2/7/01,12:37AM Url of the Blah: k, I should really be in bed, but I needed to get this out of my system... Is there any PARTICULAR reason that ex-boyfriend-types who I'm not on good terms with feel the need to send me unexpected and unwelcome emails? Eh? IS THERE? Just when I think they've given up and forgotten about me, BAM - random, happy little note gets dropped into my inbox, and I'm faced with either sending them a nasty response, or being an asshole and not bothering with it entirely. I don't like to think of myself as a horrible, mean-spirited person, but GAH...MOVE ON people! O_o Guess I should be flattered but...ugh....no...just want them to go awaaaaaay.... -_-;;; Poor Brian....I'm sure that the constant reminders of Ali Past aren't any more fun for him... :P

2/1/01,9:08PM Url of the Blah: http://myst.org/sorrow bah...waiting in the lab for Brian to finish with his MUDDing...so I thought I'd drop a quick note.. Looking back at my last blah, I'm seriously wondering if it'll make sense to anyone but me. I've had a wonderously conflicted week or so, and I'm not especially good at explaining it to anyone....I guess that some things my Mom said a few days ago have been haunting me a bit. Guess I'll just have to figure it out on my own. :/ but yeah...whatever... If any of you are players on a MUDD called Medievia, make sure to look up a guy named Palatine, eh? An tell him to go pay attention to his girlfriend. ;} link - Sorrow update ^_^ *looks over at Brian* ACK...he's hacking into the Med system....*rools eyes* men ;P

1/31/01,10:09PM Url of the Blah: http://alison.wyvernweb.com/temp/moo/shoot.jpg I'm feeling like too much of an ADD poster girl tonight to write much....just wanted to check in, and more importantly, brag horribly about my early birthday present. guess what I'm typing this on? huh? just GUESS. *grins* an iBOOK!!! AHHHHHHH!!! I still feel horribly guilty, like there's something fundamentally wrong with having two computers...the little voice inside of me insists that I am a horribly spoiled little brat who should feel thoroughly ashamed of herself. *hangs head* but oh well!!! *bounces* 'tis me first laptop ever, and I love it to death!!!! so purdy, so very very purdy ^_^ Life life is....good. I'm a little tired....a little sick...a little behind on the many things that need to get done...but overall, life kicks butt. Or thumps butt pretty hard, anyway. I'm a little weirded out by the whole relationship thing, these past few days...like the reality of my situation is finally settling in, and I'm not quite sure what to do with myself. I haven't exactly had the most normal relationships in the past...and definately not the most worthwhile....now, I have this wonderful guy, who I can see all the time and who loves me like crazy...and I honestly don't know what to do about it. these past few days, I've been second-guessing every little thing I feel, wondering if it's normal , if it means anything, if I should be worried because such-and-such thought wandrered into my head... *sighs* In other words, I'm an incoherant goob who needs to chill out, settle back, and let things happen. I worry too much ...I know that...now just need to STOP.. ;P and I need to get out more... spend entirely too much time sitting around my dorm. Brian comes over, we snuggle and talk and make dinner and such...sometimes we go out to eat...and then Brian goes home. *merfs* Methinks maybe we're getting in a bit of a rut, here.... sorry this is so terribly...random. I'm just in an odd mood tonight. Maybe the radiation from the iBook is rotting my brain. who knows. link: Ali went on her first shoot for Sight and Sound film the other day! Ain't that special? ^_-

1/29/00,1:12AM Url of the Blah: http://www.geocities.com/naiwindrider/ Tonight on AliCam - Male Bonding ^_- (scroll down fer the link) erk, I have stuff to do...I wanted to make a poster for the Gathering...I want to finish coloring this drawing I did..I want to update...I want to work on a comic script for panel tag....and...and... GAH work Had another one of my crappy moods today, and once again I fought through it... *sighs* I wonder if it's hormones or something....they say the pill messes with you, but MAN...it's been an emotional bumper-car ride... Feel more sorry for Brian, though...he has to ride right along with me....poor bastard... >;} Link: Meg iz cool. Her art is bootiful an...an...an I like it. ^_^

1/25/01,12:57AM Url of the Blah: http://alison.wyvernweb.com/temp/cam/ tonight, at this link: The Best of AliCam I am a DORK. And I'm also feeling much better. Brian is the most incredible person....one phone call is all it takes. ^_^ That, and Mark (after reading the earlier blah, interestingly enough) spontaniously dropped by with a pint of ben an jerry's. We made fun of Voyager together. Then we made fun of the news. It was great. ;} *goes off to bed with a hard-earned smile on her face*

1/24/01,8:31PM Url of the Blah: ack.. Someone just clued me into a little misunderstanding... Remember before, when I was talking about Brian's ex's website? And then I linked to Kapolo club in the same blah? apparantly, some folks thought THAT was the page...but um...no...Brian has never dated a guy, and Saka (Kappolo club boy) is most definately male....which is besides the fact that Brian's never met any of my online aquaintances in person.. ;} *goes back to feeling shitty, and waits for Voyager to come on*

1/24/01,7:13PM Url of the Blah: http://alison.wyvernweb.com/temp/cam/ urg <:P Ali's not feelin so hot today. I'm achy, and I'm tired, and my head hurts, and my nose is all stuffed....and....gah, and I'm just all-around miserable... *sniffs* I ended up sleeping for like three hours this afternoon, so of course now I'm all disoriented on top of everything else. And as I type this, the evil roommate has come home, turned on her radio, called up some random chat friend and generally made me feel unwelcome and uncomfortable in my own goddamn room. -_-;; it makes me wonder...is there a REASON people have to scream on the phone? IS THERE?! The thing is right next to your ear, practically speaking there is no space between the two of you...it's like screaming at someone who's standing right next to you. WHAT THE HELL?! O_O I want to strangle her. I know that most of my animosity probably has less to do with Dara than with my own icky state of affairs, but STILL. As much as I was feeling lonely as all heck a few minutes ago, I sorta prefer that over generic pop radio and inane phone chatter. :P I wish Brian was here. Or Mark. Or somebody. Even better, I wish I had someplace else to be..... Y'know, despite my exhaustion, I'm sorely temped to get my ass down to waterstreet and hang out with Mark and the crew. I have work to get done, and I don't much feel like venturing out in the cold, but man....I REALLY don't feel like being here... -_- Not like I'm even really taking advantage of "here" at the moment. It's Chinese New Year tonight. I freakin live in Chinatown. So why am I sitting on my ass at home? at least Voyager's on tonight....yaaaaay *flinches at a particularly loud screach from her roomie* jesus f. christ... SHUT THE HELL UP WOMAN!!!! *mumblegrumblegrowl* link...er....yeah....

1/20/01,11:38PM Url of the Blah: http://paneltag.swoo.net/ heh...feeling a little better now... ^_^;;; and productive....need to get cracking on this comic thingy....write a script or SOMETHING... -_- Lewis' panel tag shall be the aim of the evening. :P

1/20/01,5:22PM Url of the Blah: http://www.stern.nyu.edu/ I'm having one of those days -_- I really, really, REALLY need to get out of the dorm. But it's cold and wet and dark out there. But there's nothing to do here that doesn't involve me being productive/creative, which I'm really not in the mood for. My DVD drive isn't working for some reason, so I can't watch movies. Brian's uptown, but I don't want to go up and harass him because he's with his friends and because I'm being bitchy and I know it. I am in SUCH A SHITTY MOOD and I can't for the life of me come up with anything that'll make it go away.... *growls* I'm tired. I need to find something to wake myself up, or I'll just sleep all evening and feel even worse..... GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR *throws up a link and glowers at it* Could somebody mail bomb this place? Be one less thing for me to worry about -_-

1/16/00,8:40PM Url of the Blah: http://alison.wyvernweb.com/kette My buddy Yakkette now has her own fanpage. YAY kette. ^_^ so... As of today, Brian and I have been together four months. We're going out to dinner or something in a bit...I feel HORRIBLE, because he was going to RP with his friends (one of which just got back from xmas break) but I said something that indicated I'd sorta wanted to...well, go out...and he immediately fell all over himself apologising for his rudeness and insensitivity, and promised to wrap things up withing a half-hour or so...they usually go 'till at least 10... so...I feel bad. Really bad. But on the other hand, I'm SO FREAKING HAPPY we're going out. I'm tired and stressed and so hungry my stomach's starting to digest itself, and I need very, very badly to be spoiled a little. I don't want flowers or gifts or chololate - though they're nice, on occation ^_^ - I just want a special little evening alone with my boyfriend. cuz...well, I'm a hopelessly romantic goob. <:} in other news.. Tuesdays are normally going to be hell. 12 hours of class. ACK. Fun, interesting class, but ACK. At least I have life drawing in the evening...nothing relaxes me like watching a nakkid man strike poses on top of a table. WHEEE. I'm such an art geek, it's sad. No class tomorrow, but I do have work from 9-5...I need money, so I'm doing 20 hours this semester instead of 8.... *gulps* man, I hope I don't end up regretting this -_-;;;

1/12/01,12:04AM Url of the Blah: http://www.giantheads.com/obro.html One month until my birthday!! WOO!! =^_^= I'm too tired to write much, and I want to go read the new Pullman book I bought today....so I'll leave you with a link: the Giantheads review for "O Brother, Where Art Thou?" I love these guys

1/10/00,7PM Url of the Blah: http://endless.artistnation.com Link: Brian's eventually gonna get a website of some sort up and running. Well...other than the existing one that he's ignored for about a year. *grins* He's a damn good writer, as well as an artist, so here's to hoping he gets his act together. ^_- Book Anyone else heard of Phillip Pulman? I finished "The Golden Compass" a few weeks ago, and I just started on "The Subtle Knife," the second in the series. THIS is what fantasy books should be like. His style is so expansive, I don't even know what to say, other than that the books are immensely satisfying without being cheap, and that they deserve a fandom every bit as large and dedicated as that for the Potter books...and y'all know how I feel about those. If it weren't for the fact that they're very long and a little challenging for the typical dimwitted kid (sorry, I'm in one of my "humanity is stupid" moods) they probably would be. Immensely popular, that is. Though, selfishly, I'm actually glad they aren't. I don't especially like the fact that JK Rowling's books are so popular - I don't want to share with people I feel aren't worthy of them, who don't understand what they're really about and only read them because they're cute and charming. It's nice that Pulman's avoided being trivialized that way, even if it does mean that he doesn't get to be rich and disgustingly famous. Selfish, selfish me. Movies I really, REALLY liked "Oh Brother, Where Art Thou?" Again, I don't have the time or attention-span to get into precisely why...it just feeds into my odd sense of humor very effectively (as did "The Emporer's New Groove," BTW. Good shit.) and it has something to say without hitting you over the head with it. That, and the music kicks. Which brings me to... Music If you have any affinity at all for folky/gospel/old-time music, get off your ass and find a copy of the "Oh Brother, Where Art Thou?" soundtrack. It's amazing. EVERYTHING from the movie is on there, which hardly ever happens these days. Modern country, bluegrass, and rock have their roots in this sort of music - it's worth listening to for that reason alone. Besides, it's catchy as all Hell. I've had "Man of Constant Sorrow" stuck in my head all day. Was a bitch to find the thing, though...I was at a Barnes and Noble's, getting ready to settle down with a book and wait for Brian to get off work. But then I remembered that I wanted to check if they had the "Brother" soundtrack....though I wasn't even sure if one existed. Imagine my surprise when I discovered that not only were they sold out, but the warehouse itself was wrung dry of extra copies. Um....k.... O_o So, having nothing better to do, really, I hiked the ten or so blocks uptown to the HMV on 34th and 6th Ave, and snagged a copy there. Naturally, it was worth the trip, but DAMN...I'm just glad that HMV is generally filled with ignorant people...in NY, we snobby intellectual types tend to avoid such institutions. We buy our music in BOOKSTORES, dammit! *snickers* So yeah...that was my big adventure for the day. After which I just sat in the food court of a pretty mall with "Brother" in my discman and "The Suble Knife" in my hands. Not a bad way to spend an afternoon, if I do say so myself. ^_- I might get around to updating DA tonight. If not, then tomorrow. I'm working on it, but my ethernet's being a bitch and making things more difficult than they have to be. moo *wanders off to see if her download is done*

1/7/01,8:57PM Url of the Blah: http://www.endeffect.com/ uuup-dating uuuup-dating lalalalalalala *dances* Slowly but surely, I'm getting this thing done. In the meantime, check out the link - kick ass booty!! WOO!

1/5/01,1:29AM Url of the Blah: http://www.NokiaCustomPhones.NokiaUSA.com/Nokia_Covers/ I just got off the phone with Brian. He couldn't sleep, so he called to talk for a while... *sniffs* oh, man....I'm so much in love with this boy.....I don't even know what to do with myself. If I ever even SUGGEST that I'm toying with the thought of breaking up with him, somebody give me a good smack upside the head. *smiles and wipes the tears away* all right...enough sentementality....back to my usual geek chickiness.... Did I tell you that I got a new phone for Christmas? A Nokia 5100 series digital phone, with text messaging and a really funky blue hawaiian flower cover. I can send EMAIL with this thing. EMAIL!!!! It's like my technological wet dream. And you know what else? I can make my own cover for it on the Nokia homepage, if I feel like shelling out $50. *goggles* My GOD, the coolness overwhelming.... wanna know my phone's email addie? Do yo do ya do ya? *g* 9173247421@mobile.att.net It has to be on the short side, but WOW....EMAIL!!! *dances* I could play with this thing forever and ever. =^_^= Link? Take a wild guess. >;}

10:39PM,1/2/01 Url of the Blah: http://alison.wyvernweb.com/images/photo/newyear.jpg It's very, very cold here. I got back to New York early this evening, and it seems the temperature has been steadily dropping ever since. I said goodbye to Brian on the street in front of my dorm maybe....five hours ago? I miss him already. I guess that's what happens when you spent the better part of a week in near-constant contact with someone. oh, didn't I tell you? Brian came to visit me in Boston. A lot happened, but for now I'll just say that we came out of this much closer to each other then we were when he first arrived...and that my family loves him, a first in the long history of Ali boyfriends. You guys have seen all the shit I've written in here....you know what I'm talking about. Highlight for the evening: I'm back in New York, I already have leftover chinese food in the fridge, I get to sleep the night through without having to get up at 6AM to crawl back to my own bed, and my drawing block of horribleness is officially over. I went two weeks without drawing ANYTHING. Not even so much as a doodle. But now there's an atomically incorrect fairy girl in my sketchbook, and I'm happy again. Wheeee. Who knows, maybe I'll even FINISH the thing. which reminds me... many apologies for not updating like I promised. Things got real crazy real fast in the last 48 hours before I left for Boston, and I didn't have time to sleep, much less update. But...soon. There are still two weeks before school starts. I'll figure something out before then. ^_^ link - Brian and I at First Night in Boston....aren't we cute? ;}

12/19/00, 2:17AM Url of the Blah: http://www.redrival.com/kuroneko/ see, look..customization is fun. everything matches again. wooooo link...link...ummm.... there, that'll do. Kick Ass art sites are always great to fall back on.

12/12/00, 11:35AM Url of the Blah: http://www.cafepress.com/fetch303 Wow...I'm going to be here until the 21st. I can't decide if that's a good thing or not. One one hand, having such an insanely late final exam means that I won't be getting back to Boston until right before Christmas - not cool, considering I hardly ever go home anymore, and that I'm planning to return to New York pretty soon after New Year's. On the other hand, that's a handful more days I get to spend with Brian. *laffs* I'm such a goon... I love the holidays to death, but this year keeping up with everything is proving to be near impossible. HOW can it be mid-December already? HOW?! I've hardly even made a dent in my shopping, I'm still scrambling to get all my final assignments in (one left, thank god) and I haven't played even ONE Christmas CD yet....what the hell?! Where did my month go?!?! O_o bah Hey, at least I'm remembering to use paragraph tags today...Heh... *waves to shing* The Site dun dun dunnnnnnn ACK K, I promise to update both Diagon Alley AND World of Al before I leave. And I'm honestly intending to re-include all the image comments sometime over break, as soon as I have a spare afternoon with nothing to do. (or a spare day, rather...DAMN this stuff takes forever..) I'm sorry I've been neglecting my sites, it's just been mad busy on my end of things. Hopefully next semester will be easier, but....somehow I doubt it... I need a laptop. all of my problems would be solved if I had a laptop. *nods emphatically* Link? um....I'm a dork. Sorry.

12/11/00, 1:59AM Url of the Blah: http://www.curiouspictures.com/directors/directors/filmtecknarna/josie.htm I just realised I forgot paragraph tags in that last post. oh well

12/11/00, 1:53AM Url of the Blah: http://www.curiouspictures.com/directors/directors/filmtecknarna/josie.htm link - I love this. I could watch it over and over and over again until my eyes popped out and rolled under the desk. I just wish I could find the rest of the damn thing. merf I've noticed a recent aversion to caps and unneeded punctuation. I have no idea what this signifies, other than a whole new level of laziness on my part. whee at the moment, I'm in the middle of a very, very difficult animation assignment - making a chick dance. it's insanely difficult, even now that i broke down and videotaped myself for reference....and once I'm done, I think I'm supposed to be writing a screenplay... *sighs* Final projects are evil....at least my documentary for sight and sound video is done. Dunno if I'll be able to show it to y'all, tho...it's an portrait of someone I know, and it's a little...intense... REALLY fucking good tho. Ali proud. I should get back to animating. I can't wait until Tuesday.....then everything will be in, and all I'll have left to do is study for an exam. see, that sort of thing I can handle. it's just creative-type assignments that kill me. gaaaaah update? er....later...

11/30/00,1:00AM Url of the Blah: Yoshi the Salamander died today. May he rest in peace. -_-

11/29/00,1:06AM Url of the Blah: http://pub8.ezboard.com/falisworldfrm1.showMessage?topicID=14.topic First off, thanks to all the well-wishers who helped to cheer me up...you guys rule. *g* Today's link is evidence of that....;} Big Surprise of the Day: World of al is actually DONE! Wowie-zowie! I love life today.

11/26/00,8:52PM Url of the Blah: http://www.amigothornot.com/ Gah...been ages, hasn't it? I'm so very, very tired. I've been trying for hours to work on an exercise for my animation class tomorrow, and I'm not even done with the keys....I went by the site Brian's ex maintains, and thoroughly depressed myself...and now I'm just exhausted, grumpy, and uninspired. What sucks most about all of this is that I really did have a good day, up until a few hours ago. I got back from Thanksgiving in Boston last night, and Brian's been keeping me company near-constantly...he's such a sweetheart, I feel aweful for being upset about his stupid ex....he's not with her anymore, he's with me, he likes me the way I am, he's done things with me he's never done with anyone else...I'm going to be the first girlfriend of his to meet his family....he tells me all the time how much he loves me and how glad he is to have me with him....I should stop letting myself get all worked up over nothing. Jeez, I was the one who just had to go by her site in the first place.. For an intelligent person, I do some incredibly dumb things. Of course, that's not what's really bothering me...it's just an excuse to be mopey. At the core of my dark mood is that fact that I have no confidence in my abilities right now. What the hell am I doing in film school? Why do I even try to draw? I'm not working hard enough...I don't practice enough..I'm getting soft. I need to force myself into some direction or another, and beat myself into the ground if that's what it takes to be the very best I possibly can be. I'm at a horrible, shadowy crossroads, months away from having to make some of the biggest decisions in my life, and I'm scared shitless. I have no idea what I most want to do. I'm flying in all directions, when what I NEED to do is focus and figure out what I want to spend the rest of my life doing. I hate this. I'd say I wish Brian was here, but that wouldn't really do me much good...he'd just be a lovely distraction. I can't be distracted. I have to get this shit done. The new site is almost done...I dunno, I guess I'm hoping it'll make me feel a little better about myself. It's very pretty. I really like it. Maybe, if everyone else likes it too, I won't feel so useless. Bah....here, go check out the link...it's much happier than angsty ali...which is scary, since it's a site about vain goths.... -_-

10/18/00, 11:48PM Url of the Blah: http://alison.wyvernweb.com/temp/moo/chick.gif HeHe....Ali played with Flash for an hour or so....an look what she did... ;} Scribbly randomness is FUN! =^_^= As for life...today actually went fairly well. I had my second stint as director in the TV studio (meaning I had to direct actors and cameras and such while we were recording live... FUN...) which went hugely better than I'd expected. The actors were given their lines as we were starting to set up the floor, the plans that I'd made at around 6 this morning (fell asleep in my clothes again last night...woke up with an hour anna half to put a production book together) seemed a little on the simplistic side...and I was VERY tired...but somehow, my project ended up running more smoothly than anything else that day. We got it on the first take, without a hitch. Damn cool, particularly considering the disaster my first studio project turned out to be. ;} So that was nice... I'm having a little Brian anxiety today...silly, really...I did something to upset him the other day because I wasn't paying attention...and I haven't really had a chance to talk to him since...and we're both tired and stressed....and...and...*sighs* I just need to see him and hug him and feel his warmth against my cheek, and know that everything's all right.... Until then, I'll just watch my silly little animation again, finish cleaning my room, and go to bed with my copy of The Fountainhead. Mmmmmm...Roark..... Heh

10/16/00, 9:48PM Url of the Blah: http://alison.wyvernweb.com/temp/moo/index_main.jpg The one-month anniversary came without my really noticing...until Brian showed up at work with a boquet of orchids. It seems he went chasing all over town for them....just because he knows I like them....and really, the fact that he wanted to badly to be nice to me is sweeter than any present he could possibly give... *smiles* It's always the little things with me....the little things that make me happy. Like gummy frogs. I absolutely adore gummy frogs. And today, after having lunch with Mark (a BLT, which I also love) I decided that I needed to have some little green critters right then and there. So I went to the candy store on 8th and University, bought a bag of gummy candy...and was happy as a goddamn clam for no reason other that that I was munching on gummy frogs and black liquorice. ^_^ And tonight....for some reason, I had the urge to call Mark....and when I did, he was on the tail end of a very difficult and entirely unexpected "talk" with his girlfriend back home in PA. He really, REALLY needed to talk to someone. So I did. For a long time, actually. And all the while he kept apologizing for keeping me on the phone... Which is funny. Because I love talking to Mark. And I love those rare moments when I'm able to help out my friends in some signifigant way, even if it's just being there for them. And tonight, I got to do both. And, like the gummy frogs, and like the flowers, and like that tired but determined smile on Brian's face when he stopped by to visit...it made me happy. I've been told that I'm a mystery to some people. That they don't understand how I can live the way I do and go through the things I go through without being miserable a good deal of the time...without giving into what they feel is the inevitable. But...well, in all honesty, I've always thought that our own emotions are very much under out control...that how we decide to look at things determines our happiness as much as anything else. Some people decide that the difficulties and the dissappointments of life are what's important...that they'll dwell on the low points rather than fooling themselves with unwarrented optimism. I guess I just don't think of it that way. Life will do what it wants to....you may as well make the best of it. Enjoy what you can, and deal with the rest as it happens. It's all about the little things, in the end...they're what get me through everything else. This keyboard makes wonderful, strong sounds when I type....and I can type much faster than normal, for some reason. It's not quite as satisfying as a typewriter, but it's damn close...it feels solid, and I entertain the thought that maybe it lends a little of that solidarity to the words I write. It's a great keyboard... And that makes me happy. *points up* And so does this...new site, mayhap? Who knows....if only Brian didn't look like a girl....

10/11/00, 6:59PM Url of the Blah: http://www.artistnation.com/members/lofts/mcx/ Sometimes, "I love you" is the most beautiful thing a person can say. Particularly when it's for the first time. This has been a good day. =^_^=

10/8/00, 2:40AM Url of the Blah: http://kellilla.com/hp/ Isn't it odd, how things always seem to work out for the best? Brian spent pretty much the entire day with me...and towards the end of it, we headed downtown to visit my friends. It's a long walk...long enough for me to tell him all sorts of stories....one of which apparantly set him to thinking...Once we finally got there, Mark an Derek an Geoff an everyone were watching a John Woo movie, so Brian an I made quick introductions and then sat in the back of the room....a few minutes later, Brian told me what he'd been thinking about, and I got all silly and happy...but a few minutes after THAT, his friend beeped him and he had to head back uptown again. At the time, this seemed like sort of a bad thing... But then, after the movie ended, a certain tension settled over the group...the guys've been having some problems lately...and I was suddenly glad that Brian didn't have this sort of night as a first impression...he doesn't know my friends at all, yet, and things might have gotten nasty very quickly if he'd said the wrong thing. After an uncomfortable half hour or so, everone had wandered out of the room except Mark and I. And due to some combination of mood and timing, we had one of those deep, long, thoughtful conversations that just...just needed to be held. At some point Brian called, and we decided that the three of us should get together tomorrow and bond. I dunno....it was too bad that Brian had to walk all the way downtown just to turn around an leave again...but if he hadn't, we never would have had our little moment. It's horrible that my friends aren't getting along, but if they hadn't left the room then Mark and I wouldn't have have the chance to talk.... Small things....but I'm feeling remarkably at peace tonight. A good feeling. I could get used to this.

10/1/00, 11:04PM Url of the Blah: http://www.damocles.ws/viewImage.asp?name=animePowerPuffGirls.gif Link - Rene is a goober. Despite what the last post might suggest, I actually DIDN'T spend the last few days being freaked out by Brian's ex-girlfriend. I've just been busy and such, and haven't gotten around to blah-ing about any of it.. ;} Lot's happened....I'm feeling much better about things in general. I dunno...I guess I'm just beginning to accept that certain things may actually work out, and that it's ok if certain others don't. I'm almost done with "Memoirs of a Geisha." Damn good book, tho it's driving me so crazy, I'll be up all night trying to finish it. And I've updated Diagon Alley two times in 24 hours. It's funny....I haven't left the room much in the past couple days, but I'm ok with that.... Tomorrow, tho, I fully intend to be out until some rediculous hour. So there.

9/24/00, 10:15PM Url of the Blah: http://kapolo.syste.ms/index2.html a word from the wise: don't ever look at the website of a new interest's ex-girlfriend. it fucks with your head.... O_O *deep, calming breath* I'll come back later when I'm done being wierded out...

9/22/00, 4:06PM Url of the Blah: http://shingkhor.livejournal.com/ link - Shing's li'l journal thing! eeee k..I'm pissed...I wrote this huge-ass blah, and then I hit some key that deleted the whole thing... *snarl* Sooooo...lesse how much I remember.... The Guy I am so incredibly nervous about this whole thing. So nervous, in fact, that I don't even want to write the poor guy's name down for fear of screwing up my Karma somehow. But even as my stomach is doing gymnastics, I can't help but feel....content. This warm, fuzzy sort of peacefullness that I haven't felt in years. *sighs and smiles a little goofily* Who knows? Maybe my luck is changing ^_- Ms. Popularity For years, I've characterized myself as a geek chick. That wacky, non-conformist person who maintaned a handful of friendships and spent her Friday nights in front of the computer. You know the type, right? In all honesty, it was a pretty damned accurate description. Stress on the WAS.... But now I find myself in a mind-boggling predicament. You see...I'm NOT the anti-social poster girl anymore. There hasn't been a day this week where I've had more than an hour or two with nothing to do. I actually have to make...APPOINTMENTS with people....because I have all sorts of.... of PLANS...and...and...I'm DOING things....and going out, and seeing people, and....ACK... O_o But what's really a mind-fuck is that my mental self-image hasn't changed...at ALL...I still think of myself as being the chick who never does anything...and so I'm constantly in shock when I think ahead to the weekend, and realize that - for lack of a better word - I'm booked. It's like I'm...popular....alluva sudden... FrEaKy.... Like this weekend. Tonight, I have work until 11, after which Brian an I wil prolly get together and hang out all night. Saturday morning, Matt's coming downtown to visit, and in the afternoon I'm going to Pearl with Mark to look for stuff to make little trees out of. And then Brian will prolly want to do something that night or Sunday...and the OTHER Brian has to come down to Chinatown at some point...and I have to go buy clothes and food an shit (bank card finally came - DUDE!!!) ...and I need to work on my animation homework....and...and...and that's just the stuff I planned ahead of time.. O_O *blinks* heh...man, I just realised...I wrote his name...the guy's...even though I hadn't planned to... *smiles* It's Brian. Brian Chin.

9/18/00, 9:18PM Url of the Blah: http://disney.go.com/disneypictures/atlantis/ Today, it was blue daisies....he wanted them to match my eyes...and now they're sitting behind the desk on the sound floor, so I can see them while I work.... =^_^= Looking back through the old enteries, it's hard not to notice a certain theme....my life is a soap opera, it seems, complete with what my freinds refer to as the "guy of the week." *pokes said friends repeatedly* But....jeez, I dunno....I'd much rather it just be the guy of the....month...or year, even....being single and flitting about randomly is fun and all, but there's much to be said for stability. After this summer, I feel like I can't count on my judgement at all, as to whether or not things are going to turn out all right...I guess I'll just be happy, and see where things go.. ^_- Of course, no one's brought be flowers on a whim before (the last occation was nice, but doesn't count because Carla told him to....and it was two years ago, besides... ;P) and that alone's enough to make me all goofy. ;} *sighs contentedly and hums the theme from "sleeping beauty" as she waltzes around the office* I know you I waltzed with you once upon a dream I know you That gleam in your eyes is so familiar a gleam And I know it's true That visions are seldom what they seem But if I know you I know what you'll do You'll love me at once The way you did once Upon a dream gah...I'm hopeless... *g* And if you don't remember that song, go rent the movie, goddamit.... ;} Link: Disney's Atlantis!! Go, look at the pretty trailer! Read the mini-novel! Download the font! IMMERSE yourself in eye-candy goodness!! ^_-

9/17/00, 2:43PM Url of the Blah: http://pub26.ezboard.com/faimeesstudiofrm1 mmmm...happy ali....happy happy ali with a happy happy rose sitting on her desk.... And I'm not going to say anything else, for fear of jinxing myself... ;} Oh, and laser tag kicks ass BOOTY. I killed poeple, and...and ran around...and...and yeah... *bounces and grins ferally* >:} wow...I'm going to bed before 5AM....scaaaaary... ^_- link - Aimee has a new comment board thing. yaaaaaaaay aimee ;}

9/14/00, 2:45PM Url of the Blah: http://www.st-hypertext.com/index.shtml yay...ali's in a GOOD mood today!! =^_^= It's warm and sunny and beautiful outside - I spent an hour or so reading next to the water fountain in Washinton Square - and I just came from my dramatic writing class.....and my professor thinks I'm brilliant, which kicks ASS!!! *bounces around* eeee....I've always loved writing, but never feel like I'm any good at it...so it's wonderful when someone else is like, "Alison! You have a great sense of character and story! You rule!" And I'm like "wheeeeeeeee!!" And I found a 10$ bill in my purse! How freakin cool is THAT?! And in an hour or so, I'm gonna head back uptown for all my various, happy thursday club thingies... ^_^ Life is good today. Yepyepyep. OH!!! And since Voyager's ep last night kicked major ass-booty, today's link is to one of the best Trek review archives out there. If you follow Voyager, make sure to check out Jammer's reviews - they're thoughtful, insightful, and often hilariously funny. *g* Man, I don't know how I got sucked back into Voyager...but it's so gloriously FUN... ;}

9/12/00, 7:27PM Url of the Blah: http://www.larabiefonts.com moof.....I am sooooooo bored... O_o I'm pulling my long-ass shift on the Sound Floor - the second in as many days - and it's not goin so well...Still have 3 1/2 hours to go, and I'm already cold, grumpy, and lonely since my intended coworker never showed. At least I have food....last night, I was reduced to eating someone's leftovers... Guess I should probably tell you about the bank card problem. See....I kinda couldnt find my Fleet card when I was packing to come to New York...and when I finally got around to visiting my local Fleet Bank, I was informed that Boston-based customers can't GET new cards directly from a NY branch...they have to call in and order on. YAY. So I called...and now I'm somewhere in the midst of my "3 to 5 buisiness day" wait. It's a very odd experience, having only 50 cents in your pocket and knowing that there's absolutely NOTHING you can do about it, short of begging. My friends have been kind enough to help me out with cab fares and the like, but...I dunno...I've never felt so much like a college student in my life. So...it's peanut butter and koolaid for ali, until the magic envelope of cash-giving wonderfullness decides to show up. ;P I just wish I had something to do....other than homework, that is. There's a series of drawings I really should do, but I'm not feeling particularly inspired....not cool.... *yawns* And I haven't been sleeping well....roommate problems...woo-hoo... -_- *imagines she has a sweater, a steaming mug of hot coaco and lots of friends who want to come uptown to visit her* Oh...the link...*g* Dunno if I've sent you guys over to Larabiefonts before, but I should have...half my fonts come from there...good shit... ;}

9/11/00, 1:54PM Url of the Blah: http://www.emotioneric.com/ Click above to see Eric convey an emotion. My personal favourite is "Can't sleep...clowns will eat me...." but there are also such classics as "Fear," "Happiness" and "Goodbye Cruel World." Good stuff. Cute guy. Funny as all hell. >;} In case you didn't notice, Ali actually got off her fat arse and updated World of Al. The devil on my shoulder finally won out, and I'm scrapping the old design...it's a bad sign when you cringe at the sight of your own webpage....And though I'm not totally sure how this is gonna work, the final design will prolly be something along the lines of what's up there now. I just can't deal with my main site being a huge-ass moster of a thing anymore....siiiimple, I say.....siiiiimmmplee is goooooood..... In other news, Ali would like to announce for all to hear that her buddy Shing has risen above the call of duty in her persuit of coolness....or something...and that we should all bow down and worship her eternal spiffiness by offering human sacrifices in her name. (ie, she drew a pic of the big, blonde marshmellow fairy, and I'm still laughing >;) oh...*blinks* Hey, I didn't get around to tellin y'all about Sci-Fi club, did I? *laughs* It was....er....interesting. I made lots of happy geek friends, ran around like a maniac, drew pretty pictures, learned how to play "Brawl" and remembered how to play "Flux," created a Bastet D&D character, and otherwise amused myself. I also found a styrofoam head on the way to dinner (at 1AM) with a sparkly sticker on it that says "Looking for a Sugar Daddy." I'd say it was a pretty successful evening.... ;}

9/6/00, 11:34PM Url of the Blah: http://www.thinkgeek.com Link o' the moment - Think Geek!!!! Dude, I can't believe I didn't link to this page sooner....it is a haven for all of geekdom.....*bows before it* First day of class was EXCELLENT. Sight and Sound Video, an all-day production class with attitude.... *g* Essentially, I was in a television studio for several hours with a load of other film students, playing with expensive toys. My favourite part was getting to wear the headphones....and use the big-ass mic to deafen everyone with "Quiet on the SET!!!" HehEHeHe...MOO.... It's days like this that remind me of why I wanted to come here in the first place....this is my THING...*sighs dreamily* I love Tisch.... =^_^= of course, there's more to college than classes... I very much need to go to the activities fair tomorrow. It is of utmost importance that I enroll in the proper geek clubs, for if I do not, I will be denied the supreame pleasure of being immersed in a sea of dorks.....and that would be a tragedy of the worst possible magnitude.....*shakes her head* Only when I am among my fellow geeks am I truly at peace. *blinks* Well....yeah....basically, I need to have a large group of people I can be totally comfortable around....as well as an outlet for my insane tendancies...and what better way to accomplish this than joining Anime and SciFi clubs, eh? ;} man, I have a lot to do....I need to apply for a job, and work on my websites, and write letters, and go shopping for groceries so I don't starve, and work on my script outline...and.....and draw, and..... and I think I'm going to go and read my book, now. My brain's giving out on me ^_-;;

9/3/00, 12:12PM Url of the Blah: http://www.bluep.com/~modesto/ link is to my buddy Rene's site....go, friends, and gawk at the spiffiness that is Rene in his kendo uniform... *laffs* Oh, the the pretty artwork...that to ^_- yick...it's noon, and I just crawled out of bed.. AND I haven't updated yet... I suck -_- it's hot and disgusting here in NY - no clue what the temp actually is, but it feels like a freakin sauna and I can't breathe properly - and the last thing I want to do at the moment is trek downstairs to the psuedo-gym and sweat s'more. *le sigh* On the other hand, remaining the more out-of-shape person on the floor doesn't seem a very good option, either... :/ Y'know, it's wierd. I've spent the better part of my life being soft...I've NEVER been one of those people with sinewy muscles and no body fat, even when I was younger...and even though there's absolutely NO REASON why I couldn't BE one of those skinny people on ths street....I have the hardest time taking the whole working out thing seriously....like I can't believe it could possibly be within my grasp..... *le sigh* I say it again...I'm a big, blonde marshmellow....Question is, can I escape my plight? oh, the endless drama that is my life ;P

9/1/00 - 5:33PM Url of the Blah: http://baringer.freeservers.com/hughsmurf.htm whooooopsie...forgot the link in that last one... I dumb

9/1/00 - 3:02PM Url of the Blah: Today's link - you will be assimmilated. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! k, I'm gonna haveta start posting here more often, just so I can hack away at the HUGE ASS PILE of links sitting in my bookmarks file ;P This has been such a crazy-ass coupla days....I only moved in on Monday, and I already feel like I've been here forever! *grumbles* I also feel like I'm the size of a small whale....damn these skinny New York freak women.....DAMN THEM TO HELL!!! >:P so yeah...I'm a big, blonde marshmellow...what's new...;P Despite the fact that I'm still stranded in Modem land, I'm trying for an update tonight or tomorrow...feel HORRIBLE about letting my sites go so long.....and there's SO much to add!! O_O On a side note...been mucking around in Adobe Premire again, for the first time in several months. Felt it was about time I started acting like a film student again, so....heh...old-school Moby and Matrix trailers....interesting mix.... * grins* Wait an see, this is gonna kick ass....or at least entertain you for roughly 50 seconds... ;}

8/26/00 - 10:28 PM Url of the Blah: http://www.geocities.com/naiwindrider/ The link of the moment is to an art site a ran into a month or two....her name is Meghan, and she kicks ass. SO much ass, that I cannot possible communicate the degree to you in written form. So go look, already >;} wow....I move in tomorrow.... At the moment, I'm sitting at my uncle's computer on Long Island...a big-ass, clunky PC......my worldly possessions are all waiting quietly in the SUV we borrowed back in Boston....and tomorrow morning at about 6:30AM, Mom an I are leaving for Manhattan. It's a little odd, really...for the past few weeks, all I've talked about is how much I was looking forward to this....and...well, I am.....but after four months at home, it all seems just a little...unreal.... ah well.... I'm too tired to be waxing philisophical, so I suppose I'll teeter off to the living room and start in on my book again....Stardust by Neil Gaiman.....damn good stuff.... poof

8/21/00 Url of the Blah: http://members.aol.com/jadsky/mgkf/ Today's link is to a site my friend Mark has put together....a worthy cause if there ever was one.... ;} heeeeeeeey been a while, eh? I'm going back to school this Saturday. One would hope that'll get me back onto a semi-regular schedual...we'll see.....*g* In any case, I'm not dead, I've just been a little crazy lately. Diagon alley's been sucking up all my attention, and thus the rest of my 'net life has been horridly neglected. BUT, I am planning a bit of a revamp/update in the next few days, so fear not! The World of Al isn't dead....it has only been sleeping..... MauAHa..

7/10/00,10:18AM Url of the Blah: http://www.fontalicious.com/ Today's link: someone requested another font site, so I give you Fontalicious. Dig the rotating strawberry, dude ;} And now.. You knew it was coming....you knew I wouldn't be able to hold out....you knew that my rabid obcessiveness and overwhelming enthusiasm would win out in the end... So here it is....my obligatory gush on the subject that's foremost on my mind: Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. I don't know if it's possible to communicate to you how much I thoroughly ADORE this book. Surprisingly, due to the prescense of Cardie and other happy distractions, it actually took me a couple days to get through it. And now, after having recovered somewhat, I almost wish I'd stretched it out even longer. This has been one of the most satisfying literary experiences of my entire life. No, I'm not exaggerating...I'm dead serious. While I thoroughly enjoyed all three of the previous books, each one more than the last, this latest installment rises to an entirely new level. For years, I was addicted to fanfic. (yes, this is going to tie into my point, just gimme a minute ;) Star Trek, Gargoyles, even Phantom of the Opera...It's a sort of drug, really. As a fan, there are certain things you long to see your favourite characters do, stories that you want to develop, romances that you think would just PERFECT, if a bit unlikely. And fanfic, you see, allows these idle fantasies to be realized. It's the ultimate in self-indulgent fiction, delivering exactly what you've always wanted. Unfortunately, though, not all of it is particularly well-written. And the lack of legitimacy - none of it is cannon, after all - can be extremely disheartening. No matter how carefully executed, a written story can never match a television show...and even if the original series is in book form, the voice of its true author is lost. When I picked up my copy of Goblet of Fire and settled down for the long haul, I really wasn't expecting anything beyond what Rowling had offered before. I was looking forward to seeing (reading?) old characters, the continuation of plot threads and, possibly, the return of the major villian, Lord Voldemort. And like any fan, I allowed myself to harbor fantasies about how things would turn out if only Rowling understood the needs of her fans. (and seeing a particular, tall dark and sexy wizard man felt very much like a psychical need >;) But of course, I didn't REALLY think that sort of thing would happen. It never does, right? By about 30 pages in, I was a very surprised chica. It turns out that although Goblet of Fire is an official entry in the series, it reads like the best goddamn fanfic ever written. I have no idea how she managed it, but Rowling indulges our wildest fantasies without cheapening her work. Hell, she does more than grant our wishes - she soars beyond them. It's been half a day since I finished, and I'm still reeling from the shock. And as if that wasn't enough, she bowled me over with another surprise: Harry isn't the only thing getting older. The tone of this book is much more adult, more complicated and intriguing, than any of the others. It seems that as Harry and his friends mature over the years, the way in which their stories are told will mature as well. And since I'm an evil brat who doesn't care about these being intended for children..... MUahaHaHahaha.... >;} so....dammit, if you haven't started on these books, get your ass in gear and READ. Chances are that if you enjoy my site, you're the sort of person who'd love this series. *sighs dreamily* Oh, and my HP site is up....check out the last blah for the URL....NEEEEEED content....

7/7/00,9:43AM Url of the Blah: http://pages.nyu.edu/~amw243 I'm feeling kinda overwhealmed this morning...this has continued to be an insane roller-coaster of a summer, and last night was one of those heart-in- your-throat dips... ...sort of.... This isn't really the place to get into details (particularly since there is no such thing as a "status quo" in my life at this point, and chances are the whole mess will change again the minute I try to pin it down in words) but...suffice it to say that it's been a learning experience. And what have I learned? That little hurts at the present are better than risking big hurts later on. That really good friends are a rare thing, and shouldn't be trifled with. That good things are worth waiting for, even if you're not really sure they'll ever come. And that I have REALLY lousy timing...but like I said, we won't get into it... Today's link is to something that makes me happy - my Harry Potter site-in-progress. Because tonight, I'm not gonna slump around my living room with a tub of ice cream feeling sorry for myself. I'm going to drive down to the cape with my good buddy Carla, pick up my very own copy of the new Harry Potter book, and spend the rest of the weekend with my best friend and a much-anticipated literary experience. Luv you guys...peace ^_^

6/28/00,9:20AM Url of the Blah: http://www.sacrednipple.co.za/ Today's link is to a site called "Sacred Nipple." The name alone makes it worthy of being linked to in my mind, but if you're looking for actual content they have that, too. African (and not-so- African) fonts. I freakin LOVE fonts. >;} As is evidenced by the time that's passed since I last posted in here, June's been a damn busy month. Busy not only in the sense that I've spent many hours working on various professional and personal projects, spending time with my family on cape cod, and hanging out with various friends....but also in the sense that, well....as much as things changed for me over the past school year, it seems like an entirely new set of changes have been creeping their way in unnoticed. Some changes are easily defined and pointed out - like moving to New York, going to college, making an entirely new set of friends, even buying a new computer. I KNOW these things affected me in all sorts of ways and on many levels, and even if I can't readily explian precisely how I've changed, it's obvious that a change did, indeed, occur. But these past few months since I've gotten back....I dunno......I'd expected to spend my summer recovering from Freshman year, basking in the familiarity of home and sort of settling down into a comfortable place until September. But now, it seems as if the personal evolution never really stopped....or even slowed down, for that matter. It just got quieter and sneakier, making tiny little adjustments as I subconciously dealt with issues I didn't even know I had. The whole mess with Bill, working at Zentropy Partners, connecting with friends from school, even dealing with my family....it's like I'm finishing whatever it is I started way back at the end of last summer. Like I'm finally arriving at the place I need to be at before charging into another year. I don't know if this makes sense, but...ah well...I write these things for myself as much as anything else. *laffs* The funny thing is, despite all of this change, I really don't think that I seem any different to the rest of the world. I feel like a completely different person than I was a year ago, but to the rest of you, well...I'm prolly jus the same ol' Ali. ;P Ah well. I'm going to go get some actual work done, now. wheeeeee

6/16/00,3:35PM Url of the Blah: http://alison.wyvernweb.com/movies/keiko_T1.mov It actually happened. My animation final is on da net. Thus, the link of the day: Ali's first serious attempt at making something move, all 30 seconds of it. YES!!!! *dances* Just so ya know, the last part looks different because I never actually got around to animating it - those are just the storyboards, shot at like 12 frames per second. But they look so COOL!!! The whole thing is just....AHHH!! I'm so proud of me =^ _^= Man, today's turning out pretty freakin well. It's actually HOT outside, after days of clouds and rain; the aformentioned animation is finally where y'all can see it; Carla brought me back a working CROSSBOW from Germany; and after work, a bunch of us are headed into Copley Square to watch Titan A.E. WOOOO!!!!!! *g* K...gotta run...there's still work-type things to do...and I have to watch Matias to make sure he doesn't kill anyone with my crossbow. >;}

6/9/00,2:27PM Url of the Blah: http://www.giantheads.com/ Todays link is to a site one of my work buddies contributes to. Lots o' spiffy Flash goodies! *g* Go to Errata, then click on "Break" - it kicks ass booty. ;} *sniffs* waaaaaaaah, I'm tired!! O_o K, here's the deal. Tuesday night, I was rushing to finish a book and got mayeb five hours of sleep. Wendsday I had my date (gah, it feels wierd to say that!) with Nick and got in around 3:30...then had to get up a little after six. Now, at that point I was pretty damn exhausted. Happy, but DEAD tired. I was literally about to fall over at work, just pitch forward and fall asleep before I hit the ground. Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz- BOOM. Flat on my face. All I wanted to do was get home, curl up in bed and make friendly with my pillow. Alas, it was not to be. Mom's friend had gotten sick unexpectedly, and wasn't going to be able to go with her to a concert in Boston like they'd planned. Which meant Mom had an extra ticket. Which meant that I was her date. And I mean, that's FINE...I like Mom, she's cool, and we're so much alike it's scary. But I was sooooo freakin tiiiiiiiired. And the tickets were for Tina Turner - I don't DISLIKE her, I just don't particularly like her either. Still, wasn't much I could do. So I met her at Quincy Market and headed over to the Fleet Center, concentrating mostly on keeping my balance and forcing my eyes to stay focused. Then, rather unexpectedly, the situation took a turn for the better. Turns out we didn't just have regular ol' tickets. We were in a BOX, to the right and above the stage. Don't know if any of you have ever been in one, but MAN are they cool. There's a seating area with maybe ten or twelve seats in two rows, looking out over the rest of the crowd. Behind them is a wall of sliding glass, and then a smallish room with couches, chairs, a bar of sorts and its own bathroom. Basically just a personal lounge for all the folk in that particular box. But what was REALLY cool about this setup was the food. Lots of food. Cookies, fruit, cheese, crackers, soda, big fat yummy hotdogs with all the fixings and chicken fingers with honey mustard. GOOD STUFF. We even had our own server to set everything up for us. How wicked cool is THAT?! ;} And then the concert started. I'm entirely too tired and out of it to give an adequate description, but needless to say it was pretty amazing. Lionelle Richie performed an hour-long opening act, running around the stage like he was my age again and revving the crowd into a baby- boomer frenzy. His set alone would have been enoug to impress me. But then Tina's main event began. And...woah. I'm still not a huge fan of most of her music, but DAMN does she know how to put on a show. There was a massive, three-level metal ramp/platform that housed the band and provided another surface for Tina and her Solid Gold Dancers to strut their stuff on. There were multiple costume changes, mostly dominated by skin-tight leather and almost non-existant skirts. HUGE video screens, trap doors, pyrotechnics, spectacular lighting effects.....And when she performed the Thunderdome song, she even donned an outfit straight out of Mad Max. All very cool. I'm a sucker for shiney things, synchronized dancing and music so loud it rattles your bones. But unfrotunately, my poor little body just couldn't handle it. Sometime around 11:30, a half- hour before the end of the show, I retreated into the lounge and fell dead asleep on the couch. I don't know how it's physically possible for me to be awake right now. I'm just glad mom's picking me up at the train - I wouldn't want to be behind the wheel right about now. I'd prolly take out a school bus or something. ;}

6/8/00,3:00AM Url of the Blah: http://www.angelcities.com/members/yuzuha Hey, again...*g* Yeah, I know...two blahs in 24 hours...how often does this happen? ;} This evening's link is to Yuzuha's gallery site, a chica who was kind enough to email me the other day. She seems very nice, further proof that MOST people on the net are pretty decent *lafs* and her site is well-worth a visit. In any case..Just wanted to check in for a sec, an let you all know that the friendly get-together I mentioned earlier turned out to be a date. Which went very well. And I tell ya...regardless of what happens now, I had a wonderful time tonight, and that's all that really matters. Maybe it'll go somewhere, maybe it won't....either way, I'm just...happy. And happy is good. ^_- Peace, y'all. Hope your day turned out as well as mine =^_-=

6/7/00,1:46PM Url of the Blah: http://www.iprimus.ca/~dnhicks/ Today's link: wow. An art chica friend of Genn's who I'd never really heard of before....and who kicks major ass booty. *g* Really love her style, so go check it out ^_- *sighs* Y'know, I'm not real easy to piss off. It takes a LOT to get me worked up, particularly when the person isn't physically there, and so it's a rare thing for me to be upset about something on the net. *grumbles* Unfortunately, this morning was one of those times. You ever screw up on something relatively minor, deal with it, suffer through the embarassment and then move on? Only to have some asshole from the past come jumping at you months later, just when you were starting to foget the whole thing? yeah....that's what happened....deal with this guy on ebay fell through, I apologised profusely, he posted negative bitchy feedback, I knew I deserved it and decided to just try harder not to do it again....Simple, right? Straightforward, no big deal, live an let live. So imagine my surprise and supreme pissed-offness when bright an early this morning I get an email from this guy, calling me a jerk and a liar. It even ended with, "Have a nice life, loser." *pulls out the heavy artillery* ARRRRRRGGGGG!!! THESE PEOPLE PISS ME OFF!!! I mean jeez louise, it was just a bunch of comic books!! Don't they have anything BETTER to do with their time?! *tears out clumps of hair and generally carries on* And what REALLY gets to me is that this guy doesn't know me. At all. And he's managed to grossly misinterprit (or just ignore) any spark of myself I've managed to communicate in the handful of emails we exchanged. Those of you who've chatted with me prolly know how rediculously self- depriciating and apologetic I can be, bowing and scraping over the tiniest thing. "I'm so sorry for incoveniencing you, and hope this wasn't too much trouble," I write. "Jerk," says he. And I quietly fume. In any case, it really ISN'T that big of a deal, and I'll most likely ignore any other emails he might send me. I'm just ticked because he dropped an unsightly bit of garbage on my otherwise pristine day. Which I'll tell you about, because I'm sick of being negative and I want to cheer myself up. * laffs* After work, I'm gonna go out an get some chow with a friend from NYU - which kicks ass, because it means a) I get to eat out and b) I get to have happy fun company. WOO. *g* Man, I'm easy to please ^_- *peers out the window* Now, if it'll just stay not-raining for a few more hours...

6/7/00,2:14PM Url of the Blah: http://www.angelfire.com/ma/talulaQ/index.html Today's link is to a site one of my coworkers stumbled upon: some Long Island raver-girl's homepage. *laffs* It's actually pretty cool, lots of photos, even a pic of Rainbow Brite as a rave chick.....not really into this sort of thing, but it's amusing... ;} *thinks plastic beads are cool...wheee* Hmmmmm....*spins up a Propellerheads CD in her discman* Y'know, I'm feelin a bit conflicted this afternoon. Not sure if I've really talked to any of you about the subject, but I tell ya....as much as I prefer to be laid back and non-judgemental about most things, there's one issue in particular that bugs the hell outta me: Drugs. I don't like drgus. I don't do drugs. I don't like other people doing drugs. My personal philosophy is based around the belief that the mind is a sacred thing, the seat of our thoughts and our souls. To mess with your head is to mess with the very thing that makes you you - a concept that, quite frankly, scares me shitless. And there are few things that mess with your head as effectively as drugs, illegal or otherwise. With that said, I'll go on to admit that, well....There are certain lifestyles, trends and traditions in drug-ish culture that are pretty damn cool. Like raves....I REALLY want to go to rave. Nearly everything about rave culture looks incredibly interesting/appealing/spiffy to me....except e. E is a drug, and drugs are bad. Right? Right. And a huge-ass chunk of ravetastic stuff is built around e. Right? Right.....So at the same time I'm oogling all those funky plastic beads and glowsticks, there's a wave of guilt washing over me. Does my approval of all things rave-related mean I'm condoning all the drug- realated shit that goes along with it? When I think, "WOW, that looks freaking awesome..!" am I inadvertantly thinking that drugs are cool, to? AM I!?!?! AHHHHH!!!! *lafs at self* Pathetic, eh? gah, I'm hopeless..... Point being? Not sure...not even sure if I managed to make any sense this time...but hey, it's my party an I'll cry if I want to... (or ramble, in this case ;) *wanders off in search of the land of coherancy*

6/2/00,9:45PM Url of the Blah: http://elfwood.lysator.liu.se/loth/w/i/wilgus2/wilgus2.html It's almost 10, and I'm still at work. The way things are looking now, I think I'm gonna be here a lot longer, too....*sighs* Stranded in Cambridge. Ain't it grand -_- I really hate it when this sort of thing happens. I mean, it's not like it'd be IMPOSSIBLE for me to get home. But it gets to a point where what you'd have to do in order to accomplish something just isn't worth the accomplishment itself. And having my friend's father pick me up, walking home from the commuter rail station (20 minute drive, you do the math) or paying for a cab all seem a little extreme to me. So...I'm here. I'll figure it out. I'll be independant, responsible, all that fun stuff. And maybe, if I'm lucky, things will work out for the best. *small smile* Until then, I've got an empty office to roam around in...and an unlimited supply of free beverages. Whee. *puts up a link, mostly as an afterthought* oooh, lookie..it's my elfwood page....*grins a bit* y'know, I bet that what would REALLY cheer me up is gettin a few new comments....but hey, just a thought.... ;P

5/29/00,1:15AM Url of the Blah: http://medusasnake.8m.com Someone reminded me today how much it royally sucks to be young. How goddamn difficult it is to be 14-or- so-years-old, particularly when the only folks who you can find who share your interests are older...and very far away. Even now that I'm in college, I STILL don't feel entirely comfortable around most people my age - it wasn't so long ago that I was a geeky little Star Trek maniac with glasses and braces. I never felt like anyone understood me...hell, for all I know, they didn't. *sighs* In any case...despite my years as an outcast, sometimes I find myself overlooking folks who're in the same position I used to be. So. Today's link is to the site of a younger friend of mine who's been feeling kinda down and unloved lately. So hey, if you have the time, drop by, maybe send her an email, message her on ICQ, sign her guestbook....just show a little love. Chances are, all of us were where she's at right now at some point. <:} In any case... I am SO psyched about how well the tribute page went over!!!! (for those of ya who haven't seen it, the URL is: http://alison.wyvernweb.com/thanks ) I mean, there were 13 people working on it in total, but I felt personally responsible for how it turned out, for better or worse....these guys really ARE my buds, particularly D*H and Shing, and it was terribly important to me that they got the thanks and love and showering of gifts they deserved!! Just want them to be happy, dammit... *sniffs* Fortunately, judging from the reactions of our newbie buds, our mission was accomplished. ;} WOOO!!! WE ROCK!!! *hugs all the awesome oldie artists that helped her out* I still can't believed we all managed to get coordinated....we're usually lucky to have time to answer each other's emails!! ^_- *yawns* yay, tired and therefore becoming incoherant..... *g* K, I PROMISE I'm going to update soon...REALLY!!! I mean, now that the tribute's done, I'll actually have time!! *looks sheepish* Course, I always say the exact same kinda thing right before I put it off for another month, but...heh....yeah... *looks around at her thoroughly unconvinced audiance* No, really!! I'm gonna do it!!!!

5/23/00,9:05AM Url of the Blah: http://hammer.prohosting.com/~aaacad/tutorial/tutdir.html *looks down* whoops....eh...sorry about all the long, babbling, self-indulgent posts...it's before noon, and I'm not entirely awake... ;P *throws up another random link* Tutorials...yay.... *wanders off*

5/23/00,8:45AM Url of the Blah: http://members.xoom.com/_XMCM/imagcentral/ Today's link is to Imaginator Central, the spiffilicious online gallery of Sara Berkley. And WHY, you might be wondering, did I decide to do this? Because she KICKS ASS, that's why!!!! Y'know the link I posted earlier, to that winamp skin noone could get to work? WELL, Sara was nice enough to FIX IT!!! She cleaned up the code, reformatted the pictured an re-zipped the file, so now..*g* Apparantly, it works!! The link's farther down on the page, in the entry for 5/4/00 =^_-= (THANKS SARA!! YOU ROCK!) Soooooo...yeah... ;} Getting into it There's something I've been thinking about a lot this past week or so....Those of you who've gotten email from my nyu account might remember that li'l quote in my signature file - "There's reality..there's fiction....and there's me." Not sure if any of you ever gave it any thought, but it actually explains quite a lot about me. My suspension of dissbelief is instantanious and all-encompassing. Whatever the movie, television show, book, whatever that my attention is directed at, I will immediately accept the reality of the world it creates. It takes a LOT for me to sit back and say, "huh...well, I dunno, that was a little hard to swallow..." For example: While watching George of the Jungle for the umpteenth time with some friends, they complained bitterly about magically appearing sneakers and toucans that could fly across the Atlantic. I, however, had never really paid attention to that sort of thing before, and even after they were pointed out to me I didn't particularly care. So George could leave an imprint when he crashed into a tree, so what? I thought, and still think, that it's a clever and hilariously funny movie, and no amount of cartoon physics was going to change that. But my totaly acceptance of fantasy worlds goes beyond that. Even now, at the age of 19, I still get defensive when someone reminds me that my favourite charaters aren't real. "There are no gargoyles!" they chide, "And it doesn't matter if Kira and Odo get together, it's just a matter of what the writers want to do because they're FICTIONAL!" At this point I usally sniff and mumble something about how this person obviously just doesn't understand. No matter how silly a show might be, no matter that a character is animated or costumed, I become thoroughly engrossed. The characters are REAL to me, and the better the story, the more concrete this feeling becomes. I cheered aloud when Daphne and Niles got together on "Frasier." I cried real tears when Mufasa died. I can't keep track of actors half the time, because with only a few exceptions I don't care about them, just the characters they play. On some level, I honest-to-god half-believe that there's a boy named Harry Potter whizing around England somewhere. *sighs* I guess I'm just odd... ^_-

5/18/00,9:50AM Url of the Blah: http://www.halfempty.com/james/ In celebration of the fact that I'll be spending a good part of this summer mucking about with Macromedia Flash and Director, today's link is to a site that...well, it's pretty damn cool. Just poke around, see what there is to see....though I warn ya that the stuff in "Sunday" is a little...er..crude...at times...Steer clear if you're a minor or easily offended ;} PORN! *looks around wildly* ACK!, who said that?! *koffs* Yeah, so...I'm at work. Mostly killing time, because it's only my second day and I don't really have anything to do. *g* NICE setup, though. The CPU I was given is kinda on the ancient side of the G3 line, but I have TWO huge-ass monitors, ethernet, my own phone line, and all sorts of office goodies. *is gonna have to steal the scissors when she leaves* >;} Entertainment I've been watching a lot of movies lately. And strangely enough, almost all of them have been good. It's too early in the morning for me to do a detailed write-up on them all, but at least I can give ya a few little blurbs. ;} The Insider - Made me so anxious that I was physically ill at the end of it. Must see it again. For once, a "based on a true story" film that does history justice. This is the sort of movie that you DON'T want to watch with friends, unless they promise not to talk/move/breathe or in any other way disturb your viewing experience. Yes, it's long (almost three hours) but it never drags. Every minute is there for a reason. Masterfully shot and scored, with a plot that's thoroughly engrossing and delightfully flawed characters that you GENUINELY care about. Best when watched alone on a sleepless night. Bring blankets - no matter how warm it is outside, you'll still feel chilled. Gladiator - When I walked out of the theater, my first thought was, "THIS is why I'm in film school. THIS is why I want to make movies." A film that's at once horrifyingly violent and almost painfully beautiful. Gorgeous. Stunning! The visuals are incredible, so flawlessly executed that even after a second viewing I'm not entirely sure what was real and what wasn't. The music is the sort that stirs your soul, that makes you linger in the emptying theater as the credits roll. And the story....I don't care what some folks have said, I loved it. It's simple, yes, but it's supposed to be. This is a movie about a man, a character, not an intricate plot. Perfectly cast, perfectly filmed, perfectly scored....just wonderful. The first film in a long while whose beauty made me cry. annnd...I think that's enough for now....maybe, if I'm feeling filmy (or if somebody convinces me), I'll continue later ;} *wanders off feeling strangely fulfilled*

5/16/00,1:30AM Url of the Blah: http://www.redgo.com today's link...I like this site. Lewis is da man. 'Nuff said. *deep breath* wow. Has this week been a trip. To start off, wanna let y'all know I'm not with Bill anymore. Turns out we were after different things...and I'll just leave it at that. In any case, I'm not particularly bothered by it. Sure, I was pissed off for a day or two, but since then....I guess I'm just a little sad. And a little dissappointed. But hey, whatever. I'm being totally honest when I say I'm happier now than I was a week ago. I'm busy, my friends are all getting out of school, work starts this week and I have a date on Wendsday. Life is good. ^_^ As for what I've been up to...man oh MAN....I can't tell ya what I've been workin on yet, but it's quite a handful....if all goes well, though, I'll be wrapping things up within a week or so. Then, my friends, I shall update. And a grand and glorious update it will be. ;}

5/9/00,7:35PM Url of the Blah: http://myst.org/kanthara Today's link is to Kanthara's oh-so-fabulous website. Not ONLY is she a kick-ass art chica, but she just surprised me this INCREDIBLE picture of Keiko!!! WOOOOOOOOOO!!!! *gets out her sketchpad for a little retribution ;)* Anyways...sorry, I haven't been around, lately. *g* It's been a little nuts around here O_o It took three hours to move out of my dorm. Three hours of packing up boxes, covering computer parts in bubble wrap, trying to remember which videos were mine and emptying out drawers. And of course, lugging all of this from the 11th floor to street level and into mom's trunk. -_- Naturally, the first thing I did when I got to Boston was set up my Macintosh. *laffs* Saturday morning I went out and bought a modem and a 100' phone cord...I HATE AOL, but my family can't deal with a normal ISP....miss having ethernet like crazy, but at least I can check my email :P I've had a pretty good time since then, all things considered. I mean, most of my friends aren't back from school yet, so there isn't a whole lot to do, but I've managed to fill the hours will all my various "projects". ^_- As you've prolly figured out, the update got put off once again...I've decided that I want to coordinate a few things, and so the update's gonna have to wait until everything else is ready. * grins secretively* Soon, my darlings....very soon... >;}

5/5/00,1:12PM Url of the Blah: http://alison.wyvernweb.com/movies/music/lion_mix.mp3 Today's link is to yet another sound image project of mine.....except in this one, I don't sing. * laffs* I guess you'd call this a remix of "Lioness Hunt" on the "Lion King" Broadway musical soundtrack - there are something like six tracks, and just about everything you hear aside from the basic chant is something I added or messed with. Took stuff from all over...there are bits from Moby, Japanese Kodo drummers, the Tarzan soundtrack, Gershwin, Stomp....and quite a few others, I'm sure. Enjoy! It's only about 2 minutes, so it won't take long to download ^_^ Allrighty folks...this is my last post from New York City for a while, and the very last post from Brittany Residence Hall on 10th Street. As of 3 hours from now, I'll be packing my worldly possessions into mom's SUV and driving back up to Boston. Mind, I have NO clue where I'm gonna put all this stuff....Being an artists, a computer geek, a music lover and a filmmaker and a general packrat means you aquire massive ammounts of STUFF wherever you go. *looks around her little dorm* And man...this is a LOT more than what I came with.... O_o But really, the thing I'm most nervous about is moving my poor widdle computer....and YES, widdle applies to my huge monitor, because I SAY it does...*pats it affectionately* I'm so nuerotic about my Mac!!! And it's little friends, too. We wrapped it up in blankets to bring it here....but didn't have a scanner, printer, wacom tablet and speakers when I moved in. *wraps her poor computer in a protective embrace* Don't worry, baby...I won't let anyone hurt you.... <:P *looks around again* And the CD tower....and the posters...and the video collection...*sighs wearily* This is gonna be a looooooooong day -_-

5/4/00,3:01PM Url of the Blah: http://alison.wyvernweb.com/goodies/skins/phinidae.zip Still reeling from Billy Joel....actually listened to some of the album he was promoting today - a recording of his millenium concert this past new years - and I actually started crying when he sang "2000 years" right before the countdown....*sniffs* Gah, I'm so pathetic <:} Not that I haven't been productive, too! Today's link is to my very first winamp skin!! WOOO!! * bounces around* Aimee couldn't get it to work, but I'm hoping the problem was on her end...if any of y'all have problems, make sure to let me know, OK? ^_- Also, spent about 6 hours finishing stuff up for Sound Image...I'll have a bunch of new projects in the next update for you guys to amuse yourselves with....prolly tomorrow, want to get it done BEFORE I take my computer home... :P *shudders at the thought of moving her 19' monitor* O_o

5/3/00,2:11AM Url of the Blah: http://www.redmoonstudios.com Today's link - D*H's site! She's been updating a lot, lately, so check it out....I don't think this chica gets the attention and praise she deserves..... ;} *takes a long, deep breath* My God. This has been one hell of a day. I'll start with the good bits, and then see what happens....not really sure where this is gonna go..... A handshake When I was very small, I didn't know very much about popular music. I knew what songs I liked, and most of the words to them (or some childish approximaiton, anyway) but the names of the artists were wholly beyond me. Except for one tape. The one tape that lived in my mom's grey volvo station wagon and was so frequently played that it had to be replaced every year or so. Billy Joel's "Glass Houses" - my favourite album to this day, and what proved to be the beginning of a lifelong devotion. As cheesey as it sounds, Billy's music was literally the soundtrack of my life, his work so much a part of me that I honestly can't imagine myself without it. Today, several thousand fans went to the Tower Records on 66th and Broadway, bought a copy of Billy's latest album, and then stood in line for a chance to meet the man himself. For six hours, I sat on the sidewalk in a skit and tank top, reading "The Fellowship of the Ring" and trying not to think about how cold I was and how sharp the pavement felt beneath my bare ankles. We almost didn't make it. The small group I'd "bonded" with over the course of the afternoon was the last to be allowed inside. At least 400 people were still outside, and there I was, gripping a CD case in one hand and a cheap polyester pillow (bought partway through the long wait) in the other. I'd spent the past few days trying to figure out what I wanted to say. What I would do, how I would act. But when I stepped into the small room at the head of the stairs, and saw my childhood hero beaming back at me, all my careful planing fluttered away. I handed his assistent the booklet from my CD. Billy signed it with his silver pen, then looked up and handed it back with a weary but still warm smile. My eyes wide and tears threatening, I asked in a tiny voice, "Can I shake your hand?" "Of course you can!" he laughed, and gave my trembling fingers a hearty squeeze. "Thank you," I whispered, refferring to far more than that small moment of contact. Then my turn was over, and I slowly walked away. I shook hands with Billy Joel. And even now, hours later, my head is still reeling. Because he wasn't just another celebrity...it was if I was meeting my best and oldest friend for the first time. regrets....? Someone sent me an email tonight that affected me very deeply. And I feel something needs to be said, about him and about what he wrote, despite the fact that few of you have any clue who he is. For most of this past school year, I was seeing someone on a semi-regular basis. His name is T.J., and he was someone I'd worked with during the summer. He was also much older than me, and for that and various other reasons things didn't go as well as they could have. We both made mistakes, circumstances became increasingly difficult, and in the end we went our seperate ways. He wrote me tonight. I won't tell you what the letter was mostly about, but there was one thing he pointed out that made me feel very sad. He wrote that I had never - not once - mentioned him on this page. That as far as most of my friends were concerned, he didn't exist. Which wasn't fair of me, at all. I'm with Bill now, and I have no intention to change that. But....TJ? If you're reading this? I'm sorry, hon.

5/2/00,4:54AM Url of the Blah: http://www.sinfest.net Today's link is to this REALLY COOL online comic I ran into a while back. I absolutely LUV this guy's style and character design, the comics themselves are usually hilarious...or at least amusing. *g* Despite the title, it really isn't that bad....make sure to check out all the old strips! ;} Sorry I haven't been keeping up with this...it's been horrifically busy around here, lately. Going home on Friday, and there's SO much to do before then. <:P Look for anoter update soon....I have a few pics I want to finish beforehand, but it's coming =^_^=

4/25/00,12:50AM Url of the Blah: http://alison.wyvernweb.com/temp/moo k....not much to say right now, cuz I'm TIRED...but I want all of you to check out the temp/moo directory....*grins* Wonderful, loverley Mr. Chris Rogers (the God of Wyvernweb) helped me fix the problem with the icons...MUAHAHAHAHA... >;} (LUV YOU CHRIS!!!)

4/23/00,5:47PM Url of the Blah: http://missy.reimer.com/merlin.html Happy Easter everyone!! =^_^= I'm not a religious person. Spiritual, yes, but that's not the same thing. I have no beef with God, but some of his followers kinda make me uncomfortable. Though I have been raised in a Christian household, the whole organized religion thing just never clicked with me....Maybe, someday, it will. Only time will tell... But regardless of all that, I freakin LOVE Easter! We New England folk are very into the whole holiday thing, and my family is no exception. Every year I get dragged off to church. (I wore all black this year and acted all New Yorki-ish, which made me feel a little better >;) Every year we dye eggs, make a big dinner, give easter baskets to all the neighborhood kids, sit around and watch movies and eat candy. Every year my sister and I get stuffed animals in our baskets. (Eyore this time around...YAY!!) And every year we have an easter egg hunt. I LOVE easter egg hunts. This ain't no pansy-ass "find some bright red eggs on the front lawn" sort of thing, either...My mom and step dad each pick two rooms. They hide 12 real eggs and 12 plastic ones with dollar bills in them. And then Kim and I go to it. *laffs* But see, this year I got the Glenn (stepdad) rooms. And Glenn is MEAN....he hides eggs in little secret corners you'd NEVER thing of....took me like a half-hour to find them all....there was one in a guitar case, a few under the couch cushions, another in the fireplace...places where no egg should be. But I found them all, so we won't have any funny smells comming from the living room this summer. ;} SO now....we're pretty much done with our celebrations. But my night is FAR from over. At around 8:30, I'm hookin up with Bill and going to me first Role Playing game. Gonna have to draw my charater...she's a were-cat named Zingala...very cool...=^_-= *** Today's link: Merlin Missy's website!! Check out the "Idyls of the Wizard," especially....I tell ya, this page is just PACKED with cool stuff! Worth at least a few hours of exploring ^_-

4/20/00,6:10AM Url of the Blah: http://www.amazon.com/exec/obidos/ASIN/B000035Z50/ref=v_vh_b_3/002-1823924-3281837 yo...it's like six in the morning. Except for me it's reeeeeelly late at night, because I had a 4AM editing slot at Tisch. In fact, I'm in the Sound Post Production office right now (I work here, so I get to play with the computer...wheeee ^_^) after spending three hours working on my final project....and I'm tired. Very tired. And not terribly coherant, if you haven't already noticed. woooooo Today's link features something I think each and every animation buff out there should own - collector's edition Tarzan DVDs! YEAH BABY!!! * grins a tired yet excited sort of grin* This thing has more shit on it (it's my blah, I can swear if I want to...shitshitshitshit.. >;) than I know what to do with...it's CRAZY...rough animation, production art, music, interviews, explanations, lost scenes, the WORKS...kicks some mighty seriuos ass. And you can buy it on Amazon.com for an extremely reasonable price, I might add.. ;} Sooooo...*sighs* Today will be a good day. My long-ass class has been canceled. I have animation tonight, and from about 2PM onward I get to work on my final anim project as much as I want to....quality time with Keiko an all that...and then, at the end of this seemingly endless day, I will get on a bus and go home to my family and my boyfriend and my nice...warm....bed.... only..*checks watch* 16 hours to go....yep, I can do this.

4/19/00,1:19PM Url of the Blah: http://pages.nyu.edu/~amw243/ I will, eventually, do something with this page... *points to the link* As soon as school gets out and I have my life back, I'll get to work on it...REALLY!! *laffs* In the meantime, I'm accepting ideas and submissions and such, so lemme know if ya have anything ^_^ I'm am SO tired. Jus plum tuckered out. Animated about three seconds this afternoon, and it took a lot outta me....so I'm entirely too exhausted to say anything intelligent here... <:P Two days until I go home. Just two days....

4/18/00,12:00AM Url of the Blah: http://alison.wyvernweb.com/temp/bad_day.jpg Ugh...today was just MISERABLE.....thus, the link above... :P Honestly, I really TRIED to make the best of it! I did a lot of drawing at work, I listened to happy music, I watched the TitanAE trailer AGAIN...but then I'd go outside and remember that it was miserable and wet and cold and just HORRID.....And the TAs on the animation floor were mean to me....and I was on my feet for six hours...and...bah...*sighs* But I'm ok, really...the drawing helped. *lafs* And my special edition Tarzan DVD shipped today. And I go home for Easter this weekend. So methinks it'll all work out just fine. ;}

4/17/00,2:55AM Url of the Blah: http://alison.wyvernweb.com/temp/moo/alec_keiko.jpg Today's link....*g* I don't know, just think they make an AWEfully cute couple... ^_^ I'm so tired...I can't wait until school's over and I can get back on a normal schedual. As much as I love living in New York, it wreaks havoc on your bio clock - half the time my day doesn't really get started until 6PM or so, and then I'm up and about (or on my ass in front of this computer, at least) until the wee hours of the morning. Not good. It's funny, huh? You spend your child years trying to wheedle your way into staying up late and sleeping in. And now here I am, trying to stop finding things to do at 4AM and hoping I'll be able to drag myself out of bed before noon.... At least I've been drawing. More than usual. Drawing makes everything better, after all...and I feel like productive human being, instead of lazy ass ;P Which reminds me....gotta work on gift/trade pics...yep yep yep....

4/14/00,3:14AM Url of the Blah: http://www.adcritic.com/ Today's link is to one of my fave site on the web, AdCritic.com. Want to find all those really cool Gap commercials? Ever wonder where they got the music for that car ad? This place is da BOMB.... and now...Ali's thoughts for the day.... Y'know, I really hate being angry with people. ACTIVELY disliking them. It's just not worth it. So much time and energy wasted on someone who, usually, doesn't particularly care. For most of this past semester, I've been dwelling on this one kid in my Writing Workshop class. I couldn't STAND him - he was arrogant, obnoxios, and condecending, and to top it all off he insulted my abilities as a Mac user. (which, as some of you already know, it the lowest of blows.) In my eyes, he had absolutely no redeaming qualities. It got to the point where I couldn't eat breakfast with my other friends from class, because he'd tag along with him. Just being at the same table with him for that long was enough to ruin my morning. Tonight, tho...tonight, we ran into him at the Cozy, a diner around the corner. And as I was sitting there, ready to start dwelling on how horrible the little troll is, I realized something. It just wasn't worth it. He's a film student, I'm going to be around him for the next three years. Why make things difficult for myself, when there are so many other things to worry about? So when he walked by and looked my way, I looked up at him. And I could just SEE in his eyes what a bitch he thought I was. And I could feel him bringing out the worst in me. But I didn't glare. I didn't pretend I hadn't seen him. No....I smiled. And I waved. As if he was just some guy from class. An let me tell ya.....it was a relief. *sighs and smiles a bit* Soo...that's one problem out of the way...now I just have to deal with the fact that I've been stuck in my LAST CHOICE for a dorm next year....in chinatown.....a half-hour's walk away from campus.... yeah ;P

4/12/00,2:23PM Url of the Blah: http://alison.wyvernweb.com/temp/moo/as.mp3 There's music that you dance to. There's music you dream to, and music that you draw to. There's music for driving, for walking, for working. And then there's music that grooves right down inside you, with a beat that you feel in your bones and a chorus that stays with you for hours. The sort of music that lifts you out of your seat and onto your feet no matter how tired you might be. This...*points to today's link*...is that kind of music. George Michael and Mary J. Blige in a duet that defies description. So take a few minutes, guys an gals - download the file, open your MP3 player, and share in the audio glow. Feel the groove and feed your soul. ^_^ "As now can't reveal the mystery of tomorrow But in passing will grow older everyday Just as all that's born is new You know what I say is true That I'll be loving you always Until the rainbow burns the stars out of the sky < br> Until the ocean covers every mountain high Until the day that 8 times 8 times 8 is 4 Until the day that is the day that are no more" Love you guys...catch ya tomorrow ^_-

4/5/00, 1:33AM Url of the Blah: http://www.studio-zoe.com/wendy GAH...I forgot paragraph tags again...d'oh...

4/5/00, 1:33AM Url of the Blah: http://www.studio-zoe.com/wendy Today's link...Wendy Comix!! YAY!!! *dances* Iz funny ;} gah, I've been bad about this for the past few days.....was out of the room a LOT, since my mom was visiting...ah well ^_- Big News o' the Day: It turns out I can actually ANIMATE! WOO!!! *g* I'm horribly self-critical, and I don't think anything I've done looks quite right...but this evening, after I'd been animating for about four hours, I asked one of the teachers if he could take a look at what I'd finished...and he only had one problem with it, concerning how I moved the lef arm. This, after watching him tear apart his own students a few minutes before. He liked the wieght of my character, the way her hair moved and followed-through, the way I made her tail swished...he just really LIKED it....and so did everyone else peeking over my shoulder...and it just boggled my mind... I still think I have LIGHT YEARS to go before I'm at the level I'm aiming for, but still....the encouragement was nice ^_^ Can't wait to finish this so I can show you guys!! EEE!!

4/1/00, 2:05PM Url of the Blah: http://cgi.ebay.com/aw-cgi/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&item=296541573 Guess who's selling art on eBay again? *g* Today's link is to my second auction...check it out, eh? ^_- Eep...missed a couple days... *g* Well, at least now I have something to talk about... ;} The Road to El Dorado. Saw it last night, and I have to say, I was a little dissappointed. If you've seen it yourself, you might know what I'm talking about - though the first half was wonderful, somewhere in the last hour there was a sudden shift, and the film lost its focus. Apparantly, Dreamworks had some serious production problems....BIG changes in the story were made after the film was already half-finished. Whole sections had been animated and couldn't be changed, and they ended up having to work around finished scenes that had nothing to with the new plot... *sighs* Can kinda tell.... :P See, THIS is the sort of thing that makes me want to be a producer or a director. Films, particularly animated ones, need someone at the helm who keeps everything together, making sure no one loses sight of the central vision. With so many hundreds of people involved, the most important thing is that they be unified, all working toward the same goal. *blinks* K, enough rambling for today

3/30/00, 12:59AM Url of the Blah: http://alison.wyvernweb.com/temp/moo/moxy.mp3 Today's link is to the Sound Image assignment I finished this afternoon...*g* Ever wonder what I sound like? This is my vocalization project - me singing all the parts of a Moxy Fruvous song. It's about 1.6 megs, nothing huge...kinda fun...and mostly on-key.. ;} I hate it when I spend the entire afternoon napping. Not only do I loose half my day, AND feel horribly guilty and lazy once I finally wake up.....I also end up having to stay up all hours of the night getting my work done...GAH... *chuckles* My roomies are being siiiiillly....Kate was going to sleep on the floor, since her mattress has been making her back hurt...But Allison (yes, there are two of us O_o) insisted that they trade beds instead....and now they're....bouncing....or something....*laffs* Yeah, they're muggles, but they're still cool ^_- K...gotta work....if I get my work done, I can listen to more of my Harry Potter tapes....YES....

3/28/00, 5:14PM Url of the Blah: http://alison.wyvernweb.com/temp/moo/mardi.jpg K....PLEASE lemme know what you think of today's pic....I set out to do something a little more challenging/detailed with my Trias, and it ended up taking ages.....*g* Lots of pretty colors, if nothing else =^_-= One month until school's over. ONE MONTH. *sighs dreamily* Course, until then I'll be running aroudn like a mad woman, but hey... ;} At least I have interesting things to do....writing an essay on The Matrix as a modern myth, transcribing a few hilariously funny skits from "A Prarie Home Companion" for my Sound Image radio play, starting on a second try at my storyreel (he didn't like the last one :P) and...well...k, so the 4-page listening project isn't great, but I'll deal -_- Have any of you read the Harry Potter books? you should, they're fantastic...anyways, there's a word in there that I particulraly love: Muggles. J.K. Rowling's word for non-magical folk. I think I'm going to have to start using that word. "Mudanes" is getting a little boring, and I need to have SOMETHING to call all the dreadfully boring people I'm forced to deal with....MUAHAhaa.... >;}

3/27/00, 3:48PM Url of the Blah: http://dwp.bigplanet.com/vnavone/home/ Today's site is the home of the "Alien Song" video that's been circulating recently...if you haven't seen, it involves a male, cross-dressing alien lip synching to "I Will Survive"...DAMN funny stuff, and the rest of the work on his site is awesome, too...*G* HE just landed a job at pixar!! YAY FOR HIM!! =^_-= Bill the BOyfriend™ is here with me, watching intently as I type...jsut finised styling my hair...haven't had the courage to go find a mirror, yet.... ;} Sorry I didn't write yesterday....I was too busy watching the Oscars! (I AM a film student, folks...) 'Twas very cool, but as far as I'm concerned, the highlights were Robin Williams singing "Blame Canada" (just after my mom commented on how mature and simple this years musical bits were...HEEH...) and "The Matrix" trouncing "Star Wars" in all the categories they were both nomiated for...YAY WACHOWSKI BROS.!!!! KICK ASS!!! *does a little dance of victory* Eh...I wanna be Trinity when I grow up... ^_^

3/25/00, 11:02PM Url of the Blah: http://www.redrival.com/brainschloop/ Shing updated her site! Wheeee!! *G* Luv the pic of chibi-demmie she drew for MGC....gah, he style kicks so much ass! Kinda gritty and beautiful at the same time ^_^ Realized I forgot to use HTML tags in the last post...thus the big-ass paragraph...whoops, ehe...*baffs self* I am SO GLAD I decided to come home this weekend...it's been so relaxing! Spent some quality time with Bill, lounged around watching TV (the problem with having mundane roomies - you NEVER get to watch cartoons :P) and started this REALLY COOL Tria drawing....gah, I can't wait to show you guys! It's almost done...I'm just debating over whether or not I should ink it, or just leave it as-is.....*sighs* Decisions, decisions.... ;} It's not ever midnight, but I think I'm gonna turn in. I'm not sure when, but sometime between High School and this weekend sleeping ceased to be a bother and became a cherished luxary. *yawns* ^_- Luv you guys! Go poke around Shing's site, K? ;D

3/24/00 Url of the Blah: http://alison.wyvernweb.com/temp/moo/kitty_hair.jpg Hehe, got kinda antsy in Animation today...just happened to have my markers handy...thus today's URL... ;} This was a good day. LONG, but good. The midterm was far easier than I'd thought it would be, my classes were unusually laid back and I had all my work done, for once, and I FINALLY found roommates for next year! Two really cool folks, Jessica and Meredeth - a film student (with an iMac!!!) and an English major. Methinks this is gonna be fun ^_^ Happy thought of the moment: I'm going home tomorrow morning, and that is SUCH a good thing. I'm one of the few and fortunate who genuinely enjoy going back to visit my family as well as my friends. I really LIKE my family....we have fun together, and they give me the strength to survive NYU. Apparantly this isn't the norm for people my age.....I feel lucky to be an exception to the rule =^_-= *yawns* ack, tired, need to finish plowing through the junk on top of my bed and go to SLEEP.... *hugs all those who bother to read this thing* laters!

3/22/00, 10:58PM Url of the Blah: http://rinkworks.com/stupid/ Today's featured site: Computer stupididies. Some people are just dumb ^_- K....only a bit more than 24 hours before I go home again...one more day of class....I can DO IT!! YAH!! *laffs* Yah, my Sound Image teacher is evil, but I'll deal.. ;} Guess who finished her stoooory reel!! *bounces* It's not as polished as I would've liked - because of the way it was drawn, the frames were impossible to line up, and I ran out of steam towards the end - but still...cool!! Set to music an everything!! And since I FINALLY got MediaCleaner working, I've gotten it compressed down into reasonable chunks... 10 Meg version: (puuuurdy and sounds good) http://alison.wyvernweb.com/movies/reel_small.mov 1.6 Meg version: (the audio and moving bits suck ass) http://alison.wyvernweb.com/movies/reel_tiny.mov Lemme know what you think, k? *g* =^_^= *goes to study...ick...*

3/21/00, 3:08PM Url of the Blah: http://www.ihatebillgates.com/mscars.html The link is to a particularly cool anti-Microsoft joke...sure most folks have already seen it, but it's funny as hell.. ^_- Feeling a little better today after some sleep and a conversation with my Writing Workshop teacher...turns out I haven't dug myself as deep as I'd feared. *g* It seems I may actually survive this week....WOOO... At the moment, what's most worrying me is where the heck I'm gonna live next year. After visiting the NYU housing fair this afternoon, I've realized that not only do I know practically nothing about what the various dorms are like.....I also have no clue which one to choose. I can't live in the same residence hall I'm in this year becuase it's primarily for Freshman. I'll prolly be in an apartment-style dorm (ie it has multiple bedrooms and its own kitchen and bathrooms) way off in the middle of nowhere...but there are three to choose from, and..and...The deadline for housing forms is Friday, and I'm leaving that morning. Yikes!! O_O *deep, calming breath* HEhe, yah...so...*g* Not much else to say, I guess....gonna work on my storyboards, maybe some writing....go to bed on TIME for once...*checks watch* ACK!! And RUN to class.....

3/20/00, 8:38PM Url of the Blah: http://alison.wyvernweb.com/images/alison/misc/silly.jpg eep..hehe....the "silly" pic link below doesn't work...but this one should be ok.. -_-

3/20/00, 7:34PM Url of the Blah: http://www.cruel.com *looks up at the link* So I'm feeling a little bitchy today...sue me.. ;P I am SO screwed.....mountains of Writing Workshop to catch up on tonight, and I'm already getting tired....not to mention the 10-page screenplay, the 4-page listening assignment, the storyreel, the pendulum animation, the sound image projects, and the three or so movies that I need to watch for Storytelling Strategies. Most of which has to be done by Thursday...or earlier...wooo... *sighs* On the "up" side of things...*laffs* Ali's got a BOY-friend.....smoochie smoochie!!! *g* Seriously, tho, his name's Bill, he lives 10 minutes from my house in MA, he's ALMOST as href="http://alison.wyvernweb.com/images/alison/ misc/silly.jpg">silly as I am, and he bought me a stuffed bunny rabbit. SCORE!!!! >:} Gonna update soon...Really, I promise!! HONEST!!