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|Comments:||Well not sure I can say a lot at the moment, my husband was buried 15 jan 20013 it would hae been his birthday that day.
My regards go out to you all who are grieing also.
|Comments:||my darling husband sean, so quickly taken from me on 05/08/12.
Not a minute goes by when i dont think of you i love you with all my heart and will never forget you my munchkin man. Life is so strange without you. I think it is finally hitting me that you have gone and left me. I dont know were to turn. I just want you back if only for 5 minutes for a one last luv.
I love you with all my heart today, tomorrow and always
your loving and lonely wife kirstie xxxxx
I will try and make you proud with everything i do.
Till we meet again my darling sleep tight my special angel xxxxxx
|Comments:||My loverly wife Susan (30 June 49 - 12 May 12) miss you so honey together for 41 years, my 'Best Friend, My true love. Though think and thin, troubles and lifes triels. You was always there.
One day we will be togeather agin. Till then spleep well and watch over me.
|Comments:||To my darling husband, Rob.
Words can never express the horror of you being taken away from us, my heart is broken without you, you were gone within a flash & all my body can do right now is breath, i feel like my world has stopped without you in it & cannot wait for the day when we are together again, the one & only love of my life who was taken so soon, without warning, i will miss you every day & will love you for eternity, yours forever xxxxxxx
|Comments:||Mum, I am so sorry that I left you for a few hours to get some rest. I know that you were scared but the medical staff assured me that you were doing ok and that we should get some rest while we could. If I had known that you only had a few hours I would never have left you, I would have been happy to see you into the afterlife and reunited with Dad. I will forever regret not staying with you and listening to the medical staff, you knew what was happening and I should have listened to you and ignored the rest, you always knew best.
Please forgive me, I was only doing what I thought best with the information I had at the time. I would have never left you alone when you needed me most if I had known.
I will love you always and forever,
|Comments:||My dad you were here them gone so suddenly. My life has changed so much since you went. I treasure the time that I spent with you when we found out you were dying. We were all so shocked, and then you were gone three days later. I feel lost without you dad I want to be strong for you but I am really struggling. I don't know what to do without you. I feel like I have lost my mum since you went too. She is doing her own thing - I know she misses you but it's hard dad. I miss you so much I wish I could be with you now x
Paul smith 1/9/45 -16/5/2012
|Comments:||oh l wish l had found this site before, my wonderful husband clive died of cancer 6th june 2010. I was married 34 years and the pain is still unbearable but l know he is waiting for when we will be together again, his dying words were l;ll walk halfway round the moon and wait for you there.|
|Comments:||Andy,we miss you.
You were taken too suddenly.
I can never adjust to you not being here, we love u so much,our lives are so dark without u,
Please look after Mum.
Our sunshine, Andy. Come back .
|Name:||Deanne Asamoah "D.D"|
|Comments:||To my little sister, u wer just 13 when u died right next to as I was doing my hair with mum, we thought u wer just sleeping but u didnít wake up, ever!! They tried to bring u back but it was too late!! U wer gone, I cant bare not having u here we wer meant to do so much now u wud be 18, but Ur not here wiv me Iím on my own now sis but mums wiv u now.
I love all of u mum sister my nanny my aunty and my uncle R.I.P I will see u all one day!
|Name:||Trudy pearl mackenzie|
|Comments:||My mum oh how I miss u, my best friend! U struggled 9yrs to fight off the cancer that slowly destroyed Ur body, I watch u change over the years, and slowly become so strange I can barely believe my eyes.
You fort hard all them years for Ur kids and I thank u for dat mum, because I no u where in so much pain all day everyday and all of the op u had u where so brave!
I am so blessed to have had such a special, strong, and selfless MUM, I miss every moment of everyday since u went to heaven, u went wiv such dignity and peace.
I love u mum and miss u I want u back so much!!!!
|Comments:||Honeybunch, we spoke in the wee small hours about your night out, you told me to have a wonderful birthday and that you loved me very, very, very much, and that you would catch up on me later on my birthday, Good Night mum you said as you went up the stairs in the early hours of my birthday, you were upset, your boyfriend had cheated on you for the umpteenth time, I spoke to you on my birthday twice and you were tired but fine, so you decided to have a long lie in, but God wanted you as one of his angels and you went to sleep that afternoon never to waken up again, you passed away - 'Adult Cot Death' - they said to us, you died on my birthday and took my heart with you that day, it was the 22nd July 2011, I saw you lying there with tubes everywhere, they obviously thought that they could revive you, but by then you had become one of God's Angels, touch their hearts and leave an impact the way that you did for everybody here, God obviously thought it was your time, you were only 18 years of age, just beginning out in life, starting to spread your wings, your sister Rachel cant talk about you, Dad and I find it painful to look at your picture, we just wait on you walking tnrough the door, I know that you will make a wonderful angel for God and his family in Heaven, you have a heart of gold, a heart that was too large for your body, your body lived inside of your heart instead of your heart living inside of your body, We Luv You Baby Girl, you gave us 18 wonderful years of happiness, some days we shall never forget. Wait for me my darling honeybunch, till the day that we meet again, God Bless My Darling Rowena, Muah, Mum xxx|
|Comments:||I can't believe that my nan has gone, only been a few weeks and the funeral is on Tuesday. Not quite sure what to expect; only been to 1 cremation and that was my dad's cousin, didn't even know him & Grandad's was when I was 4 and dad didn't let me go. I hope that she's happy and safe where she is and for Grandad to look after her wherever they are. Nan's husband, my other grandad, is still alive and he is devastated and my mom is crushed from the loss of her mother. I want to send my love to all who knew my nan. xx|
|Comments:||Only just found this site, lost my best friend,husband and soulmate in a motorbike accident hit by a lorry died instantly on June 2011. Miss him like crazy, cry and talk to him every day, best thing since sliced bread he always used to say. Feel so alone and empty but carry on for our son and work.When can i wake up from this nightmare? Is there any light at the end of the tunnel?|
|Comments:||My dearest darling Dave we were meant to be together forever now I`m here alone, I want to thank you for all the years we had together and for all the wonderful memories we made, I so wish I could have one more day with you but I know that would`nt be enough, On the 16th Feb2011 my whole life changed for the worse, It was the day he decided it was time for you to go with him, I just just hope he can see what he has done to me as I`m broken darling and miss you with every part of my body, Please be waiting for me darling when its my turn, I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER XXXXX|
|Comments:||Dear son you left my side on march 30th 2011, that day will be etched in my mind forever, I can remember the day you were born, the love I felt was powerful, that love will remain with me forever, I will never forget you son, Love you loads Mum xxxxxx
P.S Thanks to everyone on this site for getting me through the tough times xxx
|Comments:||My wonderful boyfriend, so troubled and so alone. Although you were not alone, you were surrounded by those who loved you and yet you didn't think to turn to anyone, you decided to sleep forever. I thank you every day for being the one you said goodbye to, the one you told you loved and the fact that you called me your angel. You took your own life far too young, you had a future that you planned with me. It may not have worked but I was willing to try. I wish I could have cured what was in your mind, to be your saviour. Save a bar stool up in heaven for me baby boy. Love you forever and miss you every day xxx
Austen Wilson 08.02.90 - 27.08.11
|Comments:||My beautiful teenage son went to heaven, aged 16 on the 1/1/11 after fighting cancer on and off since he was 2. I struggle every second of every day to understand and i get angry at people who disregard their gift of live. My son loved life more than anything, yet he could stay on this earth. I know this feeling of anguish will never leave me, but i hope one day i can laugh without feeling guilty. My son was my life and my 3 poor girls have now got an incomplete mum. Pedro, mummy loves you so much!!!|
|Comments:||My mum passed away suddenly on 1st June 2011, due to her doctor misdiagnosing a heart condition with a Vitamin deficiency! I just can't get over it- i'm told time heals but it feels as bad today as it did 4 months ago. I'm trying to be strong for my dad but struggle daily. I miss talking to her, shopping with her, spending time with her- i just miss her, i miss her. my heart is broken. I can't imagine spending the rest of my life without her. everythings a reminder, a memory. i'd love to chat to anyone grieving like me; maybe we could help each other through it! xx|
|Comments:||Dad, It's been a month now since you happily went to bed and to sleep, none of us ever realising you would not wake up again. We miss you SO very much it hurts and the reality is - it does not seem like reality. You were taken too soon (64yrs), you had so much you still wanted to do and see, hope and dreams. Samuel misses you terribly, you were an inspirational Grandad and a loving and supportive Dad. Please be happy and to quote your last words "Be Lucky" Dad + I love you and miss you more than I ever thought would be possible xx|
|Comments:||My beloved nan passed away 3 weeks ago. She practically raised me so I feel like I have lost my mother/nanny/friend all in one. Can't sleep, I keep having panic attacks. I miss her terribly...what do I do now?|
|Comments:||I was the girl
Who loved the wooden mouse
I was the girl
That shared your house
You were the man
I turned to in need
You were the man
I wanted to please
We lost, we found
And somehow you went too soon
And I'm all at sea
I just know that you
Are not there
That you have moved on
To that place with no name
You are confused too
All will be cool
Like they said in your time
I LOVE YOU
|Comments:||COURTNEY DARSHAE FERRELL
BORN: NOVEMBER 2, 1990
PASSED: DECEMBER 27, 2008.
|Comments:||my dream is to wake up from this nightmare|
|Comments:||I have only just found this web site, so I can't comment on anything. I lost me wonderful Husband just 17 weeks ago, it was so sudden that it shocked even the paramedics. My life has changed so suddenly and I feel so lost and alone. I have a wonderful family and we have a beautiful little Grandson, but they have no idea of the pain I am in. We all grieve differently, so I don't know what anyone else who has lost their Husband or Wife is feeling, we all love differently too. I know that I adore my Husband and I know that he adored me, he told me. I don't want to go and see a councillor, I would, however, like to talk to Women who are going through the same as me, maybe not to talk to, but just knowing that you are there may help with the depression and lonliness.
|Comments:||To everyone who has participated in this site, thank you. My husband, Winifred ter Meulen, has been dead for three years now and I first found this site when I was looking for him on the internet because I couldn't believe he was gone (grief makes you a little crazy). It was a comfort to be able to express my feelings but also to see how many other people were suffering in the same way, that I was not alone.
I want to tell everyone that it does get easier as time moves along, you don't forget and you don't have moments of extreme grief but it is best to focus on the fun and good times with the one you have lost. Blessings and comfort to you.
|Comments:||Daddy its reaching the 1st year anniversary of your passing, I miss you more and more each day so much so that it hurts me....I dont know how I am going to get through the rest of my life without you? You were only 62 why is life so cruel? I do know that where ever you are, your now happy and free from all pain. We all miss you so much - Layla is such a big girl now, and Baby K number 2 will be here in a few weeks.... never did we think you would not be here to celebrate Gav and Gemma special time, next Sunday is going to be SO hard, but I will get through it.
I miss you love your Me Me x
|Comments:||missing mum very much taken too soon and suddden,life is never going to be the same again.lost my mum jan 8th 2011.i cant imagine life without my mum.the pain is unreal|
|Comments:||i lost my mum 8th jan 2011,life is so cruel right now.im missing my mum very much she were just 52 taken so sudden and tragicly.the pain is unreal im so ssd.i want to call her like i did every day.|
|Comments:||very warm and comforting|
|Comments:||I lost my mum on the 9th June 2007. I never had a chance to speak to her she was ventilated and in intensive care for a month where i spent every day with her holding her hand begging, pleading, praying for her to get better. There is still not a day goes by when I do not cry and miss her. She loved her family and christmas she believed in god and believed that she would see her mum and dad and my baby brother again. I wish I could talk to her hear her voice have her call me on the phone and hear the rustleing on my mobile because she had caught the buttons of her mobile and called out. I LOVE YOU MAM I WANT YOU HERE but That cant be so will cry every day and miss you every day and hope that we will see each other again xxx|
|Comments:||yet again this time of year brings much sadness. 3 years ago my famliys greiving began. tomorrow i will be yet again remembering and celebrating someone dear. please give me the strength to deal with yet another very sad and dark day.|
|Comments:||my name is Debbie I was five months pregnant with our son Xavier he was born on the 29th nov 2010 and died on the 29th nov 2010, i have asked many questions on why this has happened and why he took our son from us so early, and i didnt get an answer on any, maybe our son was to special for this world, god had better plains for our son, everyday is a struggle but everyday i get stronger , nothing can describe how empty i feel inside , and how empty my arms feel not holding my child, being pregnant is ment to be the most amazing thing that god gave to a women but he can so easily take that back when he feels, but now he is in the arms of an angel and one day i shall be reunited with my son, he is dearly loved still and very much missed R.I.P Xavier love mummy and daddy and ur sisters and brothers xxxxxxxx|
|Comments:||It was my Dads birthday on the 8th December.
I feel so down especially during this time,as my dad was in hospital 4 days after his birthday.
I can't enjoy Christmas just like a lot of people who do, it's just full of sad memories, being in and out of hospital until the 5th of February, as my dad died of lung cancer.
I miss you Dad so much, your energy strength and courage you've given me, keeps me going and I feel stronger.
|Comments:||My beloved Bill who passed on October 19th 2010 at 12.22am after an 8 month fight with bowel cancer. You stayed strong and positive throughout, we never spoke of what might be, but you never gave up, even up to the night before you was sitting up and laughing and joking with the family. Our 3 children and our grandsons you will always be with us, watching over us and guiding us through life. You went so young at 48, I miss you so much which I cannot put into words, but I know you hear me every day. Godbless my soul mate, our love will grow stronger every day xxx|
|Comments:||i lost my best friend my soul mate my husband on 5/3/20002i never felt so lost with out you del my world just so a mess you was only 57 i know you out off pain and that i should be happy for that but i just wish my heart was not borken i miss you so much it hurt's keep looking over me love love you alway|
|Comments:||In loving memory of my mother "Zoe" who passed to spirit 30-08-09 afer a 13 year battle with breast cancer, aged 63. She was an inspiration to all who met her. Glad your suffering is over for you but I miss you more each day. Forever in my heart. Love never dies.
|Comments:||To my partner Mark, my soulmate who was taken away in August this year, he was knocked down by a car and died instantly. I miss him so much. I do not know how to carry on without him. We had amazing plans for the future and they have been taken away so suddenly with no warning. I love you so very very much Mark. All my love Elaine xxx|
|Comments:||My beautiful, strong, amazing and wonderful mum has gone I have lost the person who gave me everything, my best friend, we lived together, we laughed together, we watched life together, we loved together and now I am empty without her.
I miss you always
I need you always
I love you always
Big hug mummy
|Comments:||for dad...who died on 24/10/2007and for olwen who died on 16/8/2010 and for faye who took her life in devastating circumstances on 03/08/2010 and died on 16/08/2010...my heart is with you all...i pray for you all,my pain for faye is raw as so sudden xx|
|Name:||Natasha aged 19|
|Comments:||In loving memory of my darling little sister Sophie aged 15 who never woke from her sleep. You were never without a smile on your face. You were a picture of health, taken so suddenly from us that sunday morning and still we have no reason why. Never did I think you wouldn't be here with me Sophie, its been four week and each day just seems to be getting harder. I cant describe how much my heart breaks for you and how life just isn't the same without you. I know we use to fight and argue but I just need you to know that I love you more than anything in the world. I would give everything I have just for one last moment with you, just to make sure that that night you didnt go to sleep, so that you would still be here with us. I cant even go in our room Soph because I can feel that your not there. My heart breaks so much. I love you more than words can describe and always will. Sleep tight my angel x x x|
|Comments:||In memory of my dear mum who passed away with cancer last year. I'll never forget you Mum. Thank you for being my mum. You will always be my mum. I love you very much. I wish I could see you and hear your voice again. I miss you. God bless you. With hugs and kisses and lots of love from your daughter Jane. XXX OOO|
|Comments:||In memory of a wonderful father.
I miss you a little, i guess you could say,
a little too much
a little too often
and a little more each day.
|Comments:||To my dear husband, Jon.. William will be 2 on Thursday. I can't believe you only had 2 christmases and 1 birthday together. He knows somehow that you're not coming home again and he's sooo difficult at the moment. I am struggling without you, your support and love. My mum tells me I'm still young and fortunate that I can start over again, but I didn't only commit myself to you for the duration of your life - also mine. I need you to know that I wait for your call everyday and it does not come. That I smell your skin, even in your absence. That I hear your humor and laughter, although it's not there. That I cannot believe that God could've created my perfect mate and tear him away from me so soon. I need you to know that however difficult I may have been at times, I loved and love you with my entire being. Your devastated wife and widow, Tasche|
|Comments:||Words cannot express how heartbroken i am right now. I lost my dear nana in october who meant the world to me and then in the early hours of saturday morning my lovely cousin was tragically killed in a car crash. He was only in my town for the scattering of my nanas ashes on the friday which got postponed due to bad weather. I had only been speaking to him 10 minutes beforehand, taken so young at 31 you were so happy and touched many lives as did nan. I hope your both up there with grandad, grandad ron and Ry's grandad bob. Miss you both so much, just hoping i can get through this xxxxx|
|Comments:||I still find it hard to come to terms with the loss of my dad.It has been a year since I last signed this book.
My dad's birthday was on the 8th Dec and I always did give him a card,present. I can't believe that I can't do that anymore.
I miss him so much, having father daughter chats, listening to his advice.
I still have flash backs of the last moments my sister and Mum had with my dad. I don't want to have memories of my dad in this way, but it happens.
My only wish is that in the next life that I will be back together with my dad. Ashax a prayer to everyone.
|Name:||Ryan Curtis, 18|
|Comments:||My uncle Hal died on 2/03/10 he was 57 I had a special bond with him. Four summers ago, my dad sent me to live with hime for two weeks, he died 3 years ago on my mothers birthday July 13.He sent me in hope to change me into a better man.I was 14 and I was very rebelious this was life changing for me I will never forget it.It has only been two days but I'm starting to feel a little better because I know he's up there in heaven playing baseball with my dad.I love you Hal I'll never forget you.You wre my only true friend other than my dad.|
|Comments:||My gorgeous little cousin, died so suddenly.
he was so tiny and so sweet.
i miss you every single day Michael
and i will miss you forever
goodnight baby boy
|Comments:||hi ya people i have read all ur heart felt comments and al the lost you have all been through i have also lost important people from my life too i lost my niece suddenly due to suddden death of epilepsy jan 22nd she was only nine bless her my sweet little niece whos watching me form up above peacefully sleeping love you tilly xxxxx also lost my dear dad jul 22nd from a subaquiod brain hemmorage suddenly and i had a little boi this year which i was so gutted my baby son could not meet them both which is causing me with bad depresion at the moment im taking everyday one day at a time but its hard thinking what my dad and niece would of thought of my lovely baby boi and also gettin married next april and could not even get married in a church as i wanted my dad to give me away but he is not present on my big day just hope that my life can look a lil more bright for the future insted of all this doom and gloom xxxx|
|Comments:||i lost my precious little boy when i was three weeks from my due date,and i went for a scan and my poor little boy had passed away,stolen from me before i even got a chance to say hello.its been 10 months and every day my heart hurts.my little boy mikey was so perfect and ive got no answers of why he was took from me.all i know is the day he died a part of me died too, and i love him so much and i can never show him.my precious mikey sleep peacefully mummy loves you forever.xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx|
|Comments:||My father was tragically killed in a road accident on 04/10/09. He was travelling in his car with my mother on the way home having dropped me back to college when a jeep crossed onto their side of the road and caused a head on collision. My dad was killed instantly and my mother suffered a broken sternum and massive bruising to her lower body particularly. One of the hardest things to deal with, apart from the fact that my mother, brother and I have to live without dad, is the fact that both driver and passenger of the jeep fled the scene. It is said the driver of the jeep had been drunk. They were caught after 15 hours but failed to show any remorse. And to make things worse, the night after the accident my dads dog, Prince, was stolen. We were told 3 men with 2 pitbulls had been in the area skulking but we have heard nothing since. RIP daddy we are thinking of you always, and wherever you are, look out for poor Prince xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx|
|Comments:||In loving memory of someone truly amazing, who had a long battle with cancer and sadly passed away mid November. We are all missing you lots, you were an inspiration to all|
|Comments:||Carol. my lovely wife of 43 years, died of cancer on 7th May 2009. She knew what was happening and asked to come home to die where she did in my arms. I love and miss hurt and hurt every day. She was a lovely, beautiful lady, elegant and nice, hard working and has a lovely smile. I miss her so.
'Oh for the touch of a vanished hand and the sound of a voice that is still'
|Comments:||My husband Winifred ter Meulen died suddenly at 56 on January 26 2008, now on 14th October 2009 our border collie Jessie has had to be put down due to Lymphoma at 13 years and 9 months. Winifred used to weep at the thought of losing Jess, so at least he is spared this suffering. I have never felt so alone in my life now she has gone as well, it doesn't help when people say, "Well she had a long life", I knew time was running out for us but I am devastated. I am lucky to have three children from a previous marriage and two grandchildren I adore but living alone is hell!!|
|Comments:||I have a feeling,
There will be one more Star up in the sky tonight.
And even though it's far away,
It will be the brightest & the warmest Star in flight.
~~~OUR ANGELS IN HEAVEN~~~
When somebody dies,
a cloud turns into an angel,
and flies up to tell God,
to put another flower on a pillow.
A bird gives the message back to the world,
& sings a silent prayer to make the rain cry.
but t...hey never really go away.
The spirits up there put the sun to bed,
wakes up grass,
and spins the earth in dizzy circles.
Sometimes you can see them,
dancing in a cloud during the day-time,
when they're supposed to be sleeping.
They paint the rainbows & the sunsets,
make waves splash and tug at the tide.
They toss shooting stars,
and listen to wishes.
And when they sing windsongs,
they whisper to us,
Don't miss me too much.
The view is nice and I'm doing just fine.
May the beauty of Precious Memories become Our comfort.
|Comments:||My daughter born 11/2/1990, and passed 12/27/2008, just turned 18 years old, and ready to celebrate the christmas holiday with family, once she hookup with friends she was on her way home, three blocks from home when a speeder hit and killed her while crossing the street in Miami, Florida.Her life was just starting, from attending college and graduating to become a juvenile judge, was her dream. Missing her dearly is so hard for a mother and siblings, noone could ever imagine the everyday pain, and constant hurt you have everyday, to keep strong and smiling only covers this temporarily sadness and pain, a mother's pain remain like this forever, what do you call a mother who lost a child, except a grieving mom, is the only title i come up with, so moms stay strong, and lean on yourself, because there is really noone that wants to hear our painful feelings and stories, for some reason, people become scare to approach us, can it be that scary, not knowing what to say to us moms, just continue to read poems from mothers like us, or start your own journal of letters to your lost ones. Read the dos and don't that you say to moms. Missing my baby forever, 2009|
|Name:||Jemma Chantelle Charlee|
I Tragicly Lost my grandad who was 70 and died of 4 different cancers.
RIP ur now with nan you willl neva be forgotten i lovee youu soo much xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
|Comments:||ill miss you forever my darling, the love i felt for you will always go on, i could never explain to you what a difference you made to my life, i am a better person because of you. Watching you go though the pain you went through... nearly ripped me apart, i didnt think id ever cope.But i know your still looking over me, always, my love. we will never truely be parted. ill see you again one day. in gods arms
i will love you forever
i miss you
|Comments:||to sign dreambook, 2009|
|Comments:||my beautiful husband died a year and a half ago from cancer. He was 43. Thomas. Such a beautiful person.
We were only married 2 months when we were parted. I thought I was going to die the pain was so bad. Its so hard and the pain is still in my heart.
I miss you more now babe than ever. I love you. Always will. Rest with the angels my darling. I know you are with me. I just can't see you...
|Comments:||Be strong guys. Although im only 18, ive lost very close loved ones, my dad, cousin uncle on separate occasions, i would like to say that there is a light for all of us at the end of our tunnels, no matter how long they are
Light will always shine
|Comments:||my darling pat im so sorry i still miss you every second of every day i love you more each second of every day i think of you nearly all the time of every day i hurt all the time every day because i love you so much after 38 years together its nearly a year now my patty and im still lost in sadness and grief as im alone without you my darling please remember me and love me every second of every day just as i remember and love you my darling wife pat. love you forever my special love JOHN xxxxxxxxxxxxx|
|Comments:||I lost my dad through to cancer oct 2007, it was a painful process to watch me and my older sister helped care for dad while he was unable to do anything, it was a tough time for both of us with our mom leaving us to deal with his death alone as she felt the need to f**k off and move to blackpool for another man. I was there when my dad passed and it was the happiest point for me because I knew he was finally in happiness. You are all very strong people for still being here and being able to live their memory on, I applaude all of you and we can all hope in time the pain heals because in the end, it can only make us stronger.|
|Comments:||love you still my sweet pea|
|Comments:||In memory of my beautiful Sister Kirsty Grabham who was murdered. Her husband is awaiting trial for her murder. Kirsty you were only 24 I am heartbroken now you are not here with us. My world stopped the day your heart stopped beating. I can still hear your little voice in my head calling my name. But you are not here I am devastated you are loved so much. Pink Princess beautiful dreamer xxxxxx|
|Comments:||Miss you nana granda and aunty violet missing you every day i just wanted to say a realy big thankyou for looking after cameran and making sure he got to us safe and well he's very much like you grandad Thank you sooooo much xxxxxx Also flake our beloved dog and alice our cat miss you love always christy and camrean xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx|
|Comments:||To Alice my best friend who was there for me no matter what she would always come running when i called out her name she would always greet me with a kiss and a meow she would sleep in my bed with me in all weather's my girl was 1 week away from her 19th birthday when she snatched away from us by the f**king dog the night befor she died she lay next to my 3 week old baby boy and licked his hand she would lay in my arms and sleep for agaes.people say she was only a cat but to me she was much much more she was my rock my baby girl god i miss her so much. ALICE 14/05/91 to 07/05/09 love you for ever and always love you baby girl xxx lots of love christy and cameran xxxxx|
My died of cancer in February this year.
We found out that he had lung cancer in December, he had his 68th birthday on the 8th Dec,then was admitted on the 12th Dec.
At the time i was running my own business,and taking christmas orders.I wasn't in right frame of mind,and i just wanted to be with my Dad every minite of the day,but i was tied down to this business,i still went to see him no matter.
Now its Fathers day,and im feeling quite emotional at this time, as i would always visit my Dad without fail choose a special card.
My Dad was always over the moon when i visited him.I have my Mum now,who i feel so protective towards.
We should make the most of this life,with our families because time is short,and we should express how we feel and tell those close to us that we love them,and spend time together more often.
This wesite has helped me a lot, this is the third time ive signed.
Good luck to every one Asha
|Comments:||thanks iam really pleased i came across your website|
|Comments:||Today is week 21 since my wife was taken from me after a three year battle against cancer. I am still counting the weeks and watching the clock every Friday. I really can't see a future for me, instead I am living just one day at a time. I'm told that things will get better, but I believe that time will only allow me to think of my wife without becoming emotional, and that time has not yet arrived.|
|Comments:||I lost my mum suddenly 3 weeks ago, she died the day before her 46th birthday, i feel i will never get through this sad and lonely time, nice to see this page and to read all of your thoughts and to know im not alone at this time.
I cant believe your gone,
It just seems so unfair,
I will never forget,
How much you did for me,
And how much you cared,
My heart feels like its breaking,
My worlds been turned upside down,
Words just cant begin to express,
How much ill miss having you around,
Ill miss watching you dance,
To your favorite CD,
Ill miss all the Saturday,
Dinners you did for me,
I cant imagine life,
Without you in it,
MAM ill think about,
You every minute....
love always lynda
|Comments:||I lost my Mum 6 weeks ago and i miss her so much. She meant the world to me was such a happy go lucky person that lived life to the full. All i can do is take the strength she had and use it in a positve way to help me overcome my sadness.|
|Comments:||I lost my wonderful father on 19th Feb 2001 it was sudden.I have never got over it and I know I never will. They say time heals but all it does is make you cope better with the loss. Whenever I think of my father I always choke up and my eyes fill with tears the pain is evident and will always be constant. I will always love you dad rest in peace
your devoted daughter Sheniz
|Comments:||I lost my mum on thursday 30th april at 3.30pm. I was with her at the time. im still in shock i think. she was 84 and her name was mary.|
|Comments:||ive just lost my brother .im really raw at the moment ,will be back here soon xxxxxxxxxxxx|
The last time I signed in the Dream book was in March almost a month since my Dad died.Since then my sister and I have been doing our best to help my Mum with all the legal documents that follow.
I had so much anger in me at that time,when my Dad died but I will always have the pain,I would just want to try and keep my Dads memory alive.I would love to go on a Pilgrimage with my Mum some day,finding some peace.
We had so much help,support from family and friends,during this hard time which we are greatful for.Now after 3mths my sister and I have to organise the arms giving for the memory of my Dad,which is a Buddhist tradition we follow.
My dad had planned to go back home for a holiday with my Mum 2 weeks before he was admitted.I managed to go with my Mum last month where they have a house.
We didn't go for a holiday,but it so happened that my Dads home abroad was burgled the day after the funeral.What a shock that was for us,so I helped my Mum with all that to deal with when I was there.
Dad had so much pride about his house,the last room he had newly fitted was the 2nd bathroom,so he kept saying how he was looking forward to using it.
We took some of my Dads ashes in an urn with us back home,but we couldn't bear leaving him alone there so my Mums bringing them back with her, we may probably place them in an area of the garden with some lovely flowers,by a tree a peaceful place in the garden we can visit any time.My Dad loved his garden.
My wishes are with you all. Asha
|Comments:||in loveing memory of my dear grandma.
if i could have a single wish,
id visit heaven up above,
to see my special grandma
whom with all my heart i love.
you were always understanding
when i had lost my way,
and your kindness and your wisdom
are still with me everyday.
I'll miss you always and forever,
and when i see the stars that shine,
i'll think of my special grandma,
whom im proud to say was all mine.
|Comments:||COME ACROSS THIS BEUTIFUL SITE BY ACCTDENT OR MAYBE I WAS GUIDED TO IT AS I AM FEELING VERY LOST AND ALONE BUT REALIZE LOOSING MY BEUTIFUL BRAVE HUSBAND TO CANCER MADE ME WANT TO STOP TN AND SCREEM THAT I WANT HIM BACK IT HURTS SO MUCH AND ITS LIKE A OPEN CUT .BUT TODAY I AM NOT ALONE AND HAVE TO REMEMBER YOU ALL WHEN I CANT SHAKE THIS DEPRESSION OFF.WHAT HEARTFELT MESSAGES THAT CO INCIDE WITH MINE AND DONT FEEL LONELY READIG THEM.THANK YOU FOR SUCH A WARM WELCOMING CARING SITE.I WILL VISIT YOU ALL OFTEN.XXXXXXXXXX|
|Comments:||What a wonderful site, it has brought me great comfort having a memorial in the garden of tranquility for my mum.Thanks to the host for all the hard work put into this for the good of others.|
|Comments:||I lost my husband Steve in August 2008. He had been ill with an undiagnosed gut problem that left him at the end unable to walk, sleep or do much without pain. He died of an arrythmia which I'm told he would have known nothing about. He died in bed next to me. The 15-20 minutes it took the ambulance/police to get to me were the longest and hardest in my life. Telling his parents and grandmother that their beautiful son had died was awful. He was and will remain my soul mate. The website was his blog. He was a very intelligent and talented man. He trained as a scientist, became a great gardener and when he felt his life was nearly over due to illness he took up writing poetry and doggerel. I'm plodding on but often with little enthusiasm. Reading the entries here has made me cry with recognition of the pain I myself feel. There are far too many of us suffering alone at home. At some point the rest of the world sees you as single and not widowed and grieving. I'm struggling to create a new life for myself. Steve would be desparately unhappy if I were to lose all interest and love of life. I know when I pass away I'll be going wherever he has gone but that is little comfort when you want to hug, smell and kiss them.|
|Comments:||Have just been to my mother in laws funeral today, she died on the 8th march 2009 age 67. The service was ok with some readings from my wifes family, very touching indeed and a lot of people attending which was nice too. Unlike a lot of people with their inlaws I got on with her very well, she was very much to the point, which was not unlike my mother, so I was used to mothers saying what they thought and in a way liked it that way, you never needed to ask if you had offended her because she would tell you before you had chance to ask.
In the week before she died, we visited her often and on the last day I told her she was a good mother in law and that I would miss her.
At the moment I feel cheated in that I feel I wanted to know her for longer than I was allowed.
Best Wishes to you all.
|Comments:||My Uncle died last week and I am still struggling to cope with every day life. This is particularly difficult for me because as a university student it's the time of year where all the deadlines fall. I keep telling myself to 'be strong' and do well because he was nothing, if not a hard working professional. But it's not that easy. I find myself crying uncontrollably at the slightest trigger and getting very angry.. again over nothing in particular. I hate being on my own and constantly feel lonely and anxious, but at the same time I can't face big crowds of people. A normal student night out has turned into my worst nightmare and I would rather avoid people than let them see me like this. Today is my birthday. It doesn't feel like it though. I couldn't really feel less excited if I tried. If anything, I feel worse than a normal day. I don't feel like celebrating or doing anything remotely fun. All I feel like doing is being on my own and crying. I can't believe my Uncle died - especially seeing as he only went into hospital with a broken leg but contracted pneumonia. Sometimes I think hospitals do more damage to people than good. I know he was old and ill (he had parkinsons too) but he didn't deserve to die yet. I worry about my Aunty and my Grandmother (his sister) as they will feel the effects the most. My Grandmother lost her husband only a few years ago and I remember how hard it was for her to get through that, so I can't imagine how much worse it must feel to loose her brother on top of everything. She is quite a private person and it's often hard to support her because she always wants to put on a 'brave face' and I have only every heard her crying once in my whole life. I'm worried about the funeral in a couple of day's time because I'm useless at things like that. Instead of being there for my family I'll probably be crying and not talking an awful lot.|
|Comments:||Loosing my brother-in-law to cancer on the 14th of January 2007 was one of the hardest things I have ever endured. Until my beautiful Sister Julie (his wife) died exactly 11 weeks later on the 1st of April also of cancer. The pain of loosing my big sister was immense I didnít think I would ever get over loosing them. I helped her older children through the worst of it & became legal guardian to her youngest one. It took me a long time to start the grieving process, organising 2 funerals, looking after her children and my husband and work let me escape from reality. But eventually it did catch up with me & I was finally starting to come to terms with it and was able to talk about the good times and bad without ending up in tears.
Then the ultimate hammer blow happened. My mam suddenly passed away on the 26th of February 2009. She was my mam my best friend my nurse & my confider with never having a father she was everything, I told her things I have never told another living soul. She might have been 72 years old & some insensitive people can say she had had a good innings. She hadnít! She had angina from the age of 38 after getting pregnant with me, for the last 9 years she has been wheelchair bound riddled with osteoarthritis. I miss her so much I know that when our ju died that took all of her will to live. & I know that she is with her beautiful daughter but I want her to be here with me im the baby of the family I need her more than anything. I miss her smile, her smell her floppy ear lobes that I always played with as a child. The way she got me & my sister mixed up & called me lemma (a mixture of Lynn & Emma). & again I have to be the strong one organising the funeral & sorting out her estate, believe it or not I have got 2 older sisters that should be doing this but hey I guess itís down to me again. What I really want to do is lock the door and crawl into a corner & be left in peace just for a little while to let me deal with my loss in my own way and do not have to be strong for others. Three deaths in 22 months is about as much as any one can take.
Im sorry for going on & im so sorry for sounding angry especially towards Mam I know I shouldnít be but just at this moment I am so mad with her for leaving me. Selfish I know but she knows I donít mean it
Thanks again for listening
|Name:||julie, maureen, kathy|
|Comments:||To our dearest pat (our sister) its nearly ayear now. We never knew how much we loved you, until you were gone. What pain......thankyou so much for being part of our family. We miss you so much, but you know, dont you kid. you are truly one special lady and we will always love you for always and forever. keep watch and shine brightly.|
|Comments:||My darling wife Wendy and I met on 23rd October 1999, both having previously been unlucky in love. Both of us were deserted by our partners,in her case leaving her with an 18 month old son and a 6 week old daughter. She spent the next 18 years working at 2 and sometimes 3 part time jobs to make sure that they never went without and that their home was a place of fun and happiness. She even managed to buy them both their first cars when they got to seventeen years of age !
They went on to make her so proud by her son becoming a police officer and her daughter graduating from university with a B.A.Hons.
By the time I met Wendy the kids were 20 and 22 so not really kids anymore. We met through a lonely hearts column in a local paper, and we hit it off straight away. It was as if we had known each other all our lives. Were truly made for each other and destiny had at last brought us together.
The shadow of cancer entered our lives the day before her 52nd birthday on 17th January 2005. I remember the consultant taking us into a side room and saying 'I'm afraid it's not the news you want to hear'. The rollercoaster ride had begun. She underwent surgery, radiotherapy and chemotherapy and it seemed for a while as if she had beaten it. 2006 was a good year for us and apart from regular check ups, hospital free.
On 21st October that year we marrried and it was the happiest day of our lives. Our happiness was to be shortlived as early in 2007 we were told that the cancer had come back again in the breast. Further surgery followed and more chemotherapy, with the added complication that during the surgery her arm became paralysed and would remain so for nearly 6 months. Again the cancer appeared to shrink but in 2008 we were told it was back for a 3rd time and this time in the lung as well. Wendy bravely started her 3rd regime of chemo and although in constant discomfort from previous surgery put up with all that was thrown at her. She never wallowed in self pity and never said 'why me'. She just carried on with the most amazing courage. A few months ago whilst at home, she started to have trouble finding words and constructing sentences. We returned to the hospital to be told that the cancer had spread to her brain. She said to the Doctor,' I take it I'm not going to make old bones then?' and she replied 'I'm sorry but probably not'.
She underwent whole brain radiotherapy in an attempt to shrink the tumours and initially thinks looked successful.
On 17th November this year, she was suffering a lot of back pain and thinking the cancer may have spread to her spine we returned for further tests. Although CT scans showed nothing sinister she was in a lot of pain so was admitted to hospital for pain relief. We were not to know that Wendy would never leave the hospital again. The cancer had travelled to the lining of her brain and although she was able to talk to us off and on as she slipped in and out of drug induced sleep, she slowly became more and more paralysed and more and more sleepy.
After the Sunday night she slipped into a deeper sleep and did not move again.
On the Wednesday night as the kids and I sat in the room with her, I noticed a change in her breathing and called the nurse who said 'It won't be long now'. I told the kids to hold her hands and I took her in my arms and told her how much I loved her and how much she was loved by so many people. I told her that she had fought long and hard enough and it was OK to let go, but inside I was screaming for her not to leave me.
As I watched her she took two or three gentle gasps and then she stopped breathing. At that moment my whole world fell apart and I haven't been able to cope since.
I have so many doubts and worries.....did she hear me telling her I loved her as she slipped away ? Is she now with her loved ones ? Will I ever see her again? Is she really close to me or am I just trying to fool myself ?
At her funeral on the 8th December 225 people attended to say goodbye to my darling wife. She touched so many people in her life and was such a good person. Why did she have to suffer like this ? I just can't reconcile myself with the thought that there is a benevolent God when He can make such a good person suffer like this.
Sorry I have rambled on for so long but I just needed to get this down to try and make some sense of it all and to try and find a way to stop my tears and this feeling of pain inside.
Please stay close to me my darling, give me your strength and courage to carry on and please help me to come to terms with being without you. I miss holding your hand and stroking your beautiful face. I miss your lovely smile and the sound of your laughter. You were one in a million my darling and the world is a colder place without you in it.
God Bless you my darling, I will love you forever until the day we are reunited and our love will last for eternity.
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|Comments:||My dad died on 5th Feb 09 (He went into hosp 12.12.08)
They say he died of lung cancer,or could it be pneumonia? unfortunately it was too late for a biopsy to get a diagnosis for any treatment.
My dad booked two tickets to visit back home,for a holiday with my mum. he complained of a chesty cough for which he was given an inhaler,also the (flu Jab)that i believe with my mum killed him. He couldn`t lie down on a bed for weeks so, he had to sit and try to sleep on a chair . The Dr`s said to my dad "Mr Cooray" its X`mas. Which I understand mean`t the doctors are on leave for christmas, you will have to wait. I feel angry because my dads health care was DELAYED & NEGLECTED and he was not given a chance for any treatment,they should have taken a biopsy earlier when he was well. But we rely on the professionals for help!
I have never felt so helpless in my life,I could`t do anything.I had to watch my dad, the man that gave me life fade away, have his life taken away from him. We were not told the truth, but were told he was very ill."It could be this, it could be that".
I BELIEVE THE FLU JAB KILLED MY DAD (so please any one out there do not take it, if you have symptoms of illness even a cough or cold) My dad would be alive today. THE DOCTORS SHOULD PUT UP NOTICES IN THEIR SURGERYS ABOUT THE FLU JAB.
so people like you or me would know.The Doctors should know better.
My parents did not know that you can choose any hospital you would like to go to so he thought he had to choose the closest to his home .Unfortunately my dad chose Northwick Park hospt, people i spoke to said it was the worst hospt and that Paddington hospt & Hammersith hospt are the best.
My dad couldn`t speak to me, he had a traki on his throat, i know there was so much he wanted to say and tell us, and unfinished things he wanted to do.
My mum & dad were pen pals since they were 13yrs & 15yrs my dad was 68yrs when he died.
Dad we miss you so much,i feel so empty i just want to scream. i just wanted more time with you,so you could see your grandchildren graduate, see the children married, go on holiday with you, which you wanted.
I can`t wait to be with you one day soon.
I wish i could have done something to help you, i`m sorry i could`t.
I love you dad x
your daughter Asha x
Thank you for giving me the chance to express myself, there was no one who would take the time to listen to me. Thanks
Asha 4.3.09 - 500pm
|Comments:||Yesterday - 3rd March, was our 2nd Anniversary
since my partner and I betrothed our love for each other on our 3rd meeting.
Barbara had scoliosis. She was diagnosed at 12, and had undergone many operations during her life. In 2008 she was told she needed major spinal surgery, or she would be crippled within a few years. There was a 50/50 chance she would be paralysed after surgery, but the operation went to plan and was a success.
Sadly, when resuscitating Barbara, she went into
cardiac arrest. She had a blood clot and a pulminary embolism. They tried for 1 3/4 hours to revive her, but to no avail. She died 7 weeks ago on the 13th January 2009. Barbara was 44 years old.
I was prepared for problems. I was prepared (mentally even) for Paralysis, but I was not prepared for this.
Barbara was my best friend, partner and fiance and we were inseperable since our 1st meeting. Barbara was warm, loving, caring, supportive and devoted to me. Everyone she met instantly liked her - she was quite simply - wonderful, and the best thing that
has ever happened to me.
Our wedding, was put on hold till after her operation, and that is my greatest regret. She wanted so much to marry me, and I her, and that has been stolen from us.
I am lost. I don't know what to do. All that occupies me is my pain and sorrow. I have read all your stories, and know I am not alone in feeling this way - but I feel so terribly alone. Barbara was too young and full of life and goodness to die.
|Comments:||my darling mum died on 24 feb only 3 months after being diagnosed with secondary ovarian cancer. it was not the peaceful passing we had hoped for though friends assure me it was worse for us than for her and these memories will fade. she told me she would continue to live through us and i hope she is watching over me. i found this website by 'accident' and realise i am not alone in my great confusion at this loss but that while life has ended love will not. Ever.|
|Comments:||My beloved husband Matthew, aged 42 by just a month, died Sept.'08. He was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer and within 3 months, he died. We MUST find a cure for this cancer, which is the most difficult to diagnose because once the symptoms appear, it's already too late. There is a cancer foundation, STAND UP TO CANCER, in which all the proceeds go directly to research funding. If any of you have lost loved ones to cancer, this foundation is an excellent one. Their address is on line.
I don't want Matthew's death to be in vain. I miss him so much I can't breath, and I feel crippled and lost. I've lost my best friend, partner and lover. And I know this term is used quite often, but we were indeed true soulmates.
In Matthew's last days, he shared with me this philosophy. That is to love. Love the dog, cat, neighbor, friends, family and people in need. Even though your heart is shattered in a million pieces, eventually you will begin to put the pieces back together, and heal. Reach out to people in need, take in all the beauty that surrounds us. These things will make us heal and be better people. I will keep Matt's philosophy with me forever, and I think all of us should.
Remember this phrase which I keep with me always. When someone you love dies, your relationship with them doesn't end, it changes.
I will always adore you my darling.
Your loving wife
|Comments:||My Dad died on Sat 9th of Jan 2009. He had secondary cancer but it was pnemonia that was the final straw. I had been visiting Dad and it was only 20 mins after I left him that he died. Everyone said he waited for me his youngest child before he could die. I did a very personal reading at his funeral and it was the hardest thing and the proudest thing that I have ever done in my life. Im still grieving quietly, in my own way. Occasionally it sneaks up on me and takes my breath away....but I just am being kind to myself and I just let myself cry. My hubby is my rock my strength so thankful he is in my life...|
|Comments:||A year has passed since my husband, WINIFRED TER MEULEN, died suddenly. I still cannot believe it, I rush around and can cope as long as I am in company but I cannot even visit his grave more than once a year because he is buried with his mother in The Hague. I still feel he may come back one day, that he has just gone to Holland for a visit as he used to. He was not the father of my children who are grown up but they are devastated, and most of all my beloved granddaughter who had a special place in Winifred's heart, even when he was really depressed. Because of his depression in the last two years, I still doubt that he still loved me.|
|Comments:||My Dad was the best but died of terminal cancer. He held on for 2 years. The last thing he said was "dont go" He was the one that went, he is in a better place now. I MISS YOU DADDY, he won a MBE award 4days before he died. I MISS HIM|
|Comments:||My Father passed away, he died of pancriatic cancer. He was ment to live maybe a month, but he held on and stayed with us for nearly 2 more years, as the weeks before his death came by he got weaker and less like him self. He died just before the summer, I was 11. I cry for him and miss him, about 4 days befor his death he was awarded a MBE for sheer bravery, all that met him loved him and he was the best Dad that I could of ever dreamed of, this website possibly saved my life THANK YOU|
|Comments:||When someone you love dies you miss and love them more and more as time goes on. It will get easier as time goes on. Your loved one would hate to see you unhappy, so smile and remember the good things. They are still there, you just need to remember.|
|Comments:||KATE MY FRIEND I REMEMBER THE DAY I HEARD THAT YOU HAD GONE.AND I SAID SOME THING STUPID LIKE IS SHE OK? TEARS FLOWED LIKE NO TOMORROW.I WALKED FOR MILES TRYING TO UNDERSTAND WHY YOU DIDNT TELL ME HOW YOU WERE FEELING? ASKING MY SELF WHY? COULD I HAVE SAVED YOU? IF I HAD KNOWN. IV BEEN ASKED BY PEOPLE... [IF YOUR WERE HER BEST FRIEND THEN WHY DIDNT YOU KNOW]... I TELL THEM I GO TO SLEEP EVERY NIGHT AND WAKE EVERY MORING, ASKING MY SELF THE SAME QUESTION. BUT AS TIME GOES ON I THINK YOU DIDNT WANT TO BE SAVED AND I UNDERSTAND KATE .IM STILL RINGING AND TEXTING YOU PHONE BUT NO REPLY. I MISS YOU SO MUCH, GOOD FRIENDS ARE HARD TO FIND. AND SO I THINK IV BEEN VERY PRIVLEGED TO HAVE MET YOU ALL THOESE YEARS AGO.AND I KNOW YOU WILL NEVER EVER REALLY BE GONE YOUR WITH ME ALWAYS.A PEACE OF ME WENT WITH YOU THAT DAY MY LIFE WILL NEVER BE THE SAME. I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND.XXX MARIA|
|Comments:||Lost my darling granny on 2nd january 2009. Cannot believe I will never see her again. She was a fantastic lady who her whole family adored and will miss greatly. I feel my heart is breaking and I am hoping I find the strength to cope with her upcoming funeral. This site has allowed me to express how I am feeling. Thank you.|
|Comments:||My baby - what can I say. I told you I loved you more, always so much more and you left me so tragically on 2nd December 2008. Why baby why??? I cannot and maybe will never know why it happened but you will forever have a place in my heart. Sleep in heavenly peace baby and keep my side of the bed warm, I promise I wont be long. All my love for ever and and a life time more x x x Lins
Death is nothing at all.
I have only slipped away into the next room.
I am I, and you are you.
Whatever we were to each other, that we still are.
Call me by my old familiar name, speak to me in the easy way which you always used.
Put no difference in your tone, wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow.
Laugh as we always laughed at the little jokes we enjoyed together.
Pray, smile, think of me, pray for me.
Let my name be ever the household word that it always was, let it be spoken without effect without the trace of a shadow on it.
Life means all that it ever meant. It is the same as it ever was; there is unbroken continuity.
Why should I be out of mind because I am out of sight? I am waiting for you, for an interval, somewhere very near, just round the corner.
All is well.
All is Well
Henry Scott Holland (1847-1918) - Canon of St. Paul's Cathedral
|Comments:||i lost my husband on the 25th sep 2008so very sudden from a heart attack i had only spoke to him a hour befor when he phoned me at work he was at home and was just going for his run along the cannel wich he did every day An hour later my daughter phoned me and sad dad had passed out and was unconsious on the kithchen floor i knew straight away my beautifull husband had died he was still there when i rushed home from work i miss him so very very much we had been together 33 years and had 5 children ad 3 grand children the pain you feel is unreal i call it the silent scream my heart my soul are constantly screaming for him to come back to me or for me i see him every where i go and i know every one who as lost some one they love the pain of this time of year every where you look it.s christmas christmas tree.s christmas carol.s turkey.s mince pie.s and none of it mean.s anything where only a year ago it meant everything i.v only dreamt of my husband ounce i.d love to see him every nigt in my dream.s i.m still on sleeping tablit.s i think may be there stoping me dreaming f him but i,m scered not to take them because i.ll just lye awake all night crying my rob was a beautifull man and i will lov him every day untill he come.s for me i send all my love and hope of a peacefull to you all that have lost some one you love god gless you all i love you robert your wife for ever as promiced pat xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx|
|Comments:||I lost my husband Jack on the 8th November 2008, it was very unexpected. He had been having treament for colon cancer and had uncomplainingly enured 7 cycles of chemo, the last scan results were encouraging and we were looking forward to Christmas. He died of a blood clot on the lung,apparently a side effect of the chemo. We were together for 27 years he was 64.
Jack i miss you every minute of every day, it's only my promise to you, that should anything happen i would carry on, that makes me wake each day and go through the motions of life. Christmas is looming and i don't know how i'll make it, my family are all very good but they are not you. I will love you forever and pray each day that it will be my last anmd that once again we will be together. until then xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
|Comments:||I lost my partner John on the 20th November 2008 age 44
he was only poorly for 3 weeks in intensive care, been together for 14 great years feel so lost without him,went back to work on the 8th december could only work 3 days too much to cope wih people talking about christmas and going out. My family and friends have been really great support but needing to talk to people that have been through the same as me.
|Comments:||Came looking for support, so many of you are suffering also.
I met my soul-mate John in 1965, I lost him in March 2008.
He won't come and get me! I want to go to him, but fear I won't be able to find him.
I sit awake 5 out of 7 nights a week sobbing and begging him to come for me.
My heart has been ripped part. We were together 24/7 always.
For over 6 months we tried to get the doctor to believe he was ill, repeatedly we were told he was fine!
My pal, my love my life, I need you Beam! xxxxxxxxx
|Comments:||i miss you mum so much, you've bin gone just under 3 months now,:( i have so much guilt for the time i treated you badly and now i can never take that back. the house feels so empty. i always thought i would have a chance 2 show how much i loved you, but now i guess i will never have the chance. the onli thing i can think about is how you will never see me get married have children or finish college which makes it easy to just say i give up, but i no thats something you wouldnt have wanted. im finding it hard without you, and the thought that im onli 16 and without a mum i can't help but think this isn't far, you where taken so suddenly from us and its just so hard to move on with life, but im getting there i feel stronger now. i wil never.. ever forget you. </3xxxxxxxx|
|Comments:||My wife Beryl died on August 19th 2008 at the age of 62 after bravely fighting cancer. She always had a positive and jolly nature and didnít let her illness get her down. The end came very suddenly as we both felt she was improving after treatment. We have no children and no close family so we very much relied on each other. Although people at the funeral were kind and supportive at the time I have not heard from any of them since the funeral two months ago. Three weeks after the funeral I was made redundant from my job so now I tend to spend my days wondering aimlessly around the house feeling very sorry for myself and not speaking to anyone for days and then only to the check out person at the supermarket and frankly not really wanting to as all I really want to do is hear her voice again. The one consolation I have is that we loved each other so very much and had 20 years of happiness together. I miss her so much and feel so very alone without her.|
|Comments:||My husband john died very suddenly while at work in nov 2006.He got up for work like any other day,and didnt come home.He was 44 yrs old and his blood presure went too high ,and he died instintly.Two years on and i still cant belive hes not here.I cry nearly every night in my bedroom as i dont want my teenage kids to see me,as i feel i need to be strong for them .Ive just had my 25th wedding anniversry without him.I have a lot of friends and family that are really good to me but iam still so very lonely.i miss him soooo much and wish that i could just see him and hold him again.I do say to myself whats the point in living! my life is so depressing without him, he was my life my soul mate.Someone tell me please how to make it better,because i cant see it getting better.I keep thinking it could be 35/40 yrs till i meet him again,it seems too long to wait.dont worry iam not going to do anything silly ,its just how i feel.I LOVE YOU JOHN AND ALWAYS WILL ,YOU WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN . LOVE ALWAYS SANDRA ,CRAL.AND JAMIE XXXXXXXXX|
|Comments:||i lost the love of my life on the 13th of may 2008, he took his own life due to his mental health illness. i just miss hi so much, mosts days seem like a week to me. just wish i could hol him!!|
|Comments:||my life was devestated my patty passed away 13/09/08 all that i had is gone each day i miss her more and more cant cope much longer i miss you so much my darling only you can understand how i feel each day .......hopefully one day darling our special love john|
|Comments:||I lost my mum on 13th July, she was 57 and had only known that cancer had taken over her body for 5 weeks so she didn't suffer for long. For us being left behind 5 weeks is not long enough to get your head round things. Mum's been gone for 3 months now and I still haven't got used to the idea that my mum's got cancer yet let alone that she's gone. When does it start to feel real?
I love and miss you so much mum, I smell you on something and it hurts more than I can bear, I don't know how I'm going to go through the rest of my life without out, I still need you so much! Your grandson misses you and talks about you all the time, he has so many happy memories "trot on" haha! I wish we could go back and just have one more chat there's so much more I want to say to you. I hope you're looking down on us and smiling, I miss your smile. I love you mum xxxxxxxxxx
|Comments:||im not sure why i came on here, i think just to see if i could get any ideas as to how i should be feeling. my partner died just over 3 week ago in a accident on his way to work. we are both 20 and have a 4 year old son. im just not sure how im supposed to carry on after this.
i love u so much babe and i promise that we will make u proud, my only wish was that you would be here with me to guide me and help me. i will love u forever and hopefully we will meet again in another place.
all my love kayleigh x x x x
|Comments:||I lost my soulmate, friend and husband last year in an unforgetable car crash. He was already gone when I managed to get out of the car and still can't beleive sometimes that this life is my reality. I wish and hopr for the day that I will wake from this nightmare and have back everything I ever needed and wanted from my life! My beautiful Luli how I miss your smile!xxx|
|Comments:||i lost my mum when i was 14 and even thow 4 years have only gone bye i still fill the pain from the day she took her life i had counciling for 2 years and met people with the same surcumstances as me. As we sat there and talked the pain got easyier knowing im not the only person.
|Comments:||Last Wednesday we have lost my Auntie. She had fought very hard wih her cancer. She was very stromg mentally til the very end. We will all miss her but at least she will longer be in great pain. Rest well and be at peace.|
|Comments:||Id just like 2 say - My Heart goes out 2 u all xxx
I myself am grieving like u all r + it is so so hard 2 get on with life. Ive lost a lot of family + friends in the past few years + now on the 17th July 2008 my brother in law Chris who woz only 27 was suddenly taken by the Angels , he had an undetected Blood Clot that fatally found his Heart. My husband Matthew, myself + our kids Jamie,Jordan,Jack + Bethany miss him dearly + just wish we could turn back time. We think of u always Chris + will Love u forever. Ur safe with The Angels in Heaven . Goodnite xxx
Sadly + suddenly again on the 25th Sept 2008 my Uncle Junior who woz 51 , fell asleep at home , he had a Heart Attack + didnt wake up again. I saw him 2 days b4 he died , i woznt very well + he came 2 c me at my house. When he woz leaving he had a nasty fall down my front steps , he got such a fright , i did 2 but he insisted he woz fine , kissed me on the cheek , hugged me tight + told me he loved me + would c me on friday again - that woz the last time i saw him , he died on the Friday @ 2pm. Im so glad he came 2 c me + that day will stay in my heart forever , but i felt so guilty coz he fell at my house + died 2 days later , i woz reassured that the fall woz in no way connected 2 his death , but it still hurts , my heart is broken + i cry every day , i miss u so so much + wish u were here 2 hug me tight + tell me ur ok again. I love u with all my heart. Ur safe in heaven now. Goodnite xxxx
|Comments:||I lost my beloved Mum on my 40th birthday. I was never a good enough daughter. I never told my Mum what a wonderful Mum she was. I loved you Mum and feel so guilty about the things I said and the things I didn't say.
I then lost Dad just before I was 50. I missed my Mum so much Dad, I never gave you the right time to grieve.
I will never be free of the guilt.
But I will always remember the love you both gave us all.
|Comments:||I miss you mum. I knew you were sick but I never thought you'd actually be gone. Things are getting better day by day but I still can't write anything... hopefully it will come back soon... Miss you
|Comments:||I lost my Mum on 23rd of January this year to Pulmonary Hypertension and then my Dad on 8th of August to Cancer. You can't describe the emptiness that you feel and nothing seems worth bothering about. I don't want to believe I'll never see their faces again or hear them laugh, I still pick up the phone and go to ring them. They were always there for me no matter what and I miss them so much. Even though I have my Husband it just doesn't seem enough somehow. They were my best friends and I'll never be complete again without them. The only good thing is that they're not in pain anymore. I love you both so much Mum and Dad and I'll never forget you xx|
|Comments:||my daddy died when i was 3 years old, i still have memories of him and will always luv him. im 16 now and a lot has happened in the past since he left, my uncle (his Brother Died And Then my granda died 2. i was also raped when i was 14.
i was serverly depressed and tried 2 end my life 3 times with the last overdose having been 118 tablets , i survived with no liver or kidney damage which the doctors said they just couldnt explain as they had told my family i could go into a coma and die any minute.
the point of me blabbering on lol , is that to tell people that i no hy hard it is 2 lose someone and 2 be hurting buh U CAN GET THROUGH IT!!!
people told me lots of times that id get through it buh i just didnt believe them at all. i though yes some people can get better but just not me, ive came 2 far and feel 2 bad, and most of the time i didnt want 2 even try to hang on.
2 huever is reading this,urve obviously came on this site while thinkin of someone urve lost and love and sometimes want 2 b with them buh just remember u can get through it..
i did .. and if i did then anyone can!!!
just keep hangin in there, it is possible , believe me
no matter whats happened in your life , u can b happy.
im sooo glad im still alive ,and im finally happy, i do have bad days but hu doesnt?
Just Keep Hanging In There , U CAN get better
please email me if your needing someone 2 talk 2 at anytime.. u never no it might just help..
P.S Nobody said it would be easy,they just said it would be worth it!!!
Favorite saying of all time!
|Comments:||We lost someone very special nearly 14 years ago. The pain doesn't go awy, it just gets lost in the interference of life.
Although it was many years agoa, I still remember thinking would there be a day when I didn't cry.
Sleep well Adam
|Comments:||I'm not even sure why I came here. you all seem to have such moving, poignant, raw memories of recent losses and I feel for every single one of you. I lost my best friend on the 5th October 2000 when he died suddenly in his sleep, without any warning or reason, aged 28. every September I start to dread the imminent anniversary. we were inseparable and grew up together and - totally honestly - there is not a single day that passes that I don't miss him and think about him. I still visit his parents and see his ex-girlfriend from time to time, but I suppose this book is somewhere where I could see my thoughts written down for once. I miss you mate. so much it savages me like screwdrivers rammed into my throat. I wish so many things. I wish you could have met my wife. I wish you could see how I'm doing these days. I wish you knew that I'm naming my son after you. time does not heal. it maybe gives you an option for coping with the pain but does not heal. life does not go on. it changes into a weaker, poorer life without you. I will never ever forget you or how happy I was with you around. save a seat for me at the bar, wherever you are. much love x|
|Comments:||For my beautiful husband David Hitchcock who i miss so much. Shine on.|
|Comments:||just wanted to say i lost someone on the 24th april 2007 this day i will never forget his name was jay, he was a character in himself, he was a special wee boy to me and i miss him so much. he will never ever be forgotten, and will always be in my heart. miss you jay " OOR ANGEL " xx|
|Comments:||My mum who i love so much past away on 21 December 2008 then sadly ten days later my nana passed away.
My mum died from a cardiac arrest so there was no final goodbyes i was 3 months pregnant at the time and 16.
My mum couldnt have done more for me and my brother she procteced us from everything and everyone she was a fantastic mother and i am proud to say she was mine.
Mum dad misses you more then i can say everyday we talk about the loving person you was i still dont want to say bye cause i dont want it to end love you always hopefully ill see you agian someday and dad always reminds me hes coming back to you one see you then.
ALL OUR LOVE YOUR HUSBAND JOHN DAUGHTER SAMMIE-LOU AND SON MATT XXXXXXX
|Comments:||My gorgeous boyfriend Dan was taken away from me on May 10th 2008 aged 22. I miss you so much and just hope i am doing you proud by being strong for myself and your family and friends. We will meet again someday and it was just your time to go. You taught me so much and i have so many great memories which will forever be in my heart.
Love you and miss you baba xx
|Comments:||My beloved husband Greville passed away in March this year. I miss him so much & want him to know that I will always love him more than anything! He was only 57 & it was very sudden. I know we'd hoped to grow old together babe but cancer got in the way. I am trying to make you proud of me, trying to be strong. I want to thank you for the wonderful 14 years we had together, it wasn't long enough but it was the best years of my life. You taught me so much about love & life. "Have I told you lately?" every day. You are now out of pain but never out of my heart. Sleep peacefully babe I love you.xxx|
|Comments:||R.I.P Johnny. Taken From Us On 11th July 2008. Such A Tragic Loss. I Miss You So Much, And Always Will. Goodbye For Now, As It's Not The End. I Love You Johnny. xxxx
|Comments:||On Sept 6th 2oo6 (my birthday) I lost my husband and best friend to heart disease, a long standing illness. I miss him so very much and find life very difficult at times. I would like to include this poem.
I lit a candle in your name
A sweet soft light and gentle flame,
Just like your life when here on earth
No one can really count your worth,
It was a life not rich with wealth.
A life that suffered from ill health
And yet you gave to all you met,
A gentle spirit none forget,
Your love was like a light to me,
To light the way I could not see,
And so I send my love in prayer,
To one I love and life did share,
My prayer is when my life is through,
This light will guide me home to you.
Love always, Maureen xxx
|Comments:||The love of my life Tom died on the 29th August 2007.
We had only been married thirteen years when you were taken from me it is ten moths now and i still cry every day i miss you so much.
I know you are at peace now and that we will meet again.
I am trying to move on with my life because i know that you would want me to be happy because i know you loved me with all your heart
I will love you with all my heart for ever more.
love you always
|Name:||sally garret ne:planck|
|Comments:||TO MY DEAREST BROTHER GARY WHEN I GOT THAT CALL YESTERDAY I NEW, MAY YOU REST IN PEACE NOW. NOBODY CAN HURT ANYMORE GARY YOU ARE WITH MUM NOW AND SHE WILL LOOK AFTER YOU AS SHE ALWAYS DID LOVE YOU ALWAYS SALLY AND DEAN|
I think I have always been prepared to lose you but i never thought it would happen. just like me, you always fell on your feet and found your way. we though it would be the same with this adn you would have learnt to slow down and enjoy life more. people have since said to me 'god takes the best ones first' but i am at a loss with how to feel. i am heart broken that we no longer have you in our lives. i hope i will be your image on earth and that i can do the work you didnt have chance to. love you.
|Comments:||reading through its strange to think that so many people are feeling just like me, i'd only been with my lovely Keith a short time, long enough to know we had a rosey future ahead of us, he died in his sleep aged 38 only 21 days ago, feels like a huge hole inside, i miss him so so much, keep forgeting and go to call him, then i remember, he's gone, and i can't believe i'm never going to see him again..i don't yet know what took my lovely special friend from me, but in fact it does'nt really change anything. i try really hard to be brave to not cry so much, because he would'nt want to see me sad all the time, the last thing he would want is to cause me upset and pain, but it's not easy, sorry Keith, i just miis you, wish you were back here, i really hope your ok, you promised you'd never leave without saying goodbye, i'm waiting for you to come and tell me!! i'll keep lighting the candles for you..guide you to me..home is where the heart is remember..xx RIP|
|Comments:||Hi I came accross your website when I was in search for some help with greiving. I hope you dont mind I just wanted to say a few words to my partner. He died in a road accident aged 22. (April 1st 2008) We were together for four years. He was my life and my soul and right now I feel that there is no life ahead without him.
To my beautful blue eyed boy, I miss you more than ever. Life no longer feels safe now your gone. I never knew how much I loved you until you were gone. My life is showing so many roads to take at the moment but who knows where they lead. When you were hear i knew every path to choose. U were the reason I woke in the morning. My heart hurts so much without you here by my side. I never thought life could be so cruel. Why you?? You had your whole life to live. I will never no a love so strong as ours. Watching you leave me was the most painful time of my life. I dont know how im still here without you. I miss your every move and your beautful deep voice, your loving arms around me and your significant smell. Times will never be the same without you, but I know you will be here with me for the rest of my life. I was so used to my daily routine and now I dont have one. I never will. I cant wait to hold you in my arms again blue eyes. Please help the police find the man who killed you, I cant rest knowing he walks free.
I will say my final goodbyes to you now angel, until I meet you in heaven. Please wait for me.
I love you with all my heart and soul. My life.
Ill love you forever xxx
|Comments:||For Lyndsey RIP
Let God wrap his arms around you and protect you.
You are in my thoughts and prayers.
God bless you little one.
|Comments:||Sheila - I miss you so much I can't tell you. I want to be with you. Please help me to be with you. I feel I can't go on without you. I love you so much. I'm so lonely without you. Please help me.|
You were always there for me, but when you went, I was away.
You will always be in my heart,
I love you.
I loved you so much and never said so.
The care you gave to others exceeds any expectation,
I miss you so much,
I miss you so much.I will always love you.
Sleep peacefully my angel.
|Comments:||i found your site by accident. in reading the e-mails, you realize how cruel live can be at times. i agree with all the comments of feeling lost, sad, angry and hopeless. my wife and i were married for 30 wonderful years until the cancer took her away / 25 january 2008/11.30am
i miss you so much,carmen. i hope we meet again.
to my love and my life
thanks for being able to express myself
|Comments:||Let it be known that for every tear that is shed due to bereavement, the Lord Jesus Christ sheds a tear also.
These are testing times. There is no magic wands. Nothing that can be said or done will ease the pain and suffering that is incurred on those left behind.
Have faith. Those you loved are not gone into nothingness.
That spark of life that was/is your loved one, now resides elsewhere.
One day, you will discover the truth in these words...
|Name:||Dawn your partner|
|Homepage URL:||http://HAPPY EASTER|
|Comments:||Hello my darling Mel I love you so much and I miss you like crazy my sweetheart, you was and always will be the light of my life.
IF I FOUND THE GATES OF HEAVEN
I WOULD CLIMB UP EVERY STAIR
TO TELL YOU THAT I LOVE YOU
AND ONE DAY I'LL MEET YOU THERE
All my love for ever and ever
From Dawn your honey child
|Comments:||I met my husband Winifred ter Meulen in Crete on 26th September 1990, we married on 14th December 1990 and he later left Holland and moved to live with me in England. It was a holiday romance and people said it wouldn't last, well they were right but not for the reasons they thought in 2000 Winifred had a heart attack and went to Holland to have stents inserted. He was never really the same and over the last two years he suffered from depression. He had made such a difference to my life and I was so happy when I married him. He died suddenly in bed beside me on 26th January 2008 and I miss him so much.
I feel he let himself die and that maybe he didn't care much for me, he resisted every pill, diet, exercise, everything he was supposed to do. He was so thin when died you would have thought he had starved to death. He had gone back to work and had cheered up, he hardly went out be came out on the Sunday before he died.
I feel that he may have regretted his decision to move to England in the last few years, he finally gave up his flat in Holland only 8 months before he died.
We had two funerals, one in England, and then we took his body to Holland to be buried with his mother as he wanted. I am even deprived of visiting his grave more than a couple of times a year and because of this I feel he is still alive somewhere.
|Comments:||i lost my sister belinda guthrie nee copland on 22/02/08 it happened in ameriaca took so long to find out missed her funeral feel so lost miss you so much belinda please rest in piece we will have your ashes home in scotland very soon
loved always ann
|Comments:||I was searching somewhere to say something to my loved one and thankfully came across this site. So I hope it's ok if I use it to send my message and my thoughts to my loved one.
Tsz, it's been almost a year now and I just wanted you to know that I'm doing ok. I missed you so much at the start of the year, no longer seeing you everyday, and each new situation being that little bit more difficult without your safety and support being there always at the back of my mind.
The Memorial Service was so beautiful, I know you were there, listening to all of our recollections of how you became part of our lives, and ultimately part of all our souls. It struck me how your spirit still lives on - in the beauty of the world, and more importantly in the beauty of all the people you touched with your kindness.
Life is so different now, in a new city and in a new place, but it means I don't have to always compare it to the life we shared before, and I can start to think of you with true fondness, and to look back at our times together with joy in remembering.
Tonight, Gabriella had her first performance and I know you would have loved it. She was so great, I was so proud of her!
University is going well, I have met some wonderful people who have been taking good care of me, and like you, have let me be myself and have liked me for it.
There has been a lot going on and a lot of gossip for us to catch up on, but in short, my life is still as hectic and dramatic as ever, but have found it quite exciting really.
I miss you, and I hope you are living on happily, and have finally come to rest in realising how wonderful we think and know you are.
|Comments:||Lovely site - beautiful music.
I lost my beloved Dad August 2007. My 9 year old son witnessed his death as it was sudden and at home. Miss and love my Dad more than words can say.
Love you Dad
|Comments:||I lost my only child (age 22) on December 6, 2007. He died in his sleep of pneumonia and had no symptoms. The pathologist was 'surprised' since he was otherwise healthy and I am praying for more information when the final autopsy report arrives.
Oh Paul, my beloved and precious son, this is the worst thing in the world. I live for that moment when I can see and touch you again.
|Comments:||In Loving Memory of a Wonderful Dad.
We lost you so suddenly on 25/06/07 and my world fell apart. Life just isn't the same without you. Not a day goes by when the tears dont flow and the pain only seems to get worse and not better. I didn't know it was possible to miss someone so much, but i know now. I wish more than anything that you were still here with me, with us.
Behave yourself wherever you are, and look in on us from time to time.
With eternal love and respect for a fantastic Dad.
|Comments:||Janette something so hard
goes straight to the soul;
it seems impossible to get over
and my heart is left with a big hole.
Janette i'm trying to be happy, wearing a smile;
but I'm dying inside.
The world seems to be fading,
and I just want to run and hide.
Janette everywhere I go I see your face,
and realize how much I miss you;
and on the day you died
a piece of me died too
|Comments:||i lost my wonderfull partner mel on 03.10.07 my angel was so suddenly taken away from me he was my best friend and my soulmate and i cant imagine my life without him.
if i searched the whole world over i know i'd never find a man who was so wonderfull so loving warm and kind.
and now that god has taken you with angels by your side you will be looking down on me and i will cherish our love wih pride.
|Comments:||i lost my dad suddenly on 9th december 2007 and not a day goes by where i dont miss him.when he died he took a part of me with him too.it still hasnt sank in properly,i dont think it ever will,i still expect the fone to ring and it be him,but i know that that will never happen.Life will never be the same again without him in it.i love and miss you so much dad.please come home.love always.your broken hearted daughter x x x|
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