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| In Memory of:: | NATHAN FERRIAN |
| Your Name: | Jasamine Fronk |
| Relationship: | High School friend (I had the biggest crush on you, Nate) |
| Memoriam: | It will be 8 years since your death in just a couple weeks. You were and still are the most beautiful friend I have ever known. I will never get over you.
Nathan Ferrian, my sweetest friend... lost to suicide. 10-4-81 to 5-4-99 Not a day goes by that you are not in my heart and mind. I will always love you. His smile was brighter than the heavens, the most precious sense of love His hugs so warm and tender, seemingly sent from above The time he spent on earth... who knew it'd end so soon His death has brought us sorrow, has made us drown in gloom We laugh through all the memories, as they flood our very minds He didn't mean to hurt us, as he left us all behind He gave his whole heart to everyone he knew Only Nathan, our beautiful friend, could share a love that true There's no way we could forget him, to even try would be a task No, our loving remembrance of Nathan... will always, always last. I miss you so much. It brings me to tears just remembering the way you knew exactly how to make everything better... the way you could truly listen when I needed an ear... the laughter and smiles we shared so often. It breaks my heart that you are not still here. That I can't call you up to hear your voice or be embraced in one of your bear hugs... It hurts just as freshly today as it did the morning I found out that you were gone. You left so many people that loved you here. The amount of people you touched in your life is just ONE example of how wonderful you really were. I write this so you will know that you have not been forgotten, sweetie. Not by a long shot. I LOVE YOU. -Jasamine MissJassa@yahoo.com |
| In Memory of:: | Robert Foulkes |
| Your Name: | Lisa Collins |
| Relationship: | Friends, young love |
| Memoriam: | Robert, I wanted to wish you a happy 24th birthday. Only today, 3 weeks later, have I been able to face loooking into bipolar disorder which I always suspected you suffered from but only found out you had been diagnosed with after your death. So many things fall into place like a jigsaw puzzle, and I worry about the recent years we spent apart on bad terms. I feel so guilty for not being able to stay in a relationship with you, sometimes I wonder if anything I did was a breaking point in your short life. I can only take some small comfort that we were able to email each other a few months before and that you told me you were happy that I was doing well.
You were a such a spirited young man, its so hard to believe that this was what you felt you needed to do to find peace. Spontaneous trips to america with no suitcase, running on stage to dance with iggy pop, joining the merchant navy and sailing around the world.. I always felt sad that you had put your karate career on hold, you had such talent. I found out at your funeral that you had opened your own karate club, at 23 you had fulfilled your lifes ambition. Robert, your life was short, but it was a full one. I will always hold memories of you close to my heart, I only wish this life could have given you a better run. Lisa |
| In Memory of:: | Anthony David Eynon |
| Your Name: | Kathy |
| Relationship: | mother |
| Memoriam: | Bubba, you know I would have always been there to help you through anything.Why didnt you let me help you this time? I am suffering from a broken heart, and it feels like it will never ever heal.I know you arent in any more pain, and thats the only thing that gets me through the day. Your brother..and your uncle are hurting more than I have ever seen them hurt. You had so many people who loved you. You touched so many lives. I am going to miss you, baby boy..for the rest of my life. I love you, Mom |
| In Memory of:: | Anthony David Eynon |
| Your Name: | Kathy |
| Relationship: | mother |
| Memoriam: | Bubba, you know I would have always been there to help you through anything.Why didnt you let me help you this time? I am suffering from a broken heart, and it feels like it will never ever heal.I know you arent in any more pain, and thats the only thing that gets me through the day. Your brother..and your uncle are hurting more than I have ever seen them hurt. You had so many people who loved you. You touched so many lives. I am going to miss you, baby boy..for the rest of my life. I love you, Mom |
| In Memory of:: | Thomas L Paulin |
| Your Name: | Marlene Ganz Paulin |
| Relationship: | wife |
| Memoriam: | I think I will be with you very soon as I just can not take this life any more .
I know each day my life is slipping away I will not commit suicide,but I am dying slowing from a broken heart I lost you to pills and now I am losing the will to live we fought so hard to survive,but you lost your will to live and the stress is to much to take I just hope we will be together again soon I know now why you did what you did the pain is gone and soon the pain will be gone for me I loved you with all my heart and soul and damn the people who did not try to help you and May God forgive them see you soon Love you always Your wife Marlene |
| In Memory of:: | Richard Allen Fortino |
| Your Name: | Steve |
| Relationship: | brother |
| In Memory of:: | Thomas L Paulin |
| Your Name: | Marlene Ganz Paulin |
| Relationship: | wife |
| Memoriam: | Just sitting here listening to the music and wishing you were here
and wishing all the people who hurt you for God to forgive them I know you are at peace but there isnt a moment of a day I do not think of you I know deep down how you sufferd and I do not wish this on anyone I was with you in life and I am with you in Death My life will go on but my love for you will never go away til the day I am with you again I am sure as the air I breath you are with your dear Mom and your Aunt Dot as she loved you as I did for better or worse I knew her as I knew My family and loved both of them as they were My Mom and Aunt too And Your cousin Frank and His Mom are once again are together with her husband and her son I also wanted you to know you were Loved so much no one or anything could keep us apart but Death til I see you again I will always keep the light on for you in My heart Say Hello to My mom, your Mom, your Dad, My Dad ,Gary,your Aunt Dot ,my Aunt Dot,Aunt Maude, Aunt Jessie,Grandmom Ganz,Grandma Urban,Grandpa Damage Uncle Casey Frank,Grandpa Ganz,Grandpa Urban,Sonny and Harry for me Love you always your wife always Marlene |
| In Memory of:: | Thomas L Paulin |
| Your Name: | Marlene Ganz Paulin |
| Relationship: | Wife |
| Memoriam: | ganz_m1@msn.com |
| In Memory of:: | Thomas L Paulin |
| Your Name: | Marlene Ganz Paulin |
| Relationship: | Wife |
| Memoriam: | I was just sitting here thinking of you like I do very often and was reading the others who took their life
My heart goes out to all of them I came across some wrote about you He or she did not leave their Name I guess they knew us and I am glad someone knew I made you happy as you made me happy I guess they did not want to leave their name,but who ever it was if you want any info about Tom as I called him and the friend called him Tommy I agree he really loved Betty and never got over the hurt she put him thru He moved on but he always had the fear it would happen again they was very young and he got over her and made a new life with me and My children and always stayed in touch with his Mom and children over the years Yes he did want to get away from his sister But he was a good father to all his children and mine even his grand children my email is below I was with him for 35 years and married him the last year and a half of his life I miss him every day and I know I will be with him when its my time and if there another life I know I will be with him again I think I know who you are we had a cook out over His aunt Dot and you were there She just passed away last Month At 92 She was a good Lady like Tom,s mom they were sisters and they married brothers from Canada he was a good man too Well I gues I will go to bed and I am glad I read the nice things that was said I hope to see you soon Tom if ther was a stairway to heaven I would of been ther already to drop in to say hello and tell you how much you was loved by all of us Your wife forever Marlene ganz_m1@msn.com |
| In Memory of:: | Thomas L Paulin |
| Your Name: | Marlene Ganz Paulin |
| Relationship: | Wife |
| Memoriam: | I was just sitting here thinking of you like I do very often and was reading the others who took their life
My heart goes out to all of them I came across some wrote about you He or she did not leave their Name I guess they knew us and I am glad someone knew I made you happy as you made me happy I guess they did not want to leave their name,but who ever it was if you want any info about Tom as I called him and the friend called him Tommy I agree he really loved Betty and never got over the hurt she put him thru He moved on but he always had the fear it would happen again they was very young and he got over her and made a new life with me and My children and always stayed in touch with his Mom and children over the years Yes he did want to get away from his sister But he was a good father to all his children and mine even his grand children my email is below I was with him for 35 years and married him the last year and a half of his life I miss him every day and I know I will be with him when its my time and if there another life I know I will be with him again I think I know who you are we had a cook out over His aunt Dot and you were there She just passed away last Month At 92 She was a good Lady like Tom,s mom they were sisters and they married brothers from Canada he was a good man too Well I gues I will go to bed and I am glad I read the nice things that was said I hope to see you soon Tom if ther was a stairway to heaven I would of been ther already to drop in to say hello and tell you how much you was loved by all of us Your wife forever Marlene |
| In Memory of:: | Garvey Michael Sutor |
| Your Name: | Kaylee |
| Relationship: | ex girlfriend |
| Memoriam: | I miss you so much.
It will be two years in May and its so hard to believe you are still gone. I want to be able walk to your house and you to still be there, but I know it can never happen. I just hope that you are doing great and that you are happy. We all miss you down here! |
| In Memory of:: | Stefan Gaydos |
| Your Name: | Jackie |
| Relationship: | my older brother |
| Memoriam: | I've been feeling three feet tall this month,
hardly indestructable, but the snow melts, and the rhythm still goes on. an angel got his wings, and we'll hold our heads up knowing that he's fine. we'd all be lucky to have a love like that in a lifetime. friends stay side by side, in life and death you've always stole my heart, you'll always mean so much to me, it's hard to believe this. |
| In Memory of:: | Jeremy Dorfman |
| Your Name: | Pippa Dorfman |
| Relationship: | My brother |
| Memoriam: | Dear Mima,
It was five years ago exactly, since you took your life. What demons must have seized you in that moment of chaos...madness? I wish I could have been there to tell you no. It is so hard for us to understand what you went through, it just isn't fair. You brilliant young man, I love you so much, I know you are not living on with me in this life but I feel you. Your memory and your energy lives on with me bro. I always looked up to you as an older brother and role model and I still look up to you as the brightest star in the sky as that you were in your life; the brightest star. To me, you are still alive. I know you are at peace now. I love you mima. Feel free to show me some signs more often that you are watching over me, I will try harder to listen and watch. Love you forever....always, your sis, Pip |
| In Memory of:: | Tommy Paulin |
| Your Name: | Friend |
| Relationship: | Friend |
| Memoriam: | I was on this site and saw your name,can not believe what I read.
I knew you when you were married to Betty,you took it so bad. Then you went with a girl from keport or middletown that did not last long. You was still hung up on Betty. Then you went with a Dot I knew you and her but you was still hung up on Betty. Then I seen Our Friend Eddie and he said you met someone else,and been with here her for a very long time I think I met her when we did that painting job in that shopping center in flemington. She always bought you lunch to the job in fact she knew the lady who gave you the job. You looked happier than I ever seen you in years. I think she had 2 or 3 children ,I think some one told me you moved to fl,then I seen Eddie and he said you was living in lakewood then Toms River as you had to get away from your sister. Then I see you again at great adventure and a red head baby there you ask me if I ever met you wife. I said yes when we painting the shopping center she sure was a very pretty woman,and you said she took very good care of . you also told me it took you and her 10 years to have a baby she has to be at least 28 0r 29 now. I remember when you got drunk you kept saying you wanted to get out of jersey so you could get away from your sister. she was always saying bad things about your family and how bad she was treating your Mom. I knew your sister a little she was always on your children from Betty and she would alway call you a bum I myself thought you was doing pretty good you had a nice wife and the chidren,s adored you. I knew you for so many years never seen you so happy I think Marlene was the best thing happen to you,I read what she wrote on this site,and she really seems she missie you. Well friend mybe we will meet again a differnt life MAY REST IN Peace your friend |
| In Memory of:: | Tommy Paulin |
| Your Name: | Friend |
| Relationship: | Friend |
| Memoriam: | I was on this site and saw your name,can not believe what I read.
I knew you when you were married to Betty,you took it so bad. Then you went with a girl from keport or middletown that did not last long. You was still hung up on Betty. Then you went with a Dot I knew you and her but you was still hung up on Betty. Then I seen Our Friend Eddie and he said you met someone else,and been with here her for a very long time I think I met her when we did that painting job in that shopping center in flemington. She always bought you lunch to the job in fact she knew the lady who gave you the job. You looked happier than I ever seen you in years. I think she had 2 or 3 children ,I think some one told me you moved to fl,then I seen Eddie and he said you was living in lakewood then Toms River as you had to get away from your sister. Then I see you again at great adventure and a red head baby there you ask me if I ever met you wife. I said yes when we painting the shopping center she sure was a very pretty woman,and you said she took very good care of . you also told me it took you and her 10 years to have a baby she has to be at least 28 0r 29 now. I remember when you got drunk you kept saying you wanted to get out of jersey so you could get away from your sister. she was always saying bad things about your family and how bad she was treating your Mom. I knew your sister a little she was always on your children from Betty and she would alway call you a bum I myself thought you was doing pretty good you had a nice wife and the chidren,s adored you. I knew you for so many years never seen you so happy I think Marlene was the best thing happen to you,I read what she wrote on this site,and she really seems she missie you. Well friend mybe we will meet again a differnt life MAY REST IN Peace your friend |
| In Memory of:: | colin lambides |
| Your Name: | christina |
| Relationship: | friend |
| Memoriam: | Colin always brightened everyone's day. He had such a wonderful sense of humor. He was a creative soulful that will be missed. Rest in peace Colin. |
| In Memory of:: | Alcide G. Paquette-pepere` |
| Your Name: | Jon Paquette |
| Relationship: | grandfather |
| Memoriam: | pepere` it's been 20 years,since we had our last christmas together. you got me a scooter that year.it was red and white.i was almost 8years old.then,came srping,and it was a brisk,but clear day. when i heard by my mother that something was wrong,it didn't enter my mind,that i wouldn't be able to see you again.You were supposed to turn 61 that august 13th.but,on Arpil 14th,of '88 you could no longer be here.Little did anyone know,that you knew that before that day had occured. i have missed you,very much,since then.The man you were when you were here,far surpasses the way you left us.as I got older,I took on your traits more and more. i always related to your pain more than others.you were a wonderful grandfather to me and my sister and cousins. I speak of your memory,with great pride and lots of tears,wishing that you knew how much we loved you. I wear your old scarf,during the winter.it makes me feel that you are there with me.There is not a day that goes by, that i don't think about you, or mention an old story about you to my friends.thank you,Pepere`. i never got a chance to say how much i love you and what you have built for you're 5 kids and grandkids.i wish you were here to enjoy it. I will always honor you're memory.I love you,pepere` |
| In Memory of:: | Thomas L Paulin |
| Your Name: | Marlene Ganz Paulin |
| Relationship: | Wife |
| Memoriam: | Today would of been your Birthday you would of been 71
I just came from the Cemetery where I put flowers on your grave. I can not believe you have been gone 6 years and 5 months. I miss you I remember all the good times we had with the kids when they were small. I remember all the trips we took to N.J, disney world,Bush Garden,Sea world,Parrot Jungle,Graceland in Tn.and so many more places. I also remember all the fishing we used to do you was not sick then we had bad times too but we had more good than bad I also remember what you told me that Sunday four days before you took your life. And I was glad you told me what you told me and I told you the same I just wish you were here but I know you are at peace its the People you leave behind that are still hurting because you are gone I will always love you Marlene Ganz Paulin |
| In Memory of:: | Thomas L Paulin |
| Your Name: | Elayne |
| Relationship: | POP~POP |
| Memoriam: | POP-POP i miss you so much. If i even think about u fo a second mi eyes start to get watery. I missed u so much on thanxgiving wen u use to cut the turnapes. Now that u arent things have changed so much we dont do all of our traditions. I wish dat mi new baby sister sophia would have met u. i think she would have rele loved u. she kinda reminds me of fo some reason. n mayb if u was still here mi mommy wouldnt act the way she did she would b so much happier. WELL I GOT TO GO TO BED IM IN HIGH SCHOOL NOW GOT TO WAKE UP AT 5 LOL. I L0VE Y0 S0 MUCH POP~POP |
| In Memory of:: | Alfred Meyers |
| Your Name: | Marilyn |
| Relationship: | Best Friend |
| Memoriam: | I know it has been 22 yrs ago but it feels like you are still here near me, i wish I knew what I know now, maybe we could haved worked together on your problem from all the pressure of life, but honey you are still in my heart and think of you each day knowing that god is with you and at peace , but i miss you so much, to this day I think alot about you and someday we will be together again. For now though you will always be in my heart and I know you see me everyday from that beautiful paradise and sitting there with our heavenly father, I miss you and still love you forever, Marilyn |
| In Memory of:: | teddy |
| Your Name: | s |
| Relationship: | sis |
| Memoriam: | i love you always and forever - i miss you - the holidays are around again and i can't stop thinking of you - i think of you and pray that you are resting in peace - it's been over 2 years now and nothing has been the same since you have left my world. peace out bro......... love, me |
| In Memory of:: | Christopher Gus Sikalis |
| Your Name: | Tiffany |
| Memoriam: | Theres not a day that goes by that your children and I dont think and talk about you...I thought that after time that your loss would become easier and thats just not true. I really never understood what you were going through until I was faced that Sunday 11/20/05 with the cold hard fact that you had taken your own life. I've been struggling to put your my life back together...its only been recent that I'm not feeling that outer body experience anymore where you keep going but everything feels like its pretend. It's been very hard...your pictures and short videos that we took when you were with us kept me going for some time but I go through phases where I just can't bear the loss. I am remarried now to a man that I think that you would choose to take your place...I am tryin so hard not to dishonor you in your death. I stand up for you all the time when my family tells me that you treated me bad...I tell them that you were an awesome husband and a great dad, that you had a disease, when not medicated was hard to cope with and ultimately took your life. I tried to help you and think that you know that now...I know that I was no angel but I never wanted your life to end so soon. My heart breaks when I think back to the day...and I had been living in fear for so long that I just wanted you gone...really I just wanted your disease gone...Your were my soul mate and I would have stood by you til the end, but I also had to seperate us for fear that your rage would overcome you and end up taking me or God forbid, one of your own children....You see one dad you told me about a medication that you had gotten from your dr. that made you feel high and you said that you felt as though you had no conscience(good or bad), and at the same point in time you had been talking about suicide. I went behind your back and called your dr. and told her what you told me and she wouldnt stop the prescription. I even told her that it made you even more aggressive...and she said that she wasnt able to treat your bipolar and that she couldnt force you to get help for it...I wanted her to take you off the kolonopin and put you on what worked, your depicote...No one would listen because you had everyone so turned against me that they thought that I was just tryin to control you...The guilt that I was unable to help you is so great. I will always love you and your children and I will carry your memory in our hearts forever...Chris, I pray that your soul rests with the Lord now. I know that the Bible says that people who commit suicide are suppose to spend their eternity in hell, but I know your heart and I know that God's a Good God...my Faith stays in Him and I do not believe that He gives Salvation to take it back...I know that you love God but that you struggled with a disease that comes from hell...well we will all see who has the last laugh when we are all reunited in Heaven with our Savior...I loved you then, now and will forever and have devoted my life to raising your children to love and serve the Lord, that they will be reuinited with again in Heaven also...We love you...Rest in peace!!! Tiffany |
| In Memory of:: | james Deanda |
| Your Name: | courtney Newell |
| Relationship: | friend |
| Memoriam: | this is to him, Josh, Tiff, Keane,and devin. we were all in the same circle. we always said we couldnt live with out eachother.
i guess its true. soon my name will be up here to |
| In Memory of:: | Dad |
| Your Name: | Nancy |
| Relationship: | Daughter |
| Memoriam: | There is no more noise
There is no more Free from noise |
| In Memory of:: | Dad |
| Your Name: | Nancy |
| Relationship: | Daughter |
| Memoriam: | There is no more noise
There is no more Free from noise |
| In Memory of:: | Christopher |
| Your Name: | Brittany |
| Relationship: | Friend |
| Memoriam: | Christopher, I miss you more than ever as each day passes. You are in my thoughts every second. I miss you my love as I experience new things without your laughter in my ear beside me. I know you are looking down on me and you are with Peaches and Leib all together probably having fun. But down here we miss all of you especially you Christopher- you were the first and the hardest. I see your brothers and sister and your broken family and can't even fathom how you could do this to them. I miss you every waking moment and dream that we are togehter in my dreams. The Corinthians said to give each other a holy kiss when you meet and I can't wait to meet again...I love you babe!!!!! Keep smiling |
| In Memory of:: | Colin Lambides |
| Your Name: | Lori Cuevas |
| Relationship: | Old Friend |
| Memoriam: | I am truly sorry and saddened. My heart goes out to your family and all those who love you. So many times I had hoped to cross your path again. You touched my life and I think about you so often. You are a beautiful soul. |
| In Memory of:: | Benjamin John Cunico |
| Your Name: | Kristy J Wood |
| Relationship: | Love of Eachothers Lives |
| Memoriam: | We were 2 gether 4 2yrs,U asked me to marry u on our 2yr anv. I regretfuly said no, U Tryed 4 my had 4 10yrs U said from the begining "if i cant have u theres no reson 4 me to live n 10 years of trying 4 my hand u did just that".. U left a son n all who loved u do to heart break n bing convenced ur "better off down there then w/out me". I so have loved u always n always will,I cant help but fill the blame 4 this,but what ever happed,happens 4 a reason,i come 2 understand.. U are ment 4 greater thing that we may not all understand but i know i will see u agin some day n a sweet connection it will b 4 us agin, i know u watch over me,ur son and family n friends n thank you 4 that.. I hope ur heavy heart has been lifted n lighten w/love agin, always urs hun with luvzzz mwahzz ~~I DO MISS N LOVE U BEN~~
June 6 1977 - October 20 2003 2am-3:30am PG Ut.(26yrs) |
| In Memory of:: | Benjamin John Cunico |
| Your Name: | Kristy J Wood |
| Relationship: | Love of Eachothers Lives |
| Memoriam: | We were 2 gether 4 2yrs,U asked me to marry u on our 2yr anv. I regretfuly said no, U Tryed 4 my had 4 10yrs U said from the begining "if i cant have u theres no reson 4 me to live n 10 years of trying 4 my hand u did just that".. U left a son n all who loved u do to heart break n bing convenced ur "better off down there then w/out me". I so have loved u always n always will,I cant help but fill the blame 4 this,but what ever happed,happens 4 a reason,i come 2 understand.. U are ment 4 greater thing that we may not all understand but i know i will see u agin some day n a sweet connection it will b 4 us agin, i know u watch over me,ur son and family n friends n thank you 4 that.. I hope ur heavy heart has been lifted n lighten w/love agin, always urs hun with luvzzz mwahzz ~~I DO MISS N LOVE U BEN~~ |
| In Memory of:: | Benjamin John Cunico |
| Your Name: | Kristy J Wood |
| Relationship: | Love of Eachothers Lives |
| Memoriam: | We were 2 gether 4 2yrs,U asked me to marry u on our 2yr anv. I regretfuly said no, U Tryed 4 my had 4 10yrs U said from the begining "if i cant have u theres no reson 4 me to live n 10 years of trying 4 my hand u did just that".. U left a son n all who loved u do to heart break n bing convenced ur "better off down there then w/out me". I so have loved u always n always will,I cant help but fill the blame 4 this,but what ever happed,happens 4 a reason,i come 2 understand.. U are ment 4 greater thing that we may not all understand but i know i will see u agin some day n a sweet connection it will b 4 us agin, i know u watch over me,ur son and family n friends n thank you 4 that.. I hope ur heavy heart has been lifted n lighten w/love agin, always urs hun with luvzzz mwahzz ~~I DO MISS N LOVE U BEN~~ |
| In Memory of:: | william edward littleton |
| Your Name: | sue littleton |
| Relationship: | mother |
| Memoriam: | Edward I KNOW THE LAST FEW YEARS WERE WAS NO LIFE FOR YOU. THE BIPOLAR HAD TAKEN YOUR LIFE OVER AND THE THINGS YOU LIKE TO DO. LIKE RUNNING YOUR TRUCK THU THE MUD HUNTING GOING IN THE WOODS VISITING YOUR FRIENDS YOU COULD NOT DO ANYMORE BECAUSE YOU WERE AFRAID TO COME OUT THE HOUSE .THOSE WORDS I HEARD THAT MORNING APRIL 23 2006 I WILL NEVER FORGET .I KNOW THE PAIN YOU WERE IN BECAUSE YOU TOLD ME EVERY THING I THOUGHT .THE ONLY PEACE I HAVE NOW IS KNOwing you have your mind and can live again .i miss you and think of you every min the tears flow for you all the time. I TRY TO GO ON KNOWING i WILL SEE YOU AGAIN YOU WOULD NOT WANT ME LIKE THIS BUT I TRY .THE KIDS ARE THE REASON I GO ON .PUNKIE IS A REAL SOILDER BUB JESS SIS STILL HAVE PROBLEMS BUT EVERY ONE OF IS THERE FOR THEM. JOWUANA MIKIE ALL ARE THERE SO WE ALL GO ON IN OUR SAD WAY .THE KIDS MISS THE REDNECK KISSES BUT WE HAVE PEASE KNOWING YOUR NOT IN THE HELL YOU WERE IN HERE. REST IN PEASE BABA UNTILL I see you again love . you miss u mom |
| In Memory of:: | Staci Herd |
| Your Name: | Julie |
| Relationship: | friend |
| Memoriam: | I still remember the day you gave me the book "The Unquiet Mind." You told me it was the closest I could come to understanding the illness that ultimately took you away. I will never forget the summer on the lakes of Iowa, you on the jet ski with Nick (and his little pink lifejacket!). Your smile could light up a room and your laughter would make me smile over the phone. Your tears and your pain were real and I know you tried for so many years. I know you were tired. I understand. I only wish I could have said goodbye and to tell you the incredible impact you had on my life. I will always love you my sweetness. I am thankful you are at peace. Rest now love and be free of the pain..... |
| In Memory of:: | arron benson |
| Your Name: | nikie |
| Relationship: | friend |
| Memoriam: | arron you lost your life before you had stated it you had a great carrer ahead of you nd it was wasted |
| In Memory of:: | Stefan Gaydos |
| Your Name: | Megan |
| Relationship: | Boyfriend |
| Memoriam: | I tried so many times to help you and I wish that I could have saved you this time. I love you from the bottom of my heart.
I just wish you could've told me. |
| In Memory of:: | Colin Lambides |
| Your Name: | israels etxatxu |
| Relationship: | Friend |
| Memoriam: | Colin was a great teacher to me, I knew him since I was a young lad and I really looked up to him. What I remember him by most is that he would always greet you in a warm way, he always talked to his classes about being original and fearless. There was one particular day when he played classical music over all the loud speakers in our work/school place and every body was suddenly so cheerful. Colin always found a way to make you a better person and I will never forgett that. I wish the best to his child and his girlfriend. |
| In Memory of:: | David LaLonde |
| Your Name: | Brad Weidman |
| Relationship: | Friend and Neighbor |
| Memoriam: | You chose to leave us in May of 1995. Now, 12 years later, I understand. Thank you for treating me like a brother. Thank you for sharing your love of the night sky, for watching out for me during football practice, and for laughing and smiling and being you. I regret that I did not know your pain; that I could not help.
Thank you for the short time you spent with us. Know that you still live in the memories of all who cared for you. You are missed. |
| In Memory of:: | Thomas L Paulin |
| Your Name: | Marlene Ganz Paulin |
| Relationship: | Wife |
| Memoriam: | I can't believe it been 6 years since you have been gone
I think of you everyday The girls are getting so big Elayne is going to high school this year and Jessie in Middle school Cynthia will be going to 2nd grade,she was only 14 months old when you died Elayne and Jessica remembers you and speaks of you often I will always love you ,we were together 35 years and we got married 15 months before you died I know you are at peace finally but I still miss you. Wife Marlene |
| In Memory of:: | Teddy |
| Your Name: | S. |
| Relationship: | little sis |
| Memoriam: | I can't believe it's been almost 2 years since you have gone. I have been thinking about you so much lately. I miss you like crazy and love you with all my heart. My tears are coming now so I wanted to be here with you. I pray that you have your peace. I love you bro..........forever, me. |
| In Memory of:: | Melanie |
| Your Name: | Cindy |
| Relationship: | Best Friend |
| Memoriam: | Melanie,
You were my best friend and only friend. We shared everything together. I miss you so much, I wish I could of done something to make you see that you were a special person amd you didn't deserve to die. I'll remember you in my heart forever and never let your memeory fade. |
| In Memory of:: | sean saccamango |
| Your Name: | dana venturo |
| Relationship: | cousin |
| Memoriam: | sean i wish u were here, i know u are watchin down on us and i know that u see what is goin on! john david is sick and i thought since u were in heaven maybe u have some pull with god and u could help johnny get through this! we all love u and miss u! please help john david, we could always count on u to keep us safe when u were here so now that u are gone i know ur still watchin us. i know u always got our back and i just pray that everything will be ok! we all love u n miss u lots and u are always on my mind and in my heart! i am sure u have seen but i wanted to let u know i got a tatoo in memory of u! u would love it! i know how much ur tats ment to u and i know u always had to hide them because of u i wear mine with pride and i will never hide them or who i am from any1. i thankyou for makin me a better person and for teachin me its ok to just be yourself. i will see u again one day and until then i will never forget all the time and happpiness we shared. i love u always sean and i miss u more and more everyday! i like in irwin again and i cant help but thinkin that if u were still alive i would see u alot more! we were always close and i hate not havin you in my life now! i will never forget u and i always hold u close to my heart! i hope ur living it up in heaven and i hope that u know that u were never alone even if it felt that way sometimes. losin u was the hardest thing i have ever gone throught and there is not one day one minute one second that i dont think about u! my mom and i have photos of u everywhere and i cant believe how long u have been gone already. i still cry for u and i think i always will. when i have kids they will hear all the storys about u and when i have a son he will be named for u! u will never be 4gotten by me by our family or by the many girls who are still in love with u! u were such a stud!! remember our trip to fl! ha ha that was good times and u were always my older cousin who always stuck up for me and always looked out for my best interest i wish i would of takin ur advice about boys but u'd be happy to know that i dont date losers anymore! ha ha and i will always love u! i miss u lots n i look forward to seein u again!! love u miss u kiss u!! ~dana lee! |
| In Memory of:: | dan |
| Your Name: | duff |
| Relationship: | just is |
| Memoriam: | hey you....thank you for sharing this journey, thank you for showing me that age is just a number and wisdom comes in all sizes and from all places (even new jersey), thank you for teaching me a thing or two and thank you for all the 'spirited discussions' ( ok they werent arguements )
Truthfully, at times when i felt unheard, thank you for your words of encouragement and understanding...and lessening my isolation and fears...I am grateful that we shared the path pup, grateful that you were who you were, nothing held back,the strength and the anxieties, glad that I saw your empathy at work and your growth into manhood, and I know now that you found your place of peace~~~~duff |
| In Memory of:: | Thomas L Paulin |
| Your Name: | Marlene Ganz Paulin |
| Relationship: | Wife |
| Memoriam: | Just missing you and wishing you were here
Our new Granddaughter is Beautiful She looks just like Our Daughter when she was a Baby The Girls are getting big and they just love their new sister Love You Always Marlene |
| In Memory of:: | Julianne Lea |
| Your Name: | Tim Fasano |
| Relationship: | Friend |
| Memoriam: | She was a special child of god who will be forever missed. To borrow from Donovin "She was a flowers gift to a garden." We love you Juli and will always hold you dear to our hearts. We regret that your only way out seemed to be this. Love Timmy |
| In Memory of:: | Julianne Lea |
| Your Name: | Tim Fasano |
| Relationship: | Girlfriend |
| Memoriam: | I miss you Julianne. My life is empty without you. I have not stopped crying since you left. When does that stop?
I am devastated that you were taken from me. I am angry that life was so hard to you. I did not know you were so unhappy. Life is very unkind. Not everyone is happy. It was hard to see you while your condition was degrading. You would not know it, however, from the pretty picture of you on this post. It was taken only two weeks before you died. That is how I will remember you. I will remember you full of life and warmth and kindness. I will remember the laughter and the love. I will remember the precious time we shared. I will remember your vitality and your grace, your noble spirit and kind heart and talent and your humorous essence that attracted me to you. Your death left a gaping hole in my life. But hard as it is to be without you, I take comfort in the knowledge that you are at last in peace and free of that terrible disease. I will not let you be forgotten. Many of your friends may be looking for you and I have started a website in your memory..Julianne1.homestead.com I am a photographer, so this blog is a photo essay of your life as much as I can with the images I have on hand. Rest in peace Julianne. I will always love you. God bless you. Amen. |
| In Memory of:: | Julianne Lea |
| Your Name: | Tim Fasano |
| Relationship: | The Love Of My Life |
| Memoriam: | I miss you Julianne. My life is empty without you. I have not stopped crying since you left. When does that stop?
I am devastated that you were taken from me. I am angry that life was so hard to you. I did not know you were so unhappy. Life is very unkind. Not everyone is happy. It was hard to see you while your condition was degrading. You would not know it, however, from the pretty picture of you on this post. It was taken only two weeks before you died. That is how I will remember you. I will remember you full of life and warmth and kindness. I will remember the laughter and the love. I will remember the precious time we shared. I will remember your vitality and your grace, your noble spirit and kind heart and talent and your humorous essence that attracted me to you. Your death left a gaping hole in my life. But hard as it is to be without you, I take comfort in the knowledge that you are at last at peace and free of that terrible disease. I will not let you be forgotten. Many of your friends may be looking for you and I have started a website in your memory: "Julianne1.homestead.com" I am a photographer, so this blog is a photo essay of your life as much as I can with the images I have on hand. Rest in peace Julianne. I will always love you. God bless you. Amen. |
| In Memory of:: | Thomas L Paulin |
| Your Name: | Marlene Ganz Paulin |
| Relationship: | Wife |
| Memoriam: | I was just watching home movie the trip we took and all the kids growing up
Some of them goes back 20 years.it was good then before you got sick I miss you every day and wish you were here,but I know you are in a better place There is no more pain for you I will always love you til the day I die,and hope one day we will be together I know now why you did what you did because sometimes I think I want to do the same thing But then I think how it will effect oher people Love You Always Marlene |
| In Memory of:: | sean saccamango |
| Your Name: | dana venturo |
| Relationship: | cousins n friend |
| Memoriam: | sean, u know i talk to u everyday and everynight b4 i go to bed and even when i need some help. its crazy everytime i ask u for help u come through for me. i love you and miss you! i wish were still here and i know i will see u again. I love you always and miss u dearly!! always in my heart and always on my mind. you know i got a tatoo for you! you'd love it and thats what i got it for! i love u i love u i love u!! |
| In Memory of:: | Sean Saccamango |
| Your Name: | Lynn Zigarovich |
| Relationship: | Aunt |
| Memoriam: | I miss you every day
I wish you were still in my life I wish I knew why you left and someday I'll see you again. Love Aunt Lynn |
| In Memory of:: | Ron Forester |
| Your Name: | Lynda |
| Relationship: | Cousin |
| Memoriam: | We had such a lovely service, so many turned out.I am sorry you had to go. Sometimes our pain is so big, others cant see it but it is there. You always turned out for your family and we will miss you. say hi to Dave for me. Goodby Digger |
| In Memory of:: | Thomas L Paulin |
| Your Name: | Marlene Ganz Paulin |
| Relationship: | Wife |
| Memoriam: | Just missing you and wishing you was here,our daughter will be giving Birth soon
Another Girl,they say The girls are getting so big 6,11 and 13 Love you Marlene |
| In Memory of:: | Joe Guadagno |
| Your Name: | Dad |
| Relationship: | Son |
| Memoriam: | It's been over two years and I miss you so much. Your son is wonderful. Bright and fun-loving just like you were.
I pray that I someday will see you in heaven. Love you always DAD |
| In Memory of:: | Thomas L Paulin |
| Your Name: | Marlene Ganz Paulin |
| Relationship: | Wife |
| Memoriam: | Happy Birthday You would of been 70 years old today
Miss you Marlene |
| In Memory of:: | CHRISTINA "CHRISSY" ROSSI |
| Your Name: | LINDA ROSSI |
| Relationship: | MOTHER |
| Memoriam: | TO OUR BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTER WHO TRIED SO HARD FOR SO MANY YEARS BUT WAS UNABLE TO FIND THE HELP SHE NEEDED. SOAR WITH THE ANGELS CHRISSY, YOU ARE FINALLY FREE. BE HAPPY AND HAVE THE MOST GLORIOUS CHRISTMAS EVER. I LOVE YOU. MOM |
| In Memory of:: | clay white |
| Your Name: | gale norton |
| Relationship: | friend |
| Memoriam: | He was a very nice person. He also suffered from bipolar,as my self. People do not understand the deep ingraved feelings of despare when we get to depressed. People also judge you and said that you will go to hell if you kill yourself. I know that we have a loving God and He understands the mental illness we have. Please don't judge people. For people perish for lack of knowledge. Please read and study about this illness. Maybe someone you love has this illness and you could help save someone's life. |
| In Memory of:: | Thomas L Paulin |
| Your Name: | Marlene Ganz Paulin |
| Relationship: | Wife |
| Memoriam: | Thanksgiving was here and gone It just don;t seem the same anymore withoutyou thank God chris is here with me as we had Diner together
Christmas will be here soon and that means your Birthday is coming you would of been 70 years old now do you remember what you told me just days before you took your life I just wish it was the truth,I know more than ever now what you went thru day after day in this house I just wished it would of been different and I listen to the Tape you left it took me 5 years to listen to it all Its sad how you let them get to you and you had to pay the price your life I know you are no longer in the pain and you are at peace, but I think of you,I went to north Fl last week and i pass places we was together I just miss you and i guess always will I am still in the same house but not for long i wanted to Die there but can not afford the pool and the taxes keeps going up,and the mortagage keeps going up and up you were right about the Pool but at least some one paid it for you,They don;t for me, I guess I am just very sad tonight and i forgive you for doing what you did will always love you Marlene |
| In Memory of:: | John Daley |
| Your Name: | Lauren |
| Relationship: | niece |
| Memoriam: | I miss you so much. I wish you did not have to carry your burden alone with no one there to listen. I know how our side of the family is. "Think pretty thoughts." I love you.
Kristina hasa baby now and another on the way due in March! Forever, and I will try to keep up my fight with bipolar; you are not "weak" to me!! Love Always, Lauren |
| In Memory of:: | Jamie Denise Hutchinson |
| Your Name: | Janet Denise McElroy |
| Relationship: | Mother |
| Memoriam: | Jamie,
It's only been a little over a month since you took your own life, and I miss you so much. I wish I had known more about your illness so that I could have better understood you. I have happy memories of our life together, being your mother, and if I had the chance to be your mother all over again, I would. I never truly understood the pain you suffered from. You will be forever missed by me, your children, and your family and friends. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of you. I know that one day I will see you again. Here's the poem I wrote you when you were an infant in my arms. My darling child I held you near a faded dress that was so dear. I wore it when I said I do, one day I hope it'll be worn by you. The years have gone, my girl is grown she's soon to begin a life of her own. She's wearing the dress, though it looks brand new, as she utters the words she at last says I do. I think back on the years when on my bosom she lay as I watched her grow and go her own way. These memories are mine, something I'll always treasure, and being her mother has sure been my pleasure. Jamie, one thing is true. Being your mother has sure been my pleasure! Love, Mom |
| In Memory of:: | Colin Lambides |
| Your Name: | Iris |
| Relationship: | old, old friend |
| Memoriam: | Hi all,
I just did a random search on Colin Lambides and discovered he had committed suicide. I'm trying to determine if this is the same Colin, an old friend of mine I met while trekking through Europe. Is this Colin Lambides from Chicago, the artist?? Iris |
| In Memory of:: | david hedden |
| Your Name: | forresa hedden |
| Relationship: | brother |
| Memoriam: | david, as time goes on, i only miss you more! 4 1/2 years ago and it still seems like yesterday! I know our Father in Heaven gives me peace beyond all understanding. they say that what don't kill you will make you stronger. I really know that old saying is true. I miss you,I love you, You really missed getting to see cole and dusty grow. They are such wonderful young men. You'd be so proud. Kelley has 3 kids. Dad left right after you. He could'nt stand the pain. Your memory lives in me. |
| In Memory of:: | Jim Corner |
| Your Name: | Barry & Corrina Murphy |
| Relationship: | Friends |
| Memoriam: | You are now in the breeze and sunshine that touches our faces. We miss you |
| In Memory of:: | Jim Corner |
| Your Name: | Barry & Corrina Murphy |
| Relationship: | Friends |
| Memoriam: | You are now in the breeze and sunshine that touches our face. Be at peace our friend |
| In Memory of:: | Matthew T. N |
| Your Name: | Myrna |
| Relationship: | Mother |
| Memoriam: | I love you and I miss you my son.
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| In Memory of:: | Mike |
| Your Name: | Kaylee |
| Relationship: | Best friend |
| Memoriam: | Mike we miss you down here. Everything about you. From your sweet smile to the funny things you said. You could lighten any tense moment with just a phrase. I miss that. You saved my life more then once and I just wish i could have done the same for you. You meant the world to me, more then anyone will ever understand.
I hold two grudges. You never said goodbye, and you didnt have the courtisy to do it away from jack and davey [[now scarred from your action]]. you went upstairs, to the bathroom you claimed, and never would return. do you know that jack layed curled up in your blood crying will davey stood in tears trembling with fear. did you know they held your bleeding corpse for hours before calling. we will never forget you. we love you. |
| In Memory of:: | Teddy |
| Your Name: | S. |
| Relationship: | sis |
| Memoriam: | hey bro - missing you - i can feel you around me tonight - i love you so much - i need your guidance - i miss the genuine person that you were - it's hard to find many real people these days - I truly love, miss and adore you always. xxx's |
| In Memory of:: | Thomas L Paulin |
| Your Name: | Marlene Ganz-Paulin |
| Relationship: | Wife |
| Memoriam: | Just thinking about you and looking at the picture of you when we first met and my daughter sitting on your lap.what joy was on your face you was 30 then ,you did not look 30 thats was such a good time in our life then
I know we had more good times than bad and no matter how many years go by I miss you ,the pain don;t ever goes away its a little over 5 years and I miss you now more than ever the bad years was when Doctors was treating you for the wrong thing and giving you all kinds of medicine making you feel high than giving you some medication to bring you down and your mind was playing tricks on you I tried for years to get you off the pills the more i fought the more the Doctors gave you you just wanted them to help you so you could be like you used to be ,but the pills won and you died ,thats was the sadess day of my life ,but you are at peace and nothing can hurt you again I remember 4 days before you took your life we spent the day together and talked most of the night,I think you was telling me the things you did because you thought you could not go on I did not know then you was Bipolar nor did I think you would commit suicide by taking over 200 pills you just wanted the pain to go away and it would not go away I will always love you and miss you every days till we are together once again We were together 35 years and got married the last year and a half before you took your life ,thats say a lot you wanted to marry me,and I wanted to marry you its like thats song you are safe in my heart and you will go on,that is the truth I see you in our granddaugter she has your eyes very blue she was so young 5 then she is now 10 Love You Marlene Ganz-Paulin |
| In Memory of:: | John Palmer Stensrud |
| Your Name: | Jessica Laurens Stensrud |
| Relationship: | brother |
| Memoriam: | Dear baby brother,
Do you see how I miss you? Did you think that I wouldn't hear that you had killed yourself? Did your eyes turn away from all of us? How could we have stopped you? You raged and turned us all away and claimed we had abandoned you or that you had lost us. How can I recover from this pain? Right now I doubt it is possible. You meant so much to me and you could never know. Bearly there Bear, my stinken brother, stink. Why did you take yourself to that dark place where none of us could follow? I would never have done this to you; how did you think you could do this to me and all of us? Don't you remember how we fished, worked out at the gym, went running, talked about Mom and Dad, laughed so hard we cried? Did you think I could ever write you off? I just didn't know how to reach you! I never left you. Now you have made it so final. How could you have done this? How? |
| In Memory of:: | Cheryl Johnson |
| Your Name: | Maggie Miller |
| Relationship: | Daughter |
| Memoriam: | Cheryl was a mother and wife, a nurse and a friend. She is sorely missed by her daughter Maggie Miller and her son David Johnson. She was proceded in death by her husband David Johnson in June of 2005.
Cheryl was born in a small town in Southern Wisconsin to a school bus driver and a receptionist at the South West Tech. She had a brother named Larry Copus, a sister in law named Bev Copus and 2 nephews named Sean and Travis Copus. Cheryl knew early on that she wanted to be a nurse, and was even a candy striper in the local hospital during high school. She went on to school at the University of Wisconsin Eau Claire for her nursing degree. Directly after college, in 1975 she was married to her high school sweetheart David Virgil Johnson and they bought a house in rurual Eau Claire, WI. Cheryl worked at Sacred Heart Hospital in Eau Claire and David was a logger in the surrounding areas. Chery was first a float nurse and then was a nurse in the Rehab department. After attaining her masters degree in Nursing she became the head of Rehab and later was made the head of not only Rehab but Neuro/Peds as well. Cheryl was a mother of two, David Erik Johnson and Margaret (Maggie) Elizabeth Miller. She loved to walk and would take her dog Tucker sometimes 10 miles a day. She also loved to bike ride and would sometimes take the family on 40 some mile bike rides. She was active in everything her children did, she was ther for every baseball game, basketball game, Volleyball Game, Ballet Recital, Football Game, Forensics Meet, Choir Concert, Band Concert, Horse Show, Horse Lesson, and school Play her children every were involved in or did. In 2001 her beloved father passed away and from ther Cheryl started a downhill slope until finally in January 2002, she slipped into a coma from an overdose and never woke up. She had 3 funerals and at each one there were too many people for the places the funerals were at. She had so many people in the community who loved her and who she had touched by her caring and compassionate hand. Cheryl will be forever missed, by her children and grandchildren, mother and brother. There is nothing more one can say about her, she was a good woman, and that is all ther is to it. |
| In Memory of:: | Thomas L Paulin |
| Your Name: | Marlene Ganz-Paulin |
| Relationship: | Wife |
| Memoriam: | It has been 5 years 1 month 2 days since you took your life it does not seem that long, I know you are in heaven,as I saw you on the 14th of July,
I thought I was having a panick attack as it was getting close to the day you died. and I was not feeling good again ,I was thinking about you and wishing you was here and thought I was having one of my panick attack I had a pain in my chest that lasted longer than before then went to sleep then was woke up by the pain again this time it lasted longer ,went to the doctor he then advise me to go to hospital I said I would but not that day the next day I went well when I had the test done they found out one of my arterie was 90 percent closed and the other one was 50 percent closed, they open the 90 percent one ,but left the other one for later,as I was moments away from a massive heart attack still I am healing,and I know now hat I have to do ,thank you The next thing I knew I was with you and you was saying I had to go back ,I just wanted to stay with you,but you said I had things to do ,I ask you what things ,then you told me and also I now understand why you did it as u explain the pain you had and the reason you could not go on I know God have fogiven you and you are in heaven and I saw your Mom too,she was right there too Gary and Mom was there but did not say anything they smiled ,my Dad was sitting by his mother and father and waved I heard a dog barking but could not see him or her,when I was back in my room,or recovery they said I was talking to some one ,name Tom then I knew I was not dreaming I miss you and will always love you,we were together for 35 years and got married a year and half before you died and thats says a lot bye for now and I am doing the things you said |
| In Memory of:: | Stephen Lee Puckett 11-19-81 - 10-28-04 |
| Your Name: | STEPHANIE |
| Relationship: | SISTER |
| Memoriam: | I STILL REMEMBER THAT DAY....THE PHONE RANG AROUND 3:15. IT WAS AMY, THROUGH THE CRY I COULD NOT UNDERSTAND AND HAD TO HAVE HER TO REPEAT HERSELF TWICE. SHE SAID YOU HAD TAKEN YOUR LIFE. THE PAIN THAT I FELT IN MY HEART WAS PAIN THAT I HAD NEVER FELT BEFORE. IT STILL FEELS LIKE YESTERDAY....I MISS OUR LAUGHS AND THAT BIG SMILE THAT WOULD LIGHT UP THE ROOM. YOU WERE ONE IN A MILLION. I JUST WISH I COULD HAVE HELPED YOU, I WISH I HAD KNEW HOW BAD THIS REALLY WAS. HOW CAN SOMEONE HAVE TO HURT SO BAD, IT IS TOTALLY UNFAIR, BUT WHAT IS FAIR? I MISS YOU SO SO MUCH AND OUR FAMILY WILL NEVER BE THE SAME. I LOVE YOU STEPHEN.......WWW.STEPHENLEEPUCKETT.COM |
| In Memory of:: | phillip seth montgomery |
| Your Name: | debbie montgomery |
| Relationship: | step/mom to seth |
| Memoriam: | WE MISS YOU BUBBA, ASHLEY, BAILEY,ALLISON, YOU SHOULD HAVE GRADUATED WITH HER THIS YEAR AND THEN THERE IS YOUR REBEL BUDDIE WHO IS HEARTBROKEN. WE WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND WHY YOU HAD TO TAKE YOU LIFE SETH, YOU WERE LOVED BY SO MANY PLEASE BE AT PEACE SWEETIE . WE WILL ALWAYS KEEP YOUR MEMORY ALIVE SETH, I PROMISE YOUR DAY MISSES HIS BUBBA SO |
| In Memory of:: | Seth montgomery 1986-2006 |
| Your Name: | Debbie Montgomery |
| Relationship: | step/mom to seth |
| Memoriam: | SETH OH MY GAW WE MISS YOU SO, WE WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND WHY YOU DECIDED TO TAKE YOUR OWN SPECIAL LIFE ON THAT HORRIBLE DAY. WE WOULD HAVE BEEN HERE BUDDIE, I KNOW YOUR GIRLFRIEND BROKE YOUR HEART BUT WE DIDN'T IT WAS THAT TRAUMATIC FOR YOU SWEETIE, SETH PLEASE BE HAPPY ASHLEY, ALLISON, BARRY YOUR DAD AND I MISS YOU AND LOVE YOU BUBBA REST IN PEACE OUR DEAR BOY.
GONE BUT NOT FORGOTTEN LOVE YA |
| In Memory of:: | Douglas Dragonetti |
| Your Name: | Denise |
| Relationship: | spouse |
| Memoriam: | He was a wonderful husband, father, grandfather, son, brother and friend. He was loved by everyone that ever knew him. He was the love of my life and the best man in the world. We had 32 wonderful years together. I am so sorry that I didn't realize how much he was hurting and I would give anything in this world to have him back. My life is so empty without him. I hope he is at peace now. |
| In Memory of:: | Teddy |
| Your Name: | S. |
| Relationship: | sis |
| Memoriam: | closing my eyes - thinking of you - wishing you were here - bro, i love you, R.I.P.......... |
| In Memory of:: | Colin Lambides |
| Your Name: | Susane Martinez |
| Relationship: | friend |
| Memoriam: | My heart goes out to Cecilia and your child, who I'm sure is as sweet and beautiful as you both are. Colin, you were always a dear and genuine person and I'm grateful you graced my life with your presence and memory. I hope you are in a better place, you will always be remembered as a creative, gentle and loving spirit. I will miss you...
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| In Memory of:: | n/a |
| Your Name: | Marie |
| Relationship: | n/a |
| Memoriam: | Thank you so much for allowing me the opportunity to visit this site. I actually fit in this category much more than you can know. |
| In Memory of:: | Christopher Bourke Doty |
| Your Name: | Patricia Michelle Morgan |
| Relationship: | Former Partner |
| Memoriam: | Dearest Chris,
I can understand your need to free yourself from the pain - I only wish that I could have been more help. I miss you tremendously and think of you every minute of every day. I will never forget your beautiful smile, your quirky sense of humour, your passion for life. I will share our experience with the world to help diminish the stigma that comes with Manic Depression and Suicide. Our society needs to be aware of these issues - we all need to talk openly about it. That way, help can be given to those who need it the most, and I pray, fewer will be lost. |
| In Memory of:: | John Wayne Ketchum |
| Your Name: | Ann K. |
| Relationship: | sister |
| Memoriam: | We miss you so much, John, and it's still a mystery as to why you chose death over life. Rest in peace. |
| In Memory of:: | Melissa |
| Your Name: | Aunt Pattie |
| Relationship: | Aunt |
| Memoriam: | It is the end of may, you would be getting ready to graduate, turning 18 and free of those teen age traumas
But in stead of that this weekend I will be putting flowers on your graVE, YOU DIED , YOU TOOK YOUR LIFE ! you jumped of the big Z !!!! yu were only 16. Why? oh sweetie I would have been there to catch you if you thought you needed to fly. I miss you so much. My "Missers", I'll Miss you . I can not ever know your last thoughts , I can never , NEVER, show how sorry I am , that I did not help you, did not see. you have always been and always will be loved. |
| In Memory of:: | Earl Paul Roberts III (Scooby) June 30,1973-February 26,2004 |
| Your Name: | Brenda Roberts Pearson |
| Relationship: | Mother |
| Memoriam: | Scooby.
I hope you finally found the happiness you searched for here on earth, i know you tried baby, but since you left us, my life is forever changed, we went through so much together, i would do it all over to have you back again. All the trauma and drama, the tears and worrying and sleepless nights. I had you for 30 years, and there is a cord that connects mother and child forever, not even death can severe it. You live on in my heart and memories for eternity. You were a good person with a good heart but a horrible desease of Bi-polar and addiction. You hurt deep and suffered much baby but i believe in my heart you have been set free. I love you Scoob, yesturday, today, tomarrow and for all eternity i love you. Rest in peace. Love Forever, " Ma" |
| In Memory of:: | Earl Paul Roberts III (Scooby) June 30,1973-February 26,2004 |
| Your Name: | Brenda Roberts Pearson |
| Relationship: | Mother |
| Memoriam: | Scooby.
I hope you finally found the happiness you searched for here on earth, i know you tried baby, but since you left us, my life is forever changed, we went through so much together, i would do it all over to have you back again. All the trauma and drama, the tears and worrying and sleepless nights. I had you for 30 years, and there is a cord that connects mother and child forever, not even death can severe it. You live on in my heart and memories for eternity. You were a good person with a good heart but a horrible desease of Bi-polar and addiction. You hurt deep and suffered much baby but i believe in my heart you have been set free. I love you Scoob, yesturday, today, tomarrow and for all eternity i love you. Rest in peace. Love Forever, " Ma" |
| In Memory of:: | Jacob Lee Blanton |
| Your Name: | Sara Parker |
| Relationship: | mother |
| Memoriam: | We miss and love you dearly- mom |
| In Memory of:: | Earl Paul Roberts III (Scooby) |
| Your Name: | Brenda Roberts Pearson |
| Relationship: | Mother |
| Memoriam: | Scooby.
I hope you finally found the happiness you searched for here on earth, i know you tried baby, but since you left us, my life is forever changed, we went through so much together, i would do it all over to have you back again. All the trauma and drama, the tears and worrying and sleepless nights. I had you for 30 years, and there is a cord that connects mother and child forever, not even death can severe it. You live on in my heart and memories for eternity. You were a good person with a good heart but a horrible desease of Bi-polar and addiction. You hurt deep and suffered much baby but i believe in my heart you have been set free. I love you Scoob, yesturday, today, tomarrow and for all eternity i love you. Rest in peace. Love Forever, " Ma" |
| In Memory of:: | Earl Paul Roberts III (Scooby) |
| Your Name: | Brenda Roberts Pearson |
| Relationship: | Mother |
| Memoriam: | Scooby.
I hope you finally found the happiness you searched for here on earth, i know you tried baby, but since you left us, my life is forever changed, we went through so much together, i would do it all over to have you back again. All the trauma and drama, the tears and worrying and sleepless nights. I had you for 30 years, and there is a cord that connects mother and child forever, not even death can severe it. You live on in my heart and memories for eternity. You were a good person with a good heart but a horrible desease of Bi-polar and addiction. You hurt deep and suffered much baby but i believe in my heart you have been set free. I love you Scoob, yesturday, today, tomarrow and for all eternity i love you. Rest in peace. Love Forever, " Ma" |
| In Memory of:: | Robert Wayne Wright |
| Your Name: | Trevor N. Walker |
| Relationship: | grandson |
| Memoriam: | I will always miss you and think of you.xoxo |
| In Memory of:: | Robert Wayne Wright |
| Your Name: | Paulette Walker |
| Relationship: | Daughter |
| Memoriam: | I will never forget you.I hope peace has found you.Love always,Paulette |
| In Memory of:: | Eloise Etheridge |
| Your Name: | Jennifer Etheridge |
| Relationship: | mother |
| In Memory of:: | Carolyn Anette Fritz |
| Your Name: | Shannon & Ron Miller & Family |
| Relationship: | close family friends |
| Memoriam: | We never realized what an "Indigo Child" was until we met you, thank you for teaching us the unknown.
You are sorely missed by everyone! We'll see you on the other side CarolAnn. |
| In Memory of:: | Richard Willey Jr. |
| Your Name: | Ashley |
| Relationship: | Niece |
| Memoriam: | i miss you every day of my life. . . for the past 6 years you have been gone and not one day has passed that i dont think of you. . .i miss you so much, and i wish that you could have just talked to someone, and gotten some help. . .and made a different choice. every day i think of what life would be like if you were still here with us. sometimes i feel so much anger towards you for what you did, but then i know that it was what you thought was the best way. . .and sometimes i just wish i knew why. . . |
| In Memory of:: | Carla Barton |
| Your Name: | Cathie |
| Relationship: | Friend |
| Memoriam: | Carla,
I miss you everyday. I wish I could of helped ease your pain in some way but you were gone before I knew how bad you were hurting. I am glad you left us a note even though I could tell how hard it was to read what you were going to do I knew that you felt it was the only way out. I just wish you would of stopped by on that cold cold day in Dec. I miss you! |
| In Memory of:: | THE VICTIMS OF AN HORRID ILLNESS |
| Your Name: | KB |
| Memoriam: | Please know to all who lost loved ones, that nothing is your fault, there was nothing you COULD HAVE DONE. I know,
because I have the ugly illness myself. I have thought about suicide also. you see, we dont want to die, its just so draining, that ugly illness, that the older I get the worse its gets and a spinning mind, an unquiet mind added with the emotional pain of depression. how much can one bare under that weigh? If YOU can forgive them, do so. GOD loves us, I know HE does. HE UNDERSTANDS THIS ILLNESS. |
| In Memory of:: | Bruce |
| Your Name: | Danyelle |
| Relationship: | Daddy |
| Memoriam: | Daddy,July 22,2005 is a day i'll never forget. I miss you so much. I never realized how much we went to you for advice. I think about you every day. I try to stay strong because I know that's what you would want me to do. You were the best Grandpa in the world and i'll never let my babies forget you. I know you didn't realize how much we all loved you but just so you know now we all love you so much and we'll see you again someday in heaven. Your loving daughter Del |
| In Memory of:: | Tim |
| Your Name: | Carol |
| Relationship: | mother |
| Memoriam: | I thank God that he gave you to me, if only for 18 short years. i am just so sorry that you were in so much pain and even sorrier that you felt suicide was the only way that you could be free from the pain. I will always love you and miss you. i know that you are safe in the arms of Jesus and thats the only way i can get through this sad time. you were a great person, you were the only one who did not know it. |
| In Memory of:: | Scott Gregory Tachera |
| Your Name: | Joanne |
| Relationship: | Sister |
| Memoriam: | Dear Brother,
You have been my hero from age nine when you defended a little first grade Japanese boy from two bullies. They broke your neck and you spent six months in the hospital and a lifetime of excruciating pain. Yet you never once regretted your decision to stand up to the bullies. You have been so humble and kind to others; I wish you had been kinder to yourself. So many love and miss you now. . . . I forgive you as I know that you desired peace and an end to the pain. I want you to know that I will always love you. Until we meet again on the other side, dear brother know that I love you. We were the only family each other had. You meant so much to me. Love,Joanne |
| In Memory of:: | Timothy |
| Your Name: | Chelle |
| Relationship: | Friend |
| Memoriam: | Why is the world so cruel to us sometimes?
I sit here looking at your photo's thinking all of the what if's ! The Truth is there are no what if's, Whats done is done. But at only 18 !!! Timmy, I never told you this but the last time I saw you, I fell in love, Crazy as it may seam and Now I have lost you, I love you more. I wish we had of talked more about how you were feeling, Maybe I could of helped? I know I would of listened ! Your little sisters miss you alot so does everyone else. Your Girlfriend and I are best mates now, Your little sisters call us their sisters, We stay over at your place a couple of nights a week, Were looking after mum too. Hope you have found some peace now and remember you are in my heart foreva... Miss you lots. xoxox |
| In Memory of:: | Sue Baudier |
| Your Name: | Tina Shott |
| Relationship: | Friend |
| Memoriam: | I will always miss you. I know that your out of the pain. I hold no bad feelings, except deep sadness. I love you. |
| In Memory of:: | Staci Herd |
| Memoriam: | May you rest in peace in the arms of the angels. |
| In Memory of:: | Teddy |
| Your Name: | S. |
| Relationship: | sis |
| Memoriam: | My hopes and prayers are all about peace for you bro -- only peace and a quiet mind. That's what you have always longed for so that is what I hope and pray for. R.I.P bro -- you deserve it. I'll deal with all the madness now - and believe me there is plenty to deal with. Don't worry, I'll try as best I can to make everything right on this side. So, are ya with me? I know you are -- shining down on me like a star. Thanks - love you and miss you every single second of every single day. Night bro......xxx's, me |
| In Memory of:: | Frank |
| Your Name: | Suzanne |
| Relationship: | Husband |
| Memoriam: | Frank was the most wonderful husband and father. I miss him dearly and he will be in my heart forever. |
| In Memory of:: | Four special people |
| Your Name: | Cie |
| Relationship: | cousin/friend/someone who cares |
| Memoriam: | For Rachel my cousin:
You tried everything yet no-one could ever reach you. I never got to know you as well as I should. My own bipolar gets in the way of getting close to other people. But I care and was saddened when you chose to take your own life. I hope you found peace. For Howard, my high school friend: How sad that you hanged yourself at only 18 years. How sad that your mother and sister had to find you that way. But mostly how sad that you couldn't get through the pain of your girlfriend leaving you. You were worth so much more. For Jim, my brother's friend: You were only 17. Yet you felt your life was over. Your father didn't agree with your choice of careers, but there was more than that to your decision. Who knew how much pain was behind your impish smile? Nobody had any idea until it was too late. For Pelle, who I wish I could have known: My heart aches when I think of how much pain you were in. You were so much like me. I feel like I've lost a special friend although I never met you in person. My heart feels empty and I am helpless to explain. It's never the answer. But many times I am tempted myself. I hope they have found peace. I hope so can I. Cie http://psychosphere.blogspot.com |
| In Memory of:: | Billy Ray Gay |
| Your Name: | J.R.Gay |
| Relationship: | Son |
| Memoriam: | I never knew you and never will get to know you. You were gone out of my life as a child and permanently remove from my adult life. I'm left with a void and so many unanswered questions. |
| In Memory of:: | Lillian "Dimples" Barton Jones |
| Your Name: | Tera |
| Relationship: | Daughter |
| Memoriam: | I plan on joining you soon. I love you. |
| In Memory of:: | Colin Lambides |
| Your Name: | Star |
| Relationship: | Friend |
| Memoriam: | Dear Colin,
You were always such a kind person. So fun and creative and a joy to be around. Everytime we ran into each other it was such a treat for me to see you. You and your brother are two of my favorite people. I just found out today that you are no longer with us and it pains me to think that Colin Lambides is gone. The last time I saw you you gave me a huge hug before you had to leave. I keep replaying that moment in my head. I am so full of anguish at this moment. I can only imagine what your family and close friends are still going through. Your good heart will always live on. |
| In Memory of:: | David |
| Your Name: | Peacemaker |
| Relationship: | He was my preacher |
| Memoriam: | I was only 14 years old and our young people's preachers was not only loved by respected for his actions and enduring love for us all. But he hid all of his pain from not only his boss but from all of us in the church. He was bipolar with several other things that I cannot remember now. He felt shame for the insanity of his life and desease. He is still mourned and will never be forgotten - I know he is in heaven and Jesus held him in His arms when he entered the pearly gates. |
| In Memory of:: | sissy flannery |
| Your Name: | Brook Ashley Willis |
| Relationship: | cuzzin |
| Memoriam: | sissy tried to commit suicide and i don't know why but that same night i did to only she went to the hospital because she cutt her self so did i she went to the hosipital because she cutt right into her vaign and her step mom went in there right away and called the ambluence when she got there she had lost almost 1 pint of blood so she had 2 stay there 4 a while and then had to councling with me at the same time |
| In Memory of:: | Taylor Mathew Grosso |
| Your Name: | Trevor Grosso |
| Relationship: | Father |
| Memoriam: | This is the hardest thing I have ever written in my life. My son was only twenty two when he died, he took his life and he was bi-polar.
Taylor was the sweetest most gentile loving son a man could ever ask for. Sadly I did not realize how fragile he also was. I am also bi-polar and have been all my life and I'm sure that took its toll on my son. Why I am still here is such a mystery to me. Taylor never had a chance to find the love of a woman or have a family or even a life. I have asked God so many times, why? Taylor was such a sweet loving child and a wonderful protective brother to his sister. He loved his sister from the day she was born until the day he died. He was so intelligent and inquisitive and full of wonderment at so many things in life. Unlike me Taylor wanted to live so badly and to be normal and have a life and be able to have friends. He didn't get to have those things but he fought and struggled so bravely without complaining. He was a far better man than his father. He believed in God and the only thing with him when he died was a bible I had given him. The pain I had to see my son go though for seven years was unspeakable and to this day I am so sad and grief stricken about it there are no words. He died three years ago and I still cannot really accept it. Oh God how I wished I could have been a normal father, I did the best I could and it was not good enough to save my son. He was so beautiful in every way. When he was a baby a child and a young man he so loving and thoughtful I can't take it out of my mind. I remember over and over every little thing Taylor ever did and said and every precious moment I had with him. The last time I saw my son I took him out to help him buy a car and shop for some cloths for him to have when he was at college |