Letters To Heaven
Our 'Letters to Heaven' section is the place to write down your thoughts, express your grief, or just a place to say 'Hello sweetheart, I miss you.' Each letter will remain on file, amongst hundreds of other letters from grieving parents. Each is as unique as the baby who was forever lost.
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The Letters:
| jaycie rylan mantz: |
| Hi to nanas little butterball.How was turkey day up in heaven? Boy oh boy we sure just keep right on missing you every single day.Sweet little Jayce there was so much that your nana and pappy would have taught you,if you could have only stayed here with all of us.I wanted you here for thanskiving dinner eating all kinds of good stuff that your pappy cooked.I wanted you to learn all about the farm we have and to know how to drive all kinds of farm machinery as you were growing up.Nana so needed you to help her plant her big garden and to help me keep the weeds out.How I wanted the time to read you books,and give you baths and sing and rock you in the rocking chair.Most of all How I wanted you to have the chance to meet your wonderful big sister Alexiyah Sierra and Your beautiful mommy.Oh how she would have loved and taken care of you and would have been so darn proud of her little boy Jayce.I pray that you are in heaven with Jesus and God and lots of little angel playmates,and that you are very happy and healthy. Know that we will love you till eternity and then some.Hugs,loves and kisses to our special little boy,our Jayce Rylan,Much much love to you honey boy.xxxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoox |
Saturday, November 29th 2008 - 06:41:12 PM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi My Sweet Angel, I know its been a while since Mommy wrote to you and I am sorry for this, its just been real hard for me lately. First I wanna wish you a Happy Thanksgiving I don't know how they celebrate Holidays in Heaven but I hope you got to enjoy it. I want you to know that just because I haven't been writing or stopping by your resting place I am still always thinking about you Baby. You are still loved and missed sooo much. I know I'm having another little Baby Boy but I still wish you were here with me, you would be walking by now! Boy how time flys by I can't believe I'm a little over 7 months pregnant. The closer I'm getting to my due date the more and more I am thinking of you. I'm so sorry Jayce for all the things you had to go through with your short time with us, it wasn't fair at all. One day baby we will be together again, I hope. You were just so perfect, so handsome, I can just imagine how you would look right now! Alexiyah has been telling me she Misses you a lot lately, we all do, I just wish there was something I could do to have you in my arms again. I Love You My Little Warrior and Miss you terribly, Hugs n Kisses Forever n Always...Mommy XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO |
Saturday, November 29th 2008 - 09:36:25 AM
| to my darlings i never met: |
| i have been told 4 years i am unable to have children. 5 years ago at xmas 2008 i lost 1 of you at 11 and half weeks, why? no one knows. 1 year later same thing 11 and half weeks another baby gone.doctors sent me home not sure if i had lost you(both times)i had to wait for the blood test results the next day. well i didn't no how to feel happy i could still have you(both)or sad that i had lost you but trying so hard to be positive.devasted isn't the word to describe i how i felt..extremley pissed off to the point after my 2nd baby had passed i prayed for a gun and i wanted to go into the shopping centre n shot all pregnant women especially drug addicts that were pregnant(not that i know what they look like how can you tell without judging someone? i was and am still mucked up)also women who trap men by 'just falling pregnant'i don't understand why i cant do the easiest thing known to women i'm not a bad person i can't even lie why did my babies have to die? 5 years on i still cant sleep i still cant be around mothers and children long i miss you both so much and i dont no why cos we never met? to be honest i don't even know if i want to try again cos its either 'happens in 3's' or '3rd time lucky' n i don't konow if i could go thru it all again. i miss you both so much i wonder what you both would look like. would you be like me or your dad? i cant get passed this they say time is the healer, iam tired i cant sleep i have tried once to be with you both i do n i dont want to do that again some say i just need to get over yous and try again some even say iam pathetic to 'carry the baggage' for so long i truly dont know how to deal with this thats all! please forgive me my darlings i don't no why i couldn't meet you i'm so sure you would of had a fun time with me n dad. i yearn to hear you yell out 'mummy' but i know i will never hear that. i love you both so much it hurts until we meet again endless hugs n kisses to you both. love forever your mummy xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox. |
Friday, November 21st 2008 - 04:05:12 AM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi little guy,just a short letter to tell you nana and pappy are thinking of you,and that we miss you and love you so very much.It was snowing a little bit today,and it gets so dark by five oclock.I wish the sun would shine and it was spring time again.It is going to feel like a long long winter.I bet it is springtime all the time up in heaven.Take care and as always I wish you were here with all your loved ones.Much love,nana and pappy sutliff. |
Thursday, November 20th 2008 - 02:28:52 PM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi Honey Boy,Just wanted to say a quick hello and That I miss and love you so very much,so does your pappy.I have to go to work in a minute,so Have a great day and know that you are always with us in thought. Much love to you,sweet little Jayce. nana and pappy sutliff.LOVE YOU. |
Thursday, November 20th 2008 - 07:30:21 AM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Good morning to Nanas little angel boy.How are you today? I just can not believe that you were laid to rest a year ago yesterday.It was such a hard,heart breaking time for all the ones who love you.Nana was shopping with your mommy and sister yesterday and I was feeling very sad.I want you here for Christmas.I want to buy you cute little outfits and lots of toys.It hurts so much because I Cant. I so much wanted you to get to know and love your beautiful,loving,gentle spirited big sister.She is so wonderful,such a pleasure to be with and such a special little girl.She could have taught you so much.Even though nana is going to have 2 new grandchildren,It wont stop me from wanting and wishing you were here with me.My love for you is eternal.When nanas time is up here on earth I will see you again.Sometimes I just cant wait till I can hold you in my arms again.I will give you a million kisses and hugs.All the ones I would have given you over the years if you were still here.Please Jaycie ask God to watch over your mommy,she is now 7 months pregnant.The doctors all say she is doing fine,but she is really missing you"Our little warrior" Play hard today and laugh,and sleep well tonight,and always know our love is always with you.Much much Love from your nana Kim Sutliff.I Love you,I love you,oh how I love and miss you,my sweet,innocent Little grandson,my Jaycie Rylan.xxxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxox |
Friday, November 14th 2008 - 06:26:21 AM
| Sweet Baby Salter: |
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Hello Little one,
I need to write this letter to you to tell you how much I wanted you and how much you are loved. I found out just yesterday that I lost you. I have so many questions but most will go unanswered. What happened to you? Did I do something wrong? Was my body just not the place for you? Why did God bless me with you but then take you away? Were you my little girl I was dreaming of or my precious liitle boy? I know I will never know but these questions and so many others are racing in my mind. The next few days are going to be hard. Tomorrow we have to have surgery and I feel like after that surgery you will be gone forever. Even though I have already lost you, I still feel connected to you because you are still inside me. Your brother was excited about you. He still points to mommy's tummy and says "Baby in there". He doesn't understand and I don't expect him to. We just have to find the best way to explain it to him. We are going to tell him that you have gone up to be with Ravven in Heaven. Ravven was our dog that died in June. He knows she is up in the sky in Heaven so now he will know you are with her. Your uncle Wes & future aunt Michele is also having a baby. They are due the day before you were due. It is going to be very hard watching her pregnancy and wishing I still had you. I want to be happy for her but I am so sad about you. I was so excited that you and their baby were going to be so close in age. You would always have a friend to play with that was your age. I am so sorry for this. The unknown is what is so hard for me. What were you going to be like? Did you have your brothers sweet spirit, your daddy's sense of humor or your mommy's sensitive touch? Will I meet you in Heaven? Do we give you a name? I just don't know. This is all so new and unknown to me. Please just know how much we love you and will always miss you. Even though I never felt you inside. I knew you were there and tried so hard to do the best I could for you. I did everything right, or so I thought. I have stayed away from all foods I shouldn't have, all meds I shouldn't have, all that I was supposed to do. Now I have to wonder how to grieve. I never knew you, never felt you but have loved you before you were there. I am so afraid that the next time we do get pregnant I won't want to get as close as I did this time because I will be so afraid of losing that baby too. I will always wonder about you and be sad for you. I just hope and pray that one day I will meet you in Heaven and you will not blame me for the miscarriage. I love you terribly and am so sorry. I will never forget you. All my love and for Eternity, Your mommy |
Tuesday, November 11th 2008 - 06:18:26 AM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Good morning to my sweet little Jaycie.How are you doing today? It is going to be 70 degrees today,and it is November.I miss you and I love you so very very much.Tomorrow is November 8th.It will be one year since you passed away. I can hardly believe it has been a year already.Everyone tells us that TIME HEALS ALL WOUNDS,but I dont believe that is always true.It still seems like only yesterday that your mommy gave birth to you and that nana held you in her arms.I know that tomorrow is going to be a really hard day for mommy.If you can my little angel,give your mommy some kind of a sign that you are still with her,and watching over her.Tonight would be a wonderful night for her to have a dream about you.I am so sorry that Nana and Pappy did not make it to the memorial at St.Christophers Hosp. last Saturday.For nana and pappy it would have just been way to hard to go back down to the hospital that we lost you in.I hope that you can understand and I hope that your mommy understands and forgives us for not being there.Your little brother is growing in your mommys belly,before we know it Feb. will be here and so will your little brother.Alexiyah is getting so so big and she tries hard to be a good girl.Nana is still collecting pennies in your memory and I hope to donate it to a good charity soon.Oh Little Jayce,sweet grandson of mine,how I wish you were here.I wish Santa could bring you lots of toys and that I could watch you laugh and play with them.How I wish I could hold you in my arms and sing to you and kiss and hug you.I MISS YOU.The worst part of it all is there is nothing I can do to bring you back.Pappy loves and misses you too.GOD BLESS YOU. Much,much love to you.Your nana KIM. |
Friday, November 7th 2008 - 05:47:38 AM
| Lovely Little No Name Campbell...: |
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You were only beginning to blossom when I lost you and although months have now passed, I find I still think of little else...
I am so sorry you never got to take your first breath, make your first cute baby noise or even see your mammy & daddy smiling down at you... It seems now that the timing just wasn't right for you and, as much as it hurts, I must accept the idea. Just as my body began to embrace you - you were gone. But I won't forget... This weekend marks the day you were to be born into the world, alas, instead I will be alone. Lost in thought of all the things that might have been.. of all the love we never got to show. We never got to prove ourselves to you and now all we can do is remember - remember a lovely little thing with no name... xox love Jules. x |
Tuesday, November 4th 2008 - 07:22:22 AM
| Aaron James: |
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Hey Pumpkin- Mommy wanted to write you to make sure you knew how much I loved you and that I wanted to wish you the a very happy birthday! Three years old....WOW! Your a big boy now! I would give anything to be with you and to give you a big kiss. I wish I could throw you a great big old birthday party. Please know that I am ALWAYS thinking of you. Ow I miss so much. Please stay with me, I need you wish me. I feel us drifing sometimes, but I am your Mommy and I need you now more than ever.
Although my heart is broken today, I want you to know how excited I am that it is your day! You only get one a year and this is yours. I remember everything about the day you were born. I will always wish it could have been easier for you and that the outcome were different but in some respects I feel everything happened for a reason, and someday we will know what that is. A life time seems to long to wait to be reunited, but if that is what we have to do.....then we will. Paige and I sand Happy Birthday to you a few times today, I can't wait tills he is old enough to understand how lucky she is to have you as her big brother. She reminds me of you sometimes.....but she nor will any other child remotely take your place. Our time with you was the best times of our lives and nothing will ever compare. Have a great day Aaron, enjoy it all! I am sure you are suronded by lots of people who love you. Hugs and Kisses! Mommy misses and loves you so very much! to the moon and back! Love, Mommy |
Monday, November 3rd 2008 - 05:54:00 PM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi Nanas Little pumpkin,I just wanted to say hello and that I love you and have been thinking about you so much here of late.I bet up in heaven it is springtime all the time. Nana is so sad,because Mr. Frost came and now all of my flowers have frost and I cant pick them for you anymore. We have to wait till spring and that seems a long long time away.Nana does not like winter very much,it gets so cold,and there is not much color outside.BUT,I sure wish you were here with your nana Kim,so I could hold you in my arms and we could sit by the wood stove in your great great great great grandmothers rocking chair.That would keep me warmer this winter.I gave your mommy the last of the yellow mums to put at your resting place when she was up to visit on Wednesday.Your big sister Alexiyah Sierra is so beautiful and so so smart.How I wish you two could have got to know one another.It is just so unfair that you had to leave us,I will never ever stop thinking of you and missing you so hard. Have a good day with the other angels today. All my Love to you,sweet sweet little Jaycie.Your Nana Kim.Big hugs and kisses. |
Friday, October 24th 2008 - 06:26:29 AM
| charles j commander v: |
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My precious baby, my tiny little son, my missing piece,
i miss you so much! i love you so much! noone knows how much! cj, i know that you are with me every day. i hope that you are proud of me. and i hope taht you can see your sisters and your daddy too. and those crazy dogs;bear and polison. you are pure love, pure energy and i can not wait to be with you one day. tell god that i love him. i love you, mommy |
Wednesday, October 22nd 2008 - 11:36:56 AM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Good evening and Happy First Birthday to our precious little boy.Oh god Jaycie we miss you so so much.As you know we just got back from visiting you at the cemetary.It was so hard to think of a way to celebrate your first birthday.Your great great grandmother was so happy to be a part of your celebration. Nana read two poems and we lit candles and all sang happy birthday.Your resting place looks beautiful.It is the brightest one in the whole place.Nana brought you a ghost,and your other nana brought you a real nice flower arrangment,and there is even a little pumpkin and a birthday balloon. The moon was full and bright orange and I watched your little night light come on.I made cupcakes and wrote Happy birthday Jayce Rylan on them in blue icing.After wards nana and pappy and mommy and Lexi and your cousins Michelle and Alex went out to eat.I know it is a very hard day for your mommy today and tonight.Please Jayce be with mommy tonight,watch over her and help her to get through this sad time.Let her dream about you tonight if at all possible.She has not been able to have one single dream of you since you passed away.We all love you so very much and miss you more then words can ever say.Happy Birthday dear sweet innocent Grandson of mine.Eternal rest and God bless you.With so much love,Your Nana Kim and Pappy too. |
Wednesday, October 15th 2008 - 06:41:36 PM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| <a href="http://www.myhotcomments.com/"><img src="http://lc.fdots.com/cc/lc/21/214310ba0f12c1f66b131778c60a2e4e.gif" border="0" alt="MyHotComments.com"></a><br><a href="http://www.myhotcomments.com/graphics/45254">MyHotComments</a> <br clear="left">...I LOVE YOU MY SWEET SWEET ANGEL, HOPE YOU HAVE FUN TODAY WITH ALL THE OTHER ANGEL BABIES IN HEAVEN. I MISS YOU SOOOO MUCH, WISH YOU WERE HERE SO WE COULD CELEBRATE IT TOGETHER. HUGS N KISSES ALWAYS AND FOREVER, HAPPY 1ST BIRTHDAY JAYCE WITH LOTS N LOTS OF LOVE...MOMMY XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXXOXOXOXOXOOXOXOXOXOXOXOX |
Wednesday, October 15th 2008 - 04:39:34 AM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
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I L O V E Y O U and Miss you so so much, My precious Son |
Tuesday, October 14th 2008 - 11:46:44 AM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi My Sweet Little Angel, How are you today? You must be getting sooo Big by now,this month is very difficult for Mommy, I cannot believe that you are going to be 1 year old this month on the 15th, I Miss You sooo much. I'm at Nana Kim's house with Alexiyah we went to the pumpkin patch today and we all picked out cute little pumpkins for you. I made candles with all of our names on them, and on the 15th we are going to come and visit with you and read you a poem and light the candles. I am 5 n a half months pregnant now and I still am thinking about you every single day that passes. I don't know how I am going to feel when your little brother is born, I know I'm going to be happy and love him with all of my heart, but it's going to be such an emotional day for me. God I just want you here sooo bad with your Family. Just know that you are Loved and Cherished so much and you will Always be Loved with all of My Heart and soul and until the day we meet again you will hold a very very special place in My Heart, I LOVE YOU JAYCE, Sleep Tight My Little Warrior, I wish I could rock you to sleep and sing to you every night, Goodnight Angel Baby...Mommy xoxoxoxxoxoxxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox |
Saturday, October 11th 2008 - 04:18:12 PM
| Christopher Gabriel Dawes: |
| Hello my darling Christopher, mummy is thinking of you millions like i do every day, just wishing things were so different, i love you so much & it hurts, mummy is finding life hard at the minute, i love daddy so much, but daddy isnt helping at the minute, we just wish you were here, you would make it all worth while as you always did, i will never stop loving you Christopher Gabriel x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x |
Saturday, October 4th 2008 - 02:34:48 PM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Good morning honey boy.How is nanas BIG boy doing today?Nana started work this week,I think I am going to like it.Your mommy went to the Doctor yesterday and he says everything is going good with your little brother.Mommy is now 5 months and a week pregnant.It is starting to get cold here on earth.Tomorrow nana and pappy and Lexi and mommy are going to the pumpkin patch.I will pick a little pumpkin for you,cos you are nanas cute little pumpkin.We will also put some fresh flowers at your resting place.Nana washed your little stuffed animals and I will bring those back too.As you know mommy fainted the other day,and Lexi was so scared and didnt know what to do.Please keep an eye on your mommy,Lexi and your little brother.The memorial at the hospital last sunday was really nice.Nana made a delicious apple sauce cake and by the time I got in line for some dessert it was all gone.Oh God Jaycie why cant you be here with us? I just miss and think of you each and every day.Its 7:30 a.m. and nana is going to start her day. We want to clean out the butcher shop today at the farm.We will love you eternally.nana and pappy Too.A million kisses and hugs to you,my darling little angel Jaycie. |
Saturday, October 4th 2008 - 04:41:05 AM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi Sweetheart, How is my little Baby Boy today? Do you like the flowers that your Nana and Pappy brought to you, Nana took all your stuffed animals down so she could wash them for you. I have to come over to visit with you, I know it's been a little while. As you probably know I went to your memorial service, and yes your big sis, Alexiyah was very good, suprisingly! I Miss You sooo much Jayce, you have another memorial coming up in Philly on the first of November and I know that one is gonna be really tough. I go to the doctors tomorrow to find out how your little brother is doing, on Monday for some strange reason your Mommy fainted and fell to the floor, so I went to the hospital the next day cause I was scared something might have been wrong, but Thank God everything was ok, Alexiyah was freaking out she didn't know what was going on. Just keep watching over your Family and try to keep us all safe. I Love You and I will talk with you tomorrow after the doctors, Hugs n Kisses, Sleep Tight My Little Warrior...Mommy xoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
Thursday, October 2nd 2008 - 08:00:52 PM
| Christopher Gabriel Dawes: |
| Hello my darling, Mummy is just wondering why??? I love you Christopher Gabriel & will never forget the time we had x x x x x x x It was amazing, just like you x x x x x x |
Sunday, September 28th 2008 - 02:45:39 PM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi Sweetie Pie,How are you today? Is the sun shinning in Heaven? We have been having a lot of rain the last couple of days.The rain always seems to make nana a little depressed. I was just outside getting all wet picking you 2 beautiful bouquets of flowers to bring you after the memorial at St. Lukes Hospital today at 3:30.Keep mommy strong today and I hope Lexi will be a good little girl today.If your cousin Alex comes along we may have 2 little hulligans on our hands.Tomorrow is your great great grandmother Loellas 89th Birthday.How I wish you could have got to know her.She is such a special wonderful nana to me,and great nana to Lindsay and she loves your big sister Alexiyah so much as I know she loves you,even though you never got to know each other.She was always your nana Kims gaurdian angel,until I met your pappy Ronnie.Now Great great nana is able to stand back and Pappy is my gaurdian angel.Always know we all love you so very much and miss you more then words can ever say.Rest in peace,my sweet little Jaycie.Eternal Love,Nana and Pappy too. |
Sunday, September 28th 2008 - 08:59:30 AM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi My Sweet Angel baby, tomorrpw I'm going to a memorial in your name at St. Luke's Hospital, and Nana's going to bring you some flowers afterwards. I Miss You Sweetheart and I Love You with all of my Heart. Watch over me tomorrow so I'm not too sad, they say that your name is going to be sewn onto a quilt with other baby names and it's going to be hung up somewhere in the hospital, that makes me feel good to know that something is going to be put in your memory. On Monday I go for an ultrasound at the same place that your memorial service is at, I don't know how I'm gonna handle that, I just pray that everything is going to be okay with your little brother, watch over him Jayce, and as Always I wish you were still here with your Family. Goodnight My Little Warrior and I know you will be with us all in spirit tomorrow, I LOVE YOU BABY, Hugs n Kisses...Mommy xoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox |
Saturday, September 27th 2008 - 07:49:35 PM
| Christopher Gabriel Dawes: |
| Hello my cheeky monkey, mummy wants to tell you i love you very much & miss you Christopher, please catch these kisses i am sending to heaven for you..Goodnight my precious son x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x |
Thursday, September 25th 2008 - 12:14:44 PM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi My sweet Angel Baby, just wanted to let you know that I'm thinking about you and I Love You sooo much. Sleep Tight My Little Warrior, Hugs N kisses...Mommy xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
Tuesday, September 23rd 2008 - 08:55:16 PM
| charles j commander v: |
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My precious son,
i miss you so much. i hope that you are happy where you are. and please know that i love you and i love your daddy. and one day we will hopefully all be together again. mommy |
Tuesday, September 23rd 2008 - 11:31:40 AM
| Jamari Moore: |
| Nana boy my how time flies, your one year anniversary is approaching fast 10-02-07. The hospital group is planning a walk for all of the babies that was lost to mothers. Your mom and another lady was chosing to carry the torch. I know that you will be their in spirit to walk with her, as her heart will be so deeply heavy. She is still having a ruff time from time to time but we are helping her through it. We love you Jamari, and Nana know you are being a good boy. |
Sunday, September 21st 2008 - 05:36:15 PM
| Jonathan Haskins: |
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Good Morning Sweet Baby Boy,
Just wanted to let you know that I love, I miss you and wish you here with us. Love, Mommy |
Sunday, September 21st 2008 - 07:35:49 AM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi My Sweet Sweet Baby Boy, I am sorry I did not write you on your 11 month milestone, I was very sad and I knew that by writing to you it would have been worse. I don't know where to start...I Love You and Miss You soooo much, My heart still aches for you, like I always say time here goes too fast I still feel like I was holding you in my arms no less than a month ago, I'm still in shock I know that this happen but it just doesn't feel real, I can't believe I lost My Son, My Baby, Half of My Heart. I wish I could dream about you, as you know Mommy is pregnant and I always remember my dreams when I'm pregnant but for some reason you are never in them, I can dream about the hospital, being pregnant with you, but I can never see your face, I don't understand it.? There is never a day that will go by that I won't think about you and wonder what you're doing in Heaven, I wish I could just take a peek, but I know I can't...It's not fair. Mommy went to the doctors yesterday with Nana and Alexiyah and they say that everything is ok but I am still so scared because nobody knew anything was wrong when you were in my belly, I just wish I could of done more for you, I know I did everything I possibly could of but I just wish there was something else that could have been done to bring you home with your Family. You are so Loved by so many people and Always will be. Continue to watch over all of us that love you and keep us safe if you can.? Me, Alexiyah and your cousin Michelle brought you some beautiful yellow mums from Nana's house and Lexi kept giving your stone Hugs n Kisses and I almost broke down, I would do anything in this world to have my children grow up together, I just want you to know that and that I Love You with all My Heart and soul, Take care Mommy's Little Warrior, Don't forget about me, hugs n Kisses Forever n Ever...Mommy XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO...and a Million More!!! |
Thursday, September 18th 2008 - 01:19:10 PM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi BIG boy,Happy 11 month Birthday to nanas sweetheart.I sure am missing and loving you so much. Nana and Pappy just got home last night from Ocean City,Maryland.Your cousin Ryan and Sara got married on the beach on Saturday.It is so beautiful in Ocean city.I saw the wild ponies on Chink-a-tink Island,and I swam in the ocean,and played on the boardwalk.I wish so badly that you were here with nana and pappy,and mommy and Lexi,so we could do lots of wonderful things together.It seems too long for nana to have to wait till I get to heaven to be able to see you,hold you,and love you with all my being.I miss you so much it hurts my heart.Please watch over your mommy and your little brother growing in mommys belly and keep an eye on your big sister Alexiyah.Always know I love you with all of my heart and soul.Have a good day,and play nice with all the other angel babies up in heaven with you.Much Love,nana and pappy sutliff.I love you,I love you,Oh how much I love and miss you.xxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxo |
Monday, September 15th 2008 - 09:47:35 AM
| Ronan Donnelly Walker: |
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Dear Ronan,
I woke up early this morning thinking about you. Of course I think about you every day, though. What I would give just to hold you for a moment and kiss your precious face! Know that I will never forget my beautiful baby. Please watch over your big brother, as I know he so badly wanted a little brother. I love you so much, sweetheart. Hugs and kisses, Mommy |
Monday, September 15th 2008 - 03:09:21 AM
| Christopher Gabriel Dawes: |
| Hello my beautiful boy, mummy wants to tell you how special you are & how much i love you & miss you, its just horrible not seeing you, touching you, hearing you, kissing you, watching you grow up, i bet your a big boy now, i still cant believe you are not here, but i will love you so much forever & ever my cheeky monkey, its a year on the 23rd since you went to heaven, this time last year i held you in my arms, so very proud of you, you would be falling asleep, yet you would give me a quick peek, just to make sure i was still there with you, then you would smile & fall asleep, i used to watch you sleeping & my thoughts were how lucky i was to have such a gorgeous little baby, i would smile so proudly at you, we were all so happy Christopher, one thing for sure is that our love for you is endless, we will think of you everyday as always, be a good boy in heaven, i bet you've got lots of friends up there to play with, i miss singing to you, you are the only person in the world who loved it, our time together was so special & loving, i am so proud to have had you Christopher for those 4 months, i just wish you were here though with your mummy & daddy & your family, life is just so empty...Goodnight Godbless Christopher Gabriel, lots & lots of kisses to heaven, i hope you catch them, your devoted mummy x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x |
Friday, September 12th 2008 - 10:57:18 AM
| charles j commander v: |
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jayces mom
i guess its no more crazy to do what i do, than to be writing on the internet to heaven. my baby died my babys father and me broke up and then my dad died all in a matter of two months. i have no car, and am still grieving VERY heavily. i tried to work but kept losing it by crying every time i saw a baby. or a happy family. my family has been extraordinary and very supportive. ive lost 40 lbs i guess because of the depression. but i needed to anyway. i have two beautiful daughters that are 18 and 21. i am 41. they are in college. i thank god every day for all of my blessing including getting to be with cj my son. and am happy that all my son needed to do to graduate to heaven was be with me and know my love for him. i feel honored and know that i am a good mother even though i dont have to look after him, nourish and nurture him or teach him. he just came down to connect with me. if only for a short time. |
Wednesday, September 10th 2008 - 03:53:25 PM
| charles j commander v: |
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jayces mom,
i wish that i could make things all better and the pain less. i wish i could be there for you when your baby is born to support you or just be that someone that fully understands. i wish i could make our babies come back. its been exactly 8 months TODAY since my baby was born. and 7 months 7 days since my baby died. i am on cymbalta now. and i am talking to my son through drawing the alphabet in a sideways oval and connecting all letters to the middle through drawing lines from each letter to the middle then holding a pendulum over middle and say the 'our father' then i ask god to banish all lost souls, spirits or bad angels, and say "this conversation is between god and me and whatever god's will be. then i ask god if i may speak with CJ my son. and he always says yes. then cj talks with me. god talks with me too. i might be a LITTLE crazy doing this but i dont think anyone would ever understand the pain of losing a child unless they have lost a child. every day i miss him more love him more and wish that my family and friends would talk about him more. cj is in heaven and he chose to come see me. and i am always his mother. and we will be together again. |
Wednesday, September 10th 2008 - 03:41:16 PM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
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Hi My Sweet Sweet Angel, I been thinking about you so much lately, I wanted to write you yesterday but I know I would have broke down, I can't believe you left me 10 months ago, it's crazy, your little brother is going to be here before we know it. I wonder if you get to celebrate your first birthday up there in Heaven!? I hope so, I want to do something in your memory. I can just imagine all the things we could be doing together and I know we would have so many great memories and pictures already. I can't describe how much I Miss You, this pain in My Heart will never completely go away, I know I'm trying again but I want you to know that I will Never Ever forget about you I'm always gonna picture you playing with your Sister and Brother, I will hold you in My memory and Heart for as long as I live and then one day we will be together again. I have to come and visit with you and bring some flowers, I will soon promise. Take care My Perfect Little Warrior Angel... Love, Hugs n Kisses Always n Forever, Muah...Mommy XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO XOXO I LOVE YOU JAYCE XOXO
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO |
Tuesday, September 9th 2008 - 02:59:39 PM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi There,big boy of Nanas.How have you been? I am sorry I have not written to you in a while.As you know I have been pretty sick for the last 3 weeks. I am starting to get better day by day.Today is a very sad day for all of your loved ones.I cant believe you left us 10 months ago today.It still seems like only yesterday.I miss you so so much.In a little over 6 weeks you will be 1 year old already.Time goes by so fast.Is it the same way up in heaven? Your little brother is 4 months old in your mommys belly already.He weighs only 6 ounces right now.Please watch over him and keep him safe. I sure do miss your big sister Lexi,I have not seen her much since I have been sick.It is a very beautiful day here on earth today,yesterday was a nice day too.Nana and Pappy were out on the boat up at Beltzville lake with your Uncle Randy and Aunt Lori.We had a real good time.It is so hard for your nana not to have you with us all so you could be here and a part of all the fun things we do.I will never stop loving you and never stop missing you and thinking of you and oh how I wish you were still here.Pappy says hi little fellow,he loves you and misses you too so very very much.Take care sweet little Jayce and know one day nana will be with you again. We all love you.Always,your nana Kim.XXXXOOOOOXXXXOOOOOOXXXOOOXXXOOOOOOO |
Monday, September 8th 2008 - 11:44:31 AM
| charles j commander v: |
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dear son,
it still feels like it was yesterday that you passed. i miss you so very much. i wish that you had lived and i had died. you could meet your sisters and be with your daddy. and i could look down on all of you. i love you mommy |
Saturday, September 6th 2008 - 05:52:15 PM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi My Little Warrior, guess what? Its your Nana Kims birthday today and your Uncle Larrys so wish them a good one! Oh My Son I have been crying a lot lately, I Miss You sooo much its getting unbearable. Alexiyah tells me when I cry "but your having another baby" and I try to explain to her that its not the same, no matter what Jayce I will Always Love and Miss You with all of My Heart and Soul.I took Alexiyah and your cousin Alex to the Allentown fair, they had sooo much fun but boy is that place expensive, it was worth it though they got to go on every ride pretty much. There were so many people pushing their babies in strollers and of course I thought of you and wish you could be with us all. I have to bring you more flowers soon. Alexiyah and I have been driving past a lot at night and we blow you kisses when we see your little light, do you see us? Or feel our Kisses? I sure hope so. Take care my Little Man, I will talk with you soon again, I have a doctors appointment tomorrow so I will tell you everything, I Love You Jayce Rylan, Hugs n Kisses Forever n Ever...Mommy XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO |
Tuesday, September 2nd 2008 - 10:20:16 AM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi my Sweet Little Angel, sorry its been a few days since I wrote, I have been pretty sick as Nana already told you, its a shame we all had to get sick around the same time. I want you to keep watching over your Nana, it kinda scares me, the doctors say she has double pneumonia so please baby if you can help her to get better again. I Love You Jayce, did you see everybody at me and your sisters birthday party? I can't believe I have a 4 year old daughter, time goes by sooo fast, it makes me think how you would almost be 1 year old soon, I wanna do something on that day in your memory but I can't figure out what? Its gonna be a really hard day for Mommy. I wanted you here so bad My Little Warrior, I so want all my children to be together and love and play with eachother, I will always wonder why it had to be this way.? My birthday is tomorrow, I haven't figured out what I'm doing for it yet, I know I'm going to the movies and then...? Can't really do much to celebrate when your pregnant. Just continue to watch over your family and the little one on the way. I will hold you in My Heart Forever n Ever Jayce. Mommy Loves You too too much and so so much! Take care Baby, play nice today with the other babies, oh I bet its so beautiful where you are, one day I will be there next to your side again, Hugs n Kisses...Mommy xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
Saturday, August 23rd 2008 - 09:58:18 AM
| JAYCE RYLAN MANTZ: |
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Hi There sweetie pie,How have you been? Nana has been really sick for a whole week now.I have been to the emergency room twice and to my Doctors office once.Your poor Pappy has not been able to go to work all this week. He has been taking such good care of your nana.I dont think any of the Drs. know what they are doing.I may have lymes Disease,but that test wont be back till Tuesday.I have been feeling your presence all around me all this week.How I miss you little Jayce.Where you watching when your sister and mommy had there birthday party? Did you see Lexi riding the pony? I bet you get to go for pony rides up in heaven all the time,maybe even UNICORN rides.That is what Lexi really wanted this year she said because UNICORNS CAN FLY.Your mommy and Alexiyah are both sick right now too.The Drs. say they both have viral infections and this scares me so much honey boy,cos right around this time when mommy was pregnant with you she also had a viral infection.Please little angel boy of nana watch over your mommy and new little brother and keep them safe ok? Know how much I love and miss you and always will.Sweet dreams
Jayce Rylan,Eternall love,nana Kim and your pappy too.xxooxxooxxooxxooxxooxxooxxxoooxoxoxox |
Friday, August 22nd 2008 - 04:30:19 PM
| Aaron James: |
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Hey You! It has been so long since the last time I wrote to you on here. I think I have gotten to the point where, if I want to tell you something I talk to you no matter where I am. Ow how I miss you......
I don't relly need to update you b/c I know you are with us. Can you believe how big your little sister is! Ow Aaron she is the very best gift you could have ever given us. She has gotten mommy through some terrible times I see so much of you in her! She has your sweetness and she is getting your hair (thankfully). I love her to pieces but it does not even compare to the special bond you and I had and still have. Ow I could hold you for hours, that crazy lady won't sit still for two seconds. I miss you buddy! I always wonder what it would be like to have you with us. We would be the perfect family of 4 that is for sure. You know no matter what you are my first baby and no one can ever change that. I remember every second of your life and I will keep all those memories with me until the day we meet again. So, Mommy is going to have another baby! How crazy is that! I am excited but as always terrified! Aaron, I know you helped me get through my pregnancy with Paige, do you think you could do it again? I could really use some help and please bless this baby and keep it safe till it is ready to come live with us. I know you brough Paige to us, I am hoping you will do the same for your brother or sister. Sometimes, I feel like we are so lucky we have a healthy little girl and we barely had to try for another baby but then I think I will have had 3 babies and only have 2 to show for it. Ow Aaron we tried for so long to get you and we worked so hard to keep you with us, those were the best and hardest 11 months of my life and I still feel like we lost but I try to remember all that we learned and all the gifts you gave and continue to give us. I still see your little smile when I close my eyes! I just wanted to share our news with you (like you did not already know) and ask that you keep this baby safe for us. I would love to have a visit in my dreams if you are up for it :-) Mommy misses you and loves you so very much! To the moon and back! Big Hugs! Love always, Mommy |
Thursday, August 21st 2008 - 07:28:55 PM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi sweetheart, mommy just wants to talk a little bit before I go to sleep. As you probably know yesterday was your sisters birthday, she turned 4, we went to a carnival and she had a great time, but I want you to know that I didn't forget that it was your 10 month milestone, so it was tough for me because I just wanted my two babies together. I'm happy to have my two children born on the 15th but its also difficult cause I Miss You soooo much. Tomorrow your sister and I are having a huge birthday party at your Nana Kims house and I want you to be there with us in spirit. Your new little brother has been moving around a lot in mommys belly! Just please please, if you can try to protect him and make sure everything is ok Baby. I Love You too too much my Little Angel and I always will. I am going to bring lots n lots of flowers to you tomorrow after the party. Goodnight My Son, sleep tight Baby, Love always n Forever...Mommy xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
Saturday, August 16th 2008 - 08:39:24 PM
| christopher gabriel dawes: |
| hello beautiful boy, its almost been a year without you. we only had 18 wks with you, hardly enough time. you were so perfect with big blue eyes and the most cheeky smile. just wish you were here. mummy misses you so so much, im really proud of her and im sure you are. i know it sounds silly to some people but im sure you came to see me the other day while i was ironing, i heard your little footsteps and a saw your blonde hair. i love you christopher and one day we will all be together again, we will think of u everyday untill then xxx love you so so much baby boy xxx auntie jannine and uncle keith xxxx |
Saturday, August 16th 2008 - 05:58:29 AM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi My Sweet Little Baby boy, I know I haven't been writing you as much as I usually do but I want you to know that I do come on this site everyday and read the letters that I write you. Today 9 months ago was when your funeral was held and I just keep replaying it over and over in my head, I can't help it. God I MISS YOU Why did things have to be this way? Why did you have to leave me and go to Heaven? Your life here on earth was too short, I hope you got to rexperience life somehow, I just want to know what you're doing, I want to see you, hold you in my arms and rock you to sleep at night, I want to feed you, bathe you, why was I cheated out of all of this? I guess I will never get the answer I'm looking for, just know that you are loved tremendously and one day My Little Angel we will be reunited. I can say that I am not afraid of death anymore because I know that when I go I will be with you. I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU and I Always will, there will never be a day when I don't have a thought about you, and that's what true love is all about. Take care my little one and Sleep Tight tonight, Hugs n Kisses Forever n ever....your Mommy xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
Wednesday, August 13th 2008 - 08:56:21 PM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi My Sweet Sweet Little Boy, how are you today? You left us all nine months ago today and I am Missing you sooo much, everytime the 8th comes around I feel so empty, so lost like I don't have a thought in my head. Alexiyah is with her Daddy today while I'm working, I told him he could keep her overnight because I know I'm gonna be emotional, your sister has been a little better, did u have a talk with her? If so, thankyou. I cannot believe you have been away from me for this long, its not getting any easier for me. I have been blessed with a Little Boy again, yes mommy is pregnant, that was the secret but I'm pretty sure you already knew that. The doctors say everything is fine but I'm worried still because that's what they said with you. I just wish they would of done more when I told them I felt something was wrong, its like the doctors just thought I was paranoid and they didn't listen, but now since I lost you they're taking every precaution possible and I wish they would have done the same for you. I'm happy to have another little Boy but I want you to know that he is not a replacement, you My Angel will never be replaced, you are sooo special to me and Always will hold a special place in my heart. Now I'm always gonna feel like I should have 3 kids with me not 2, its never going to go away, this feeling I have inside me. Just know that you are Loved and Cherished more and more with each day that passes, and you are a big brother and a little brother now! I will tell your little brother about you when he is old enough to understand, and guess what? He is going to have Jayce for a middle name. Watch over your family and especially the little one in my belly because I couldn't handle losing another Sweet Son, it would destroy me. I Love You too too much and soo soo much! That's what your sister always says! Take care My Little Warrior Angel and one day I know we will hold eachother again and I will do all the motherly things that I wanted to do while you were here with me. Hugs n Kisses Forever n ever...Mommy xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxI Love Youxoxoxo |
Friday, August 8th 2008 - 10:17:04 AM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Good morning to nanas little fellow,How are you today? My goodness,soon you will be 10 months old.I think of you each and every day.So does your mommy and sister.Alexiyah seems to be giving your mommy a hard time here of late.Give her a little talking to ok? Nana and pappy are having Lexi and mommys birthday party up here on the 17th of August.We are having a pony again this year for Lexi.Boy,how lucky is she to have a REAL pony for all the kids to ride at her party? You remind her for nana how lucky she really is.I know you are with us all in spirit.Know that we love you with all our hearts and souls.I know that one day we will be with you again.All my love to my little honey boy,my sweet sweet grandson,my Jayce Rylan,Your Nana Kim. |
Tuesday, August 5th 2008 - 04:46:06 AM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi My Sweet Angel, I am missing you sooo much today, I took Alexiyah to Musikfest and at first everything was ok we were having fun and then out of nowhere she started to be really nasty to me, she told me she doesn't want to see me anymore and that she's going to live with her Daddy and it hurt me to hear that. I can't help but to think if you were here she would be different, nicer, proud to be you big sister, I just don't know why she is so miserable at times, I try my hardest to make her happy. I just Love you so so much and wish everyday that you were with us. I have to bring you new flowers, I know its been a while and I am sorry Baby, I promise to stop over to visit with you tomorrow. Today Alexiyah said she Loves You and wants you back, we all do Angel, Sleep tight My Little Warrior, Hugs n Kisses...Mommy xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
Monday, August 4th 2008 - 09:05:09 PM
| Kaia Cristiana Verbeten: |
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My sweet, sweet, Kaia,
Your due date is so quickly approaching, and with each day I fear that day. I know what it would have brought, and my arms will be empty. I miss you in my womb and can't wait to see you. Love you, Mommy |
Monday, August 4th 2008 - 02:23:20 PM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi My Sweet Baby I wanna say goodnight and that I Love You so so much,Sleep tight Angel, Hugs n Kisses...Mommy xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
Saturday, August 2nd 2008 - 11:28:52 PM
| Gabriel Alexander Martinez: |
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It's been almost 10 months since I lost you. A day never goes by that I don't think about you. I thought maybe over the months, the pain and empty feeling would heal. I was wrong. It seems that it will always be as heavy on my heart as it was when it happened. You will always be mommys little man, always be my first angel. I was and still am so blessed to have had you in my life. Even if our time was very short and I never got to hear you cry or see you open your eyes. I know 1 day, I'll be able to hold you and snuggle with you. You are mommys strenght and you give me the courage to go on everyday. I live my life now as if I would have for you my little man. I was privledged enough to have a Guardian Angel and I know with you anytime is possible.
I love you so much and miss you tremendously every single day. Keep watch over your Gramma and Uncle Josh-- and take care of your daddy. He still misses you very much. Keep me strong my little fat butt and hopefully soon you will bless mommy with another little bundle of joy. I LOVE YOU ALWAYS GABRIEL! Mommy |
Saturday, August 2nd 2008 - 09:54:55 PM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi sweetheart, how are you today? I'm ok I'm going to work for a little bit and then ill be doing hair until later tonight. Alexiyah is with her Daddy this weekend I think she's going to Musikfest it started today, I Love You Baby and I want to bring you new flowers tomorrow, Have a nice day today My Little Warrior, I Miss You, Hugs n Kisses...Mommy xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
Friday, August 1st 2008 - 11:47:13 AM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi my Sweet Sweet Angel, did you see all of us out on the boat on Sunday? We had a blast even though it was raining at first, but then it got beautiful, did you have something to do with that Baby? Your sister was a little scared but that didn't last too long! She went on the raft with Nana and got pulled by the boat it was funny! I Miss You Jayce, did you see the beautiful flowers I left with you on Sunday? Musikfest is starting this Friday and oh how I wish I could take you there, its soo fun for kids your Sister always has a great time she never wants to leave, just keep watching over us My Angel and see all of the family things we do, I just wish you could be a part of it all, but If you watch us then I guess I have to accept that no matter how hard it is. I Love You Jaycie, Sleep Tight tonight Baby, Hugs n Kisses...Mommy xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
Wednesday, July 30th 2008 - 02:43:15 PM
| Jonathan Haskins: |
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Hey Sweet Baby Boy,
Just wanted to say that I love you and I miss you very much. Your big brother Joshua prays for another baby each night before going to bed, he is not wanting to replace you, but that is his way of expressing how much he wanted you. He always referred to you as his baby and still does. Just remember we love you very much and my heart aches to hold you. Love, mommy For all of you who would like to read our story, please go to: www.caringbridge.org/visit/jonathanhaskins |
Wednesday, July 30th 2008 - 09:41:36 AM
| Jonathan Haskins: |
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Hey Sweet Baby Boy,
I just wanted to let you know that I love you and miss. Your big brother Joshua is praying for mommy to have another baby everynight before he goes to bed. This is not to "replace" you, but his way of expressing how much he wanted you - he called you his baby and still does when he speaks of you. Anyway, just wanted to say I love you. For the other parents who would like to read our story, please visit: www.caringbridge.org/visit/jonathanhaskins Also, please feel free to sign our guestbook. Journaling through this process has helped and I know many other people who have shared their stories using this website and it also provides a way for friends and families to encourage you through your journey. Just thought I would share this information - it has helped me to create this memorial to our son Jonathan. |
Tuesday, July 29th 2008 - 06:40:05 PM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi My Little Sweetheart I just wanted to talk with you for a little before I go to bed, I Miss You so much Jayce I think about you all the time and always wish you were here, I Love You My Angel. Yesterday your sister made it in the newspaper on the front page, she was sooo happy she was showing everyone! Tomorrow were going out on the boat and I want you to watch how much fun we have together and know that you could of been loved sooo much, I mean u are, but it will just never be the same, I always got to wonder, I really hope and pray that you get these letters read to you or you hear me as I write them, I wish I would have a dream with your face in it, I haven't yet and I don't understand why? I think about you everyday and when I go to bed I can't dream of you, pop pop said that maybe that's because that's suppose to be my time of rest away from thinking about it all the time. I just can't help but think of all the messed up things you went through while you were here with me and you know that If I could of changed anything or done anything else for you I would not of hesitated, without a thought I would have done it because that's how much I care for you, that's why I will never understand why you couldn't stay with me. I will hold you again one day my Son and I Swear I will neve let you go, I Love You with all of My Heart, Goodnight My Little Warrior Hugs n KiSses...Mommy xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
Saturday, July 26th 2008 - 09:09:20 PM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Goodnigt My Little Angel I Love You so so much Baby, Sleep Tight Hugs n Kisses Forever n Ever...Mommy xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
Friday, July 25th 2008 - 09:55:27 PM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Good morning to nanas sweet Jayce Rylan.What a cool,beautiful morning it is today.How is my sweet angel doing? I miss you so very much.It is hard to beleive that you will be a year old in just a little over 2 months.I will always wish and wonder WHY God wouldnt let you stay here with all the ones that love you.Your mommy is doing pretty good,she has a job working with pop-pop and she is making good money and I think that makes her feel good,Lexi is getting so big.I know she would have been such a great big sister to you,she misses you a lot too.On Sunday Pappy and I are going to take your mommy and sister out on the boat for the first time. I hope the weather is good and that Lexi likes the boat.Please watch over all of us little angel,keep us safe.Mommy will bring you some pretty new flowers after our boat ride Sunday.Dont play too hard today and sleep tight tonight.We all love you Jayce,sweet,innocent grandson of mine,eternall love to you.You are our honey boy forever,Nana and Pappy Sutliff.We love you love you and love you some more.xxxx000xxx000xxxx0000xxxx0x0x0x0x0x0x0x0x0x0x0x0x0x0x0x0x0x0x0x0x0x0x0x0x00x0x0x0x0x0x0x00x0x0x0x0x............. |
Friday, July 25th 2008 - 04:58:52 AM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi My Little Angel, I'm sorry I haven't been writing to you as much baby, Mommy has a job now working with pop-pop and boy am I exhausted at night. I just got Alexiyah back today she was gone for 4 days and I Missed her so much, I Miss You too Jayce a whole whole lot, My life is just not complete without you and even though you are not physically here you are My Little Boy and Always will be, I Love You more than words could ever say. Sleep Tight Mommys Little Warrior, I hope that you here me pray to you at night, Goodnight My Son, My Love, I am going to bring you flowers on Sunday. Hugs n Kisses...Mommy. Oh and Alexiyah went to this picnic/park thing today and she made you a necklace so we will bring that also on Sunday, Take care Angel Baby xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
Thursday, July 24th 2008 - 08:54:46 PM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi my Little Sweetheart I just want to say goodnight and I Love You so much Angel, I Miss You Baby Hugs n Kisses...Mommy xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
Wednesday, July 23rd 2008 - 11:10:06 PM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Goodnight My Sweet, Sweet Little Angel Baby. I Love You and I will talk with you tomorrow, Hugs n Kisses...Mommy xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
Sunday, July 20th 2008 - 10:06:01 PM
| Christopher Gabriel Dawes: |
| Today is 10 months since you went to heaven & 10 months without you in our lives, it is hearbreaking Christopher, we will love & think of you every day as always, your ever devoted mummy..We miss you so much cheeky monkey x x x x |
Sunday, July 20th 2008 - 01:15:18 AM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi My Sweet Angel, I Miss You Baby, I stopped by yesterday...do you hear me when I go there and talk to you? I hope so, I Love You Jayce and I know I say it all the time but I just wish that you could be here with me instead of writing to you. Take care My little Warrior and I have to bring you some more flowers soon, the ones that are there aren't looking that nice, Hugs n Kisses to My Guardian Angel, All My Love Forever n Ever...Mommy xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
Saturday, July 19th 2008 - 03:35:15 PM
| Lacey Veronica: |
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My immortal beloved.
Ever thine, Ever mine, Ever ours. Star of our Heaven. I am here for you. Your Mummy xx 16/7/08 Due 30/1/09 |
Saturday, July 19th 2008 - 09:09:45 AM
| Lacey Veronica: |
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My immortal beloved.
Ever thine, Ever mine, Ever ours. Star of our Heaven. I am here for you. Your Mummy xx |
Saturday, July 19th 2008 - 09:07:51 AM
| Christopher Gabriel Dawes: |
| Hello my precious baby, mummy hasn't wrote to you in ages on this site & i am sorry, i find it all difficult darling, i used to write every day on maternity leave, but after finding out your death was preventable, i have found it hard to understand why you had to die, you were ill all that time, 3 weeks isnt a lot to some people, but you were 4 months old, a third of your life was spent being ill, 2 and half days before you died, i literally begged the dr to do something, tests at least, but they said it wasnt necessary & that you would get over it, i tried my darling, so much, i knew you were ill, the hospital sent you home & dr's did not listen, i have recently been told that all dr's can go off is a mothers instinct & when i asked why no one listened, they said it was because they though i was neurotic & that you were happy & feeding..before i die, i am going to make people listen to people like me, & i will not let your life mean nothing Christopher, your life was here with mummy & daddy & your family & friends & people should have not ignored that, you are still our life & everyday i will love you & adore you and every second of the 4 months you spent was immense, it was pure love & devotion, & that hurts so much, you were wanted & loved & will always my cheeky monkey, mummy & daddy are not far away, i just want you so very much baby, just to love & hold again & kiss your face to sleep, run my fingers down your nose whilst your eyes are closing & mummy smiling at your contentment, it was beautiful, just like you..night sunshine boy, we will always think of you & love you to eternity x x x x x x |
Thursday, July 17th 2008 - 03:11:34 PM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi my Sweet Angel, I just got done dropping some beautiful flowers off with you, I hope that you like them. I Love You soooo much Jayce, Sleep Tight Baby I will talk with you tomorrow, Hugs n Kisses...Mommy xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
Wednesday, July 16th 2008 - 07:34:05 PM
| Ronan Donnelly Walker: |
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Dear Ronan,
The sight of the sun rays dancing on the river today was enough to reduce me to tears. My little seal, as your name means - why were you taken from me? Why were we not able to save you? You were a much loved and wanted little boy, so why couldn't you stay here with Mommy? Perhaps we'll never know. My beautiful, raven - haired boy with sparkling blue eyes, running along the shores of Heaven - oh, how I love it when you visit me in my dreams! Please continue to do so every so often, so that I know you are safe and happy. Please continue to watch not only over me, but over your daddy as well. While I know he doesn't always show his feelings, please know that that's just his nature. But on the inside, I know he loves you just as much as I do. After all, who could help loving such a precious angel as our Ronan? And now, my little seal, Mommy must go. Please help to give me strength, as the world I live in is not always kind. But I want you to enjoy Paradise until we are reunited. And until that time comes, my beautiful boy, I will hold you in my heart. Hugs and kisses, Mommy |
Wednesday, July 16th 2008 - 01:32:41 PM
| charles j commander v: |
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dear baby of mine,
it has been since february that you went to god. i cant take life very well anymore. i thought it would get better. but the more time goes by the more i seem to be losing. i go to a doctor today to try to help me still live on this earth without you and exist knowing i have to let go of your daddy too. but hes still here on earth. please ask god to show me more signs. i love you my son. i love you my precious boy. i miss you. i wish that you would have been able to live. i have no words to express. but you must know my heart and my soul. love mommy |
Wednesday, July 16th 2008 - 09:39:58 AM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Happy 9 month birthday to my precious little grandson. I miss you and love you so very much Jayce Rylan.Every day I wish you could be with all the ones that love you.Your beautiful sister Lexi and mommy are coming up tomorrow,along with your cousins Michelle and Alex. You will be with all of us in spirit.Nana and Pappy hold you in our hearts and our memory.Cant wait to see you again one day.Eternally your nana and pappy sutliff.Butterfly kisses and a million hugs.xxxooooxxxxooooxxxxxooooooxxxxooooxxxoooxoxxooxxooxxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox. |
Tuesday, July 15th 2008 - 05:00:52 PM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi My Sweet Angel Baby, I can't sleep I keep thinking about you today you are 9 months old already and I can't stand it anymore, I want you here sooo bad Jayce. I can't describe how much I Miss You but you should know that it is an awful lot. I wonder all the time of what you are doing in Heaven?, I just wish so badly that I could at least see you everyday and watch you as you grow baby, it is so hard not being able to at least know for sure that you are truly being taken care of, My Heart is soo heavy for you Jayce, I will Always care and think about you for the rest of my life. You are beyond precious to me, you are My Little Angel and nobody can ever take that away from me like they took you, I'm so numb right now that it is hard to cry I can't do anything to have you back in my life, and its so hard knowing that I can pray and wish all I want and it will never happen until, of course I go. I am so so sorry Jayce for everything you had to go through in the 24 days you were here, just know that I never gave up on you, not once and I never wanted to let you go, I would have done absolutely anything to have you here in my arms right now. Sleep Tight Mommys Little Warrior. I Love You, I Love You, I Love You, Muah, Hugs n Kisses My Sweet Sweet Angel...Mommy xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo. Forever In My Heart xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
Monday, July 14th 2008 - 10:36:30 PM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi my Sweet Baby I Love You and I Miss You so Much, Sleep tight My little Angel, I will talk with you tomorrow, Hugs n Kisses...Mommy xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
Saturday, July 12th 2008 - 08:10:21 PM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi sweetheart, do you like the flowers I brought you today? I promised Alexiyah that she could come with me to visit with you tomorrow. I Love You Baby, sleep tight My Little Warrior Hugs n Kisses...Mommy |
Friday, July 11th 2008 - 10:10:53 PM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi My Sweet Angel, how are you today? I'm ok I was sick for most of the day, I just dropped your sister, Alexiyah off at Nana Kims house and she's going swimming and sleeping over, I'm going to pick her up tomorrow and we are all gonna pick flowers to bring to you Baby. I Miss You sooo much Jayce. I wish instead of writing these letters you were here to experience it all, you are sooo loved by so many people Sweetheart but I'm glad that I can write to you because If not I think I would go crazy, this makes me feel closer to you. Just please Baby know how much I Love You and think about you. Sleep tight My Little Warrior, I will talk with you again tomorrow Hugs n Kisses...Mommy xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
Thursday, July 10th 2008 - 04:52:37 PM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi sweetheart I'm sorry I didn't write you a longer letter yesterday but it would of been really hard. I can't believe you have been gone for 8 months already it doesn't seem that long, it really does feel like you were with me a couple days ago. I Miss You so so much Baby and I Love You with all of my heart, I think about you every single day. Just know how much I care about you My Little Angel. Take care Jayce I will talk with you again tonight before I go to bed, Hugs n Kisses...Mommy xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
Wednesday, July 9th 2008 - 04:02:27 PM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi My Little Angel, I just wanted to say I Love You and Goodnight, I will talk with you in the morning Sweetheart, Hugs n Kisses...Mommy xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
Tuesday, July 8th 2008 - 08:23:28 PM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Good morning to nanas little Jayce Rylan,How are you today honey? Are you still sleeping?or do you get up real early in the morning?It is 7a.m.I could not sleep last night.8 months ago today you left all of us,Next Tuesday you will be 9 months old already.I just cant believe how fast the time goes by.Its funny how it seems like only yesterday that you were born and that you left us.Pappy bought nana a speed boat to have fun on the river with,it was a one year anniversary present.Mommy and Lexi are doing ok,but Lexi really misses you and sometimes acts up for mommy.I will take her out on the boat and maybe that will help.How I miss you sweet Jayce,and how I love you with all my heart.I shall never forget you. I always keep fresh flowers from my garden by your picture. Have fun today playing with all the other little angel babies,dont get too sunburned. Much love and a million kisses sweet little grandson of mine. |
Tuesday, July 8th 2008 - 07:56:53 AM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi sweetheart I just wanna say Goodnight My Little Angel and I will talk with you again in the morning. I Love You Baby, sleep tight Hugs n Kisses...Mommy xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
Monday, July 7th 2008 - 09:33:30 PM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi my Sweet Little Angel, how are you today? I'm alright your sister is playing with her friend Kiana, but boy your big sis can be a handful at times! I Think a lot of the way she acts has to do with losing you, that's why I try not to get too upset with her. I Love both my children sooo much and I can't tell you enough how I wish you two could be together, we all missed out its not right, I will never understand why things had to be this way. Just know that I LOVE YOU JAYCE with all of my heart and soul. Take care My Little Warrior, Hugs n Kisses...Mommy xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
Monday, July 7th 2008 - 12:54:25 PM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi my Sweetheart, you were probably already sleeping but I took Alexiyah for a carride so she would fall asleep and I decided to stop by and talk to you for a little. I wish I knew that somehow you get to hear these letters and that you can see me from Heaven. Its so hard not knowing all the things I wonder like...do u know who your Mommy is? Because I don't see why God would let you look at me everyday and know that you can't be in my arms, that wouldn't be fair, but I know that when I go there we will know eachother I don't know If you will be grown or still a Baby, I guess I have to wait and find out. 9 months you would be soon and you have been gone for almost 8, its so hard not having you around. Everytime I do something with your sister I wish you were there too. I LOVE YOU JAYCE with all of my heart, I will stop by tomorrow with some flowers, me and Alexiyah. Sleep tight My Little Angel Hugs n Kisses...Mommy xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
Saturday, July 5th 2008 - 08:19:51 PM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi my Sweet Angel, Happy 4th of July Baby! I wish you could be here with us to watch the big fireworks tonight but If you can see them from Heaven I bet that's pretty neat too. I Love You Jayce the Holidays are tough without you, I would have you dressed in a little outfit for every Holiday just like I did with your sister Alexiyah. Just remember that I was so happy to have you in my life and I never wanted to let you go, If I could have done anything more for you anything at all I would have, and I think you know that. Do you know the secret that Nana Kim was talking about? I don't want to say it on here yet but I have been praying to you and telling you, you probably do know Baby.Just know that no matter what I will Always Love You just as much as the day I have birth to you and held you for the first time, a mothers Love never stops and I will Love and Miss You for the rest of my life until the day I can see you again.Take care up there My Little Warrior, I just pray you know how much you are truly Loved. Hugs n Kisses...Mommy xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
Friday, July 4th 2008 - 02:19:47 PM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Good evening sweet grandson of mine. I miss you Jayce and think of you all the time.Nana and Pappy want to wish you Happy 4th of July. It is so hard for me to believe you would be 9 months old soon.Has mommy told you her secret yet? Please bless and watch over her and your big sister Alexiyah.Why oh why were you only here for such a short time.Was it a lesson we had to learn?and have we learned it? I certainly hope so.Remember you are so very precious and so loved by all of your family.Forever and beyond you shall remain in our hearts,soul and memories. Sleep tight tonight sweet Jayce and I shall see you again one day. All my love,your nana Kim and Pappy Sutliff too.MMMMMMMMMMMMMuah.xxxxoooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxxxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxxoxooxoxox and a zillion more honey boy. |
Thursday, July 3rd 2008 - 06:13:00 PM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi sweetheart I just wanted to say Goodnight, I Love You, and I have been thinking of you an awful lot lately. Keep watching over me Baby, I Miss You sooo much it hurts Jayce. Sleep tight My Little Warrior, Hugs n Kisses...Mommy xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo I Love You xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
Wednesday, July 2nd 2008 - 09:51:38 PM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Goodnight My Little Angel Baby sleep tight. I will talk to you in the morning. Me and Alexiyah brought you some more flowers I hope you like them. I Love You Jayce. Hugs n Kisses...Mommy xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
Tuesday, July 1st 2008 - 10:21:52 PM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi my sweetheart sorry I didn't come over today I'm still feeling sick but I will come over tomorrow after I go to Nana Kims house. I Love You Baby,sleep tight My Little Warrior Hugs n Kisses to My Angel...Mommy xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxI MISS YOUxoxox |
Monday, June 30th 2008 - 07:07:56 PM
| Ronan Donnelly Walker: |
|
Dear Ronan,
I'm sorry Mommy has not written in awhile, but please know that I think about you everyday. Your big brother was talking about you at bedtime last night. "God bless my baby brother in Heaven," he said. It nearly broke my heart, but I'm glad that he still remembers you. While you were only with us for a short time, we love you more than words can say. I still ask God why He took you from us. You were so loved and so wanted - why did you have to leave so soon? Why didn't I get to watch you learn to crawl, take your first steps, and smash your hands in your first birthday cake? Why won't I get to watch you get on the bus for kindergarten, get your first hit in Little League, grow up and go on your first date? We'll never get to see you go to college, meet your future wife, and I'll never get to dance with you on your wedding day. Why was all of that taken from us, and from you? I guess only God knows, and I will have to have faith that He will keep you safe and happy until we meet again. I hope you are up there with your Grampy. Give him a hug for us, and especially for Daniel. Until I can hold you again in my arms, my beautiful son, I'll hold you in my heart. I love you so much. Hugs And Kisses, Mommy |
Monday, June 30th 2008 - 11:18:15 AM
| Ronan Donnelly Walker: |
|
Dear Ronan,
I'm sorry Mommy has not written in awhile, but please know that I think about you everyday. Your big brother was talking about you at bedtime last night. "God bless my baby brother in Heaven," he said. It nearly broke my heart, but I'm glad that he still remembers you. While you were only with us for a short time, we love you more than words can say. I still ask God why He took you from us. You were so loved and so wanted - why did you have to leave so soon? Why didn't I get to watch you learn to crawl, take your first steps, and smash your hands in your first birthday cake? Why won't I get to watch you get on the bus for kindergarten, get your fist hit in Little League, grow up and go on your first date? Why was all of that taken from us, and from you? I guess only God knows, and I will have to have faith that He will keep you safe and happy until we meet again. I hope you are up there with your Grampy. Give him a hug for us, and especially for Daniel. Until I can hold you again in my arms, my beautiful son, I'll hold you in my heart. I love you so much. Hugs And Kisses, Mommy |
Monday, June 30th 2008 - 11:10:29 AM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Good Morning my littly Angel Baby, how are you today? Mommy feels a little sick, your sister Alexiyah is eating breakfast and she was talking about you today already! We all Love You sooo much Jayce. If I don't stop over today because I don't feel good I will definitely be over tomorrow. I hope you are having fun playing with all the other Angels in Heaven, I just wish I could see you. I Miss You Baby, I will talk with you again tonight before bed, Hugs n Kisses...Mommy xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
Monday, June 30th 2008 - 08:23:10 AM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Good Morning Little Jayce Rylan.What a beautiful summer day here on Earth. How are you Today? Gosh,I sure do miss you little fellow.I think of you everyday.What a big boy you must be getting to be by now.It is just so unfair that I am unable to see you grow.I so wish I could hold you in my arms and give you lots of kisses and lots of good foods to eat.Your mommy is doing ok,and she has a secret to tell you.I am sure you already know what that secret is,but I will let her tell you.Your big sister Alexiyah Sierra is really getting big.She will be 4 in August and she is just a wonderful,loving,caring Grand daughter,just as I know that you would be as my grandson,if you were here with all of us.Nana and Pappy have been so very busy,it is that time of year when so much has to be done.Our garden is really looking good and all kinds of vegetables are growing.Your pappy made another deposit of "Pennies from Heaven" at the bank the other day.We only have 65 dollars so far in pennies,but BOY,that is alot of pennies.I will keep on saving them and one day I will have enough to donate a gift to some kind of charity in your sweet memory.How I love you Jaycie and Know I miss you and one day I will see you again.Eternal Love,hugs and Kisses from your Nana Kim and Pappy too. |
Monday, June 30th 2008 - 06:17:22 AM
| Daniel: |
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My Sweet Daniel-
It's been two years since you've been gone. I still miss you and ache to hold you sometimes. Your brother and sister are precious treasures to me. And YOU are too. I think of you everyday...wishing you were here with our family. I know Jesus loves you even more than I do... I can't imagine that but it's true. So just hold on to Him until I can hold on to you. I love you sweet boy. I love you. |
Sunday, June 29th 2008 - 06:01:43 PM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi my sweet little angel I'm sorry I haven't wrote you in a couple days I have been pretty stressed but I will be over tomorrow with Alexiyah. I Love You Jayce sleep tight my little Warrior, Hugs n Kisses...Mommy xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
Sunday, June 29th 2008 - 12:03:37 AM
| Faith Emma: |
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Mommy misses you so much today. Connor loves you and he wishes you can come home to play. Know that wherever you are up in Heaven, mommy misses you and wishes you were here everyday. My heart is broken. Wait for me. I love you.
Mommy |
Friday, June 27th 2008 - 10:27:35 PM
| Baby of Mine: |
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Dear Baby of Mine, I love you so! I think of you every day and I wish I could hold you in my arms. I know I will hold you one day and Nana and Nanny are holding you for me until then.
Love, mommy |
Tuesday, June 24th 2008 - 06:46:45 PM
| Ben and baby Capricorn: |
| I wish you both could have stayed with us longer, how I longed to hold you both in my arms. Your souls touched my heart and you will never, ever be forgotten. I have learned the lessons you were sent here to teach me and I will never forget them. Please forgive me. I loved you so. |
Tuesday, June 24th 2008 - 10:31:47 AM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi sweetheart do you like the white baby carnations me and your sister brought you? When we went there yesterday Alexiyah was upset she gave a hug and kiss to your stuffed animals it hurts me to see her miss you so much, she was sooo happy to know she was gonna be a big sister, she is still so proud to call you her brother. We all Love and Miss you so much and wish you were here with us. Sleep tight My Little Warrior I will talk with you again tomorrow. Hugs n Kisses...Mommy xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
Monday, June 23rd 2008 - 08:05:46 PM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi sweetheart how are you today? Mommys at a picnic with her boyfriend, I wish Alexiyah was here but her daddy is giving me problems, I'm just so stressed lately dealing with the way that he acts. I Love You Baby with all of my heart. I will be over with your sister tomorrow. Hugs n Kisses...Mommy xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
Saturday, June 21st 2008 - 11:53:01 AM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi my Little Angel I'm sorry I didn't come over today I feel sick I'm burning up but I will definitely be over tomorrow in the morning. I LOVE YOU JAYCE Sleep tight My Little Warrior Hugs n Kisses...Mommy xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
Friday, June 20th 2008 - 07:40:05 PM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi My Sweet Little Angel, How was your day today? Mommy is still really stressed out, keep watching over me Baby I Love You soooo much. Uncle Larry dropped off flowers today for you so I will be over tomorrow with them, I hope Alexiyah comes too she went to her Daddy's again yesterday and I miss her already. I Miss You too Jayce, more than words can say. I can't stop thinking about you, but it's ok because it shows how much I care. I still cry alot but I am trying to accept this, I don't know how yet but I'm trying. Just know that I will Never Ever stop thinking of you and you will Always be My First Son. Goodnight My Little Warrior I will talk with you again tomorrow, Hugs n Kisses...Mommy xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox I LOVE YOU xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox |
Thursday, June 19th 2008 - 07:07:19 PM
| charles commander: |
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oh my son, cj,
why did you leave me? its been a little more than 5 months since you were born. a little more than 4 months since you died. a little more than 3 months since your daddy and i split up. a little less than 2 months since granpa died. i miss you cj. i love you cj. i feel numb and empty without you and your daddy. how do i move on? i was pregnant with you. i gave birth to you early, i watched you i saw you smile i held you in my arms. i watche dyou sleep i changed your diaper took your temperature i lived for you cj. how am i ever going to be happy again? i know you are happy in heaven. i wish i was there with you...... |
Wednesday, June 18th 2008 - 02:40:57 PM
| charles commander: |
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oh my son, cj,
why did you leave me? its been a little more than 5 months since you were born. a little more than 4 months since you died. a little more than 3 months since your daddy and i split up. a little less than 2 months since granpa died. i miss you cj. i love you cj. i feel numb and empty without you and your daddy. how do i move on? i was pregnant with you. i gave birth to you early, i watched you i saw you smile i held you in my arms. i watche dyou sleep i changed your diaper took your temperature i lived for you cj. how am i ever going to be happy again? i know you are happy in heaven. i wish i was there with you...... |
Wednesday, June 18th 2008 - 02:40:48 PM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi My Sweet Little Angel Baby, do you like the flowers I brought you today? I'm sorry I didn't stay long I didn't wanna start breaking down again. I Love You My Little Warrior, Sleep tight Jaycie I will talk to you in the morning, Hugs n Kisses...Mommy xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
Tuesday, June 17th 2008 - 08:11:32 PM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi sweetheart how are you today? I'm ok I cried when I woke up today again and then I tried to take your sister Alexiyah to a carnival and when we got there it started raining, so we left. I don't have much luck it seems. I will definitely be over to visit with you tomorrow Baby, I Love and Miss You sooo much. Sleep tight My Little Warrior, Hugs n Kisses...Mommy xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
Monday, June 16th 2008 - 05:06:58 PM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi sweetheart how are you today? I'm ok I cried when I woke up today again and then I tried to take your sister Alexiyah to a carnival and when we got there it started raining, so we left. I don't have much luck it seems. I will definitely be over to visit with you tomorrow Baby, I Love and Miss You sooo much. Sleep tight My Little Warrior, Hugs n Kisses...Mommy xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
Monday, June 16th 2008 - 04:50:57 PM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Good afternoon to my little grand son Jayce Rylan,How are you today? I just wanted to wish you a Happy 8th month birthday.I know it was yesterday,I am sorry I did not write you then. I love you sweetheart and I miss you so much. Your mommy was so very sad yesterday that she never even got out of bed.I wish we all knew how to go on and be a little happier,it is just to hard to do.Please Jayce come into your mommys dreams one night,I know that it would make her feel better. I dont know how to help your mommy,I try to do all I can for her.There is nothing that will ever replace the emptiness she has in her heart over loosing you.I feel so helpless to help her. I want to see your beautiful mommy smiling more again,and I want for her to continue on with her life and make it the best that she can untill it is her time to join you.What can I do? as always,you are muched loved and missed and in all of our hearts minds and souls.Eternall love,Nana Kim sutliff and Pappy Sutliff too.God bless little man. |
Monday, June 16th 2008 - 09:38:15 AM
| little one: |
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hi baby :) i still miss you. i don't why i'm not crying as much anymore. i feel numbness settling in. maybe i'm healing. i hate the phrase moving on, i don't want to "move on". that sounds to much like forgetting. i wish you could move on with me, step forward with me, maybe you can. can you hear me, do you hear my heart? do the angels read these letters to you? oh little one, i'm so sorry if you ever felt unwanted. i wanted you, i just didn't feel ready yet for you. and now you're gone. there are so many things i would have done differently. i desperately hope that it was nothing i did that took you away.
when your little body passed through mine, i felt the deepest uncontrollable grief rise up out of my soul. i wept and wept. your sweet baby sissy cried too. she didn't know why momma was so sad. she sat outside the bathroom with daddy and banged on the door to get me to come out. she cried when she heard me crying. when i came out, i just held her and sat with daddy and he held me hand. the hospital called back to see if daddy still needed their help. but it was over, the physical pain subsided. but not the pain in my heart. you will always be in my heart. oh sweetheart, i love you. i wish i could have seen your face. i don't understand this pain. i wish i could go back and start over with you. i'll see you someday, love, someday. i'll come to you and hold you close. we'll know each other as soon as we meet. will you be grown up then? i'll see you soon, love, my little darling, my beautiful baby.good night, sweetheart. i love you. |
Monday, June 16th 2008 - 12:39:22 AM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi my sweet Little Angel, today is very hard for me I cried all day and stayed in bed until about an hour ago. I can't believe that you are 8 months today. Time is going by so so fast, I wish I could see you Jaycie I Miss You so bad it hurts. Just know how much I care for you. I Love You Angel Baby. I will be over tomorrow to visit with you and on Wednesday Uncle Larry is going to bring me some beautiful flowers and me and Alexiyah will bring them for you. Hugs n Kisses...Mommy xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
Sunday, June 15th 2008 - 07:19:58 PM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi my little Sweetheart I just wanted to say goodnight and I Love You. I will be over to visit with you tomorrow. Hugs n Kisses I Miss You...Mommy xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
Friday, June 13th 2008 - 08:43:40 PM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| GOOD MORNING LITTLE FELLOW,How is nanas little Jaycie today? 7 months ago today we layed you to rest.I miss you so very much.I feel we missed out on one of the best things in our life.YOU. How I wish you could be here. I could have used your help when you got a little bigger.There is so much to do now that I am a farmers wife.I never seem to get it all done. I could have taught you so so much and I know that you would have been nanas helper.Time seems to go so fast here on earth,I can hardley beleive that we are in the middle of June already.I want to get down to you and leave you some flowers.Know I love you with all of my being and I will see you again one day. Pappy says hi and he loves you and misses you terribly.You are his first grandson Jayce and will always be in his and my heart mind and soul.Eternal love to you sweetheart. Much Love,your nana Kim.xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxoooooooooooooooooooooxxxxooooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoo and a million more hugs and kisses. |
Friday, June 13th 2008 - 05:26:17 AM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Goodnight my little warrior I Love You so much. Sleep tight baby Hugs n Kisses...Mommy xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
Thursday, June 12th 2008 - 08:24:53 PM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi sweetheart I brought you more flowers today with your sister Alexiyah. We blew you kisses today and said how much we Love You and Miss You! Did you see us? Goodnight My Little Warrior I will talk with you again tomorrow. Hugs n Kisses...Mommy xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo |
Wednesday, June 11th 2008 - 08:46:41 PM
| Jayce Rylan Mantz: |
| Hi My Little Sweetheart, do you like the flowers that I brought you yesterday? They were so colorful from Nana Kims yard and the little Angel boy that I left? I can't say enough how much I Miss You and Love You. Today I woke up and I knew I had alot of things to get done but I couldn't get motivated to do anything, it happens to me alot baby I know that if you were here I would wake up with a smile on my face everyday and take my two precious children somewhere, but its hard. I still do alot with your sister Alexiyah but it's not the same as before when I was pregnant with you me and her were best buddies and now she wants to be with her Daddy more cause Mommys upset alot. WHY did this have to happen? I hope you were watching me yesterday on the boat with Nana and your Uncle Ryan we had a blast! Nana went on the raft and Uncle Ryan pulled her it was hilarious, I wish you could be a part in everything we do physically but I know you are spiritually and I am grateful for that, because as long as I keep Loving you Jayce you will Never die, you will live on Foreve |