I miss him dearly and he will be in my heart forever. |
| In Memory of:: | Four special people |
| Your Name: | Cie |
| Relationship: | cousin/friend/someone who cares |
| Memoriam: | For Rachel my cousin:
You tried everything yet no-one could ever reach you. I never got to know you as well as I should. My own bipolar gets in the way of getting close to other people. But I care and was saddened when you chose to take your own life. I hope you found peace. For Howard, my high school friend: How sad that you hanged yourself at only 18 years. How sad that your mother and sister had to find you that way. But mostly how sad that you couldn't get through the pain of your girlfriend leaving you. You were worth so much more. For Jim, my brother's friend: You were only 17. Yet you felt your life was over. Your father didn't agree with your choice of careers, but there was more than that to your decision. Who knew how much pain was behind your impish smile? Nobody had any idea until it was too late. For Pelle, who I wish I could have known: My heart aches when I think of how much pain you were in. You were so much like me. I feel like I've lost a special friend although I never met you in person. My heart feels empty and I am helpless to explain. It's never the answer. But many times I am tempted myself. I hope they have found peace. I hope so can I. Cie http://psychosphere.blogspot.com |
| In Memory of:: | Billy Ray Gay |
| Your Name: | J.R.Gay |
| Relationship: | Son |
| Memoriam: | I never knew you and never will get to know you. You were gone out of my life as a child and permanently remove from my adult life. I'm left with a void and so many unanswered questions. |
| In Memory of:: | Lillian "Dimples" Barton Jones |
| Your Name: | Tera |
| Relationship: | Daughter |
| Memoriam: | I plan on joining you soon. I love you. |
| In Memory of:: | David |
| Your Name: | Peacemaker |
| Relationship: | He was my preacher |
| Memoriam: | I was only 14 years old and our young people's preachers was not only loved by respected for his actions and enduring love for us all. But he hid all of his pain from not only his boss but from all of us in the church. He was bipolar with several other things that I cannot remember now. He felt shame for the insanity of his life and desease. He is still mourned and will never be forgotten - I know he is in heaven and Jesus held him in His arms when he entered the pearly gates. |
| In Memory of:: | sissy flannery |
| Your Name: | Brook Ashley Willis |
| Relationship: | cuzzin |
| Memoriam: | sissy tried to commit suicide and i don't know why but that same night i did to only she went to the hospital because she cutt her self so did i she went to the hosipital because she cutt right into her vaign and her step mom went in there right away and called the ambluence when she got there she had lost almost 1 pint of blood so she had 2 stay there 4 a while and then had to councling with me at the same time |
| In Memory of:: | Taylor Mathew Grosso |
| Your Name: | Trevor Grosso |
| Relationship: | Father |
| Memoriam: | This is the hardest thing I have ever written in my life. My son was only twenty two when he died, he took his life and he was bi-polar.
Taylor was the sweetest most gentile loving son a man could ever ask for. Sadly I did not realize how fragile he also was. I am also bi-polar and have been all my life and I'm sure that took its toll on my son. Why I am still here is such a mystery to me. Taylor never had a chance to find the love of a woman or have a family or even a life. I have asked God so many times, why? Taylor was such a sweet loving child and a wonderful protective brother to his sister. He loved his sister from the day she was born until the day he died. He was so intelligent and inquisitive and full of wonderment at so many things in life. Unlike me Taylor wanted to live so badly and to be normal and have a life and be able to have friends. He didn't get to have those things but he fought and struggled so bravely without complaining. He was a far better man than his father. He believed in God and the only thing with him when he died was a bible I had given him. The pain I had to see my son go though for seven years was unspeakable and to this day I am so sad and grief stricken about it there are no words. He died three years ago and I still cannot really accept it. Oh God how I wished I could have been a normal father, I did the best I could and it was not good enough to save my son. He was so beautiful in every way. When he was a baby a child and a young man he so loving and thoughtful I can't take it out of my mind. I remember over and over every little thing Taylor ever did and said and every precious moment I had with him. The last time I saw my son I took him out to help him buy a car and shop for some cloths for him to have when he was at college, we had a wonderful day. I never saw him again and I wonder if I told him that day how much I love him. He was everything in this life to me and I did tell him many times how much I loved him and when he was a baby and would catch me staring at him all the time he would be embarrassed and complain to me and say Daddy “stop looking at me” and I would tell him “I can't because you are so beautiful” and I can't believe how lucky I am to have you then I always said " I am the luckiest Daddy in the world" and then we would laugh about it. Then I would say who is the best Daddy in the whole world and he would pretend to think about it until I tickled him and then he would say "You are". Sometimes when I was away I would come home and say does anybody in this house love Daddy and he and his sister would be silent and tease me and we laughed and they would tackle me and I would say help, help Mommy they got me down and I can't move. I will never have those days and that love or those feelings again. I can't even say what I feel like inside, I am hear to honor my son and tell you how much I miss him and feel like the grief will never leave me and I don't really want it to. I will cry for the rest of my life and do it proudly and I talk to Taylor every day and tell him how much I love him and miss him. The family is not together any longer and I am alone with only the thoughts of the love I have for my son. I pray for Taylor every day and the only prayer I have for me is that I will be with Taylor when my time is done here. If only you could have known him your life would be richer as mine is for having him. I hope God and Taylor can forgive me for not being there for my son as much as I should have then I can be at peace. I hope Taylor will forgive me for my short comings due to my illness. If he does he will be the only one who does. I am still so grateful and honored to have had Taylor in my life for the years he was with me and I pray he loves me now as he did all his life. We used to laugh and call ourselves the Bi-Polar Bears and it would make him smile. One day I will write a book about Taylor and I and it will be called "The Bi-Polar Bears" in honor of my son and I hope it will help someone out there to deal with this terrible illness Taylor and I both have had to live with. This is in loving memory of my beloved beautiful son. Taylor Mathew Grosso |
| In Memory of:: | Joseph Baroni |
| Your Name: | S, M. Baroni |
| Relationship: | daughter |
| Memoriam: | you left when i was only two, i never got the chance to know you... i have no photos of you only my brothers face...for a long time i was very angry with the way you chose to leave, but now that i have walked down that road i am no longer angry, but sad that you saw no other way out |
| In Memory of:: | Jennifer Rose |
| Your Name: | Jeana |
| Relationship: | Cousin |
| Memoriam: | A year and half ago, Jen took her own life after years of struggle. It is a shame that this disease made it impossible for her to know how beautiful, sweet, and caring she was and how much she had to offer the world. I miss her every day. |
| In Memory of:: | Jessica Sark |
| Your Name: | Staci watson |
| Relationship: | Best Friends |
| Memoriam: | My best friend was paralyzed in a car wreck my Junior year in high school. She was doing great she got her license and was driving. Until one day she meet this guy and they dated for awhile. Then he didn't want anything else to do with her that put her in a deep depression. One night she went to a friends house and slit her wrists the friend was rushing her to the hospital. When Jessi wanted something to drink so she pulled over at a gas station. And that was the end of my best friend she pulled a gun out of her backpack and shot herself in the chest. Still to this day it is so hard to live life without her. I go to the graveyard at least once a month. Now at this point in my life i am suicdial but i try to remember the day she died and what everyone went through. That keeps me going. I love You girl. ~Staci~ |
| In Memory of:: | Teddy |
| Your Name: | S. |
| Relationship: | sis |
| Memoriam: | miss you bro -- my angel -- need you now -- guide us all in the right direction -- watch over us and be with us -- so much has changed since you're gone - need you here so just stay, ok? thanks............love to you and peace out........imagining your smile - makes me smile too. |
| In Memory of:: | Teddy |
| Your Name: | S. |
| Relationship: | sis |
| Memoriam: | missing you - knowing you are watching over me and guiding me in the right direction -- praying you are peaceful - missing your laughter and boy could I use a good hug - love you bro -- peace out.........here's a hug - i feel it too. |
| In Memory of:: | Te |
| In Memory of:: | Dad |
| Your Name: | Mike |
| Relationship: | Loving son |
| Memoriam: | My father suddenly left this world on Feb 8th, 2005 but I am only realizing now that we (his family and friends) watched him slowly die over the past months. I knew he was not well but had always watched him rebound back time and time again. I am realzing how ignorant I was about his illness and today (Feb 18) I am so sad and miss him so much but will never know how much pain, despair and sadness he must have been feeling. I wish so much I had realized sooner how important it is to educate yourself, take action, and not just hope things will get better or put all your trust in the professionals. For something so sad and negative there must be something positive and perhaps that is the realization of education and action.
I love you Dad and as I have always said there is not one time I doubted your love for me, thank you for the most beautiful gift a father could give his son, your unconditional love. I will miss you forever but I am trying to do my best believe you are with me. You know I am proud of you. God Bless You Dad Lots of Love, your boy Mike |
| In Memory of:: | Teddy |
| Your Name: | S. |
| Relationship: | sis |
| Memoriam: | love to you big bro............always in my heart.........every second of the day........missing you soo much -- you have no idea how i wish you were here -- miss you bro R.I.P always and Peace out........... |
| In Memory of:: | Zach |
| Your Name: | Maddie |
| Relationship: | Friend |
| Memoriam: | 16 years old - May 30, 2005 darling son of Kevin and June, much loved and treasured brother of Adam and Zelda; greatly missed by his loving Grandad Fred, uncles, aunts, cousins, relatives, many many friends, classmates, HQ Scouts and Venturers. |
| In Memory of:: | All who have passed |
| Your Name: | Dawn |
| Relationship: | reader and Bi-polar sufferer |
| Memoriam: | To ALL of the families and friends who have lost loved ones to suicide, I pray for you. Dear God please bring peace to the families and friends and to the souls of the departed.
I am so sorry... |
| In Memory of:: | Dan Weiss |
| Your Name: | Mike |
| Relationship: | Friend |
| Memoriam: | Dear Dan,
I just wanted you to know that I feel cheated in life for never getting the chance to really know you. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think about you, and truly wish you were here. I have made up my mind to take a canoe trip every year in the boundarywaters to symbolize what our abreviated friendship means to me. Dan, you take care, kind'a watch out for us up there and i'll do the same down here. Your friend always.....Mike |
| In Memory of:: | Staci Herd |
| Memoriam: | I always knew you were in pain and I always knew you were the lonliest when we were all around you. Because I love you, your death is not in vain and I do my best in my life to honor your memory by helping and supporting those others who remain who are bipolar. Your laughter and tears were real and genuine. You are always in my heart and soul as a blessing no matter, no matter, no matter...
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| In Memory of:: | Jeff Knarr |
| Your Name: | Jeannine |
| Relationship: | sister |
| Memoriam: | Jeff,
I'm so sorry for your pain, I wish I could've taken it away so you could've known joy here on earth. I pray you are at peace now. Love, Jeannine |
| In Memory of:: | James Pirretti |
| Your Name: | Jen Golenski |
| Relationship: | cousin |
| Memoriam: | Weall miss you so much...I know how you must have felt...You would be so proud of your brothers...a new addition to the family just recently. I bet you are smiling down on us all right now.
Love, Jen and your niece Angela |
| In Memory of:: | James Pirretti |
| Your Name: | Jen Golenski |
| Relationship: | cousin |
| Memoriam: | Weall miss you so much...I know how you must have felt...You would be so proud of your brothers...a new addition to the family just recently. I bet you are smiling down on us all right now.
Love, Jen and your niece Angela |
| In Memory of:: | Casey |
| Your Name: | A |
| Relationship: | Friend |
| Memoriam: | You have not been forgotten. I hope that you feel peace and calm. |
| In Memory of:: | Eric |
| Your Name: | Elaine |
| Relationship: | Wife |
| Memoriam: | To my loving husband, every day I think of you and miss your smile, your laugh, and the way you would say "Hi Lanie" You left this world so early into your diagnosis, I wish more than anything that you would have given the medication a chance. I am sorry that I was not there the day you took your life, I went to work thinking that you were having a good day, I hope to God I did not miss a sign from you. I will love you forever, you were the best husband I could have wished for. It has been five years, but you are never far from my thoughts. I will honor your memory all the days of my life, you are not forgotten, you are just in a different place within me now. Love always Elaine. |