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| Name: | Renee |
| E-mail address: | rtuhill66@yahoo.com |
| You are from: | St. Peters MO |
| Comments: | I have known Joe since I believe the 3rd grade...He was my boyfriend. I remember when he and i rode the bus home..when I got off he always stuck his head out of the bus window and yell "I love you" We were i guess 7 years old then...I met back up with Joe around the time you bought him his red mustang...He was so proud of that car that his Grandma had bought for him..We became close friends again and hung out a few times and I even came over to your house a couple of times..I moved out of the O'Fallon area right before heroin hit...by the grace of God i moved to Illinois with my sister to get away from the drugs that i was around and got my life together and straight..I came by your house in 2001 to see Joe to say hi...He answered the door and was very happy to see me...We stood on the porch for about an hour and caught up...I had no idea what he was going through at that time...must have been a good day because i still saw that little boy in his eyes when he use to yell I love you out of the bus window...I wish I wouldve stayed in contact...maybe i could have helped in some way...2 weeks after your death my brother in law called me and told me you had died from an overdose..i was so upset because i didnt get to say goodbye to you or yell at you for not telling me that day what was going on...but i will always remember that bright eyed beautiful little blonde haired boy with the wind in your hair all those years ago...Im sorry it took so long to say goodbye but i wasnt sure how too. Im so sorry and miss you very much... |
| Name: | Sean |
| E-mail address: | srobbins8133@yahoo.com |
| You are from: | Indiana |
| Comments: | God bless you and your family. |
| Name: | Shayne |
| You are from: | St. Charles |
| Comments: | While your grandson hurt, you truly earned the name Grand Ma.
Shayne |
| Name: | Gramma |
| You are from: | St. Peters Mo |
| Comments: | Hi Joe, Merry Christmas, I Love you and miss you with all my heart. But I know you are in a better place. I lit yours and Jacks candles yesterday. And every time I looked at them I thought of you both. Rest in peace sweetheart.
Love Gramma |
| Name: | Walt |
| You are from: | Hope, Missouri |
| Comments: | Hey Joe!!! Merry Christmas. |
| Name: | Walt |
| You are from: | St Peters |
| Comments: | Hi Joe. Time sure passes quickly. You have been gone six years now and life for your gramma has been very hard.
I'm sure that you are in a better place now, free of drugs and friends that encouraged you to try Heroin. My son Walt died on 9 Nov 2002 from an overdose of Heroin. Rest in peace Walt |
| Name: | Gramma |
| You are from: | home |
| Comments: | Hi Joe,
Well it is six years since you left. And you are still missed everyday.I miss our talks and all the things we did together.Even our fights. LOL. The hurt never goes away. I think we just learn how to except it. The hole in our hearts is still here. Justin is home now. And is doing pretty good. Your nieces and nephew are getting big. Kayla is a very pretty young lady. Austin is like you in alot of ways. And Calie is a real Daddy girl. I just wish you were here to see all of this for yourself. Well I am going to close for now. Rest in peace my Jofus. I love and miss you with all my heart. Gramma and family |
| Name: | Joyce |
| E-mail address: | wvacj@aol.com |
| You are from: | Homestead, FL |
| Comments: | your love and devotion to your grandson will carry you through many lonely days and nights. I lost my son on my birthday August 8, 2006. Donnie's was a multiple drug use. Donnie kept his hidden very well. We never went through rehab.I miss him so much, his sister is lost without him...his 14 year old daughter lost the "love of her life" and her mother moved her away. God has been kind to me since and I feel Donnie's presence so much. My husband lost his son in 2003 heroine and several mixed drugs. God must have put us together 10 years ago to be able to help each other through this. Only one who has lost their child, your case, grandchild could ever understand.
God be with you Joyce |
| Name: | Gramma |
| Comments: | Happy birthday in Heaven Joe. We all still love and miss you very much. I know that you are at peace now. But it is very lonely without you.And I know that God is taking care of you and your birthdays are a lot brighter. You broke a lot of hearts when you left us. But God wanted to give you peace so he took you home with him. Your demons are all gone now sweetheart. Rest in peace my Jofus.
God Bless, Love you always. Gramma |
| Name: | Gramma |
| Comments: | Merry Christmas in Heaven my Jofus.
This is our fifth Christmas since you left. And I still miss you like it was yesterday. The hurt never goes away. Some days its worse. I know God is taking care of you now and that you are at peace. Merry Christmas my Joe, I love you with all my heart. Still Gramma |
| Name: | tonnie belinda nunn |
| E-mail address: | tnunn@bridgewaycounseling.com |
| You are from: | st. louis |
| Comments: | I am blessed to report after 23 years of crack, 13 treatments and prison time, I have been clean for 3 years and 7mo. I can do all things through Christ who strengthen me. and so can you. thank you for allowing me to share. |
| Name: | DENISE |
| E-mail address: | dsumuel@yahoo.com |
| You are from: | NEW ORLEANS |
| Comments: | THIS IS SIMPLY BEAUTIFUL,MAY GOD CONTINUE TO BLESS YOU GRANDMA.I HAVE A BROTHER ADDICTED TO HERION TODAY,HE'S IN THE HOSPITAL,FOR A FALL HE SAYS HE HAD,HIS LEGS ARE IN MUCH PAIN,NO SIGNS OF A FALL.HOPEFULLY HE WILL RECIEVE SOME UNFORSEEN HELP.PLEASE PRAY FOR US. |
| Name: | Rakkal Major |
| E-mail address: | Hope3201985@hotmail.com |
| You are from: | Flint, MI |
| Comments: | Grandma,
this is a wonderful thing you have done. I had a few kidd friends die off Herion and you never know how bad it is and the struggle they go threw until you deal with it personally. I mean I thought that it was bad when I lost my friends that I lost but, I never imangined that it wouls effect someone soo close to me. My fionce is now using he started back up again. His mom and step dad won`t let him stay with them and I`ve been coming up with places for him to stay. Everyone like you said wants nothing to do with him, besides general conversation. I`ve been finding places for him to stay... recently his dad and step ma let him move back in to their house and thats only because they don`t know he`s still on it. It`s soo hard Grandma. I`m scared one day he`ll end up dead like everyone else that keeps using it. I`ve treid to help him quit many times like you said with Joe. I`ve been there the achs and pains him telling me to shoot him. The irretable moments beacsue he wants herion. I`ve showed him brochers and stories and everything to try to help him. He wants to do it on his own but, he can`t he always seems to go back to using. Grandma, any info you have to help my struggle I would greatly apperciate and I em soo glad I found your page. I`m sorry about your loss. Thank you for having the strenght to share your story with people like me. Rest in peace Joe. <3rakkal |
| Name: | joe shane |
| E-mail address: | college_soccerboy@yahoo.com |
| You are from: | ohio |
| Comments: | this is a good way to show people what Herion dose 2 the love ones and the addict i know what u mean how u still love him because i am a herion addict that has 1 year in sober and i felt like i hurt my love ones to much 4 them 2 love me back and they still loved me when i was out there and that ment a lot to me and i bet it did to him 2 it was not him it was the drugs i know i was there i bet he was a good men off of drugs I just hope we can save more lifes love ones dont give up this drug kill more and more young people evey day I hope i dont go back thank you |
| Name: | Gramma |
| You are from: | St. Peters |
| Comments: | Hi Joe,
Was sitting here thinking about you and missing you. Also wondering what you would be doing today. I miss getting my rose and looking at that silly grin when you would give i to me. I still love and miss you with all my heart. Rest in peace my Jofus. Gramma |
| Name: | Carolyn |
| You are from: | Massachusetts |
| Comments: | Your site is helping me thaw my barricaded heart.
Thank you. |
| Name: | Melody |
| Comments: | Hey Gramma, i just got on here tonight cuz i was thinking about Joe and missing him so much. This year on his birthday i went to his grave site for the first time. It was really hard for me, I just sat there and cried for him, for you, for Justin, and for me. Joe had such an effect on my life and i'll always be thankfull for knowing him. I miss you alot too. I'd like to come by sometime and see you. Untill then I Love you and miss you, and to you JOE...I'll see you on the other side baby-I LOVE YOU. |
| Name: | Walt |
| Comments: | Merry Christmas Joe.
Rest in peace. |
| Name: | Janie |
| E-mail address: | peacebubble@hotmail.com |
| You are from: | Indiana |
| Comments: | Gramma. Love and hugs to you. I came on to your dedication site because of my own pain, and found yours. God bless and keep you Liz. What sorrow you have suffered, and Joe must have walked the lonliest road. He is at peace now, and safe in the arms of the Lord, but what a price to pay.
Janie Forsyth |
| Name: | Tim W. |
| You are from: | St. Charles, MO |
| Comments: | Liz,
What a great tribute to Joe! I wish that I could have known him. As you know, I am a police officer and this tribute to Joe gives me a much greater insight into the "human" side of a Herion addicts world. We sometimes loose sight of that in law enforcement. Your strenght is remarkable and your devotion to and unconditional love of Joe is an inspiration. Keep your head up, you are a terrific person and a true friend. Tim |
| Name: | Janet |
| E-mail address: | janern88@hotmail.com |
| You are from: | Baltimore MD |
| Comments: | G-ma, your page is a wonderful remembrance of Joe.
My son is also a recovering heroin addict. Yes, on and off. But everyday I pray that I don't have to create a page such as this some day. And yes, my mom, bless her heart, helped him in any way every day, when she was here. There is no guarantee for recovery, only hard work, support and persistance. I have also lost a nephew to an overdose the same way as Joe, they left him to die after they used, alone on the streets. My son has lost many young friends to addiction, most recently Sunday. Rest in peach Mike, we love you. My sister will never heal from her tragedy, only love and support helps her get through the days. I have several nephews, nieces and other family members fighting heroin addiction. My only wish is that somehow, some way, it will be removed from this earth. May peace be with you, I know that Joe is in a better place. Now one of God's angels! The thought of knowing his struggles are gone because in Heaven, there is no pain or addiction, I hope this will help you through the days! |
| Name: | jill |
| Comments: | grandma, i know that i havn't wrote in awile but ethan and are thinking of you . we've had a pretty rough summer . i can truly say i know how you feal now and ethan has loss his only two uncles at a very yong age hes havig a really tough time right now. but what i want people who come too your web site to under stand is that too my little boy who's about to turn 8 joe and brandon my little brrother who also died in a car accident at 19 to him were his idol or super hero. now he allways says super heros are on t.v. . so please remeber grandma ethan and i love you and miss you. you 've done so much for us and so many others keep reminding people that think they cant stop as ethan whould say super heros are only on t.v. much love jill and ethan |
| Name: | Annette |
| E-mail address: | MissBMWlady3@aol.com |
| You are from: | Kenner, Louisiana |
| Comments: | I was living in St Louis when Joe pass a way, 2003 I just came across this web page looking for my cousin web page, gosh! what a small world.... I use to work at Famous Barr and Joe use to come visit me once an while, I think about him time and time again, I still can't believe he is gone, I attend the Drug awareness at my son school, I have 2 boys myself my oldest is in the Air force, and my younger son Graduates this December with honors, I tell the story about Joe, to educate others, that Drugs do kill, thankyou for letting me write this on your web page, Joe will never be forgotten.......... |
| Name: | Nicole Harley |
| E-mail address: | nharley@jomartextiles.com |
| You are from: | Philadelphia, PA |
| Comments: | I just wanted to let you know what this site meant to me. I lost the love of my life to a heroin overdose. I have never hurt as bad as i did when i heard those words. I would give anything for one more kiss or hug, even a smile. The worst part is I still, myself, cannot stay clean. Joe reminds me of the man that I lost. I send my love to you Grandma Liz becuase people like you don't come along often for people like me & Joe. |
| Name: | Jeanne Helm |
| E-mail address: | lil-jeanne@hotmail.com |
| You are from: | St. Peters/Overland |
| Comments: | I just found this website after searching for Joe's obituary online. I didn't find out that he had passed away until a week or two after it happened. I was so sad to hear the news and shocked at the same time. I had the pleasure of living across the street from Joe for about 6 years when he lived in Englewood. He was my first little boyfriend. (: My brother, John, and myself spent a lot of time with him growing up in our younger years. I still have a picture of him and I at our first 6th grade dance. We were so small! What you wrote is just beautiful. I have been in tears for the last 10 minutes. I have many memories of Joe that I will never forget. I'm so glad that he did have you & Justin. He really did have a big heart. The tough guy act never worked for him. I will keep you and my prayers.
- Jeanne |
| Name: | carolyn gallagher |
| E-mail address: | odcarolo@ hotmail.com |
| You are from: | hulmeville pa |
| Comments: | Anthonys granma i read this everyday my grandmother god bless her soul was my bestFRIEND IN THE WORLD i hope in heavean she has not seen my suicide on the installment plan ive overcome every thing in my life except heroin that has satan mixed in its powder been on methadone suboxone for last 2 years for me grandma the devastation ive causes my family my beautiful son well the mental and excruciating physicall pain TALK ABOUT GUILT SHAME AND REMOURSE everyday i hold on to whater the angels have printed on these pages i dont think i'm going to make it satan is calling my nameSO LOUD for the last shot wow what a fabulous grandma my family litterally left me to die in the streets 7 years ago endured all the horrors put myself in and out of rehabs detoxes jails and institution im not crazy heroin is love you anthony and grandma LOVE CAROL |
| Name: | carolyn gallagher |
| E-mail address: | odcarolo@ hotmail.com |
| You are from: | hulmeville pa |
| Comments: | Anthonys granma i read this everyday my grandmother god bless her soul was my bestFRIEND IN THE WORLD i hope in heavean she has not seen my suicide on the installment plan ive overcome every thing in my life except heroin that has satan mixed in its powder been on methadone suboxone for last 2 years for me grandma the devastation ive causes my family my beautiful son well the mental and excruciating physicall pain TALK ABOUT GUILT SHAME AND REMOURSE everyday i hold on to whater the angels have printed on these pages i dont think i'm going to make it satan is calling my nameSO LOUD for the last shot wow what a fabulous grandma my family litterally left me to die in the streets 7 years ago endured all the horrors put myself in and out of rehabs detoxes jails and institution im not crazy heroin is love you anthony and grandma LOVE CAROL |
| Name: | Melody |
| You are from: | st charles |
| Comments: | Gramma, hey it's Melody.This is the first time that i have been on this website in probably 2 years.It's very heart wrenching remembering all of the pain and suffering that Joe went through.Thank God that he had you to help him through everything.I think that you have done a very good job on this site, and as i have read you have also helped many other people.There are still so many days that i just want to pick up the phone and call Joe.I honestly think about him everyday. I miss him sooo much.I told Justin sometimes it feels like i can feel Joe when i'm around him. I will always cry for him. I know i haven't seen you in awhile and i'm very sorry about that. I miss you to.I am very greatfull to have known Joe, he did more for me than you could ever know. I know that Joe was an addict,but really i did not and will not ever see him that way. The way i will always remember my friend is this: He was the guy that no matter what was going on in his life, he would drop anything to help me. He would always ask me why i dated such jerks and tell me i was better than that. We would lay on the couch and watch movies together.He was there for me whenever i needed someone.That's Joe. The one that will always be in my heart, and will always be my best friend. I'll miss him for the rest of my life, and every year on OUR birthday I will celebrate for both of us! I love you Gramma- see ya soon-Melody |
| Name: | werner shaw and Jean |
| E-mail address: | shaw_ramtec @hotmail.com |
| You are from: | England |
| Comments: | Kind of related through the Leach family weddings.
Amazing story Liz, very touching. If it stops just one soul and his family from torment then it will help. Love from Werner and Jean |
| Name: | Jude |
| You are from: | Phoenix |
| Comments: | Betts, I know how much you love Joe. He had a good heart, I think he got that from you. I can't imagine your sorrow, my heart aches for you, I know you miss him. Wish I could help but I know your pain will remain to the end of your days. I love you Betts, always have, always will! I am proud to be your sister, you remind me of Mom, she was a strong woman to. |
| Name: | Shelley Nothnagel |
| E-mail address: | notanangel9@hotmail.com |
| You are from: | canada |
| Comments: |
Hi: I just wanted to say how sorry I am for your loss. I am a recovering alcoholic and drug addict. Like your Joe I hurt many of my family members but most of all my mother. We were close like you and your JOe were Unfortunately she died before i got clean and sober But I know she is in heaven and one day we will be reuinited just like you and your Joes will be I pray gods peace for you I thank God for you new friend and his wife I am sure it helps to have someone who knows your pain in your life. God Bless you Love Shelley N |
| Name: | Helen |
| E-mail address: | helgor123@aol.com |
| You are from: | Scotland UK |
| Comments: | Gramma, miss you lots in the room. Have been here before, but your site has changed. The message is the same, unconditional love, and your sorrow. It is as heart-rending as first day I read it.
Love hugs and comfort to you Liz, thoughts always for you, Helen |
| Name: | Kathy |
| Comments: | My heart goes out to you. I am one of seven children 4 in witch have habits. Two the same as your grandson 2 other habits. It has been several years and I am at the end of my rope. My mother is my biggest worry because she has unconditional love and to me is an enabler.
Can't go on, heart is breaking AGAIN... will correspond on another day Wish you the best and wish we had your strength. |
| Name: | rita |
| E-mail address: | ritab110@yahoo.ca |
| You are from: | st,john's-nfld |
| Comments: | I really wanted to say what a beauitful website you have.
I don't know you people but i share in your sorrow. I just lost my father on April 27/05, he died of cancer aged 57. Your poem really hit me at the heart.Pick up & carry on-they would want that! good-luck.bless you. |
| Name: | Jackie Newmyer |
| E-mail address: | hannieva@yahoo.com |
| You are from: | Willard, OH |
| Comments: | At this moment I wait for a call to tell me my husband has died from a heroin overdose. I have lived 14 years of believing that he loved me but found out that it was 14 years of lies. I do love him even though he has disappeared from our lives. He left two daughters and a son. I watched him go through heroin withdraw (used meth too) and that memory is burned into my brain, but I also can remember good times.
Your story and the others I have read make me cry. I tried to help, asked him to drop to his knees and ask Jesus for forgiveness-- his answer was NO! Now I only pray that he can find some kind of peace. I live moment by moment in fear (someone tried to break into my house, the stealing, the lies, the denial). THANKS FOR SHARING YOUR STORY, I hope someone will read mine someday. Jackie |
| Name: | Heidi |
| E-mail address: | hsf65@aol.com |
| Comments: | Nice website and a nice tribute to Joe. I lost my younger brother, Stephen, to heroine almost a month ago, its good to know there are others out there who understand your pain. Thank you. |
| Name: | jill |
| E-mail address: | belowme@aol.com |
| Comments: | hi liz i was writting to tell you how proud of you i am of all the things youve done for all these people. i know me and joe use to fight like crazy but i miss him and so does Ethanthe pictures you have on here of him and ethan i also have its hard to look at but i want ethan to remember and i know he will allways we love you and are thinking of you. wed like to come visit soon. you did alot for us when we had no one else you jack and joe we ll never forget that. ethan said hi mama liz. let me know if you need anything at all. we miss you! |
| Name: | Officer Charles Hayes |
| E-mail address: | Dareman43@earthlink.net |
| You are from: | Wal -Mart Security |
| Comments: | Liz
Your grandson's story has truly touched me. Now I know that you want to keep this from happenin to someone else. May God help you find peace. Officer Charles hayes |
| Name: | Michelle |
| E-mail address: | z025623@students.niu.edu |
| You are from: | Illinois |
| Comments: | Your story really touched me, I was crying through the whole thing. I started doing heroin when I was only 14 and if it weren't for my mom I would probably be dead by now too, but because of her help and love I've been clean for 4 years now. Joe's story sounded exactly like mine (only with a different ending). Thank you for sharing, it helped me to remember why I quit and that things really do get better. I'm very sorry for your loss.
Michelle |
| Name: | katherine |
| E-mail address: | trujillokt6@aol.com |
| You are from: | new mexico |
| Comments: | Thank you Gramma
I am a Granny. I took care of my little grandson for 4 years while my daughter was hooked on meth. and heroin. Heroin is her choice drug. I know what you are taljking about. My throat swelled up and I cried. My daughter was here and I was bringing up the word heroin on the PC to show her how many people are in the same life more less. she cried so hard after reading your site. It is so hard to get help for heroin addicts. I know that she has suffered so badly because of my divorce and the fact that we were so close and her dad got custody of her and her sister and I got the other two girls. It destroyed her life. Her dad was not a loving person. she has been back at the drug houses and even stopped me at one or two in desperation. She has been selling her depression pills............. Lying for drug money and stealing at stores. AGAIN. I have started taking her to the methadone clinic and I know she wants to get off so bad and feel normal. It is painful waiting for a call and asking God to prepare my heart foe my childs death. It has been a long eight years of pain worry and tears. Thank you for being there for the rest of us. God bless you. Katherine trujillo |
| Name: | Meg |
| E-mail address: | TrubledSexyOne@aol.com |
| You are from: | St. Charles, MO |
| Comments: | A very touching tribute Liz. You are a hell of a gal. You've been through the wringer and you've still come out on top. I'm glad you told me about this page. I remember Joe, and hopefully through you telling his story, there may be someone out there that is touched enough by it to get clean and stay that way. I love you Liz. Stay strong, and I'll try not to make you cuss.
Love, Meg |
| Name: | reza |
| You are from: | redondo beach, california |
| Comments: | Id like to thank you for putting this important website up. It is a great example of the heart break which spawns from drug use. Thank you so much for your advice. |
| Name: | Phyllis |
| E-mail address: | phyllis98382@yahoo.com |
| You are from: | Washington State |
| Comments: | Hello from one Grandma to another, I just signed this book but I guess it didn`t make it. God Bless you for all you have done . My Daughter was all messed up on drugs My Husband and I had her boys for 7 years before their dad who had not seen them for 7 and a half years deceided he wanted them he got them through the court. It broke my heart Their Mom has got her life together nowThey have their little girl back for two years now. Her boys want to come home so bad He and his wife are mean to them We need your prayerWe are waiting for CPS to call us now. They live in another State-- Idaho. They are 15 & 16 now they were 10 &11 when they left. God Bless you.
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| Name: | Phyllis |
| E-mail address: | phyllis98382@yahoo.com |
| You are from: | Washington State |
| Comments: | I really enjoyed your web you see our family needs your prayers. My Daughter was into drugs real heavy she lost her kids, my Husband and I had her boys for 7 years then their dad who had not seen them for 7 and a half years deceided he wanted them through the court he got them but now he is mean to them, my Daughter and her husband both got their lives together and have had their Daughter home for 2 and a half years. Praise The Lord. The boys want to come home they are in another state. The are now 15 & 16. They were 10 & 11 when they left. Please pray and God Bless You |
| Name: | John and Joan |
| E-mail address: | Grandjw@peoplepc.com |
| You are from: | St Louis Missouri |
| Comments: | John and I were deeply touched by your story of your grandson and how you loved him unconditionally through everything. It must have been heart breaking for you to experience the ups and downs you went through with him and then to see his life taken from him when he seemed to be turning things around. The good part as you said is that you have your wonderful memories of him and all that you shared and he will always hold a special place in your heart. By sharing your story and what you went through with Joe you are helping others to see the devastating effects of heroin and all drugs on families. God Bless You! |
| Name: | s |
| Name: | Shannon McLaughlin |
| E-mail address: | Adansr@aol.com |
| You are from: | St. Charles |
| Comments: | Hi Grandma,
It's Shannon McLaughlin, Dan Marlowe's ex girlfriend. I talked to Dan the other day and he told me about the website that you made for Joe. It is beautiful Grandma!! I have been on the site for about an hour now, just crying, laughing, remembering, and relating to everything that you've talked about. I feel like I have done the same for Dan like you did for Joe, and it is just so very hard to deal with. People just don't understand and think that I am crazy for staying with Dan after everything that he did to me. Like I tell all of them I don't condone anything that he has done b/c of drug addiction, but unless you have been through it, I don't care about your opinion. People are just so un- educated about drug addiction, and don't realize just how serious of a problem that it is, and that it is not something you can just close eyes and puff it away. I have been dealing with this now for 6 years. Although I never saw the drug, it has changed my life forever. I have not seen Dan now for almost one year and he is getting out of jail on October 18th, which is my 27th birthday. I am so excited Grandma, but just so scared at the sametime. I know he is such a great person, but also a very sick person. I mean he has been clean for almost a year, but he has been in jail, and he always does well when he is in jail, its just the real world that he has such a problem in. I have lost so many friends b/c of Dan b/c they think that I am stupid, but I believe in him with all of my heart. I think for me it's almost like an addiction trying to help him and I won't stop until he is healthy!!! We will have to come by and see you when he gets home. I know he would like that!! Take care of yourself. I miss Joe too, and I know he loved you just as much as you love him!! Love always, Shannon McLaughlin |
| Name: | Shannon McLaughlin |
| E-mail address: | Adansr@aol.com |
| Comments: | Hi Grandma, it's Shannon, Dan Marlowe's ex girlfriend. I talked to Dan the other day, and he told me about Joe's website. It's beautiful and you are such a great person, and I can relate to the whole thing 100%. Take care of yourself.
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| Name: | SHAWNA POULSEN |
| E-mail address: | SHEROTE27@AOL.COM |
| You are from: | USA |
| Comments: | KENNY POULSEN I LOVE YOU DADDY |
| Name: | Rita Sommer |
| E-mail address: | kegleykeg@aol.com |
| You are from: | Lexington, Ky |
| Comments: | What a wonderful, loving tribute to your grandson Joe. He was blessed to have you. So much of his story rang true for us and the loss of our son, Will. God's peace, Rita |
| Name: | Maria |
| E-mail address: | lanye30@aol.com |
| Comments: | Wow, I am speechless. I knew you hard it tough, never imagined how tough. I see you in the chat, and your a very friendly, kind and , helpful woman. After reading this,I know you work your program , or you'd crack.
I love you Liz. |
| Name: | MR T |
| E-mail address: | marksguitarstuff@aol.com |
| Homepage URL: | http://geocities.com/markt700 |
| You are from: | england |
| Comments: | Thanks, it brought back a few memories of my brother 20 who overdosed himself on heroin and also made me think how lucky I am |
| Name: | comfortablynumb |
| Comments: | ty for showing me. i'll remember your grandson with the others |
| Name: | oberon |
| You are from: | New Zealand |
| Comments: | Powerful stuff, gramma liz. Thank you |
| Name: | jgulia |
| You are from: | ca |
| Comments: | wow, this site is powerful, and my heart goes out to all of the family. |
| Name: | jmp202 |
| E-mail address: | jmp202@msn.com |
| You are from: | recovery chat |
| Comments: | this is awesome and so powerful. You have been blessed and continue to be so. You are in my thoughts and prayers. If I can do anything to help you complete joes wish please feel free to use me
a friend in recover Jmp202 |
| Name: | meatl0af (AKA Todd) |
| E-mail address: | bigtoddharkin72@yahoo.com |
| You are from: | st. charles mo |
| Comments: | ello gramma,
i've seen you in the room many times... i think that lastnite was kinda like a sign. you an i had a good while to chat alone, an had the room all to ourselves... found out you are only a couple of miles away, an a 3rd party joined us also down the road... what a small world... i'm glad we talked for the time we did, an hopefully you'll consider comin to the restaurant... an you can bring our new friend too... this site really touched my heart, and i too got teary-eyed reading everything... well, you said i could adopt ya as a gramma, an that sounds cool to me... like i said last nite, "i can tell you are a beautiful person, an i know how many peoples lives you touch just in the room..." you are truly an inspiration gramma, and i'm glad we got to chat, an look forward to many more. ty, meatl0af, AKA Todd |
| Name: | carrie |
| E-mail address: | zilla456@netzero.net |
| You are from: | wisconsin |
| Comments: | im having a hard time typing. im speechless. what a wonderful memorian how hard it must have been. i cant say anymore than what has already been said. your unconditional love is something i wish was a contagious disease. we all fight the fight of our disease and your story has left a lump in my throat. may God bless you and your family and Joe is looking down from eternity with such a look of pride. thank you, carrie |
| Name: | carrie |
| E-mail address: | zilla456@netzero.net |
| You are from: | wisconsin |
| Comments: | im having a hard time typing. im speechless. what a wonderful memorian how hard it must have been. i cant say anymore than what has already been said. your unconditional love is something i wish was a contagious disease. we all fight the fight of our disease and your story has left a lump in my throat. may God bless you and your family and Joe is looking down from eternity with such a look of pride. thank you, carrie |
| Name: | Tim |
| E-mail address: | tjz1mail@aol.com |
| You are from: | Upstate New York |
| Comments: | So many different things. Very, very sad. A beautiful tribute to his life. The pure evil of heroin addiction
(mine is crack). Unconditional love, you love him so much. God bless you, and Joe. Tim |
| Name: | rachel(Jill) |
| E-mail address: | vvga@netvision.com |
| You are from: | recoverychat |
| Comments: |
Experience Strength and Hope A heartrending truth about drug use and a whole reminder of what is so important in life.Thank you for this site.I am humbled.Thank you for humbling me today.Prayers for all still suffering addicts.Peace and love to you and your family, Jill |
| Name: | Slem |
| You are from: | Toronto, Ontario |
| Comments: | Your story has touched my heart. Your commitment, love and compassion for your grandson knew no boundries. Addiction is truly a "family disease", as your story tells.
You are in my prayers. God Bless. Diane |
| Name: | stacy |
| Comments: | Dear gramma Liz,
you and I have chatted a few times in the room. i have signed joes book, and been to his site,,, a few time, infact. the fact that you are active in recovery chat, and reaching out to addicts is very admirable. my grandma just came to my parent's house for a week long visit, and sitting here thinking about you andwhat happened with joe makes me think about my own grandma,,,, you know i am in the middle of a relapse, and when my grandma was here, i was using with her in the next room. it makes me pretty sad that i did that,,,and what happens if i don't make it back. will my grandma be making me a site like joes? that's kind of scarey!! thank you for your reply and concern.. you are a beautiful person, and god will bless you. love in sobriety,,, stacy |
| Name: | Amanda |
| You are from: | Indiana |
| Comments: | Grandma Liz,
Just wanted to say thank you to Joes grandma. You can add a star to your list. I have been clean for nine weeks now. I guess I drove you crazy for awhile there didn't I? But I owe you big time. You have helped me so much. You are doing a good job. You got me to stay clean. And I am doing it like you said Liz, one step at a time. I know I am driving you crazy with all the phone calls and chats. But you are the angel God sent me. I feel that in my heart. I just can't thank you enough. Joe knows that you are trying. And I know he is proud. I never met him but I taalk to him all the time. I wanted you to know that your efforts are not in vein. And they are doing this ex druggie a world of good. And I mean ex. haha. I have also done as you said. Put faith in myself, and pray. And i know my prayers are being answered. Maybe soon I can come to visit you and your friends at thier farm you told me about. I would enjoy a couple of days away for awhile. Stay well Liz. I am praying for you. Amanda S. |
| Name: | Mac |
| E-mail address: | macbedrock@comcast.net |
| You are from: | Florida |
| Comments: | Gramma,
Good hearing from you again. Glad your health is still good. The grieving will never stop, it is just how we deal with it. My pop was my best friend, advisor, fishing buddy, etc. and passed over 12 years ago. There is not a day goes by i do not think of him and remember him in my prayers but he would want us to move on as he did and mebbe one day we'll all be together again. Take care gramma, one day at a time. mac |
| Name: | vinny |
| You are from: | illinios |
| Comments: | my heart was breaking when i read the story of joe.
i hope he has found the peace that he was searching for. we of the addiction world know how lonely he was. |
| Name: | Becky A. |
| E-mail address: | scootoilslc@hotmail.com |
| Comments: | I posted this message on the user board at Recovery Chat and Joe's Grandmother (Liz) asked me to post this here also. It's just a little thought about how we can affect others.
Found out last night....a friend of mine in recovery killed himself over the weekend. He had over 8 years of sobreity. They found weed in his pocket and in the visor of his car. IS IT WORTH IT??? In my opinion just because you use, you are NOT a failure or a loser, just an addict. He and his wife were integral parts in our local recovery, and it's a shock.....but NOT WORTH IT. Using is what we do, it's natural, being clean is not. Whatever we do, and whatever path life leads us down, there are people who care. Just because we use, doesn't mean we deserve to die. Doesn't mean we are any less than anybody else. Doesn't mean we are not loved. Doesn't mean we are bad. Not keeping clean is not a reason.......it's NOT WORTH IT. Remember that no matter what, there is someone who will miss you. There is someone that will cry. There is someone that will not understand why. There is someone who will have to think they could have done something if only you would have talked to them.......IT'S NOT WORTH IT. So, off i go to another funeral for a friend. It's not supposed to be this way. IT'S NOT WORTH IT. becky a. |
| Name: | Sandy LaCagnina |
| E-mail address: | angelsofaddiction@yahoo.com |
| Homepage URL: | http://angelsofaddiction.com |
| You are from: | Memphis,TN |
| Comments: | I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my son Jason six years ago and still grieve everyday. Thank you for this site and for getting the word out to a world who shows no compassion to those who suffer from the disease of addiciton or to those of us who lost our loved one to the disease. No one chooses to become an addict. It is a disease as deadly as cancer and if the world does not wake up and listen they too will bury their child. The great kid who loved everyone, was generous to a fault, brilliant, loyal, and missed so terribly much. |
| Name: | Connie |
| You are from: | Utah |
| Comments: | Dear Liz and family,
I have read your web site and it broke my heart. Just as many others did. I know it was hard to lose one but two in such a short time must be unbearable. You are in my prayers and your family also. Seen all the pictures, what a beautiful memorial you have there. A friend of mine told me you are really on a mission to help addicts. I still am not able to do that. Your friends Donna and Walt sound very special to you. I hope you all keep up your good work. Love Connie SB |
| Name: | Ann |
| E-mail address: | cats12470@aol.com |
| You are from: | Indiana/South Carolina |
| Comments: | What a wonderful website.... it's just to bad we have to make them.... our child had a gene.... I do believe this.. I don't think they ever "wanted" to do drugs... I think it's something they are born with... I HAVE TO BELIEVE THIS..... you were a WONDERFUL grandma.... always believe that you did your best.... we can't fight this nor could our child.... I am glad he and my son are "friends" in Heaven... I am sure of that.... know he suffers no more... |
| Name: | Anna |
| You are from: | Kansas |
| Comments: | What a beautiful tribute. It really hits home. Your site and the ahdad site. I will go back there later and sign his book.I went to both site yesterday and was to upset to sign than. I really feel the love you people had for your loved ones. Two beautiful boys. They could of had it all. But DRUGS are killers. They never think it will get them so they try it and they die. They can't help it. The bastards that gave them the first shot should should feel your family and Walter's families pain every day of their lives.
My older sister was also an addict.She is now to far out for us to even talk to. She can barely read. I HATE DRUGS. So if any one reading this is on drugs please stop. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Love Anna Marie |
| Name: | Brandi |
| E-mail address: | lepetitloupgris@excite.com |
| Homepage URL: | http://www.pageproducer.com/users/Brandi-Lee/index.html |
| You are from: | Canada/USA |
| Comments: | Gramma Liz,
Again this has really touched me. Congrats on your great grandson. Reading and seeing this tribute to Joe really makes me feel grateful for being alive. I too am an addict. I have been clean now for 15 months on the 14th of May. I too have lost many loved ones. It is so hard to deal with death. I just wish people who are addicts and alcoholics would realize what they are doing to themselves and get the help they need. My hand is always stretched out to addicts. I am willing to help someone stay clean. But the addict has to want the help. Anyways I am off and will talk to you later gramma liz. PS. If you are an addict and just need someone to talk to feel free to email me anytime. I am always here for ya'll |
| Name: | jjaelle |
| You are from: | Tulsa, Oklahoma |
| Comments: | I know your tribute will touch the hearts of everyone who comes here, like it did mine. |
| Name: | Sandi |
| E-mail address: | Sandi@trophyhomes.com |
| Homepage URL: | http://uk.geocities.com/brown_addict/remembrance_page.htm |
| You are from: | Springville, Utah |
| Comments: | This is such a beautiful tribute and I relate to so much! My 19-year-old son, Robby Nunes, left us due to an overdose on 4/16/01. Our stories are so similar. He battled this demon for over 3 years and had been clean 7 months when he left. He wanted so badly to get healthy so he could help others who are saddled with addiction. He wanted to help kids and parents learn more about this too. Most of all, he wanted more affordable treatment available for addicts. I try to carry on the fight for him. Robby's brother is in early recovery for his own addiction and by the Grace of God, he is doing very well.
Our boys are fine, they came to teach us about compassion and love. We, who love them, will carry on for them and make them proud. But, the hole in our hearts will remain forever. We will miss them terribly until we meet up in Heaven. God bless you and all of Joe's friends and family. |
| Name: | Jason |
| E-mail address: | raverdad29@hotmail.com |
| You are from: | Arkansas |
| Comments: | I feel your loss, I am a recovering addict and have lost freinds. I thankfully am in recovery. However despite your loss I write this to other addicts who are suffering. 12 step programs work if you work them, AA or NA I use both |