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Lisa
| Name: | Anna |
| Where do you live?: | Elsewhere in the USA |
| E-mail address: | someone@someplace.com |
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| What would you like to tell us?: | I have had 3 abortions in my lifetime. The first one was at age 15, the next at age 18, and then at age 22. I can honestly say I had no idea what I was doing at age 15. By 18 I knew it was "bad", but was still pretty clueless. Even so, I had nightmares and became suicidal. At 22 I definitely knew what was going on - and was told by my boyfriend that he'd throw me out if I didn't abort our child. I'd been homeless before, and I was frightened enough that I believed him. That was over 20 years ago - and to this day I wish I'd slapped him and walked out... I will never stop regretting that "un-choice" - I will always miss my children. |
| Name: | BM |
| Where do you live?: | Elsewhere in the USA |
| E-mail address: | b4life@excerptsofinri.com |
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| Homepage URL: | http://www.excerptsofinri.com/tilly.html |
| What would you like to tell us?: | Hi there are many ways of couping with the termination of a Child of God. Tilly is A Message of HOPE and healing and forgiveness, its a heartwarming story based on a true story. http://www.excerptsofinri.com/tilly.html |
| Name: | Virginia Farley |
| Where do you live?: | Amherst Area |
| E-mail address: | vfarley328@aol.com |
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| What would you like to tell us?: | very good info. |
| Name: | Tina Stewart |
| Where do you live?: | Berkshires |
| What would you like to tell us?: | thanks for all the useful information! |
| Name: | BASIL |
| Where do you live?: | Berkshires |
| E-mail address: | BasilM@212.com |
| What would you like to tell us?: | I liked very much your web site. |
| Name: | tiffany |
| Where do you live?: | Elsewhere in the USA |
| E-mail address: | sportytiff01@hotmail.com |
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| What would you like to tell us?: | i am recovering form an abortion that i had a few months ago. it is really hard, i can not sleep and i can't talk to my parents. I hears about project rachel on the radio and from a really good friend. I am struggling with this. I don't know if god had forgave me for killing a soul and it has put alot of my relationdhips on hold. i am really depressed. I would like some help if you could please |
| Name: | tiffany |
| Where do you live?: | Elsewhere in the USA |
| E-mail address: | sportytiff01@hotmail.com |
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| Name: | Margarita |
| Where do you live?: | Other |
| E-mail address: | margarita_h_69@hotmail.com |
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| What would you like to tell us?: | I am 33 years old and have just terminated my first pregnancy. The guilt, shame and grief I am experiencing is like a huge mountain. I have so many regrets, but at the time felt the reasons not to continue with my pregnancy far outweighed those to continue. I have only known the father of my child for 4 weeks, he is seperated with two children and was adamant that I didn't have the baby. He couldn't understand that if I decided to have the baby that it was my choice. I am second year at university and have been doing very well, I don't know how I would have coped with a baby.....but I guess it doesn't matter what your circumstances are we all cope with our lot in life. In my heart of hearts I know that my decision was strongly influenced by what other people would think, which is shallow I know - but it wasn't easy because I would haved loved to have that sweet little angel! I have recently had an ovarian tumour removed and wasn't sure whether I would be able to have children. Now I know...there are so many if onlys, what ifs and I wish with all my heart I could turn back the clock. But I can't turn back now, so I pray for my baby and God's forgiveness. My precious little angel will be in my heart and soul forever....I love you baby and I am so sorry. |
| Name: | Pamela Montelongo |
| Where do you live?: | Elsewhere in the USA |
| E-mail address: | paprn@aol.com |
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| Name: | Carl Lore |
| Where do you live?: | New York |
| E-mail address: | navyboy444@aol.com |
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| Name: | f.fitzgerald |
| Where do you live?: | Berkshires |
| E-mail address: | ffitz@erols.net |
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| Name: | C D |
| Where do you live?: | Elsewhere in the USA |
| E-mail address: | compcutie@worldnet.att.net |
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| What would you like to tell us?: | Here is my story. I just turned 36 on December 21. I am married with one precious 14yr old son from a previous marriage. WHen i first got married to my current husband 5 years ago, i wanted to have one more child, but my husband said "HELL NO"!! My 14yr old son stays with his father as i lost custody of him years ago, because i was 19 very young, naive, and didn't know my rights. 5 years ago i tried to fight to get custody with no avail.., colorado custody laws are very tough to beat according to the SEVERAL lawyers i consulted with. So i lived for the weekends to sometimes see my son, (when my ex feels like it). So we all know the torture for a mother to not have her child all the time. To not know if he's warm, hungry, happy, and safe. Even now, when he goes back to his dad after the holidays and weekends, i feel VERY empty and sad. I found out on this Christmas Eve that i was pregnant. I was in SHOCK, disbelief, and cried all nite as i wrapped gifts, and i know every christmas i will be reminded of how i felt that nite. The pregnancy was the result of a man i I love and have been seeing since August. So here i was pregnant, married, and with another man's child, not from my husband which never has sex with me. ....It's amazing how things just rapidly progress when pregnant, and i felt "time was running out", why did i feel that? **crying** I told my lover and he told me he would love us both, and touched my belly, and it really moved me, but he is very poor. I told my husband, and he told me to get rid of it ASAP or else he would kick me out of the house. So my husband took me to have my abortion on Jan 12, 2002, even driving to the clinic that morning, i pleaded with him for a way to work things out till i could get my own place and a full-time job, but he did not hear anything i said. Me and my lover went earlier on Jan 3rd and we ended up leaving with some homework to make sure of our decision. I am in deep sorrow now, because i feel it was my last chance to have another child, and plus i love the father of the baby. we do sometimes cry together...but i also felt it was a way that God was punishing me for committing adultery. I will never forget Christmases, and still can't stop looking at the Yahoo pregnancy calendar. I have not been able to change my calender to January yet, and still dwelling in december. Babies make me cry, the sound of geese, foods i ate while pregnant and anything else that occurred while i was still pregnant. I know it's been recent and going thru alot of pain. My lover had a sperm test years ago that stated he had a one in million chance of getting anyone pregnant. I also had a some female problems, so I feel that it was somewhat of a miracle baby, that I destroyed. I should break up with my lover and forget him and the pregnancy forever, and live a "perfect" rest of my life with myhusband. To forget it ever happened, because it still seems unreal and too painful. i think of Jan 12th, walking down the hall, i was so high on valium they gave me, and walked as if in a dream. I look at it now and ask myself who was that person walking down that hall, lying on that exam table? listening to the abortion pump running in the next room, KNOWING i'm next. was that really me? My cramps are almost gone, and the HUGE clots are about gone. My breasts are leaking a little still. for all of you out their with previous children already, an abortion is more tough because we remember that precious moment of making the last push, and seeing that childs face for the first time, and its warms little skin against yours. I would do ANYTHING to reverse my decision. So to my baby's face that i will never be able to see, to my baby i just want to say: I'm SO SORRY, sorry i didn't give you a chance. for being a coward, for putting myself first. I'm SORRY for not thinking clearly, and finding out ALL my options more completely. Sorry for avoiding your father for 10 days when i know if i didn't you would still be here. That my little one, i will think of you every christmas and I love you. so goodbye little baby, and please PLEASE FORGIVE ME. I would appreciate anyone with any suggestions and a word of comfort, I was suicidal the first week but getting better. Does getting pregnant again help? I notice that many women become obsessed with concieving again. I didn't think i wanted anymore babies, but now that's all i see in my life. ***xoxoxoxo |
| Name: | amy |
| Where do you live?: | Elsewhere in the USA |
| E-mail address: | swf7121623@yahoo.com |
| Would you like to be on our mailing list? ( We will need your email address): | Send me an email, please, I have a question. |
| What would you like to tell us?: | I am 30 years old am a single mother of 2 other children. I became involved with a man who when I became pregnant ran away and his family told me if I didn't have an abortion he was going to kill his self.So January 4,2002 I had an abortion. I live with this regret every day. I believe God has forgiven me but I will not forgive myself. I would give almost anything to have my baby back.I don't even know if it was a girl or a boy.I am so ashamed of myself and am grieving so much . I don't think this pain will ever end. |
| Name: | mary |
| Where do you live?: | Elsewhere in the USA |
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| What would you like to tell us?: | My name is Mary, and I had my first and last abortion on November 27,2001. I was twenty years old. I just wanted to tell all the woman young or old who think that abortion is the only answer, that there is hope and people who will help you, abortion is not the solution. Pregnant women may think that the pregnancy is a horrible thing and they're frightened, well there's nothing worse than to grieve over the death of child, especially when you caused it. Now I have to go on living my life with this eternal guilt. I have not yet forgiven myself but I have made my peace with God I believe. Now I feel like it's my duty to help others, if I can save one child in this world with my letters, then I know my job has been done. I dedicate this letter to my unborn child in which I have named Hunter! |
| Name: | cloty's mom |
| Where do you live?: | Other |
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| Homepage URL: | http://www.mylittleab0rti0n.com |
| What would you like to tell us?: | abortion isn't always bad. if it wasn't for abortion, I would not have cloty, my precious little angel. please pay him a visit and leave a message in the guestbook that I can read to him. he likes that. thanks, love clotysmom |
| Name: | charity |
| Where do you live?: | Other |
| E-mail address: | mikes_angel8503@hotmail.com |
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| Name: | Maggie McConnell |
| Where do you live?: | New York |
| E-mail address: | allboutu@ascent.net |
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| What would you like to tell us?: | Dreams really do come true. |
| Name: | vicky |
| Where do you live?: | New York |
| E-mail address: | bogart4952@aol.com |
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| What would you like to tell us?: | the art work is exceptional....I especially like #8! Thanks |
| Name: | Fr. Hal |
| Where do you live?: | New York |
| E-mail address: | the.avatar@att.net |
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| Homepage URL: | http://www.cin.org/avatar.html |
| What would you like to tell us?: | Nice Stuff. Fr. Hal/'Tar |
| Name: | Allan Brewster |
| Where do you live?: | Elsewhere in the USA |
| E-mail address: | nationbabyshower@aol.com |
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| Homepage URL: | http://www.geocities.com/nationalbabyshower/index.html |
| What would you like to tell us?: | One day in 1993, I placed my hand on my ex-wife's stomach and said "Jimmy I Love You" and he responded with a kick. The next day he was dead at the hands of his own Mother. You see I was a Daddy the second that my son was concieved.The Lord has been working change in me over the years, but I still have more things to work out.I just got to the point where I can verbally release my son into Jesus' hands. Through everything that I have faced Jesus is the strengh that has gotten me through.I have been abstainent since 1993,hiding from women not wanting anything to do with them.Now the problem is the opposite,I still abstain,but my flesh is pushing me into the desire to prove my manhood.In my heart, I know that sex does not prove anything. I am a man that has a heart full of love. I have feelings and I can cry.I do not desire to hurt anyone.Spiritually I feel like I have been raped. Forgive me if I shared too much, I have very few friends that I can open my heart to. Maybe this will help someone else. God Bless Allan Brewster |
| Name: | Kris |
| Where do you live?: | Elsewhere in the USA |
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| What would you like to tell us?: | I'm 38 years old and I had an abortion 20 years ago. I really was OK with my decision for a long time. I had just graduated high school, wasn't even dating the father anymore when I made my decision. It was the right one for me and I have had no regrets... until now. Two years ago I married a wonderful man and we are truly very happy. However, we have been trying to have a baby but have had no luck. Now my guilt is weighing in. My husband does not know any of this from my past, and I can't tell him! This happened before I met him, and therefore doesn't involve him. But now I feel that I'm being punished for this. I waited so long to find the right guy and we so desperately want children. And now we may not be able to have any children together, and I feel like I may have killed the only child I will ever have. Thanks for listening. |
| Name: | Joyce |
| Where do you live?: | Springfield Area |
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| What would you like to tell us?: | I had an abortion in 1992. The father left me, and I didn't want to get an abortion, but I was scared, and didn't know what to do. I was miserable at the time, but I managed to put it behind me. I thought so, anyway. But it haunted me. I had nightmares for so long. After I got married, and had my son, I realized that I missed my other child. I look at my son and know that he should have a brother or a sister now, and I know it's not fair to him. Does this pain ever go away? |
| Name: | Emily |
| Where do you live?: | Westfield/Southwick |
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| What would you like to tell us?: | I really liked your page. Thanks for taking the time to put this together. I liked the bible quotes, too. You have a lot of good information here. |
| Name: | Linda |
| Where do you live?: | Ludlow/Palmer Area |
| What would you like to tell us?: | Great website! I really appreciate the book list, thanks! |
| Name: | Anne |
| Where do you live?: | Springfield Area |
| What would you like to tell us?: | I just wanted to say thank you. This is a wonderful program, and I am so glad to get this information. You have a great website, thank you! I have been hurting for a long time, and didn't know why. I prayed for help, and found your site. May God bless you and your work, it's so important! |
| Name: | Mary@St.maryhigh |
| What would you like to tell us?: | Hi Lisa, Just received your ad from MCFL. Good Job. |
| Name: | Lisa |
| E-mail address: | lanat@javanet.com |
| Homepage URL: | http://users.javanet.com/~lanat/lisa.htm |
| What would you like to tell us?: | I'd like to welcome all the people that come to this page looking for information and healing. May the Lord bless you and keep you, may He shine His light upon you, and may He grant you peace. |